Sometimes I'm just too stupid for my own good. *groans*

Went early to bed (well, midnight, that's pretty early on a Saturday night) so I would be fresh and productive today. While I was waiting for hubby to finish getting ready for bed (I swear, he takes forever in the bathroom. What is he doing in there?) I picked up one of many books my mom lent me some time ago and skimmed through the first chapter.

Three and a half hours later I forced myself to put it down. Took forever to fall asleep and when I did I dreamt horrible things about what happened in the book. Woke up every few hours to pee and then fell right back into the same dreams.

I am now exhausted, achy and depressed from dreaming about child molestation all night. Why do I do this to myself? Why!?!

*goes to make coffee and read some schmoop*

Mood: exhausted Tags: # dreams

Happy birthday stir_of_echoes!!




I should do a whole Jensen picspam in your honour but I think most of my pics came FROM you so that would be kinda silly (like when we send my dad in Sweden stuff bought in IKEA *snorts*) so you just get one this time.

Here's a suggestion though: Lock yourself in a room with strict instructions of no interruptions. Get yourself a glass of wine, select your humongous Jensen folder and click "Slideshow". Then just sit back and enjoy the pretty. *g*

*squishes you*

Mood: Padahug! Tags: # birthdays

The guy at the next table, one of those that practically lives in this cafe (not the one downtown but the one close to home with all the old queens and emo!kids), is reading some news blurb about Jensen and Jared. I only know this because it has one of the pics of them with the hideous green CW background, hanging on to each other like the cute boyfriends they are. I have no idea on what site it is or even what the article is about since the font is too small even in the headline for me to read from here. I was just stretching and glanced over and saw him scrolling and stopping to read.

The Jsquared love is taking over the world! *g*

Mood: amused Tags: # epic gay love, jared padalecki, jensen ackles, roommates of the year

Long shot, I know, but does anyone own this and would be willing to upload it for me?



I would be so very grateful. *puppy dog eyes* Found it! I'll upload it for you as soon as my download is finished. *g*


Ps. Any other piano versions of "popular" (aka not classical) music would be appreciated.* So far I have the tributes to My Chemical Romance, Coldplay and Fall Out Boy (all quite awful, I gotta say) and Christopher O'Riley playing Radiohead songs, which is much better played but not really my taste in music. (If anyone fancies any of these just holler and I'll upload them. [ETA. Link to the Radiohead albums in comments.])

If you'd rather not share music openly (I'm posting this unlocked to up my chances) my email is felisblanco at gmail dot com. Mum is the word. *zips lips closed*


In other news, it's autumn break! No more work until Monday! \o/ Much writing planned for tomorrow and Friday. Wish me luck.

*These do not have to be whole albums. Just any song that's played on a piano works. (No strings etc.)

Mood: hopeful Tags: # piano music

I thought maybe my fellow a-ha fans would enjoy this:

Take On Me : the literal video version

Mood: amused Tags: # a-ha

I'm having a very gay day.

Started with a lesbian dream starring yours truly and her lesbian crush. Mostly kissing but it was hot anyway. Then I told her I'd been wanting to do that for 15 years (even if I've only known her for 13) which she took as me saying I was gonna leave my husband and kids for her. *facepalm* Even in my dreams I suck at adultery.

Then there was an article in our school paper that came out today by a guy in the school about his trip with his boyfriend to see the Gay Pride Parade in Berlin. I'm just feeling ridiculously proud of him, being so open in a junior college which in large parts consists of immature teenagers. I'll be hard set not to jump on him and hug him the next time I see him. And not just because he's cute as hell.

Then... Ok, not gay but more gender issues. My little boy came up to his dad today and said "Look, I'm wearing ballet slippers!" showing off his feet in indeed his sister's blue ballet slipper. And I asked him if he wanted to learn ballet and he giggled and said "Ballet is just for girls!" So I searched on YouTube and found some clips to show him young boys dancing ballet. And he got wide eyed and said "Oh, I didn't know they could." And then we watched some more ballet before he ran off to play with his legos. lol

Mood: gay Tags: # kids, my lesbian crush, work

Every time I just dip my toes into reading comments on ohnotheydidnt the realization that the internet is in most parts made up of rude, bratty, moronic bitches with their hand in their pants and their heads stuck up their asses becomes clearer and clearer. Seriously, it's like people check their brain and humanity at the door when they burst in there. Don't think I've ever seen such a huge number of people in one place that the world wouldn't miss if they suddenly decided to go drown themselves in their own stupidity. *rolls eyes* *clings to relatively sane flist*



Apparently Iceland is going the LJ way and counting on Russia to save us. Yay? I have to admit I laughed when the prime minister came on TV and said, "Now we can see who our friends are. We thought the US were our friends but turns out they aren't." He sounded like an eight year old, sulking because some other kid didn't want to play with him. *snorts*

I think the bottom line is: If you don't own huge assets or shares, if you haven't taken huge loans in Euros to pay for gigantic villas, if you're not employed by the private sectors that are facing bankruptcy... Well, then you're gonna be ok. I mean, you'll have to be sensible and cut back on expenses, but you're not gonna end up on the streets. Take a deep breath and have a drink and above all, DON'T PANIC! Also, porn helps.

Mood: blah Tags: # rl, stupid people

Also? Our country is going bankrupt.

Man, how glad am I that I don't own shit in the bank? Or shares or anything but debts and dust.

Hubby says we should move to some faraway banana republic. I proposed making our own colony in Viðey. The prime minister says,"Everything's going to hell but no need to panic. Just... hug. And hamster potatoes or something."

So how's YOUR Monday?

Mood: worried Tags: # rl

I kinda love living in a place where Vikings randomly walk into your cafe to buy themselves some latte.

Mood: amused Tags: # cafe, vikings

Oh wow. Weird people.

There's a man sitting alone two tables away, drinking coffee and reading a newspaper and this older American woman, complete stranger, walks up to him and says, "You look so cute there with your beard," and reaches forward and PULLS on it. Like, tugs at the guy's beard. And he's all O.O and stutters "Erm... thank you?" and she laughs and says, "I'm just teasing you" and walks away.

There's weird and then there's I-forgot-to-take-my-meds weird. I think she just went there.

Mood: indescribable Tags: # cafe, weird people

First I make a Facebook Jesus joke. Then I get into a discussion about incest with my sister over there. The next thing I know?

Services for this domain have been discontinued

I think I killed it. Wiped Facebook off the face of the.. book. Oops?

Mood: amused Tags: # facebook

Hubby had been so excited for the debate the whole last week that he fell asleep and missed the first 15 minutes. *facepalm*

I'd already brushed my teeth and undressed when I walked into the living room to kiss him goodnight and heard the question about gay rights. So I sat down to watch that and ended up watching to the end. Thank you, time zones, for those four hours of sleep. *groans*

( A few observations from an outsider )

Crap, have more to say but gotta catch the bus to work. Talking about SPN will have to wait as well.

Mood: tired Tags: # politics

It's SNOWING! Totally white ground and everything. What the hell? It's only October 2nd, for fuck's sake. *shakes fist at sky*

[ETA. Editing this because I've posted like five times the last 24 hours and it's starting to be embarrassing how obvious it is I don't have a life.

Anyway...

You know how on Facebook there's like "Send hugs" or "Send kisses" etc etc? Haha, I just saw "Send Jesus" and now I'm envisioning Jesus running around Facebook all piss faced and "I'm going, I'm going. Me on a pogo stick! You really think I have nothing better to do? I have a life, you know! Or whatever. Aaarghh! Again!?! I already did that one! Dad, make'em stop!"

Yeah, yeah, I'm blaspheming. Smite me.]

[ETA2. Got a text message from hubby. He's on his way home. Doing 20 km/h. *facepalm*]

Mood: cold Tags: # weather

Crap. *facepalm*

I got spoiled for a future SPN episode.

Even worse? It was my own goddamn fault for wandering to places I knew I shouldn't. *sighs*

Mistakes are so much easier to accept when you can blame someone else.


In other news: Pizza in the oven ready in... 11 minutes. *rubs empty stomach* Yeah, I kinda forgot to eat today.


Erm... some people have been asking for a peak preview of what I'm working on. It's kinda hard to find a passage that doesn't give away the plot since I feel that would ruin the beginning of the story. But I read over and thought this might be okay. Keep in mind this happens when the boys are still teens (Jared's 13, Jensen's 17) and just taking babysteps as friends. Nothing more. Usual warnings: only a draft which still needs a lot of work and might change completely or be cut out of the finished product, who knows.

Ps. Despite how it may read this is not an abuse fic. Not really. Or mental disability or anything like that. And Sandy may seem like a bitch but she has her reasons so don't dismiss her just yet. And... yes. I hope it sparks some interest, even if I have no idea when it will be finished.

( Under here )



That's it. Btw, pizza was delicious. Pepperoni and mushrooms and cream cheese and pine... what ya call them? Not pineapples, but those seeds from pine trees? Pine seeds? Doesn't sound right. *ponders*

Mood: disappointed Tags: # food, spoilers, writing

Spread the word.

Mood: powerless Tags: # politics

*snorts*

Hubby just sent me this.



From over here

Like he said: So funny. Or scary, depending how you look at it.

Mood: amused Tags: # politics

Anyone seen this movie: Breakfast with Scot?

Apparently it's a Canadian movie about a very "manly" gay couple that find themselves guardians of a rather girly pink-obsessed 11 y.o. boy after his mother ODs. Being far from the stereotypical supergay types themselves they have no idea how to handle this twink-in-the-make and keep trying to encourage him to behave more "boylike". (I'm quoting my co-worker here)

It only gets a 6.5 at IMDb but my co-worker saw it at the RIFF (Reykjavik International Film Festival) yesterday and said it was very sweet and funny so I thought maybe I'd give it a try and drag hubby to see it.

Anyone?

Mood: good Tags: # gay movies

Speechless by candle_beck. Sam/Dean.
Someone steals Dean's voice, leaving him with no way of communication but angry written notes, rude handgestures and mouthing his words silently, forcing Sam to keep his eyes a little more on his brother's mouth than he'd liked to, considering how damn much he wants to kiss it.

Funny, heart aching and wonderfully sweet.

Mood: happy Tags: # recs

... being four years old.

Little guy: *puts Disney tape in VCR*
Little guy: *falls asleep*
Little guy: *wakes up 2 hours later*
Little guy: *sits staring at the TV news for about ten minutes*
Little guy: *bursts out crying*
Little guy: *wails* Who turned off my tape!?! I wanted to watch my tape!!!
Us: Huh?

Time, not really a concept when you're four. *snorts*


I had hubby, who's been sick home the last couple of days, come pick me up after work seeing as I didn't fancy chancing throwing up on the bus. Came home to find the girl sitting on the steps outside the apartment, drinking cocoa leftovers from her field trip today. She promptly burst out crying. She had forgotten her keys and her cellphone was dead and "Dad was supposed to be home!! Why wasn't he home!?!" Cue massive guilt trip for her mama. *sighs*

Took a nap and am feeling better. Even if I could use a sick day at home, puking is really a too high price to pay for that luxury. So here's to hoping tomorrow will be nausea free. *crosses fingers*

Writing news: Am writing. Endlessly. This is turning into kinda like the Jsquared version of canon's "Epic Love Story of Sam and Dean". Meaning, lots and lots of angst and no sex. Haha. *groans*

Mood: sleepy Tags: # health, kids, writing

stir_of_echoes is holding a Jsquared comment drabble meme in her journal, called Living together is.... Go play. I did. *g* (Written straight into LJ with no grammar check. lol)

Title: Living Together Is...
Author: felisblanco
Pairing: Jensen/Jared
Rating: G
Word count: 665

( Living Together Is... )


Go play. And spread the word.

Mood: creative Tags: # cwrps fic, fic, fic 2008, jensen/jared, jsquared