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Sunday, October 5th, 2008
11:02 am	Psychology or counselling Ok so having been binned off by BT after a spectacular two weeks. I am considering a change in career. I am considering doing a BSc in Pschology or to consider a career in the counselling area. This is in part because i am getting more sensitive to people both nice and not so and the sales game is becoming harder to stomach. However I am total newbie here and need to know what i am biting off. So those in the know.. What can i expect to if i want to to clinical psychology same question for councelling what fields of practice are there. what else should i know so i runned scared now not half way into an ou degree. thanks all Jem (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, October 4th, 2008
5:17 pm	So as per usual been bleedin ages since i posted last. For those of my friends who do not like the Spiritual side of my life then do not read this post. That is all it is about. Today I am driven to look back on 25 weeks completed of my Spirit healing out of the required 100 to get recognition as a healer in SNU. For those that don't know although Karen and I sit every week for trance speaking (me) and physical phenomena (karen) I have only added the healing thing more recently. Starting was troublesome with a nasty parochial church that i immediately clashed with the healing group leader by know more about the rules that her. Fortunately the secretary and one of the other healing trainees recommended me to another local group called the Hook Healing Group. This proved as ever with Spirit most auspicious. They are most welcoming and far more open minded that the local church. So for the last 25 weeks i have been going to Gorton Library where the Hook group run a drop in Centre for anyone who cares to call in 2-4. I like this method as it encourages anyone of any denomination or even none to come and get healing without getting any enforced faith aspects. So after 25 weeks there how am I doing? Well to get approved i need only see one patient a week and get that approved by someone who is themselves qualified. (there are other bits too but they are not for here). I however tend to see anything up to six and generally three or four patients in those two hours. During my time I have seen patients with many conditions from osteoporosis, arthritis, depression, tinnitus and many other aches and pains. All seem to benefit from a considerate ear, and time where someone is considering their needs. No miracles there. However, Most patients get a lot calm and peace not just during but following healing. More specifically patients i have seen can now be seen to improve in the conditions they are suffering with. Nothing big as yet but definite improvement. I am scarcely running clinical double blind trials and patients are always encouraged to continue with all normal medical treatment. However, a patient that has had tinnitus and road drill levels for 30 years and seeing moments of quiet after just 8 weeks is I consider some success. I think in part due my team and me given he has tried all other methods known with no success to date. So I am no Steve Upton, I cannot yet dissipate cancer or repair a birth defect or clear cataracts like he has been known to. I however refuse to believe that these abilities are beyond me given time. So I find myself quietly encouraged and looking forward to the next 25 weeks. For any and all who wish me to do absent healing please simply send me a name and condition. I will do what I can. No promises on results and no limitations implied either. (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 28th, 2006
2:55 pm	Birfday and other stuff Thank you to all those who were kind enough to remember my day. I have been bought a cruise round the greek islands for the being old. which is fab. I have also been bought some loverlee chocletts by Velvet and Dan which after fighting the post office have proved most minty. Thank you both. if you want one then come on up in the next few hours or they will all be gone!! in other stuff work is still up to my ears and problematic but it is panning out and it would appear fingers crossed for the first time ever I stand a chance of not only hiting but over achieving my target. Of course no one expects this situation to remain for anything more than a week or two so I am not spending the commision just yet. scary may be in for surgery and hates her job atm which sucks so hopefully the above will allow her to sponge then tell them to stick it. Besides she ceased being my wife when she picked up Oblivion recently and has yet to put it down. I may be going to Greece alone, so any young arractive ladies who have an as yet unused micro bikini collection let me know. I am very good at sun tan lotion. I have finally succumbed to the unbelievable pressure my mates have poured on me up here to try World of Warcraft and find the following after a few hours play by trial. downloading 2.75 gig even at 10Mb sucks downloading 450 gig patch afterwards sucks more being unable to find quests and randomly wandering around really sucks, and the advice from one player of check google beggers belief oblivion is more fun and far better graphics so far but is only single player so that aspect may save it registering 5 times cos the gits time out after 2.13 seconds sucks my cc details are now help by autofill of IE cos Blizzard are dumb or their web designers are. the massive update and moving of characters has prevented me from even trying the damn game today as no new characters are allowed and the only one I had is in a "down" realm. I am the only one to have formed these opinions I will no doubt get 157 comments about how wrong I am but I simply say 6.5m people can be wrong. After all how many people watch football? I will now hide under my Greek rock never to be found again. (13 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 18th, 2006
11:52 pm	my turn for NWO froth I will be short. ( Read more... ) happy days I will take to my grave. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, April 24th, 2006
4:25 pm	once again a long time so it has been a bit March in fact. I am sure I will work out the cut thingy one day but till then sorry. I have no intention of telling you all my entire sordid life since then I am sure you will be relieved to hear so... Home life and the answer to the "how is married life". well it is hectic now cos we are running up to various events and completed others. Emm and Andy (sans LJ) are getting married and we are best man and chief tug boat I think. This is adding a getting married again feel to our lives. The house itself is getting shabby and untidy and we try we really do but we have over the years had various attempts to solve issues that have failed. These include fridges too hard to work out what to buy so didn't, extensions and neighbours etc all far too difficult, back garden renovation that never started despite neighbours offering to do it for us, kitchen renovation far too hard, a dishwasher that has been repaired more times than I have posted on here (5) and most recently a new boiler that the engineer told us we could really place safely anywhere in our home and besides the water pressure is too low so you need new main. oh yeah and wedding albums etc that are likely now to be done after Emma’s wedding! Married life I am pleased to say is the same as before and we are just as happy as ever. Spirit work seems to be progressing nicely with both of us talking in trance now every week, and very interesting it is too. Work is is as usual a nightmare. I am currently potentially under the threat of redundancy, zero pounds and zero pence given time served, and will have to apply for my own job back and go back on a trial period again. This is a bitch I was just settling in and starting to enjoy it. I am also rammed with work and meetings having taken over a colleague’s accounts for her maternity period. should not even really be doing this but I am finding more and more the busy times are making me deliberately hide from the work with avoidance stuff like this. For the record never tell your boss you are not busy!! Course if I do get binned then I can look forward to the £10k pay rise I got every other time so no harm done really. dancing is still cool when we make it, and we are now roughly bronze standard for modern and silver for Latin, tests will no doubt clash but hey ho. larp and roleplaying, had a fab maelstrom and at last had enough staff, the tent has bigger again as have profits. We were given a lock up for this event and simply packed the whole lot into it and went home with empty cars, go Matt this is the kind of thing we want from professional systems. I can honestly say this gets better every time for me. Well looking forward to NWO and have read the brief, MMmmm well gosh, no further comment till after the fact!! We also had a really good ars game with forbiddenproject and westernind. This was really good and for once I kind of get the game. oh yeah and the Rat. for those that do not know we had a rat living in the basement and visiting us in the kitchen when he needed feeding. I bravely went down with a stick to investigate one night and saw him running off under the units. Karen is convinced it is this she hit with our old frying pan. Anyway we in the end got an exterminator and he came and confirmed the issue. We put down poison and the noises at night stopped. Problem solved we thought. Anyway the little git went for the Pyrrhic victory and died on our larp kit and tents so that when we packed we found his dead and rather unpleasant body infecting our tentage. git, double git. Ah well he is no more. Now on the list is block the whole he came into the house in to avoid further mice/ rat visitors. so that is it really you are up to date. again sorry for long and horrible no cuttage. I promise I will work it out. or get an editor for word or something. (11 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, March 3rd, 2006
10:09 am	johari so at the risk of you all telling the truth about me http://kevan.org/johari?name=ellistar go do your worst. (Comment on this)
Monday, January 30th, 2006
10:01 am	found in an actual auction but listen to this http://www.boreme.com/boreme/funny-2005/ebay-song-p1.php (Comment on this)
Friday, January 20th, 2006
10:05 pm	one for JFS BAD language in this one but funny as anything best quote "the Mac killed my inner child" he knows, he really does. http://www.nearlygood.com/video/usingamac.html (3 Comments |Comment on this)
9:57 pm	get some glasses This is funny and ABSOLUTELY NOT work friendly http://www.nearlygood.com/video/gethersomeglasses.html enjoy (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 29th, 2005
9:42 pm	Everything and still can't cut (sorry) ok it has been a long time (again) this is mainly because my work now prohibits any real time online for fun stuff. Ah well. So what has happened since the wedding?! Well Scary and I have been learning to dance as she may have mentioned. Now apart from my total lack of ability to remember any steps whatsoever this is cool. We started some time ago with two social classes and later added a Salsa class. Except the bastards keep cancelling our classes, numbers naturally dwindle and rather than have a structure set of classes you can work to join they just shut down the one you are in and expect you to start again. This is very frustrating. We even spent six months in private classes to get to a new class that was more advanced to have them cancel that after only two weeks. So we are now in two private classes and a Salsa class that is dangerously close to going the way of the others. I have Started work and it is actually fun. I find myself for the first time at a level where I am challenged and my colleagues at least as competent as me (better mostly). This may sound arrogant but I have spent quite a few years at some very lowly jobs. Still arrogant or not it is how I feel. I am constantly worried about producing some actual sales as so fare it has proved very hard. The level I work at means the company size precludes any quick decisions so I am hoping my boss is cool with the progress so far. Fingers crossed. I am also on a six month trial from Aug so until then cannot get the car I wish and am in some god awful 1.4 golf while Scary waltzes around in my A3. Still mustn't complain since she was very tolerant of the "black cloud" as it is known since I bought it whilst she was on holiday in Greece. (Oops) Scary and I are now starting to pay for the wedding with the CC bills arriving but with both of us working this is much less frightening than when we booked it all and I was a bum. Still it was worth every penny and I will always have fond memories of great friends and more hugs than one buttonhole can stand. Thanks again to all that came. The honeymoon was fabulous at a Turkish hotel of the highest order. We never left and apart from avoiding the infantile entertainers it was very chilled and real us time. Just as it should be. We are now starting to ramp up to Emma (sans lj) and Andy's (same) wedding for next year for which we are key personnel. We ran a fun casino for my Photographer's Charity and was most unimpressed with their (not his) attitude, we were however complimented by all the punters who thought we were from a professional casino!! It was fun but all a bit difficult and we had to pay to be there which somehow sticks in my craw charity or not. Then after much whinging the organiser miraculously appears just as we are leaving to say how good it all was (she never even came over) all with said photographer hovering in background. Ah well we can always be busy next year. As spiritualists I guess the most is happening for us. We took the opportunity to go to Stanstead hall again this year. This time only for a few days not a whole week. We were on a hypnotherapy course as related to spirit work as this appeared most interesting. The top and bottom is that a weekend their has got us past a block we have had with our Trance work and this has resulted in both of us speaking in trance (well the best we can manage anyway). This is cool for all kinds of reason but I think that best of all is that we both did it at basically the same time. Same session even. It has given us new vigour to sit each Wednesday too. All good. I think I will post "feelings" about this separately though as it is complicated. I went to a certain party in Brum and although not really my thing was cool all the same. It was very fun to see all the people who regrettably I so rarely do since my exit from certain other systems. My chat with JFS in particular was very cool and if I may say JFS gets better and better with age. you sir are a good wine. Of course all the ladies made great entertainment and a visual treat all round. Prep for the new season of Maelstrom abounds and if he ever gives us dates we may even attend some them. NWO of course is a thing of great anticipation with the return of old innocent again!! I cannot wait to once again be chewed by one and all. Bring it on. (did I say that? Arse) So life marches on fast. We are ordering the entire internet in for Christmas it seems and I still need to visit my mum in Oxford more. My brother seems to be finally overcoming his Crack addiction which is great even if it precluded his attendance at my wedding. I am as ever looking forward to New Year with our closest friends and only wished our house was five times the size so we could include all of people we think come into that category. And I think that gets you vaguely up to speed assuming you did not all fall asleep at the Dance bit and then skip to here. Hey I cannot blame you I would have. Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Mozart Requiem of course (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 8th, 2005
10:48 pm	me a hero? just doing my job You scored as James Bond, Agent 007. James Bond is MI6's best agent, a suave, sophisticated super spy with charm, cunning, and a license's to kill. He doesn't care about rules or regulations and somewhat amoral. He does care about saving humanity though, as well as the beautiful women who fill his world. Bond has expensive tastes, a wide knowledge of many subjects, and his usually armed with a clever gadget and an appropriate one-liner. </td> James Bond, Agent 007 79% Neo, the "One" 75% Maximus 71% The Amazing Spider-Man 67% Lara Croft 67% Batman, the Dark Knight 58% Captain Jack Sparrow 58% El Zorro 54% Indiana Jones 54% The Terminator 33% William Wallace 25% Which Action Hero Would You Be? v. 2.0 created with QuizFarm.com but of course (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, October 14th, 2005
6:38 pm	Justice and Morality: You believe in doing what is right for others and maybe even for yourself. People would consider you one with good morals, and someone who would not let them down. Which Characteristic From the Samurai Code Matches You Best? (You may find out your best trait) brought to you by Quizilla (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 18th, 2005
6:05 pm	Long time no post, real long, Warning Warning. Ok I know, I know, I am essentially lazy and have only been posting to date because believe it or not I had a little spare time when I had no job. Well all that has changed. I will try and keep this brief but a lot has happened job. I started a new job a month ago. It is what i wanted exactly. In Communications, a high level sales position selling to corporate accounts in a stable company. I have a boss who is unreadable and seems to throw emotions around as a method of getting what he wants. This is a little disturbing. He has given me the parent company as an account, United Utilities. He has told me there has to be a lot more business to be found and I have to go find it. Oh yeah and by the way this is a difficult thing with lots of politics so in the meantime hit your target any way you can. AND. There is a team of people (3) who are part of this account already and all existing business is there’s. Yours is the new stuff. All a bit odd really, this is high profile succeed or die and the MD and board are interested in your results. Except the team in place are a bit pissed as they were already doing this. add to that the fact that the company has as good as signed a fully comprehensive MPLS network solution for the next then years and I am not convinced there is anything to be found. but failure is not an option. Then add to this the fact that when I do find several £100k of business every possible obstacle is put in my way to stop me getting it signed. All this and I am getting married soon so hitting target would ease a few burdens. not, it seems to be. home. I get nothing done at the moment. I am so knackered after 8 months as a bum returning to office work after over 4 years that I am constantly knackered. I hope that post wedding I will get some time. Fat chance I bet. Games I am not playing any paper or LRP games. I have am simply too busy or disinclined with all the other shit going on. I still wanted to go to Maelstrom and will be going to NWO but have not mental spare to give to them until I am wed. The big one The Wedding What can I say, I have the best mates, the best church with the best congregation and the best spirit crew any trainee medium could want. I had a great stag with 20 guys at Ruthin castle arranged by Andy (sans lj) at short notice, He has been fantastic. He got that off the ground in two weeks. After all I could not make my mind up what I wanted. then we had to plan and execute a list that just kept getting longer. Every moment seemed absorbed with wedding stuff. We high jacked parties to listen to music (sorry Anne), Barbecues at Tamsin’s to do the same, went out stayed in got angry, got pissed off, got fed up, went to meetings, rehearsals hid under rocks, agonised about petrol crisis, Ushers who could not make it due to illness at the last minute (missed you Larians), got a replacement, went to rehearsals, rewrote some of the ceremony got cakes made by the bridesmaid and Anne, friends helped, tasted cakes, tasted more cake, tasted wine and toasts, tasted too much, burnt music, edited music, re-burnt music after glitches found, listened to it every day to and from work, tried to lose weight for the day, failed, went to church with list of stuff, got reassurance, and again, and again,.... and again but somehow got stuff done and I must say mostly by our friends. I dunno it all seems ok from this end but at the time a nightmare. Scarey has posted herself about the day but here is my take. we arrived on the Friday after a v Stressful morning to find that the church had been dressed by a church with a locals championship winning flowers and the harvest festival fruit and veg. Arthur must have just cut every yellow red and gold flower he had grown to achieve this and he was at the nationals having won. Brilliant. Scarey just cried, I had an inkling at last it was going to be ok this wedding thing. We had little to do here so I went off for my last night with Andy and Paul, letched in a pub and got good and drunk so I looked and felt my best on the day. I got up early and we went for big breakfast and flower pick up on the Saturday morning. I ironed everyone’s shirts, They were mostly mine anyway, and then we all got in the car. M6 was kind and we got there way too early. So we hung about a bit, except the M6 was kind to everyone and they all arrived really early , good job my direction were awful. so we hung around and family and friends all arrived. The ceremony was fab, really, The no kids thing helped as the whole thing was fun and serious at the same time. The vows were totally right June finally got my name right and barring the avoidance of too much of eye contact with Scarey due to tearfulness it was cool. We signed we left we returned there was photos with our fabulous photographer and then in to tea and cake and a great social party. but of all of it... to me it seemed that the people who came all seemed touched by the ceremony and pleased to be there. God I am just glad you all came. It was always to be an occasion to share with our friends here and there and it turned out to be just that. You all made it for us both. The supreme effort that so many made to help us get to the church on time, dressed with all the bits we need was just beyond the ability we have to thank you. We love you all and feel closer now to you all than we ever have. We missed those who could not make it of course. for the record to my personal thanks have to go to Anne for two days of baking for us and brushing aside the effort Emma for too much to mention but mostly cake baking and organising us for over a year Andy for really being my best man in every way and again a year of tolerance Paul for being the most considerate and gentle usher I have seen including me Noj for being there when Russ could not make it, on time in a suit and being fab Andrea for doing drinks all evening when he was not even asked Tamsin for skivvying for us when ill and tolerating us for the last three years June for a fab service Joyce for fab food and not accepting real money for it, and then healing Sandra Arthur for the best flowers ever again for gratis the ladies of the church for dressing and serving again for gratis Dave and Sandra for being there and spending far too much on us for everyone who gave us money cheques, presents, cameras and even those who did not tell us who it was from to our spirit friends for getting us there to the usual suspects who gave me the money I needed to buy my wedding ring for my birthday, I will remember it always to the usual suspects who again dug deep so we could have a beautiful evening together at Mottram Hall after it was all over. but mostly to absolutely everyone who came and gave us the love you all did on the day and to all those who could not make it but gave us that love anyway. We are totally overwhelmed by how truly lucky we both are to have such a wonderful group of friends. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 23rd, 2005
10:24 pm	quick update more follows at weekend For the record New job ok but slow start stag night v cool with many good friends wedding bloody close Most things done really tired want more time with access to LJ ah well (2 Comments |Comment on this)
10:20 pm	Random Meme thingy ( Meme ) (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 11th, 2005
2:41 pm	Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas so as a bum of the highest order of the last eight months it has been incumbent on me to entertain myself in manner that would cost little or nothing1. So availed myself of the mighty Grand theft auto San Andreas. Having finished it today I thought I would let you know what I thought. **probable minor spoilers if you are playing** ( Thoughts ) So in summary and for those who could not be bothered with the cut. I have never been this impressed with a free format game and I am absolutely stunned with what rockstar have achieved. I can only wholeheartedly recommend it to anyone. It has kept me sane for my recent bumdom and was only £35 the same as games with only 20 hours of play. You will of course need a 2nd life to finish it. 1.and keep my eyesight! Current Mood: bored (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 28th, 2005
1:48 pm	Job HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ha ha ha .. he he ha ha ha ha ha ha ha Mmmmmmtchhe he he HAHA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH Mmmm bettter now I got told by agency this morning that I am being offered the job. early days of course but it seems i am not longer a bum finished Harry Potter this morning too, READ IT. (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, July 25th, 2005
2:18 pm	weekend and interviews soooooo. bin a while cut type stuff of Weekend ( Weekend ) so that was it. I was real grateful the weekend was full to be honest all I can do now is Wor.. er waiting patiently. Current Mood: worried (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 13th, 2005
11:37 am	meme Before i start I would like to officially say i am a knight. However a Ninja You scored 9 Honor, 5 Justice, 6 Adventure, and 4 Individuality! You are a soldier of the night. You rely on no more than your cunning and your repuation to strike fear in the hearts of lord and peasant alike. You've a sense of honor, but one that comes from within, not imposed from outside. Black clothes and shuriken for you. You're gonna do just fine. My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 71% on Ninjinuity You scored higher than 51% on Knightlyness You scored higher than 44% on Cowboiosity You scored higher than 30% on Piratical Bent Link: The Cowboy-Ninja-Pirate-Knight Test written by fluffy71 on Ok Cupid which is a surprise. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, July 11th, 2005
11:31 am	So Maelstrom went on Thursday for usual find the sit crew and assist with Tent put uppage. site half filled with School kids as they double booked the site. Bastards... but not matts fault and they did thier best to alleviate a bad situation. the maelstrom crew were once again a fantastic and cheerful set of people. Bill Pennington is a diamond and in the delay found us an extra section of tent..so we were bigger again. We have got bigger 5 times in six events. Since event two we have done this with Maelstroms help as they provided the tentage since that time. We now have provided gratis a 65 X 25 foot tent that is put up and taken down for us. (we help of course). This is a total winner for us and indicative of the maelstrom attitude. We are not a colony or trade house. Just a group within one and this comes with no argument and we have been powered and lit since then too!! I am expecting carpet next time!! The Casino was ironically less busy this time. or at least more spread out. This was a little frustrating for me personally but it was because the players have finally got off their ass and started shooting each other. So that is good for the system i guess. I should not really complain we are making good money and we are so stretched anyway more customers would be problematic anyway. (anyone want to join us in the group for unlimited coffee, hard work, shite hours and no pay do call). The site had a new caterer too. Earthheart. They are a veggie hippy group straight from Glastonbury. They have thirty people (not all present) and a massive tent that makes a sleeping dragon when up fully. They have chill space and murals inside and are up 24 hours a day. This proved very convenient for us and we could close the casino when we had had enough and shut up shop turn off the lights and go to them for our own chill out time. we never went to bed till it got light all weekend. Em was again fantastic with hot flowing coffee and cake. but she is not having as much fun as the rest of us. The reason is a sad one. We are too busy to be considerate and worse our customers are proving to be ingonrant and expoitative. We serve our customers and charge only in character money. We have asked for OOC donations but even these are not terribly forthcoming. This weekend we heard someone we had sent away as we were closed say. "well I am buggered if I am paying £1 for a coffee so I will go without!". so this means people are exploiting us and depleting the caterers. Worse they can't even be nice when they ask. They also seem to think we do this for them! they wander in at all times and expect we will just jump. We even had three people turn up when we were mid pack up and in jeans to see if we would put the kettle on!! so we now have to have membership and refuse those who are not members. Just because they are pesants. We will charge OOC and IC for this membership and that will hopefully mean that we can control this unacceptable behaviour. GOD almighty it was hot. We spent most of the day hiding in the doorway of the tent and this was the only place where there was relief. Got a tan and Scary_lady actually felt really ill during pack up. Ironic as it is normally me that feels shit in the sun. Oh well she is ok now. so in conclusion. again a fantastic system. has problems but all minor ones really and mostly are because of the ambition of what they aim for. It is real fun and i only regret not being able to make the next one. but a week before my wedding is no time to go larping. (9 Comments |Comment on this)