Wednesday, September 24:

Escape a boring day by indulging in your favorite pastime -- daydreaming. Feel free to fantasize about someone special you hope will turn into a closer confidante. Give into your latest romantic mirage.

*smiles*


I cut my hair today.

I like it mainly because I finally cut my hair. the head is more lighter and less effort to put in to manage my hair now. It takes less shampoo, less time to air dry it, less hair-dresser (conditioner/gel?) to make it full and fluffy. haha

Its the same do like always.

I cant really experiment my hair unless I straighten these curls - thats what ive been inform by most of the hairdresser Ive been to.

And I dont really want to straighten these curls.

So, until I do, I wont complain. :D

plus i wear hijabs anyway. it doesnt really matter how I cut it coz no one is going to see my hair accept myself ;)

It has been awhile since I had a vivid dream of a 'boyfriend'.

Yes, I tell you first thing before you continue to read that this is merely a dream - a friction of my unconscious mind. Just so that I would not mislead you like the last time I wrote about my dream. hehe remember army boi dream?

A bunch of my friends and I were busy preparing for something. I cant remember for what tho, its either for iftar or a birthday party or probably for eid. It was in a grand hall or some sort, so i am sure its a big scale event.

So everyone was busy bustling about receiving instruction and doing their assigned task. I was in charge of the decoration I think altho i dont remember decorating but i keep carrying around boxes of colorful kelap-kelip lights (decorative colorful lights) and some other decorative items to be use. yes, i only remember the lights.

(thats not the point of the story, btw. haha)

While busy with task, I kept receiving text messages from the 'boyfriend'. not that I mind, because technically we text message each other everyday anyways. but, because we're all suppose to focus on our work, so my friends got a little bit annoyed that i was also busy sending text messages. they had this omg-enough-already-with-the-sms-namie! look. scary. haha

my last text message to the 'boyfriend' was

me: encik. I hv a lot of things to do. ttyl k!
'bf': okay..

then I was busy again, carrying around boxes (Yar, i told you thats all I did in the dream). After awhile, I received forwarded mp3 files from him. Love songs, mind you. its really was cute and sweet. The first song I received was this cute Korean song Keudaemani by Kim Jong Wook. its really one of my fav (thanks Farah) *sigh* I received a few others too but I wasnt able to listen to all of them (and I dont remember them now. I only remember Keudaemani) because my friends were annoyed again. HAHA i dunno. prolly it was due to the stress. So I decided to listen to mp3 files later..

(Funny thing is, at this point in the dream I was thinking to myself, "omg since when my cheapo Nokia 1600 can receive mp3 files? confirm im dreaming!!" Haha thats why dreams are fascinatingly funneh)

While I was doing my work (I cant remember what, but I was standing at this round table trying to fix something) I felt this tingle like someone is coming closer to me from behind, but before I could turn back and look, I was already in the 'boyfriend's' arms.

Yes, he hugged me from behind.

OK, this you must know. The 'boyfriend' is tall with a big frame. Yes, very hug-able can you imagine? I remember feeling so relax as I comfortably "melt" into his arms as he link our hands together and wrap it around us. can you imagine? I dunno how to explain more, this the best details i can come up with. it felt so real, when I woke up i still feel the warmth of his body.

sigh.

Of coz i didnt finish what I was doing, and of coz my friend was more annoyed with us, haha but it was worth it.

me: hey you. i miss you
'bf': i miss you too. thats why im here. surprise!

he rested his head on my left shoulder and started to sing to me. It was so sweet la! I think it was one of the songs he wrote for me or something.

now, it kinda felt corny especially in front of my friends. no wonder they were a bit annoyed. lol

still it was worth it. to woke up to that warmth feeling.

haha.

then again, its one of those "dreams" after subuh prayers. tidur siang punya mimpi la ni

still *sigh*

hmm..

yar, i should just stop having vivid dreams like this.


Everly Brothers - Dream

Eric Benét - You're The Only One



coz you’re still my girl
I don’t care what they say
let’s go back to our world
Baby don’t you throw this love away
coz I still believe
In the magic of us
this is the matter of time
And it’s a matter of trial

*sigh*

OKOK, I should stop this whole drama of emotional cycle like..NOW.

Look, I am trying. I AM.

you dont have to keep reminding me.

I know it already.

*sigh*


edit:


Ben Folds - You Don't Know Me

Dearest God,

Why crossed our paths at my crucial/vulnerable time?

if in the end we are going our separate ways..

What is it that you want me to learn?

I know I've asked for courage,

I know I've asked for patience,

So, I have to learn both in this lesson?

Is that it?

OK, I'm learning..

But, (I'm not trying to sound ungrateful here..)

For once, please, please let me have it.

Don't take it away..(You know what I want..)

I have enough pain to last me a lifetime.

But this once, let it be me.

please..

The annual ball was held at Sunway Resort Hotel & Spa Ballroom this year. It was on 30th August 2008 and the theme was Mardi Gras.

If I were to follow the theme exactly, I should be wearing a green, purple or gold dress with loads of beads and feathers that should complement the dress. but alas, i have not enough sufficient fund (aka pocket money) to buy a new dress, so i resorted to wearing an old dress that has been in the closet for far too long.

and people in Malaysia, they dont tend to follow ball themes that much, that I can say.

The night turn out better than expected and I enjoyed it tremendously especially with awesome company and great food! We continued the night with our very own version of MOS (the after-party was held at Ministry of Sound, but I am not really into that clubbing thing) which was a lepak session at the mamak's.

I didnt bring my camera, so photos posted here are property of Ezie, Rita, Aqel, & MonGa Photographer Amahl. I steal these off their Facebook photo album ;)

Its under the cut. click click!


p/s: Posted here are just a few. I wish i could post all up, but it would definitely take up a load of bandwidth.

i think ;)

I woke up on the second day of fasting with a sore throat.

I knew it was a bad sign coz a few hours later, my body starts to heat up.

Yes, a slight fever.

the next few hours, I was tired, heat-y, and experiencing pain in the throat every time i tried to speak a little above a whisper.

Yep, I can only whisper my words.

So today, going to uni, I had to resort to not speaking.

Oh yes, I was mute today.

It wasnt that bad, really. With my kick-ass Sony Ericsson W660i in hand, I seize the muteness by typing my way around today. Sometimes I had to whisper when typing took too long. Its really cute and funny looking at how people tend to whisper back at me when I whispered at them. And how people stop talking and start typing too. I mean, I'm the one with the sore throat here. Haha

The throat is feeling better now. I can talk at a lower tone. Not so painful like yesterday and earlier in the day.

But my slight fever turns to a fever. My body is very heat-y now, but I feel cold. And I sense a flu on its way..

so grand lah *sarcasm*

Takpe, dugaan dari Allah (swt) untuk menhadapi bulannya yang mulia..

And you know what? I found out that both of my sisters are having a fever too. The one in Perak and the one in Langkawi.

Talk about strong family ties/bond.

I miss them lah.

very much.

On an unrelated note, I watched Singin' In the Rain, a 1950s Hollywood Classic Musical for our Media Text class today. Aside from the butt cramp and a few of unnecessary elaboration on some of the dance scene, its one of the best film of its genre. Its really fascinating and 'humorously charming'. Highly recommend this to those who wants to have a rest from Hollywood's blockbuster with its high-tech effects.

You know how sometimes, less is better?

I know the character Don Lockwood (Gene Kelly) is the main man (oh he is just so, dreamy..hmmm) but the character Cosmo Brown (Donald O'Connor) he is the real deal-lah. He steals the limelight every time.

And, I fell in love again. *sigh*

OK, off to bed now.

Stay healthy everyone!

Alhamdulillah, the first day of fasting was all well. God was kind, he gave us rain. The rest of the day before break fast was cooling and breezy. I loved it. Definitely a good start to welcome the holy month.

I always love this time of the year. Everything else is more calm, and I am usually more content with whatever that I have/is happening to me. Problems are more easily to endure. Something about Ramadhan that will always give me the extra strength, the extra patience.

One thing I am not looking forward to though, the traffic I have to face every time I'm going home from uni. Its really, really ugly with the heavy load of cars. the normally 15/20 minutes drive home from uni can take up to an hour if get caught in at a bad timing. Really. No kidding!

Oh wells.

I have to plan my routes carefully so I wont get stuck.

Anyhow, wishing you all
Ramadhan Mubarak
Semoga kita semua mendapat berkat bulan yang mulia ini, Insya Allah

p/s: Happy belated birthday to my baby Jun, my favourite of the stormy boys (Arashi). No matter what happen I keep you with me in my heart, You make it easier when life gets hard *fangirls* :D

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like "Maybe we should just be friends" or "How very perceptive" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. Nothing should be able to do that. Especially not love. I hate love." - Neil Gaiman


I think, its a never ending cycle. you'll fall in love, you'll get hurt, you'll isolate yourself, you'll fall in love again, you'll get hurt, you'll cry your eyeballs out, you'll fall in love again..

It may be mundane to be written in that form - that never ending cycle.

But imagine life without love.

it would be dull.

very very dull.

hello. nothing happen today.

except that enjoyable 2 hours of movie watching at the Planery Theater in uni. I watched La Tigre e la Neve (The Tiger and the Snow). A romantically put, comprehensive film of a man's unconditional love towards his woman during a critical time when all hopes are gone and the only thing left to do is pray to Allah (swt). Recommending this movie to those who enjoys Roberto Benigni movies, foreign movies, and romantic comedies. And to those who still believe.

and, I fell in love..

I think.