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[May. 14th, 2005|06:57 pm] |
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Good Christ I LOVE pasta. Enough to marry it? YES. It's the staff of life, alongside women's backsides and toned navels.
I believe (virtually) everyone has their own inner narcissist,
nar·cis·sism (när'sĭ-sĭz'əm) also nar·cism (-sĭz'əm)
4. The attribute of the human psyche charactized by admiration of oneself but within normal limits.
even to the smallest degree. Sure everyone has it, else you wouldn't bother looking in the mirror and doing that slight mental evaluation before going out. Take a second to look at yourself, takes some pride in your body. And if you don't see anything, then FIND something. Modesty and humility is all well and good, but everyone can use a self-appreciative boost now and then. Just don't overdo it*
During puberty I was openly ridiculed by girls (THANKS MIDDLE SCHOOL) and it continued heavily til I turned about 17. I tried to use this to my advantage, kinda. I indulged in my odd appearance and let the crazier aspects of my personality come out, but it was ultimately a defense against any kind of ridicule (which I harbored with great resentment). During those years I had some serious self-esteem issues. Senior year and through college I had some great relationships but generally I still considered myself a freaky weirdo with "a great personality" at best.
Just in the past year or so I've stopped being insecure about my appearance. I used to just generally scrutinize myself in the mirror and get mildly depressed. But somewhere along the line I totally stopped caring, I stopped with the negativity I'd let sit on my back for a decade. COULD BE WORSE, you know? I'm eating well, I take care of myself, and some days you just feel good and look at yourself and BAM. LOOK fucking SHARP. WEIRD SHAPED HEAD AND EVER'THANG. I'm a lot more confident now. Only took 10 years.
*Narcissism can be beneficial if used carefully. But let it get to your head- start expecting things from others or actually looking down on them -and you've crossed the line. EVERYTHING IN MODERATION.
OH SNAP! ICE CREAM TRUCK!
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$2 Root Beer Float =)
God DAMN I am a SEXY BEAST today. TOOK me LONG e-NOUGH.
ARGH BRAIN FREEZE |
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I've feeling the same way about my own self recently, especially after losing all that weight and then looking at pictures that are barely two years old. Here are some pics that were taken at various points in 2003 where I weighed 200-220, versus the 150-pounder that invaded your apartment for a few hours. http://mysite.verizon.net/res8kf84/images/fat-TODE.jpgSome of these were posted at the old Fighters.Net and maybe even HerV at some point... so people who knew from that forum years ago are shocked when they meet me in person these days.
OH my SHIT.
You look EXACTLY like that husky fucker at my high school that was too goddamn jolly for his own good, who was buddies with everyone whether they liked him or not and said, "HEY HEY HEY!"
"WHAT'S UP GUYS!"
"Go away!"
"HOW YOU DOING?" *UNWARRANTED TOUCHING*
Oh god the flashbacks.
Not like I'm insinuating anything about you, it was just a random memory.
That wasn't me, but I've known a man or two like that.
But what happens if you're a narciccist before actually being attractive? Does that mean after I shape up I'll be able to turn Super Narccicisjin 4 or something?
Yes. Shaping up will unlock Dark Hadou Shin Cyber-Onimakumpacalypslaught. Ver 2.1 | |
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