Friday, July 11th, 2008
11:22 pm - this wasn't supposed to come out as a rant, but... y'know. it happens.


current mood: headache ;_;
current music: QUESTION? - bitter-ender


One thing I hate about my f-list, these days, is seeing names of the unsavory variety from old fandoms reappearing now in my current fandoms. The ones that brought on the utmost stupid that accounted for about 80% of the reasons that drove me away from them in the first place -- as if regular fandom didn't have freak enough, these total raging bitches following along are the sort that make, as an example, kat-tun fans look rather tranquil and reticent.

That bad, huh?

Quite.

It's honestly scaring me to see these names again as they were ousted time and time again from this place and another, and never seemed to get the idea through their dense fucking skulls that they are in serious err. It bothers me in a serious way -- you know me, I'm so non-drama and relaxed and comfortable, so its not a small wonder at all when others have the capability to put me on edge on sight alone.

There's people on the internet, just like in life, you really want to not see again -- really just forget they exist with their uncanny ability to just make everything strained and difficult.

It's a dreadful feeling to me -- me, who gets along with everyone, also having people that are -- not enemies, I wouldn't call them -- but unwelcome in my sunshine.



On another note, one thing I like about my f-list these days is that I cleaned up a heap of communities off and away that I can actually read posts again. The last few months, after going several pages back and seeing none but random, pointless comm posts and graphics and badfic -- (Ok, this is harsh, but shit, if you have no confidence in your abilities in English, be you a second or native speaker, get confident, then write, otherwise there is no getting around the fact that you've just dropped yet another embarrassment to writers on livejournal. It's like beta-readers are foregone, as is simple proof-reading. Or an actual desire to improve over senseless pr0nz written so badly that I'm certain the author has never actually HAD sex or experience in anything in particular outside of whatever schooling, past or present. In which case I'd suggest they get off the computer and find a life, discover what its about, then come back with something that's actually worthwhile -- ).

... Hey, wasn't I supposed to be telling the 'LIKE' part? I sidetrack easily -- stepping back....

I can actually find posts now. And read them. Instead of just giving up on my livejournal completely.

I missed it. :D;

Although I'm still the worlds worst commenter, though I insist, a good reader, I'm happy reading posts again.

It's kind of a simple pleasure, really.

*purrs contented-like~*

.::fight for win ♥ kibou ~yell~.mp6 ::.


Friday, June 27th, 2008
1:36 am


current mood: lsaksgjkslhfskhja'flg
current music: somthin'


No one is ever awake when I need to scream and flail the most.

*kicks the east coast over~*

I also realize that I still fail at keeping my LJ up to date, but honestly, everything I have to say is so uninteresting that I'd bore myself to type it. Though life is good, I'm not really large on recaps. I suppose its important to note that a muse I've kept close to me for years now is unofficially dead to me -- the feeling, like all feelings, has moved on -- closure is slightly necessary. An elegy. A dark-figure shuffling off into the night. Ashes to ashes, lust to dust.

And I urge to write. I do.



i n s p i r a t i o n


I have it in troves.

But it's like discovering some old dilapidated trunk secreted in the attic, full up with vintage costume clothes and jewelry, I don't know what I'd like to put on first.


Sigh.



Where be the east coast when you need it most?

.::fight for win ♥ kibou ~yell~.mp2 ::.


Monday, May 12th, 2008
11:29 pm - bleep bleep bleep


current mood: busy
current music: some stuff, i dunno


I journal.

Hi. :D

I'll come back when SMT quits eating my life.

And somewhere in between that, there's probably work to be done and poor little pooped-on-repeatedly car needs a bath (I emo the bird-shitty. For seriously. I think everyone can relate, here D:) and my hair is asking me for a new dye-job.

Hopefully, I'll save the world soon.

And then we shall return to our regularly scheduled internet-ing.

.::fight for win ::.


Sunday, April 13th, 2008
4:51 pm - Q!:


current mood: contemplative
current music: Se7en - I wanna...


I have to ask because I really don't actually know -- curiousity sparks within!

But exactly how many RPers are there on ye old FL?

And yes, this survey includes you, quiet ones -- specifically the quiet ones, actually. XD;

.::fight for win ♥ kibou ~yell~.mp26 ::.


Wednesday, February 27th, 2008
8:03 pm - What does she do when hot fratboys come into work? -- slash them immediately.


current mood: tired
current music: I dunno


I've been quiet lately -- busy between work and moving and readjusting to a different environment all over again... is a little weird, but I'm managing.

Work is exhausting. So I haven't much else to say because I'm way too tired to think to say anything....

However, I do have one deep thought of the day (as put to Meghan about 30 seconds ago):



Last of Romance: it saddens me that japan doesn't have fratboys >>;
Last of Romance: I have SLs dancing in my head
Last of Romance: ................
Last of Romance: .................
Last of Romance: :D
Last of Romance: "rush week" -- mmmhmmm~~~~



(As inspired by smoking hot fratboys that gave me a large tip today. :333)

:D~

Dude. Think about it.



attizzikah: nerd XD


(But she loves me for it ♥ ).

.::fight for win ::.


Saturday, February 2nd, 2008
8:53 pm


current mood: ditzy


Just sat down and finally watched Showta's PV for his new single (haru na no ni, that is).

I made myself die -- all those girls it shows in the beginning of it, I thought to myself "wow, I didn't know Showta had so many brothers~ :3"

And then they start LIP SYNCING and SHOWTA's voice coming out of a bunch of GIRLS mouths was.... amusing, to say the least. Because it fit. And Showta blends right in with the flock (because if it walks like a duck, and talks like a duck, then its obviously.... ok, so it isn't obvious. Pants check, plz).

Are they really women? Amongst boy wonder, one cannot quite tell. XD;



.... I love Showta. He is so of the ghei, it puts hearts in the pupils of my eyes. ♥♥♥


....


♥♥♥♥♥


It's also occurred to me, recently, that I went from fangirling men who tried to emulate the softer look of women to men who just flat out should be women. It isn't a purposeful thing, merely... a trend, as of late. Taichi is not helping this, oh no, oh no.

(and Pi who is quite manly, as always, helps me not with his large gazangas.....)


....

(first usage of the word 'gazanga' in this LJ since its creation, which was several years ago -- I mark this a special occasion and will celebrate by speaking no further. For the good of the world. Really. My paycheck was tiny and after rent, I can't feed myself -- yay! ^_^ -- so I'm ridiculously hungry and somehow starvation is making me absolutely loopytarded. Expect this to get much worse as the week progresses).

PS. My LJ client wants to replace 'showta' with 'showboat' and that.... that's very special to me. 8D;

.::fight for win ♥ kibou ~yell~.mp3 ::.


Tuesday, January 29th, 2008
4:32 am


current mood: mellow


I bought a fishingpole-like cat toy for Goblin with detachable colorful things with ghei pink feathers that she likes to destroy.

I give it two days before it dies. One day for the toys, another before she takes the pole apart bit by plastic bit. ♥

Or maybe it'll be three days. One for each toy, one for the pole.

It was a bit pricier than I'd like to spend on a cat toy... hoping for the sake of it lasting longer than her poor, mangled, pink poof that I haven't had the heart to throw out as its so cute when she's running around with it in her mouth and being generally possessive of it and quite vicious (Because its pink. And poofy. And bigger than her head).



And just forget about the catnip toys I just bought.

Those poor mice? Disemboweled. Catnip fluff everywhere (and dug out of the garbage later, after I'd disposed of it).



..... Have I ever mentioned that cats are a joy?

Cuz they are. They just.... like to keep it a secret sometimes. ♥♥♥

.::fight for win ♥ kibou ~yell~.mp1 ::.


Tuesday, January 15th, 2008
9:23 pm - lazy times yo


current mood: bubbly :3
current music: abingdon boys school - Dress


Since I've had the last few days off, I've gotten around to watching a few of this season's dramas. Just a few. There's a HEAP I still want to see. :X

(The one with JJ Lin starring as a guy whose been told he's handsome all of his life, only to find out everyone was lying? -- s;g'sajglsdjgkjg I'm so all over this XDDD)

1 Pound No Fukuin:

This is the stupidest idea evar. I thought so when it was announced, I still think so after watching it.

HOWEVER

I now understand what the big people in life were after in this:
Sweaty, scantily-clad Kame. Guh. *falls to pieces~*

Honey and Clover:

ILU, Toma. <3

... that's my commentary. I love the cast of this one more than I love... other things.


ashita no kita yoshio:

Win. Total. Fucking. Win. XD If someone doesn't sub this soon so I can fully understand those parts that I can't fully understand, I'll cry so hard. XD

Ryuhei... *falls to pieces all over again~*





In other news.... I have none, really. I've been pretty sickish again, so sitting in front of my computer doing nothing has been my life, as of late, aside from rather uneventful work week. It's been so ridiculously slow lately. :|

Goblin, the older she gets, the more adorable she is. This morning, she curled up with me and slept like a little kid and/or stuffed animal with heartbeat -- in my arms and sprawled on her back with her tiny head resting on my shoulder. I wish someone could have photographed it. But not. Goblin = cute. Kelsey bedhead = not.

( But this is just adorable )<33333

.::fight for win ♥ kibou ~yell~.mp1 ::.


Thursday, January 10th, 2008
3:28 am


current mood: boy-crazy~
current music: JJ Lin - Endless Road


d'slh';kdh'lds;hkf;hkk;f'hgjdla;dss;dgfl!!!

And that is all I have to say about that. :X

( Maybe )

I'm glad I don't work tomorrow. I'd just like to... not have to go to work for a long time.

.::fight for win ♥ kibou ~yell~.mp1 ::.


Saturday, January 5th, 2008
11:16 pm


current mood: always right
current music: Some song


This needs no real context --


Last of Romance: Altho Toma is more manly, I'm assuming the panties on his head in Hana Kimi are somehow metaphorical about him wanting to be spanked XD

(me to NC, about two min ago)


*winz~*

.::fight for win ♥ kibou ~yell~.mp2 ::.