Today i made monkey bread!

The rules: Take a picture of yourself right now. Don't change your clothes, don't fix your hair... just take a picture. Post that picture with NO editing. Post these instructions with your picture.



behold the crappyness of my 5 year old webcam!

Thank you happiness_6 for directing me to this O_O

Mango and i went to see mc chris opening for reggie and the full effect last night.
Kk and i baked him cupcakes because it was his birthday a week ago.


The initial cupcakes


Kks decorating contribution

I swear that Mango and i hit every single red light on mass ave.
What should have been a 20 minute ride from my house to central sq turned in to almost an hour.
Fortunately when we got there we found out that mc didn't go on until 9:25
The set seemed longer than when we saw him headlining in northampton.
He was fantastic, opened with a mash-up with sanitarium and a nerd 8-mile sketch.
I wish i could have gotten better pictures of the show, but i seemed to be stuck behind the only three guys in the room taller than myself.
All in all a great set and a great night.

In other news i might be getting a job at the used book store in town.
I'm keeping my fingers crossed because that would be my dream job.
Meanwhile I'm trying to organize my room to some degree.
Over the weekend i built a mini-milk crate bookshelf and organized my books by color.
I'll take pictures once its all finished, but it looks pretty so far.

Camping adventures

Its terrible how something that happened over ten years ago can suddenly drown you in depression.
I ended up crying myself to sleep.
I miss them so fucking much.

sigh.

Some good with the bad i suppose.
Sarah asked me to be her sons non-denominational god-mother♥

This book has been hitting some chords for me ♥

I've been taking abundant advantage of my shelfari account as of late. Largely because today me and some of the guys checked out the new used book store in town. I'm happy to report that it fulfills my odd book tastes...


Burlington almost looks etherial

( shelfari )

Nights like this one are what makes all the bullshit worthwhile. I love you guys <3

Thank you zazzathoth in response to my entry two weeks ago concerning my shitty haircut.

strip club this weekend with the kids.
Pete is home...
buh
mc chris coming to cambridge in september, which will hopefully make everything better.

Kim leaves at the end of the month for China, i'm trying not to focus on how much that worries me.
She gave me some hand-me-downs, which i'll be honest make me very happy.

Though somehow the same outfits that make her look cute and sexy seem to make me look like a crack-head.

I want to destroy this, but i have a feeling that if i do i won't feel obligated to start anew....

does anyone even read this anymore? would you read if i started over?

ObeyTheDamnHat (1:20:14 AM): are you just unloading arsenault's aresnal?

July
1st- PEM with Mum
3rd- Bonfire W/Nick
4th- Jimmys for a BBQ
12th- Sarahs Baby Shower and Brians Wedding
13th- BBQ with Lea
16th- Nicks Birthday!
17th- Preventive Medical in Woburn

and i'm sure i forgot something somewhere....

I am so utterly sick and tired of trying to figure things out.
My intuition urges me to learn every thing that i can but if i keep this up i'm just going to end up hurt, sobbing and alone.

At this point i don't care what people think, call it running from my problems if you want I would give anything to be far away from all of this shit.
My mother has made it a point to engrave it in to my mind that "there will be assholes no matter where you go in life."
That is all well and good, so long as they aren't these assholes.
These same assholes that i've dealt with for the latter half of my life.
I would crawl through a desert of broken glass for a chance to start over with new assholes.

One day i will be able to forget that Burlington even exists, but for now i'll just cry and sleep

alone.

This storm is getting pretty intense, first the turkeys screaming and now the lightning is starting to sound more and more like gun shots.


Its beautiful though, i wish i could sit somewhere safe and watch it engulf the town with water and light.


I want to dance in it ♥

PS.
After chasing Kk around the house and two hours of cleaning all the pink from the floor/bathroom/kitchen her hair is finally dyed.

buh..

Went to see the Hulk with Nikolai(zazzathoth) and Aimee(phoenixtearsfix) last night and took part in some CenMa adventures.
My grasp on time is slipping....

Thursday night i hung out with Jimmy and Philip as a last goodbye to Goodtimes in Somerville :(

I don't really remember the rest of the week other than walking down to Rahanis at 1am and meeting a girl there.
This is most unusual because she says that she lives right up the street and goes there all the time late at night.
I practically live at Rahanis, so i don't understand how i avoided meeting her before.
All in all, i'm always happy to meet a like-mind.

Terror

This is what you call me...

I strike terror among men.
I can't be bothered by what they think.
I bare my cross,
My soul,
Myself.
I forgive,
but i never forget.
I've been put upon this earth in female form.
But I can handle myself with the best of you,
As well as the worst.
And I often have.
I have the right to remain silent,
But i choose to speak,
Sing,
Scream
I am lips,
Hips,
Tits
I am the power of a woman,
Strong like music,
True like friendship,
But without my friends,
There would be no music.
Only spoken word.

Fucker

I am able to change,
So I live without regret,
Without remorse,
Only a remix.
I am drunk,
I am sober.
Heaven doesn't want me
And Hell's afraid i'll take over
Don't bother trying to censor me,
Or shut me up,
Because it won't work.
I am cold and distant,
Yet warm and close,
To those who deserve to see that side of me.
Part of me the heart of me.
You find me so hard to understand in your world.
The world you perceive to be so normal.
I am deformed,
Scorned ,
Reborn.
I am me,
And i know exactly who i am,
What i am
And the wrath i bring.
The ugly beauty,
The lying truth,
The virgin whore
The quiet storm
A lover,
A fighter,
A saint,
A sinner,
A sister,
A daughter
Old school.
A beginner.
I have decorated myself with love,
Hate,
Truth,
You.
All of you,
Both of you,
None of you,
More than one of you

Fucker

With lips like sugar.
Eyes like meat.
I've watched men come,
And go,
And cheat.
I sleep to dream
And dream of sleep.
I had a dream joe
That you were standing in the middle of an open grove.
I had a dream joe
That your hands were raised up to the sky
And your mouth was covered in foam.
I've been crucified,
Justified,
And mortified by my behavior.
Both feminine,
And masculine.
I am a contradiction,
And juxtaposition.
My relief is my release,
And only time will tell.
All's well that ends well
I am unsweetened,
Unclean,
Been called drama queen.
Ex girlfriend,
Ex member,
The tantrum,
The temper.
I point my finger,
Take the blame.
And this time I will own the name.
Because no one is going to ruin me.
If i have to,
I will ruin myself.
And it will be 'My Ruin'

Happy belated birthday to me.



i am insane.

RIP Ari, the best weasel girl there is.

Tonight has been interesting to say the least.
It began with being blown off, but that is hardly part of the abnormality of the night.
I ended up wandering the mall as i often do when there seems to be no one around.
In my wanderings i came across a T Jen(youve_lost) and she and i partook in fuds and ice creams.
We chit chatted which was nice, i haven't chit chatted in a while and i enjoy it largely because it reminds me that I'm not Truman and Burlington is not Seahaven.
There are things going on outside of my little corner of the world whether or not they directly effect me.
Having someone else helping me acknowledging that makes me feel slightly less insane.

Quarters gave me a ride back to the center where i had planned to walk home from but just as he was dropping me off i got a phone call from a friend who i haven't talked to since middle school.
He asked if I'd like to grab coffee and chat, so we did just that.
After about an hour of hanging out and catching up, a car full of people i haven't seen since middle school stopped at dunks that he knew.
Mostly i felt isolated, i didn't really have many friends in middle school and i had no friends in high school so seeing all of these people again was sort of awkward.
I knew them all and most of them knew me by name, this in itself shocked me since none of them really talked to me in middle school or high school so i don't really understand how they recognized me never mind knew my name.

I just don't get any of it.

I'm just not feeling myself lately....

The more days that tick by the more i really need those pictures to remember what happened Saturday D:


All that is really going on is that Chase is going in to the hospital on the 27th after that, who the hell knows.

Abso-fucking-lutely EPIC day.

I'll post more later, i promise.

Taken from 6 Things you didn't know you could get addicted to

Doesn’t sound so bad …
Many of us own collections that we’re too ashamed to discuss in public, whether it’s vintage porn, yarn or commemorative Burger King glasses. So when you hear there’s such a thing as book addiction, you figure, hell, it’d be rad to be addicted to the Western literary canon. You’d be so quick with quips and quotes at dinner parties you could wear a damned monocle and nobody would dare call you on it.

The horrifying reality:
The most prominent modern bibiliomaniac was Stephen Carrie Blumberg. From 1974 to 1990, this bookish chap raided the archives of about 185 North American universities. When the FBI finally raided his Ottumwa, Iowa home, the feds discovered 28,000 stolen books and manuscripts he had been compulsively hoarding.

Bibliomaniacs like him don’t necessarily read their books or even collect valuable ones. They just collect them out of a compulsive need to have a fuckload of books. So you could be a bibliomaniac while remaining completely illiterate, though you could build a kick-ass fort.

By the way, after Blumberg spent 4.5 years in prison for stealing all those books, he was rearrested in July 2003 for stealing, um, doorknobs. Figure that one out.

Warning Signs:
Technology has obviously made books unnecessary, so the sight of even one book in a friend’s home should be cause for concern. If the person has gone as far as to purchase an entire special shelf to hold all of his books, it’s probably time for an intervention.

I will treat this with the same delicassey and sympathy that my feelings have been treated,
none.

Listen to My Grandmother's Dress

Thoughts ?

Personally- irate

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this is the single most intimidating machine i have ever come across. My grandmother gave it to me this afternoon.

She's helping me put button holes on my dr girlfriend costume and once its finalized i'll take pictures before anime boston :D

and no one was there to catch it...

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The sky was endless tonight.
An equal presence of wind and silence to balance out the clouds and the stars.
The mud needs to dissipate so that i can go lay out on the front lawn and watch the clouds go by without drowning in dirt, grass and wet leaves.

I saw a few people this morning i would have rather not seen, but a few that i would.
Heard from someone who isn't as dead as i thought he was, which is always good to know

There are many phone calls that need returning.

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The serve something called "The Woody Allen" which is a Pastrami/Corned beef sandwich the size of your head.

1. "I love inscriptions on flyleafs and notes in margins. I like the comradely sense of turning pages someone else turned and reading passages someone long-gone has called my attention to." - 84 Charing Cross Rd
2. "This is blood for blood and by the gallon. These are the old days, the bad days, the all-or-nothing days. They're back! There's no choice left. And I'm ready for war."
3. "She took his picture. DAMN. She took his picture. She took his picture."
4. "If you were happy every day of your life you wouldn't be a human being. You'd be a game-show host."
5. "I graduated from UVa, Captain; it's not exactly a charm school."
6. "Conversation, like certain portions of the anatomy, always runs more smoothly when lubricated."- Quills
7. "Someone toss me a beach towel because my head is swimming."
8. "Don't worry scrote. There are plenty of 'tards out there living really kick ass lives. My first wife was 'tarded. She's a pilot now."
9. "When it comes to love, we are all in the dark."- Kinsey
10. "Louis L'amour, who, by the way, was not a foreigner! He was from North Dakota, you asshole!"
11. "There's a shortage of perfect breasts in this world. It would be a pity to damage yours."
12. "The spell was broken. My uncle learned to laugh, and I learned to cry."
13. "As you can see, the psuedo-facade was stripped away to reveal a minimalist rococo design. Note the unusual inversely vaulted ceilings. This is yet another example of the late neoclassic Baroque period. And, as I always say, "if it's not Baroque, don't fix it!"
14. "You've got to remember that these are just simple farmers. These are people of the land. The common clay of the new West. You know... morons."
15. "This comet came crashing into the earth. BAM! Total devastation. No celebrities, no cable TV, *no water*! It hasn't rained in 11 years. Now, 20 people gotta squeeze into the same bathtub. So it ain't all bad."- Tankgirl

Movies Coming to theaters soon i'd like to see.

• In Bruges
• Persepolis
• Charlie Bartlett
• The Other Boleyn Girl
• Stop Loss
• Son of Rambow
• Speed Racer
• The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian
• Get Smart
• Hellboy II: The Golden Army
• The Dark Knight
• Mamma Mia!
• Pineapple Express

Stolen from youve_lost 

1. Pick 15 of your favorite movies.
2. Go to IMDb and find a quote from each movie.
3. Post them here for everyone to guess.
4. Strike it out when someone guesses correctly, and put who guessed it and the movie.
5. NO GOOGLING/using IMDb search or other search functions.

1. "I love inscriptions on flyleafs and notes in margins. I like the comradely sense of turning pages someone else turned and reading passages someone long-gone has called my attention to."
2. "This is blood for blood and by the gallon. These are the old days, the bad days, the all-or-nothing days. They're back! There's no choice left. And I'm ready for war."
3. "She took his picture. DAMN. She took his picture. She took his picture."
4. "If you were happy every day of your life you wouldn't be a human being. You'd be a game-show host."
5. "I graduated from UVa, Captain; it's not exactly a charm school."
6. "Conversation, like certain portions of the anatomy, always runs more smoothly when lubricated."
7. "Someone toss me a beach towel because my head is swimming."
8. "Don't worry scrote. There are plenty of 'tards out there living really kick ass lives. My first wife was 'tarded. She's a pilot now."
9. "When it comes to love, we are all in the dark."
10. "Louis L'amour, who, by the way, was not a foreigner! He was from North Dakota, you asshole!"
11. "There's a shortage of perfect breasts in this world. It would be a pity to damage yours."
12. "The spell was broken. My uncle learned to laugh, and I learned to cry."
13. "As you can see, the psuedo-facade was stripped away to reveal a minimalist rococo design. Note the unusual inversely vaulted ceilings. This is yet another example of the late neoclassic Baroque period. And, as I always say, "if it's not Baroque, don't fix it!"
14. "You've got to remember that these are just simple farmers. These are people of the land. The common clay of the new West. You know... morons."
15. "This comet came crashing into the earth. BAM! Total devastation. No celebrities, no cable TV, *no water*! It hasn't rained in 11 years. Now, 20 people gotta squeeze into the same bathtub. So it ain't all bad."

IMDB didn't have any quotes for KITE and nightmare before christmas quotes are all too obvious, so try these out :D

1, 6, 7, 9, 15 are still unknown. Someone has to know them!

Places that insist on cock teasing me via their commercials since there aren't any in this state.

• Dave & Busters
• Cici's Pizza
• Sonic
• Red Robin

I think my problem with updating livejournal is that i always feel awkward writing about things before the happen and then once they've happened i never get around to writing them anyway.

Tonight i'm going to Johns for the night to hang out with him Mango and Chase. This is going to be the last mass hanging out before Chase goes in the the hospital for an uncertain amount of time. Honestly i don't want to think about the possibilities, but there is a chance that tonight is the last time I'll ever see him and i want the night to be a good one for everyone. Chase was a father figure to me in a very rough patch in my life and i sincerely hope that his stay in the hospital is short and effective.

Saturday evening total_static and i are heading up to Maine for the week. Largely because he needs the vacation and the company. I'm sort of anxious about being away for that long, particularly when there is so much back home to be anxious about. As much as i wish i were, i'm not very good at staying outside of my element for so long. I think i'm going to buy a bag of oranges to eat along the way to keep my mind and hands preoccupied.

total_static and i are going to visit Nene in Maine for a week starting this weekend.

wish us luck?

I know, i know....



but they look like a couple of pussycats to me.

Off to see TEETH with fatblobof_irish

Vagina dentata what a wonderful phrase!
Vagina dentata ain't no passin craze!
It means no weiner, for the rest of your days!

Its a penis free
girl cavity!
Vagina Dentata!

It means no weiner for the rest of your days!
Its a penis free
Vasectomy!

VAGINA DENTATA!

vagina...
dentata...

vagina...
dentata...


vagina...
dentata...


Courtesy of Queen of Wands