I've been neglecting my live journal lately, I think it might have something to do with my Face book addiction. I, however have managed to find some time to update this piece.

1. Less than 2 weeks, I will be flying from Dulles -> Tokyo -> Manila. I will be staying for 2 weeks :D I don't really think I could put into words how much this experience will mean to me, let alone all of my Filipino aunts telling me how proud of me that I am finally going "home". I am not really sure what to expect, I have an *idea* but who really knows. I am bringing my camera with me, so this should make an interesting Flickr update. I am just hoping that I don't get sucked in a typhoon in Boracay, but that remains to be seen. If you have to go down, go down in the homeland ja?

This is where I am staying: Makati Palace Hotel and I will be right near Innodata :D The tentative plan is to go to Manila for a few days, then Boracay for 3, and then return back to Manila. During that time I intend to acquire many hello kitty goods, sarongs, and other delicious philippine items, see where my mom grew up, spend some time with some friends, and maybe go to a trance night.

There are goth clubs in the Philippines but unfortunately there are none going on until Halloween [and I'll be back here :(] but I might DJ at this one night there next year or whenever I get the chance to go back, and that'd be awesome rocking the 00ntz in the homeland.

I am staying for two weeks, still trying to figure out what I'm going to be doing there.

2. I got a sweet review ^^ and a raise.

3. I am starting to feel like myself against after all the stressful things of the summer have gone down. I attribute that to new friends, experiences, and healing from the past.

Endlich

I have had time to set up my Flickr further .. I need to upload a ton more of photos ...

http://flickr.com/photos/katjawinter/

It's kind of neat to have the past 12 years of your life in picture form, if anyone else on LJ is on it, you should add me!

This will be just in time for Manila

So tentatively, On Oktober 10th, go to Manila for a few days, then Boracay .. and then fly home .. the plane ride will suck, but the pictures will be worth it.

Obviously I am not going to go into detailed semantics in my live journal about things going on in my life, but I will say that things have been really tough. I think about all the past times that I've felt this way and I've come to the realization that it is through all these experiences which have made me stronger and made me into the person I am today.

With that said, Oct. 10. I am going to Manila, Philippines \m/ mit my mom and dad .. I have never been to this homeland, yet I've been to Germany 3x. I have a lay over in Tokyo on the way to and from ... that should be interesting.

Words cannot express how much I need this and all the changes that are yet to come this year. Everyone in this life has a choice whether or not they will suffer, and I choose not to.

Jetzt, es gibt einen neuen bild von mir mit schwarzes haar ;)

( hello kitty necklace )

With that I said, I should probably set up the Flickr Pro account that industriarts got for me <3

Well, I had a great time last night at Exposure. I cannot believe it's been 2 years [Thanksgiving 2006] that I DJ'd in in D.C and I was really happy to do so. Thanks to everyone who came out, and to Dana for letting me spin. It was great spinning with Missguided, Vlad and Mindcage.



DJ Maschineng3l

10:00 - 10:30

Interface - Destination [Code 64 Remix]
State Of the Union - Evol Love
Pain Bastard - The Time Is Ripe
Aesthetic Perfection - Living the Wasted Life [Deadbeat Mix]
Ginger Snaps - Feel the Rhythm [Club Mix]
Dermatek - Payback
Amduscia Impulso Biomecnico [Grendel Mix]

12:30 - 1:15
Sebestian Komor - Welcome to Das 00ntz
Suicide Commando - Hate Me
Hocico - Ecos [Move Bastard Mix]
Noisuf-X - Orgasm
Reaxion Guerrilla - Sacrifice
Nurzey Rhymes - Blood Line
Soman - Divine
Alien Vampires - Rave to the Grave
Reaper - X Junkie
Straftanz - Straftanz Ost - [Agonoize Remix]


Come on and hate meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. More pictures later when I am not swamped with my day job.

\m/

I am in so much pain right now, I don't want to get into as it is girly "TMI" matters but it's fucking ridiculous.

So to kill the time before I muster up the physical strength to get off my bed out of agony

Four jobs I have had in my life:?
1. Page @ the Library
2. Restaraunt Hostess
3. DJ
4. Production Artist

Four movies I've watched more than once.

1. Amelie
2. My Sassy Girl
3. House Of Flying Daggers
4. Run Lola Run

Four places I have lived:
1. Arlington VA
2. Alexandria VA
3. Los Angeles CA
4. Long Island NY

Four TV Shows that I watch:
1. Jeopardy
2. South Park
3. Family Guy
4. Futurama

Four places I have been on vacation?
1. Berlin
2. Munich
3. Amsterdam
4. London

Four People who e-mail me (regularly??):
1. Nathan
2. Everyone at work :P
3. Katalin
4. Lars

Four of my favorite foods:
1. Cocktail Shrimp
2. Adobo
3. Pho
4. Cherries

Four Places I would rather be right now
1. In the Zen
2. Vienna
3. Salzburg
4. Munich

Four friends I think will respond:
1. - 4. None, really.

Things I am looking forward to this year:
1. Austria
2. C#
3. My hair getting longer
4. Enlightenment

I've been working on my setlist a bit, I can't believe how long it's been since I last DJ'd in D.C. I kind of figured this will be my last hurrah, as I really don't care for the direction the 'scene' has taken in America.

I suppose I am spoiled by my annual jaunts to Germany .. The scene in America is just so weak compared to Europe, in populous and in quality. I think we're very fortunate to have scene in at all but I noticed a couple of patterns regarding this:

1. I can't even name how many bands that have come out over the past 2 years that are from small ass towns that sound completely generic. People could say, "Well Xtina, I am surprised that you didn't notice this before!" and to which I say, maybe not. I think certain parts of Northern California remind me of that *COUGHCOUGHSACRAMENTO* -- where everyone thinks they are a fucking Industrial-EBM rockstar because they were able to find a copy of Acid on a bit torrent site.

Then again, I am generally biased against people calling themselves musicians when they have no concept of musical knowledge or theory. There are of course, exceptions to the rule but the ratio of suck to decent quality is just not that great. I wouldn't be so opposed to this fact if it weren't for the fact that there is just so much ego involved in the process.

2. I have come to terms with the fact I am old and not cool anymore, I want to spin music to spin it, to bring some life and new music into clubs. Not saying that the normal stuff that is played doesn't suffice, as people like their familiarity but I really want to at least work my sk1lz to incorporate new and interesting music that gets people into the groove.

3. Too much fucking drama, everyone is mad at everyone else, someone said the wrong thing to the wrong person, the music is too hard, the music is too soft, so and so fucked someone's girlfriend or so and so has herpes, sometimes it's too much to keep up with. And just when you thought you really couldn't take anymore, the drama is further perpetuated via the Internetz.

In fact, to think about, the only thing that makes me 'scene' is the fact that my future husband is a graphic designer and does album artwork for a lot of well known industrial-ebm bands [Die Sektor, FGFC820, XP8, State Of The Union, Glis, etc] He can be rivet enough for both of us.


With that said



This is my 'ghetto' webflyer I made for my DJ gig on Thursday, I just realized that there is already a flyer (with a hot girl on it) but this is my form of shameless promotion of my half-assed photoshop skills.


http://exposure-dc.com/index.html


I intend to bring the fucking 00ntz and no drama. Hopefully see some of you there \m/

I find it amusing that I've seen 21 out of the 26 of the bands announced (so far) for Kinetik in 2009.

Maybe I'm not so lame after all? o_O

I am one step closer towards global domination today, I just signed up and paid for my C# programming class this upcoming semester ^^

I don't think I am too interested in buying any new clothes until the Fall lines start to hit. I miss my dark colors and decadent clothing that the Fall and Winter bring. I have a ton of friends who are into lip service and I was looking through some of it today, and while I still think it's hot as hell, I am not too much into the sp00ky scene unless it's Aderlass. I fell in love with their clothes when I was in London last year and everytime I go to Germany I end up with a piece of clothing from them. I also have a bit of a complex about wearing clothes that everyone else has (zzzZzzz) so I am all about the European gothics fashions as opposed to Lip Service.

http://www.mw-store.de/main.php?VID=6AgZksev6YarxyNs&NID=vollbild&LNG=de&PID=aderlass&stat=&utxt=Kleider&VIEWPR=1&VIEWN=1&kat=2&kat_u=16&Artikel_ID=A-5-15-001-00

I want to get this dress & run away to Austria and be all about same dark elektro edelweiss fest, but that seems to be the mood lately. I am glad the summer is wrapping up and moving forward into the fall. Other than programming I don't have any big plans for the Fall, but I'll tell you one thing and I've said it like 312890132 times.

Vienna/Munich next Mai. It's on.

PS: You know how I know Nathan is my one and only? He bought me a coconut juice yesterday from the Filipino store [while getting me sinigang packets] without me asking him to <3 <3 <3

PPS: I don't know what the hell happened but my *real* hair is getting long, when it's straight it reaches to the middle of my upper back. No complaints here, I've been plagued with short hair for a majority of my life and now that the thyroid condition got its ass kicked, I am back in business.

I have been so insanely busy with work lately (trying to believe and achieve lolz) that I totally put it off to the back of my mind I am DJing on the 14th at Exposure. Obviously music is my life and is highly associated with what I do for a living, so I have a myriad of off the hook electro-ebm jams. Less focus on the angry but more focus on just the groove .. I think spending a great deal of my time with musicians has inspired me. I am def. excited to hit the decks again since it has been quite some time. I don't care about the politics, I don't care about teh 'drama' or who doesn't like me or what the fuck ever, all I care about is playing some awesome music and having a great time with my friends. I've withdrawn because I see how easy everyone gets wrapped up in the bullshit situations with gothic scene drama.

So yes http://exposure-dc.com/Calendar.html <-- August 14th. Come see me try to relive the glory of my early rivet cyber-goth twenties :D Not really, but I guarantee you the music is going to rock zee haus.

I am going to learn some awesome techniques from my co-worker's husband who is a techno DJ. One day, djtotentanz and I will conquer Europe (theoretically of course) with edelweiss inspiration.

That's all I got going for me right now, it was the best combination of things: payday and Friday. Oh, and I am insanely addicted to Wii tennis, but yet somehow I feel more focused.

Work ...
Work ....
Work ..... x 38901438901328901328901328908132

I need a vacation (yes, again). Where should I go? I am open to suggestions if anyone would like to offer them.

Preferably from Sep 10 - 17 ;)

I just got my tokidoki shirt in the mail and it is awesomely cute:

http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B0019KALHM

and the new jeans I acquired on Sunday fit PERFECTLY .. I think it's a start to being a good day, at least better than the past few days.



It's almost a smile .. ;) It's a lot easier to smile when you don't have 10 lbs of dreads in your hair.

This is the first time in almost two weeks that I've had time to update this thing. Things are going well on this end, my birthday was really awesome, my friend Brian came down from Long Island and it was nice to spend some time with him since we hadn't seen each other in a while. It's always an interesting experience to spend time with someone who hasn't seen you in a while and can tell you how many ways you've changed. As I stated in my last entry, I am so very lucky to have so many wonderful people in my life, but I've learned that with time that what you put in is what you get back from people.

This is what has been going down in my piece:

- Frustrated at the lengthy amount of time it has taken to schedule my surgery for my ganglion cyst removal, and the surgeon's office royally pissing me on Friday, I just followed suit of various forum postings I've read and the advice of my former co-worker's wife and just *THWOMPED* the shit out of my cyst with the Baker Dictionary of Music at work, and then Nathan finished the job with the German bible. The cyst has diminished to 1/4 of it's size, and it looks like it could be hit again but the most important thing is that I have about 90% of my hand functioning back. It feels kind of odd to have feeling back in my hand again, and who knows whether or not it will be making a return, but for now I am putting off any extraction of the surgery until the fall. I am hoping that this works out in my favor, as surgery costs a lot of time and money.

- For my birthday, my future husband also bought me two pairs of sexy apple bottoms jeans (mmm sale @ macy's), and I am getting this:

http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=3153822

I've been looking for a Wii for like 7+ months and I really wanted to get one for my birthday and it's been impossible but it should be here this week. I *cannot* wait, seriously. For months we have seen multiple games we want to play and each time feel thwarted from not being able to find a console in this area, and now I am getting one. The summer has been so brutal that I've been having enough time to spend on video games. Now that my wrist is healing, I am all about some Wii tennis.

- I am going to be taking C# class this upcoming semester, will I become a developer? Who knows right now, but I am def. getting closer and laughing at the prospect of work outsourcing me to fix our database problems (it is programmed in c#).

- August 14, 2008. Exposure. I am DJing in this area for the first time in 2 years. I have so many plans for jams, it's going to be amazing.

Other than all of that, can't help to feel like I'm boring as hell (when I tell people this, they kind of laugh and can't really imagine what I mean) but all I do really is work, workout, read, spend time with friends and reach altered states of reality, and work some more. Having some time off in the summer has been really nice. I suppose when everything stands on stable ground is when the ennui sets in, but either way it's nice to have a somewhat slow summer. I am not thinking about any travel or wedding plans for next year until the Fall hits, so it's going to be a lot of preparation for programming classes, DJing, exercise, and video games on the horizon.

I guess it is possible to get bored of yourself when you don't have any drama or qualms with people or life. I realize more and more as time goes on why things work out the way they do, even if the previous outcomes don't feel so pleasant.

Another year down ... ;) 26 !!!!

I came into work to three cards and a balloon tied to my chair, as well 11 Skype messages and a mug full of cherries!

I am so very fortunate for all the wonderful people in my life that make days like today [my birthday] so special.

/gh3y

Reason # 328190132 industriarts rocks mein welt:

He got me this for one of my 26th birthday presents:

http://shop.tokidoki.it/product.asp?ProdID=7686&CtgID=7733

tokidoki + hello kitty == <3333

( also, here is a picture of from last Saturday. We match ^-^ )

Here's a picture from my photo shoot on Saturday, I am quite pleased how this shot turned out.

( Azn Inspired )

Blue + Asian + Parasol + Ganesh + Dreads + Eyelashes == FTW;

This looks like a serious call for a black latex dirndl with swarvoski crystals.

Austria.

Next May, 2009.

Who's in???

Personally ..

A compliment to me isn't when I've seen a person in a while and they say: "Oh you look so great, You've lost so much weight, your clothes are so nice, you look so beautiful.. NOW".

While that's a nice sentiment and all :P -- A compliment to me, is more along the lines of, when I meet someone new and they say: "I couldn't imagine you angry, impatient or mean". It is amusing to me to convince people that my calmness and kindness actually isn't inherent in nature, but it's learned as a product of my experiences and acquired wisdom.

I was looking through my "sent" folder in Gmail from 06-07 and I had an attitude and a harsh way of words that would put the angriest most abrasive people to shame.

It's not so much that I've changed permanently, but that I strive to keep up the respectfulness and kindness to live a fuller life free from stress. There are a lot of reasons for these changes, but I am not going to get into it for the 1000th time.

I won't front, it does get a bit difficult to main a positive and kind attitude all the time especially when someone says the 'wrong' thing or neglects to say the 'right thing', but in the end I suppose it's all just drops in the karmic bucket.

&

Now it's time to party! Today is my co-worker's birthday.

So, it appears to get rid of the cyst on my wrist, I am going to have to get surgery in sometime July. Seems kind of silly to get hand surgery, but the cyst is pushing down on the nerves and making my hand feel numb. This makes me glad I am not taking summer classes, and that when C# class happens in the Fall my hand will be back to normal and ready for some more programming. I'm going to have to learn how to use one hand fairly quickly on the computer (at least it's not my mouse hand!). I'm not scared, I am just feeling annoyed, but it's life and it happens just like all the other things I find to be unfair, such as illness, death and heartache.

On the upside, had a lovely weekend in Baltimore, my computer is fixed and I am now running dual LCD samsung monitor action @ home, and 4GB of RAM and CS3. Granted I am restricting my computer usage for a while, I am looking forward to all of my creative pursuits.

I think it'd be worth thinking of up of ideas of sp00ky goth ergonomic wrist wear, maybe one that's like a corset o_O .. then again I could be saying this because mine is totally not goth. My friend told me to put a hello kitty sticker on it.

I also bought this beautiful wall hanging, it is very inspiring and is hung across from my bed:

( picture of ganesh wall fabric )

Happy Birthday to my dear [psuedo] Portuguese cousin littlesuitepee

Just remember, we get better with age, and hotter too!

<3333