Does it say something bad about me that I have been here for almost three years, and only one person (besides my family) has come to see how I live and what my life is like out here?
- Mood:
contemplative
I visited a very very dear friend of mine recently and had a mini breakdown while there (something that hasn't happened in a long while). I guess it just goes to show that no matter how far away you are or how often you do or don't talk..you still become vulnerable to those you were closest to in the past.
It's hard to maintain a friendship from 2,000+ miles away and I would say that we've done a pretty okay job at it considering when we're together after very extended periods of time, we still manage to act as though we said 'goodbye' just yesterday.
Goodbye doesn't mean forever. I will believe always and forever.
You truly are the brightest little firely in my jar.
I need you like a dragonfly wing's need the air, like an orphan needs someone to care, I need you here like you've always been.
With you, I belong...and it's nice to have that feeling after trying to find it for so long no matter how shortlived it had to be.
I yearn for more time, more love, more cuddles, more giggles, and most of all, more you...for now I will be satisfied with what little uninterrupted time we have been able to spend together.
*You have planted a new seed in my head...one that seems to keep growing from the moment you said it. Not only will I come to grace the walls of your beautiful apartment once more...I will stay so long I might become a nuisance...and possibly even stay longer.
Always and forever darling...always always forever forever in my heart. Thank you for the time you were able to give me...and thank you for opening up...even just a little to make me feel special and needed once again.
Squirrel
It's hard to maintain a friendship from 2,000+ miles away and I would say that we've done a pretty okay job at it considering when we're together after very extended periods of time, we still manage to act as though we said 'goodbye' just yesterday.
Goodbye doesn't mean forever. I will believe always and forever.
You truly are the brightest little firely in my jar.
I need you like a dragonfly wing's need the air, like an orphan needs someone to care, I need you here like you've always been.
With you, I belong...and it's nice to have that feeling after trying to find it for so long no matter how shortlived it had to be.
I yearn for more time, more love, more cuddles, more giggles, and most of all, more you...for now I will be satisfied with what little uninterrupted time we have been able to spend together.
*You have planted a new seed in my head...one that seems to keep growing from the moment you said it. Not only will I come to grace the walls of your beautiful apartment once more...I will stay so long I might become a nuisance...and possibly even stay longer.
Always and forever darling...always always forever forever in my heart. Thank you for the time you were able to give me...and thank you for opening up...even just a little to make me feel special and needed once again.
Squirrel
- Mood:
thankful
so...since i've been so stressed about school...my face has decided to break out. i am beginning too look like a pizza...yup...that's right...you all can start calling me pizza face. sheesh...when is school done? oh right...NEVER...i am taking classes throughout the summer...ONE MORE YEAR until I graduate. gah
- Mood:
anxious
i'm frustrated.
- Location:my bed in my room
- Mood:
frustrated - Music:nothing
Hello again!
WOW...two posts in ONE day. It's pretty impressive! Maya and I had a really long talk tonight and I feel a lot better about things. A LOT BETTER. Although I still have some worries about the living situation, we're all going to sit down together and talk about it. And we're both going to make more of an effort with each other and we're going to try and hang out just three of us (Josie, Maya, and me) more often so that we can all get to know each other better (well just me and Josie really). But...anywho...after a pretty big mental breakdown on my behalf, I got everything off my chest and I feel a lot better about things. So...that is good. REALLY GOOD actually.
Love you all!
Love Dani
P.S. MY 21ST BIRTHDAY IS NOW 8 DAYS AWAY. I KNOW...I'M SO FRIGGIN' EXCITED I CAN'T EVEN WAIT! WOO-HOO! SO EXCITED! THERE IS A PARTY IN MY HONOR (AND I GET TO CHOOSE THE KEG) AND I AM ALSO BEING TAKEN OUT BY ALL MY AMAZING FRIENDS! YAYAYAYAYAYAY!!
WOW...two posts in ONE day. It's pretty impressive! Maya and I had a really long talk tonight and I feel a lot better about things. A LOT BETTER. Although I still have some worries about the living situation, we're all going to sit down together and talk about it. And we're both going to make more of an effort with each other and we're going to try and hang out just three of us (Josie, Maya, and me) more often so that we can all get to know each other better (well just me and Josie really). But...anywho...after a pretty big mental breakdown on my behalf, I got everything off my chest and I feel a lot better about things. So...that is good. REALLY GOOD actually.
Love you all!
Love Dani
P.S. MY 21ST BIRTHDAY IS NOW 8 DAYS AWAY. I KNOW...I'M SO FRIGGIN' EXCITED I CAN'T EVEN WAIT! WOO-HOO! SO EXCITED! THERE IS A PARTY IN MY HONOR (AND I GET TO CHOOSE THE KEG) AND I AM ALSO BEING TAKEN OUT BY ALL MY AMAZING FRIENDS! YAYAYAYAYAYAY!!
- Location:My room at my computer desk.
- Mood:
calm - Music:the whirring of the fan...LOVE that sound!
Hey all...I know I haven't written in FOREVER! Nursing school keeps me ridiculously busy but I absolutely LOVE it. I learn something new everyday and although I don't exactly like getting up early (I never thought I would say this)I actually find myself looking forward to school(for the most part). I feel like I am always doing homework and that I will never be caught up but I have learned SO much already! Only 14 months and I graduate with my BSN...isn't that crazy?! We signed our DOGs the other day (Declaration of Graduation) and it felt SO wierd. I'm growing up and I have mixed feelings about it. *LOL*
I am on Spring Break right now for only one more day :(:(:( but it has been one of the most relaxing spring breaks ever. All I have done is sleep and lay out in the sun. Not only am I getting a pretty good tan going on but I was definitely FINALLY able to catch up on some sleep! It was pretty awesome. I also got my haircut today (an early birthday present to myself) and got hi-lites and lo-lites. Blondish and reddish and then just kind of got a trim. I went to Carsten Institute (which is a school so it was cheaper than usual which was nice) but I still won't be spending any money on myself for awhile. Good thing it's my 21st birthday and everybody buys drinks for me! *LOL* I am actually coming home the last weekend of March to celebrate my 21st with my family. I can't wait...it's going to be so much fun! And I have friends that are taking me out at midnight on my birthday so that will be pretty exciting. We actually have a 'self-directed learning' day on my birthday so I will be able to sleep in that day which will be nice. I haven't done ANY homework which I am feeling slightly guilty about but eh...I felt I deserved a break.
I don't really ever see Maya anymore even though we live together. I feel like she's always going somewhere and I just don't fit into her schedule anymore. I tried for awhile to try and pick a day each week that we could hang out but that kind of fell off after the first two weeks. Sometimes I feel like it's pulling teeth to get her to pick a day and take some time to hang out with me. I don't think it's necessarily that she doesn't want to hang out with me, I think she just has other people to hang out with or she's at work or she's doing homework or she doesn't feel good or she's tired. I don't know... It kind of sucks sitting by myself a lot but oh well...what can you do? Not a whole lot evidently. I'm not really even mad at her, I don't know what I am. She invites me to hang out with her cousin and their friends but I just don't feel like I fit in with them. I feel wierd around them and almost like I'm not fun enough or something? I don't know.... It's probably my fault that I don't see her because I don't go places with her cousin and friends when invited because I just feel uncomfortable. I feel like since we live together, an effort isn't really made to try and see each other. I feel like I was trying for awhile but it doesn't really work when only one person is really trying ya know? Maybe she is trying, I don't know. I don't want to make it sound like Maya is a bad person at all...she's a wonderful person, I just don't think too much of an effort was made to see each other as last year when we weren't living together. I dunno...I don't really know how to rectify the situation.
We are living with Maya's cousin Josie next year and while I love Josie I'm slightly...well okay, really concerned that I'll just kind of be shoved out of the way. Whenever they are together, I kind of just find myself staying quiet and not really saying anything. I know it's not intentional on their part but they have a history and they hang out with the same people so they always have stories to tell and talk about while I really have no idea what they are talking about ya know? I dunno...maybe I'm the one not making an effort? I'm just more of a homebody and love to be home on the couch watching movies or reading or cooking together etc, etc. I dunno...maybe I'm just being stupid. It's hard to tell since I'm slightly hormonal at this time of the month. ;)
For some reason this semester, I feel lazy because I don't have a job. This is the first time since I was 16. I just don't think I could handle it because I have SO much homework but I almost feel lazy that I don't have one. It's a wierd feeling...I have no idea where I would work though considering that I am basically in school from 8-5 T-Th and 8-2ish M and F. Sometimes I get out early on T,W,Th but I never know what days I will be out early so I can't count on that for a job. So I have no idea what kind of job I would work. I was thinking a serving job
It's been unusually hot around these parts lately. It's been in the high 90's. Which has been good for me because I have layed out in the sun every day...I think for once in my life I actually might be tanner than my mom! *LOL*
Well this is becoming really long. Sadly...my spring break is almost over :(:(:(:(:(:( but I enjoyed it to the fullest. Even though it's St. Patrick's Day, I'm sure I"ll end up doing homework that I've put off all week. That's how lame I am sometimes. Oh well...
Hope everybody has a safe and fun St. Patty's Day!
Love Dani
I am on Spring Break right now for only one more day :(:(:( but it has been one of the most relaxing spring breaks ever. All I have done is sleep and lay out in the sun. Not only am I getting a pretty good tan going on but I was definitely FINALLY able to catch up on some sleep! It was pretty awesome. I also got my haircut today (an early birthday present to myself) and got hi-lites and lo-lites. Blondish and reddish and then just kind of got a trim. I went to Carsten Institute (which is a school so it was cheaper than usual which was nice) but I still won't be spending any money on myself for awhile. Good thing it's my 21st birthday and everybody buys drinks for me! *LOL* I am actually coming home the last weekend of March to celebrate my 21st with my family. I can't wait...it's going to be so much fun! And I have friends that are taking me out at midnight on my birthday so that will be pretty exciting. We actually have a 'self-directed learning' day on my birthday so I will be able to sleep in that day which will be nice. I haven't done ANY homework which I am feeling slightly guilty about but eh...I felt I deserved a break.
I don't really ever see Maya anymore even though we live together. I feel like she's always going somewhere and I just don't fit into her schedule anymore. I tried for awhile to try and pick a day each week that we could hang out but that kind of fell off after the first two weeks. Sometimes I feel like it's pulling teeth to get her to pick a day and take some time to hang out with me. I don't think it's necessarily that she doesn't want to hang out with me, I think she just has other people to hang out with or she's at work or she's doing homework or she doesn't feel good or she's tired. I don't know... It kind of sucks sitting by myself a lot but oh well...what can you do? Not a whole lot evidently. I'm not really even mad at her, I don't know what I am. She invites me to hang out with her cousin and their friends but I just don't feel like I fit in with them. I feel wierd around them and almost like I'm not fun enough or something? I don't know.... It's probably my fault that I don't see her because I don't go places with her cousin and friends when invited because I just feel uncomfortable. I feel like since we live together, an effort isn't really made to try and see each other. I feel like I was trying for awhile but it doesn't really work when only one person is really trying ya know? Maybe she is trying, I don't know. I don't want to make it sound like Maya is a bad person at all...she's a wonderful person, I just don't think too much of an effort was made to see each other as last year when we weren't living together. I dunno...I don't really know how to rectify the situation.
We are living with Maya's cousin Josie next year and while I love Josie I'm slightly...well okay, really concerned that I'll just kind of be shoved out of the way. Whenever they are together, I kind of just find myself staying quiet and not really saying anything. I know it's not intentional on their part but they have a history and they hang out with the same people so they always have stories to tell and talk about while I really have no idea what they are talking about ya know? I dunno...maybe I'm the one not making an effort? I'm just more of a homebody and love to be home on the couch watching movies or reading or cooking together etc, etc. I dunno...maybe I'm just being stupid. It's hard to tell since I'm slightly hormonal at this time of the month. ;)
For some reason this semester, I feel lazy because I don't have a job. This is the first time since I was 16. I just don't think I could handle it because I have SO much homework but I almost feel lazy that I don't have one. It's a wierd feeling...I have no idea where I would work though considering that I am basically in school from 8-5 T-Th and 8-2ish M and F. Sometimes I get out early on T,W,Th but I never know what days I will be out early so I can't count on that for a job. So I have no idea what kind of job I would work. I was thinking a serving job
It's been unusually hot around these parts lately. It's been in the high 90's. Which has been good for me because I have layed out in the sun every day...I think for once in my life I actually might be tanner than my mom! *LOL*
Well this is becoming really long. Sadly...my spring break is almost over :(:(:(:(:(:( but I enjoyed it to the fullest. Even though it's St. Patrick's Day, I'm sure I"ll end up doing homework that I've put off all week. That's how lame I am sometimes. Oh well...
Hope everybody has a safe and fun St. Patty's Day!
Love Dani
- Location:My room on my bed
- Mood:
confused - Music:Harry Potter on T.V.
Sometimes...the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.
some days...i wake up and i feel stuck.
i miss home so much sometimes that it physically hurts to think about it. the hardest part about it is...i have no idea who to talk to about it because i can't put the feelings into words.
so instead...i sit and cry until i fall asleep knowing that the next day i need to suck it up and get over it...
i miss home so much sometimes that it physically hurts to think about it. the hardest part about it is...i have no idea who to talk to about it because i can't put the feelings into words.
so instead...i sit and cry until i fall asleep knowing that the next day i need to suck it up and get over it...
- Location:my room
- Mood:
drained - Music:michael buble: home
I'm so tired of all this woe is me shit. YOU and only YOU can create your own happiness...no one else. You are alone are responsible for making yourself happy. If you're not happy, do something about it. Things could ALWAYS, ALWAYS be worse. Honestly....fate is bullshit. If you want something to happen, then make it happen. If you need help dealing with your problems, then get help. Easier said than done, but it CAN be done. ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE!!! ANYTHING! There is always a bright side to any situation...life is what you make of it. The way you come out of any bad situation depends on you and you alone. Do something for yourself and change the way things are. MAKE YOURSELF HAPPY. I understand that all these things are easier said than done but believe me...IT CAN BE DONE.
- Location:my living room
- Music:the t.v.
I just...
have no motivation. I don't want to do anything but sit in my bed and sleep or watch T.V. I literally force myself to get out of bed in the morning. If it weren't for the fact that I'm desperatley in need of money, I would not be going to work. For some reason, I just don't care about school right now, I just want to be home with my family and friends that seem to WANT to be around me and MAKE the time for me. Ya know?
I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. I guess I'm just in a funk I guess.
have no motivation. I don't want to do anything but sit in my bed and sleep or watch T.V. I literally force myself to get out of bed in the morning. If it weren't for the fact that I'm desperatley in need of money, I would not be going to work. For some reason, I just don't care about school right now, I just want to be home with my family and friends that seem to WANT to be around me and MAKE the time for me. Ya know?
I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. I guess I'm just in a funk I guess.
So...when someone tells you that the apartment you are moving into is 'cable-ready' and that making adjustments to the bedrooms to add cable outlets in the bedrooms is okay...one assumes that the aparment is 'cable-ready' and making adjustments in the bedrooms is okay right? naturally...
wel...not so much.
SO...let me start from the beginning. as mentioned above, our apartments, Sun River Apartments, told us on our tour of the apartments that all of the apartments were cable ready and that any adjustments that needed to be made to the bedrooms was okay. So, we are like..cool, sounds good. So, when Maya moves in this summer, Cox Communications comes out and installs new cable outlet thingies in each of our bedrooms. Great...awesome, we have cable and internet IN our rooms. Sweet... So, our cable and internet is working fine until the landscapers come and friggin' CUT our cable cord in half. Yeah...so Cox Communications comes out and repairs it. Well, a week later, (after telling our apartment people to ask the landscapers to be careful) they do it again. Except this time, instead of leaving it in plain view, they tape the cable cord with electrical tape AND bury it like we weren't going to notice that our cable wasn't working or something. So, Cox Communications comes back out and repairs it. Then, a week later (so, three times in one month) our cable and internet are not working again.... So, Cox Communications comes out today (the third person to come out here and repair) and tells us that what the first cable guy did by installing cable in our bedrooms and running the line in the ground and through the walls is not up to code and actually should not have happened. Yeah, we had TWO other Cox repairmen out here that never said a damn thing about it. So, he says there isn't really anything he can do and that the reason our cable and internet is going in and out is because it is getting wet from the sprinklers and then drying off and getting wet, and so on and so forth. He says that he can't replace the line because it shouldn't be there in the first place and the only thing we can really do is use our ONE cable outlet out in the living room to run cable to both of our bedrooms and set up the modem in the living room and use wireless in our bedrooms for internet. Are you fucking kidding me?!
The problem with this is that Maya has a desktop and apparently desktops don't get very good wireless signals AND purchasing a wireless card for a desk top is pretty expensive. So, not only is it going to cost us an arm and a leg for all three cable guys to come out here, it is going to cost Maya even more to pay for the fucking wireless card in her computer.
I'm beyond irritated right now at Cox Communications AND Sun River Apartments. I just want to punch someone or something. Anything...ugh...so frustrated.
So, in the words of Grey's Anatomy: "Seriously...........Seriously......SERI OUSLY!"
wel...not so much.
SO...let me start from the beginning. as mentioned above, our apartments, Sun River Apartments, told us on our tour of the apartments that all of the apartments were cable ready and that any adjustments that needed to be made to the bedrooms was okay. So, we are like..cool, sounds good. So, when Maya moves in this summer, Cox Communications comes out and installs new cable outlet thingies in each of our bedrooms. Great...awesome, we have cable and internet IN our rooms. Sweet... So, our cable and internet is working fine until the landscapers come and friggin' CUT our cable cord in half. Yeah...so Cox Communications comes out and repairs it. Well, a week later, (after telling our apartment people to ask the landscapers to be careful) they do it again. Except this time, instead of leaving it in plain view, they tape the cable cord with electrical tape AND bury it like we weren't going to notice that our cable wasn't working or something. So, Cox Communications comes back out and repairs it. Then, a week later (so, three times in one month) our cable and internet are not working again.... So, Cox Communications comes out today (the third person to come out here and repair) and tells us that what the first cable guy did by installing cable in our bedrooms and running the line in the ground and through the walls is not up to code and actually should not have happened. Yeah, we had TWO other Cox repairmen out here that never said a damn thing about it. So, he says there isn't really anything he can do and that the reason our cable and internet is going in and out is because it is getting wet from the sprinklers and then drying off and getting wet, and so on and so forth. He says that he can't replace the line because it shouldn't be there in the first place and the only thing we can really do is use our ONE cable outlet out in the living room to run cable to both of our bedrooms and set up the modem in the living room and use wireless in our bedrooms for internet. Are you fucking kidding me?!
The problem with this is that Maya has a desktop and apparently desktops don't get very good wireless signals AND purchasing a wireless card for a desk top is pretty expensive. So, not only is it going to cost us an arm and a leg for all three cable guys to come out here, it is going to cost Maya even more to pay for the fucking wireless card in her computer.
I'm beyond irritated right now at Cox Communications AND Sun River Apartments. I just want to punch someone or something. Anything...ugh...so frustrated.
So, in the words of Grey's Anatomy: "Seriously...........Seriously......SERI
- Location:my bedroom
- Mood:
irritated - Music:silence
So...I don't know what my deal is...but I have NO motivation this semester. I am actually really worried about my grades because I just can't force myself to do anything. I've skipped so many classes this semester and it's not even October. What is that about? SERIOUSLY...
I am worried.
I am worried.
- Location:my bedroom
- Mood:
worried - Music:American Chopper on T.V.
so...what kind of law and order: svu marathon was that?! it was on till 4. FOUR! honestly...
- Location:my room
- Mood:
amused - Music:nothing, maya is sleeping, shhh!
Hey friends...
So it's definitely been awhile. I have still been reading everyone's updates (well, those of you that still do update and I know I have no room to talk) and have commented every once in awhile.
As you have probably guessed, I am back in Arizona and moved into my awesome apartment with my life partner Maya. :) Things with her and the apartment are going really well. I really like the apartment and it's so nice to have my own room with a bed bigger than a twin size. *LOL* I also have my own bathroom so that is also a plus. Maya isn't nearly as messy as Hilary was so that is a lot better. I also just recently bought a kitten. She is a fluffy and calico color and her name is Olivia, Livy for short. I absolutely adore her. She is about 3 1/2 months old and the most adorable cat ever. I still miss my kitties from home but Livy is a good fill-in. She only weighs like three pounds right now so she is still pretty tiny but she eats all the time. Maya has a four month old puppy named Lucie who is super cute but also super annoying. I love her though, I can't help it. Isha (Maya's 7-year-old cat) is well Isha. It took her awhile to adjust to Livy but I think she is finally getting used to it. Yes, we have a happy little family here. A happy little family of all females. *LOL*
I was pretty homesick after my mom left awhile ago and was pretty depressed for awhile just for the sheer fact that classes hadn't started, I didn't have a job, so I didn't have anything to do but sit around and think about the fact that I was homesick. I have a fairly easy semester right now so I feel like a bit of a slacker since I'm not studying every minute of every day like I did last semester. I made sure I had an easy semester on purpose because if I get into the nursing program, the next year and a half are going to be hell. But it just feels wierd to not have to be doing homework every minute of every day. I didn't still haven't found a job which is also contributing to my slacker feelings. I thought I had a job babysitting for this couple with a six month old baby girl but they never called me like they said they were going to. That was pretty disappointing. Kelley said I might be able to get a job at the Biodesign Institute as a receptionist at the front desk. It's only seven dollars an hour but it's better than nothing. The office I worked at last year told me that I could come back any time this year and there would be a job for me but when I e-mailed them to see if I could come back the only thing I got back in reply was, "We have no jobs available at this time." Gee thanks guys. So, that was pretty cool. But hopefully this job at the Biodesign Institute will come through.
There might be a new boy in my life. I won't mention any names but...we'll just see what happens. We're still trying to get to know each other. I hate this part of the relationship/friendship/new person thing. Things are awkward because both people aren't jsure how to act and blah, blah, blah. I wish that whole stage could just be skipped altogether but...eh. What can ya do?
I cleaned the apartment today. Maya and her cousin went to San Diego for the Labor Day Weekend. I was invited but I knew I would spend money if I went and frankly, I can't afford to be spending money when I don't even have a friggin' job. PLUS, I somehow acquired a cold overnight and thought I was going to die on Thursday and Friday. Luckily, today I am feeling better. Still stuffy and am acquiring a cough but my sore throat, watery eyes, and headaches have subsided.
That's about it for this update. I know it's been a long time and I apologize but at least you are partially updated for awhile now.
Love and miss you all.
P.S. Honey Bunches of Oats and Aubrey...you guys should get your asses down here!
So it's definitely been awhile. I have still been reading everyone's updates (well, those of you that still do update and I know I have no room to talk) and have commented every once in awhile.
As you have probably guessed, I am back in Arizona and moved into my awesome apartment with my life partner Maya. :) Things with her and the apartment are going really well. I really like the apartment and it's so nice to have my own room with a bed bigger than a twin size. *LOL* I also have my own bathroom so that is also a plus. Maya isn't nearly as messy as Hilary was so that is a lot better. I also just recently bought a kitten. She is a fluffy and calico color and her name is Olivia, Livy for short. I absolutely adore her. She is about 3 1/2 months old and the most adorable cat ever. I still miss my kitties from home but Livy is a good fill-in. She only weighs like three pounds right now so she is still pretty tiny but she eats all the time. Maya has a four month old puppy named Lucie who is super cute but also super annoying. I love her though, I can't help it. Isha (Maya's 7-year-old cat) is well Isha. It took her awhile to adjust to Livy but I think she is finally getting used to it. Yes, we have a happy little family here. A happy little family of all females. *LOL*
I was pretty homesick after my mom left awhile ago and was pretty depressed for awhile just for the sheer fact that classes hadn't started, I didn't have a job, so I didn't have anything to do but sit around and think about the fact that I was homesick. I have a fairly easy semester right now so I feel like a bit of a slacker since I'm not studying every minute of every day like I did last semester. I made sure I had an easy semester on purpose because if I get into the nursing program, the next year and a half are going to be hell. But it just feels wierd to not have to be doing homework every minute of every day. I didn't still haven't found a job which is also contributing to my slacker feelings. I thought I had a job babysitting for this couple with a six month old baby girl but they never called me like they said they were going to. That was pretty disappointing. Kelley said I might be able to get a job at the Biodesign Institute as a receptionist at the front desk. It's only seven dollars an hour but it's better than nothing. The office I worked at last year told me that I could come back any time this year and there would be a job for me but when I e-mailed them to see if I could come back the only thing I got back in reply was, "We have no jobs available at this time." Gee thanks guys. So, that was pretty cool. But hopefully this job at the Biodesign Institute will come through.
There might be a new boy in my life. I won't mention any names but...we'll just see what happens. We're still trying to get to know each other. I hate this part of the relationship/friendship/new person thing. Things are awkward because both people aren't jsure how to act and blah, blah, blah. I wish that whole stage could just be skipped altogether but...eh. What can ya do?
I cleaned the apartment today. Maya and her cousin went to San Diego for the Labor Day Weekend. I was invited but I knew I would spend money if I went and frankly, I can't afford to be spending money when I don't even have a friggin' job. PLUS, I somehow acquired a cold overnight and thought I was going to die on Thursday and Friday. Luckily, today I am feeling better. Still stuffy and am acquiring a cough but my sore throat, watery eyes, and headaches have subsided.
That's about it for this update. I know it's been a long time and I apologize but at least you are partially updated for awhile now.
Love and miss you all.
P.S. Honey Bunches of Oats and Aubrey...you guys should get your asses down here!
- Location:my room
- Mood:
calm - Music:lifetime movie(you like it)
well...after a 30 hour trip from michigan....i am back in arizona and loving my new apartment and awesome roommate. more to come...
Final Results:
Statistics 226: A+
Human Sexuality 332: A+
Philosophy 103: A+
Microbiology Lab: A
Healthcare Ehics 210: A
Human Anatomy and Physiology 201: A
Statistics 226: A+
Human Sexuality 332: A+
Philosophy 103: A+
Microbiology Lab: A
Healthcare Ehics 210: A
Human Anatomy and Physiology 201: A
- Location:my couch in my apartment
- Mood:
ecstatic - Music:the cars going vroom, vroom outside
I don't think it would be possible for Hilary and her Dad to be ANY louder while they are packing her shit up.
So...I think my last official entry was in February sometime. WOW! I've been keeping up on everybody's entries though...just rarely updating mine. So...let's update.
Nothing too completely exciting has happened in my life since I last updated. Just the face that school is pretty much killing me. I'm SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSO happy it's almost over. I only have 3 more finals and one is online...SWEET! I am done on Monday at 9:30. I can't freakin' wait. I am however taking two summer classes and working 40 hours a week this summer so if you see me...it'll be like I was never there. I'll be like...a blur...a fleeting thought if you will. I'm taking BIO 202 at LCC and taking Nutrtion 241 online at Rio Salado. I'll be serving at Bob's as usual. Nothing new there. I've gained a TON of weight this semester so I'm hoping I'll lose most of it this summer like what happened last summer. I was so busy that I ever ate and it wasn't even intentional. I honestly HATE the way I look right now...I try to avoid mirrors at all costs. Blah. It sucks because I can't even cover myself up too much because otherwise I would die of heat stroke. Yeah.... It's starting to get hot again here. It's getting to be in the mid 90's...soon it will be reaching 100 and above...I'm hoping to be out of here by then.
I come home May 18th. I can't frickin' wait. I was ready to go home like before Spring Break. I think not being able to go home and see people at Spring Break really took a toll on me. It seriously depressed me...I had/have no motivation after Spring Break. My dad coming out here with my Uncle and cousins was a Godsend. Seriously...I can't even tell you how much it meant to me. Except after he left...I was pretty much more depressed. I just need to keep telling myself only 2 1/2 more weeks. I can do this. I am coming home so late because I have to take the NET(Nursing Entrance Test)as part of my application process for admission to the College of Nursing. I'm pretty frickin' nervous. It's reading and math comprehension, I'm not exactly worried about the reading part b/c I've never had problems with that type of thing, I'm more worried about the Math part b/c we can't use calculators. And even if I know how to do a problem, I freeze up...and I completely go blank. So, Maya and I both bought separate practice test books and she's going to help me with the Math stuff.
In other news...I might POSSIBLY get a 4.0 again. I don't know though...*knocks on wood* I have an A in my Bio 201(I didn't even have to take the final...YES...I worked my ASS off in that class), I have an A in my Ethics class, and I don't know about Philosophy, Microbiology lab, Statistics, or Human Sexuality yet. Keep your fingers crossed.
I feel like some of my friendships from home are...slipping for lack of a better word. This isn't even pointing to anyone in particular, just in general. I am trying so hard to keep in touch and at times...I feel like it doesn't even matter. I think that's another reason why I have lost motivation this semester. I'm hoping that I can rekindle some flames while I'm home this summer. Yeah...being away from home isn't exactly easy on the friendships...but, with effort from both parties...it's possible to make it work. I just hope other people aren't giving up on me. I can't handle that.
When my dad and uncle and cousins were here...I had a friggin'blast. Anytime spend with the Rewerts family always promises a fun and surprising adventure. I love my family so much. I can't even begin to explain in words how much fun I had. We went to the Grand Canyon and my phone didn't have service all weekend, it was kind of nice actually. We drank it up in the hotel room and I got Hilary and Maya both drunk. Hahaha...I love it. My dad, Uncle Jeff, cousins Randy and Jerry, and Maya made happen with the Captain...Captain Morgan that is, well so did Hilary. I loved it...it was so much fun. I am so looking forward to sitting on my front porch in our rocking chairs with my family and drinking beers while watching the sunset and then watching fireflies. How corny is that?! Oddly enough, my brother and I will both be 'home' this summer. I mean 'home' in that, I am taking two classes and working and he will be staying at my Aunt and Uncle's part of the time b/c it's closer to where he works. Don't worry though, there will be plenty of time for partying in between(just not at my house thanks to some asshole who called the cops this summer...FUCKER). Don't worry though...'IT'S TAKIN CARE OF.' :)
Well, this is getting to be pretty long and I assume pretty boring. I shall be home Mid-May and I want to see people so be sure to give me a call! There hopefully will be some fun times had.
I miss everyone sosososososo much...can't wait to see everyone!
XOXOXOXOXOXOXO
HUGS and KISSES!
MUAH!
Love,
Dani
Nothing too completely exciting has happened in my life since I last updated. Just the face that school is pretty much killing me. I'm SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSO happy it's almost over. I only have 3 more finals and one is online...SWEET! I am done on Monday at 9:30. I can't freakin' wait. I am however taking two summer classes and working 40 hours a week this summer so if you see me...it'll be like I was never there. I'll be like...a blur...a fleeting thought if you will. I'm taking BIO 202 at LCC and taking Nutrtion 241 online at Rio Salado. I'll be serving at Bob's as usual. Nothing new there. I've gained a TON of weight this semester so I'm hoping I'll lose most of it this summer like what happened last summer. I was so busy that I ever ate and it wasn't even intentional. I honestly HATE the way I look right now...I try to avoid mirrors at all costs. Blah. It sucks because I can't even cover myself up too much because otherwise I would die of heat stroke. Yeah.... It's starting to get hot again here. It's getting to be in the mid 90's...soon it will be reaching 100 and above...I'm hoping to be out of here by then.
I come home May 18th. I can't frickin' wait. I was ready to go home like before Spring Break. I think not being able to go home and see people at Spring Break really took a toll on me. It seriously depressed me...I had/have no motivation after Spring Break. My dad coming out here with my Uncle and cousins was a Godsend. Seriously...I can't even tell you how much it meant to me. Except after he left...I was pretty much more depressed. I just need to keep telling myself only 2 1/2 more weeks. I can do this. I am coming home so late because I have to take the NET(Nursing Entrance Test)as part of my application process for admission to the College of Nursing. I'm pretty frickin' nervous. It's reading and math comprehension, I'm not exactly worried about the reading part b/c I've never had problems with that type of thing, I'm more worried about the Math part b/c we can't use calculators. And even if I know how to do a problem, I freeze up...and I completely go blank. So, Maya and I both bought separate practice test books and she's going to help me with the Math stuff.
In other news...I might POSSIBLY get a 4.0 again. I don't know though...*knocks on wood* I have an A in my Bio 201(I didn't even have to take the final...YES...I worked my ASS off in that class), I have an A in my Ethics class, and I don't know about Philosophy, Microbiology lab, Statistics, or Human Sexuality yet. Keep your fingers crossed.
I feel like some of my friendships from home are...slipping for lack of a better word. This isn't even pointing to anyone in particular, just in general. I am trying so hard to keep in touch and at times...I feel like it doesn't even matter. I think that's another reason why I have lost motivation this semester. I'm hoping that I can rekindle some flames while I'm home this summer. Yeah...being away from home isn't exactly easy on the friendships...but, with effort from both parties...it's possible to make it work. I just hope other people aren't giving up on me. I can't handle that.
When my dad and uncle and cousins were here...I had a friggin'blast. Anytime spend with the Rewerts family always promises a fun and surprising adventure. I love my family so much. I can't even begin to explain in words how much fun I had. We went to the Grand Canyon and my phone didn't have service all weekend, it was kind of nice actually. We drank it up in the hotel room and I got Hilary and Maya both drunk. Hahaha...I love it. My dad, Uncle Jeff, cousins Randy and Jerry, and Maya made happen with the Captain...Captain Morgan that is, well so did Hilary. I loved it...it was so much fun. I am so looking forward to sitting on my front porch in our rocking chairs with my family and drinking beers while watching the sunset and then watching fireflies. How corny is that?! Oddly enough, my brother and I will both be 'home' this summer. I mean 'home' in that, I am taking two classes and working and he will be staying at my Aunt and Uncle's part of the time b/c it's closer to where he works. Don't worry though, there will be plenty of time for partying in between(just not at my house thanks to some asshole who called the cops this summer...FUCKER). Don't worry though...'IT'S TAKIN CARE OF.' :)
Well, this is getting to be pretty long and I assume pretty boring. I shall be home Mid-May and I want to see people so be sure to give me a call! There hopefully will be some fun times had.
I miss everyone sosososososo much...can't wait to see everyone!
XOXOXOXOXOXOXO
HUGS and KISSES!
MUAH!
Love,
Dani
- Location:the college of design student services office :)
- Mood:
excited - Music:Elton John: Tonight
This is ALL so true!
Sorry guys...the cut wouldn't work...deal with it.
You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE!"
You can sing the rap to "The Fresh Prince Of Bel Air"
You remember when Kurt Cobain, Tu Pac, River Phoenix, and Selena died.
You know that "WOAH" comes from Joey from "Blossom" and that "How Rude!" comes from Stephanie from "Full House"
You remember when it was actually worth getting up early
on a Saturday to watch cartoons.
You got super excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.
You remember reading "Goosebumps"
You know the profound meaning of "Wax on, wax off"
You have pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.
You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school.
you danced to "wannabe" by the Spice Girls, Females: had a new motto, Males: got a whole lot gay-er. (so tell me what you want, what you really really want.)
You remember the craze then the banning of slap bracelets and slam books.
You still get the urge to say "NOT" after (almost) every sentence...Not...
Where in the world is Carmen San Diego? was both a game and a TV game show.
Captain Planet.
You knew that Kimberly, the pink ranger, and Tommy, the red* Ranger were meant to be together.
To the last sentence you said.....hey...Tommy was the green* ranger!!!!
*later to be white
When playing power rangers with friends you fought over who got to be who............and still all ended up being tommy.
You remember when super nintendo's became popular.
You remember watching home alone 1, 2 , and 3........and tried to pull the pranks on "intruders"
"I've fallen and I can't get up"
You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates
Two words... Trapper Keeper.
You ever got injured on a Slip 'n' Slide
You wore socks over leggings scrunched down
"Miss Mary Mack, Mack, Mack, all dressed in black, black, black, with silver buttons, buttons, buttons, all down her back, back, back" SHE ASKED HER MOTHER MOTHER MOTHER FOR FIFTY CENTS CENTS CENTS TO SEE THE ELEPHANTS PHANTS PHANTS JUMP OVER THE FENCE THE FENCE THE FENCE
he jumped so high high high he touched the sky sky sky and he didnt come back back back til the forth of july ly ly he jumped so low ow ow he stubbed his toe toe toe and thats the end end end of the elephants show show show
You remember boom boxes vs. cd players
You remember New Kids on The Block when they were cool
You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By The Bell"
You played and or collected "Pogs"
You had at least one Tamagotchi, GigaPet or Nano and brought it everywhere
You watched the original Care Bears, My Little Pony, and Ninja Turtles
NANCY DREW AND THE HARDY BOYS WERE THE BEST MYSTERY BOOKS
Yikes pencils and erasers were the stuff!
All your school supplies were "Lisa Frank" brand.(pencils.notebooks.binders.etc.)
You remember when the new Beanie Babies were always sold out.
You used to wear those stick on earings, not only on your ears, but at the corners of your eyes.
You remember a time before the WB.
You've gotten creeped out by "Are You Afraid of the Dark?"
You know the Macarena by heart.
"Talk to the hand" ... enough said
You thought Brain woud finally take over the world
You always said, "Then why don't you marry it!"
You remember when everyone went slinky crazy.
You remember when razor scooters were cool.
when we were younger:
Before the MySpace frenzy.
Before the Internet & text messaging.
Before Sidekicks & iPods.
Before MIKE JONES
Before PlayStation2 or X-BOX.
Back when you put off the 5 hours of homework you had every night.
WHEN LIGHT UP SNEAKERS WERE KOOL
When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs.
When gas was $0.95 a gallon & Caller ID was a new thing.
When we recorded stuff on VCRs & paid $3.50 for a movie.
When we called the radio station to request songs to hear off our walkmans.
When 2Pac and Biggie where alive.
When the Chicago Bulls were the best team ever.
Way back.
Tag.
Get Over Here!!!! means something to you.
Hide-n-Go Seek at dusk.
Red Light, Green Light.
Heads Up 7 Up.
Playing Kickball & Dodgeball until your porch light came on.
Hopskotch.
Slip-n-Slides.... now there are just ghetto ones
Tree Houses.
Hula Hoops.
Reading R.L. Stine's Goose Bumps.
HELLO....HOT WHEELS!!!!!
"POWER OF LOVE" BY CELINE DION..ONLY COUPLES COULD SKATE TO THIS.
The annoying Nano Pets & Furbies.
Running through the sprinklers.
That "Little Mermaid"
Crying when Mufasa died in the Lion King.
Happy Meals where you chose a Barbie or a Hot Wheels car.
Getting the privelage to sit in the front seat of the car.
Drinking Sqeeze It "Squeeze The Fun Out Of It"
CAPRI SUN
Watching Saturday Morning Cartoons in your PJ's still wrapped up in your TMNT, Power Rangers, Barbie, Fairy Princess comforter.
Hey Arnold, Doug, Rugrats.
The original Power Rangers
Or what about:
The Secret Life of Alex Mac.
Ren & Stimpy.
Double Dare.
Rocco's Modern Life.
AAAHH!! REAL MONSTERS.
Wild & Crazy Kids.
Clarissa Explains it All.
CAMP NOWHERE
salute your shorts(CAMP ANAWANA)
Are You Afraid of the Dark?
The original cast members of all that.
Kenan & Kel.
"CITY GUYS"...ROLLW/ THE CITY GUYS
doug.
magic school bus.
Nick Arcade.
flash forward.
pete and pete.
legends of the hidden temple.
hey dude.
dinosaurs.
pinky and the brain.
Sailor Moon.
blossom.
hangin with mr.copper.
wishbone.
bill-nye the science guy.
MR RODGERS!!!!
Who could forget Snick? & Nick @ Nite with Bewitched, I Dream of Jenie, The Facts of Life & I Love Lucy.
Where everyone wanted to be in love after watching The Wonder Years.
or nick jr. with face
gulah gulah island
little bear
under the unbrella tree
PEE-WEE!!!
The Big Comfy Couch
Kool-Aid was the drink of choice.
Wearing your new shoes on the first day of school.
Class field trips.
POGS
When Christmas was the most exciting time of year.
When $5 seemed like a million, & another dollar a miracle.
When you begged to go to McDonalds for dinner everyday.
When Toys R Us overuled the mall.
Go back to the time when:
Decisions were made by going 'eeny-meeny-miney-moe'.
Mistakes were corrected by simply exclaiming 'do over!'
'Race issue' ment arguing about who ran the fastest.
Money issues were handled by whoever was banker in 'Monopoly'.
It wasn't odd to have two or three 'best' friends.
Being old referred to anyone over 20.
A chance to skate as a couple at the local roller rink was like winning the lottery.
Scrapes & bruises were kissed & made better.
It was a big deal to finally be tall enought to ride the 'big people' rides at the fair.
When playing Nintendo was the hardest thing ever.
When Ninja Turtles ruled the world.
Before we realized all this would eventually disappear
who would have thought youd miss the 90's so much!!!!!
Sorry guys...the cut wouldn't work...deal with it.
You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE!"
You can sing the rap to "The Fresh Prince Of Bel Air"
You remember when Kurt Cobain, Tu Pac, River Phoenix, and Selena died.
You know that "WOAH" comes from Joey from "Blossom" and that "How Rude!" comes from Stephanie from "Full House"
You remember when it was actually worth getting up early
on a Saturday to watch cartoons.
You got super excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.
You remember reading "Goosebumps"
You know the profound meaning of "Wax on, wax off"
You have pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.
You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school.
you danced to "wannabe" by the Spice Girls, Females: had a new motto, Males: got a whole lot gay-er. (so tell me what you want, what you really really want.)
You remember the craze then the banning of slap bracelets and slam books.
You still get the urge to say "NOT" after (almost) every sentence...Not...
Where in the world is Carmen San Diego? was both a game and a TV game show.
Captain Planet.
You knew that Kimberly, the pink ranger, and Tommy, the red* Ranger were meant to be together.
To the last sentence you said.....hey...Tommy was the green* ranger!!!!
*later to be white
When playing power rangers with friends you fought over who got to be who............and still all ended up being tommy.
You remember when super nintendo's became popular.
You remember watching home alone 1, 2 , and 3........and tried to pull the pranks on "intruders"
"I've fallen and I can't get up"
You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates
Two words... Trapper Keeper.
You ever got injured on a Slip 'n' Slide
You wore socks over leggings scrunched down
"Miss Mary Mack, Mack, Mack, all dressed in black, black, black, with silver buttons, buttons, buttons, all down her back, back, back" SHE ASKED HER MOTHER MOTHER MOTHER FOR FIFTY CENTS CENTS CENTS TO SEE THE ELEPHANTS PHANTS PHANTS JUMP OVER THE FENCE THE FENCE THE FENCE
he jumped so high high high he touched the sky sky sky and he didnt come back back back til the forth of july ly ly he jumped so low ow ow he stubbed his toe toe toe and thats the end end end of the elephants show show show
You remember boom boxes vs. cd players
You remember New Kids on The Block when they were cool
You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By The Bell"
You played and or collected "Pogs"
You had at least one Tamagotchi, GigaPet or Nano and brought it everywhere
You watched the original Care Bears, My Little Pony, and Ninja Turtles
NANCY DREW AND THE HARDY BOYS WERE THE BEST MYSTERY BOOKS
Yikes pencils and erasers were the stuff!
All your school supplies were "Lisa Frank" brand.(pencils.notebooks.binders.etc.)
You remember when the new Beanie Babies were always sold out.
You used to wear those stick on earings, not only on your ears, but at the corners of your eyes.
You remember a time before the WB.
You've gotten creeped out by "Are You Afraid of the Dark?"
You know the Macarena by heart.
"Talk to the hand" ... enough said
You thought Brain woud finally take over the world
You always said, "Then why don't you marry it!"
You remember when everyone went slinky crazy.
You remember when razor scooters were cool.
when we were younger:
Before the MySpace frenzy.
Before the Internet & text messaging.
Before Sidekicks & iPods.
Before MIKE JONES
Before PlayStation2 or X-BOX.
Back when you put off the 5 hours of homework you had every night.
WHEN LIGHT UP SNEAKERS WERE KOOL
When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs.
When gas was $0.95 a gallon & Caller ID was a new thing.
When we recorded stuff on VCRs & paid $3.50 for a movie.
When we called the radio station to request songs to hear off our walkmans.
When 2Pac and Biggie where alive.
When the Chicago Bulls were the best team ever.
Way back.
Tag.
Get Over Here!!!! means something to you.
Hide-n-Go Seek at dusk.
Red Light, Green Light.
Heads Up 7 Up.
Playing Kickball & Dodgeball until your porch light came on.
Hopskotch.
Slip-n-Slides.... now there are just ghetto ones
Tree Houses.
Hula Hoops.
Reading R.L. Stine's Goose Bumps.
HELLO....HOT WHEELS!!!!!
"POWER OF LOVE" BY CELINE DION..ONLY COUPLES COULD SKATE TO THIS.
The annoying Nano Pets & Furbies.
Running through the sprinklers.
That "Little Mermaid"
Crying when Mufasa died in the Lion King.
Happy Meals where you chose a Barbie or a Hot Wheels car.
Getting the privelage to sit in the front seat of the car.
Drinking Sqeeze It "Squeeze The Fun Out Of It"
CAPRI SUN
Watching Saturday Morning Cartoons in your PJ's still wrapped up in your TMNT, Power Rangers, Barbie, Fairy Princess comforter.
Hey Arnold, Doug, Rugrats.
The original Power Rangers
Or what about:
The Secret Life of Alex Mac.
Ren & Stimpy.
Double Dare.
Rocco's Modern Life.
AAAHH!! REAL MONSTERS.
Wild & Crazy Kids.
Clarissa Explains it All.
CAMP NOWHERE
salute your shorts(CAMP ANAWANA)
Are You Afraid of the Dark?
The original cast members of all that.
Kenan & Kel.
"CITY GUYS"...ROLLW/ THE CITY GUYS
doug.
magic school bus.
Nick Arcade.
flash forward.
pete and pete.
legends of the hidden temple.
hey dude.
dinosaurs.
pinky and the brain.
Sailor Moon.
blossom.
hangin with mr.copper.
wishbone.
bill-nye the science guy.
MR RODGERS!!!!
Who could forget Snick? & Nick @ Nite with Bewitched, I Dream of Jenie, The Facts of Life & I Love Lucy.
Where everyone wanted to be in love after watching The Wonder Years.
or nick jr. with face
gulah gulah island
little bear
under the unbrella tree
PEE-WEE!!!
The Big Comfy Couch
Kool-Aid was the drink of choice.
Wearing your new shoes on the first day of school.
Class field trips.
POGS
When Christmas was the most exciting time of year.
When $5 seemed like a million, & another dollar a miracle.
When you begged to go to McDonalds for dinner everyday.
When Toys R Us overuled the mall.
Go back to the time when:
Decisions were made by going 'eeny-meeny-miney-moe'.
Mistakes were corrected by simply exclaiming 'do over!'
'Race issue' ment arguing about who ran the fastest.
Money issues were handled by whoever was banker in 'Monopoly'.
It wasn't odd to have two or three 'best' friends.
Being old referred to anyone over 20.
A chance to skate as a couple at the local roller rink was like winning the lottery.
Scrapes & bruises were kissed & made better.
It was a big deal to finally be tall enought to ride the 'big people' rides at the fair.
When playing Nintendo was the hardest thing ever.
When Ninja Turtles ruled the world.
Before we realized all this would eventually disappear
who would have thought youd miss the 90's so much!!!!!
- Mood:
chipper - Music:none
