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Thursday, October 12th, 2006
9:11 pm	Well, it's definitely fall. It is cool outside and the shadows are really long. There is a chill in the air even when it isn't cold or when there is wind. I was in a wreck last night, but it was in a parking lot and I don't feel much pain at all. Why was I in a wreck? My Narcolepsy. So it seems I'm going to have to undergo some tests to see if I even get to drive anymore. It was a fender-bender, but still scary that I didn't get any tell-tale signs bfore it happened. I don't even remember the incident and they thought I was drunk until my friend told them what was really going on. Medical bracelet time? heh. ahem. At least no one was hurt and the person was a nurse and caught on quickly. Now I can't drive to work. Ahhhhhh, sucky week. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 26th, 2006
4:16 pm	Well, my brother comes to visit for a week starting tomorrow. :) Look forward to it. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
4:13 pm	Sexiest voice ever Yum! Has anyone seen this yet? http://www.apple.com/trailers/lions_gate/leonardcohenimyourman/ (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 25th, 2006
12:52 am	settling in Well, I'm settling in. Thought I'd update as I haven't in ages. Don't really have a thought in my head right now to write down, but wanted to get started writing again so something is better than nothing at this point. I'm sorry I wasn't able to do things before I left, but will be back in October. Anyway, I will try to start being more regular with this again. so Hi and goodnight. (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 27th, 2006
7:20 pm	Narcolepsy is not a fun party trick. I'm starting to take my medication again today, because I could be very close to losing my driver's liscence. Not a good thing. I barely remember last night and I had to have someone come and get me and my car. I haven't been taking my medicine regularly and scared the shit out of loved ones last night with a simple trip to Blockbuster. I barely remember the event, but apparently the Blockbuster people were about to call an ambulance. I thought I took my ritalin, but took something else that made me even sleepier and I was apparently shaking and appeared drunk. I will be going to see a doctor soon about it because I have bad bruises and it is getting worse than it has been in the past years. I don't want to be even more homebound than I've already made myself. Maybe I should talk to some people that have it as well, support group.... Because I always try to hide it and it isn't working anymore. Anyway, I miss being social and I want to go back to school and Narcolepsy is hindering both of these things. It isn't necessarily scheduled all the time but seems to be somewhat. Grounding myself from the car makes me feel trapped and I want to know if perhaps I'm not being treated properly and something can be done to fix this. My tell-tell signs aren't as noticeable as they used to be either. Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: dogs barking and parrot squaking (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 5th, 2006
1:18 pm	My computer hasn't been working and still isn't. I hope to be back online soon. Just a note to let you know I haven't just disappeared again. Current Music: dogs barking and parrot squaking (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 16th, 2006
4:23 pm	ACHOO! Spring is EVIL! I am so freaking sneezy and itchy eyed. Give me a bubble to walk around in ANYDAY! So I accidently slept in today when I was supposed to meet someone and show them how to do some things on a certain program. oopsie. Now I'm looking at an impossibley messy room and trying to come up with a strategy on cleaning. Everytime I almost have that magical thought, I sneeze and it is gone. Music is loud and energetic, what's the problem? I think the main problem is that I have no way of getting to the boxes because my step-father put something heavy on top of them and I can't find a trashbag so I'm using little bags to seperate things out. Things that go to others, things to get rid of, etc. But it now just looks like a plastic mess on one side and the same old mess on the other. hee hee. And of course, I'm on my computer... That might be a problem... Current Mood: indescribable Current Music: Dead Kennedys - Buzzbomb from Pasadena (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, March 6th, 2006
1:02 am	Much better mood this evening...er... morning... now..... than I was earlier in the day....yesterday...er... a few hours ago. Though I wasted my day trying to pin down what problem I was/am having with my computer. Came out with the fact that what I need still doesn't work. Have a few other things to try, but I'm sick of messing with it. bleh. NO MORE today. For some reason, port 7070 is being blocked. I've found that it's either something on my machine (no, not firewall or router or ISP) or it is the location I'm going. Have a lot of info that I have a friend going over after running some traces on things. Ugh, if I only had a second computer. Boredom. Guess I should sleep or something. AND DAMMIT, THE TREES ARE FLOWERING ALREADY!!!!! Sneeze-city. Current Mood: bored Current Music: Welcome to my Nightmare - Alice Cooper and the Muppets (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 5th, 2006
2:14 pm	No time for life It's always "In just a little while" or "Tomorrow" or "At the end of the week". It's been that way for most of my life and I've hated it the whole time, while patiently waiting. "In a little while", "Tomorrow", and "At the end of the week" never come. And now I realize I'm living my entire life the same way. And my favorite addition, "Deciding not to decide and just waiting". I woke up in my 30's, grey hair here and there, realized how tired I was of not living, so I did something about it, made a huge change and put things in motion for an even bigger change. Now that it is coming near, other things are tackling me left and right to keep me from moving on in my life and I just don't know if I have the strength to deal with any of it anymore. So what comes into play? Choosing not to decide. I've never changed nor made it towards change as I thought I was doing. Someday I will wake up in my 60's just as I woke up and was in my 30's. I don't like it at all. Current Mood: crushed (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 4th, 2006
12:26 am	Utter depression. Current Mood: pessimistic Current Music: old Russian Gypsy song
Sunday, February 26th, 2006
1:54 pm	www.tidelandthemovie.com Watch the trailer if you haven’t seen it already. Go through the back door and you will find the trailer and some clips. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
12:24 pm	I wonder where Frank found Green Grass to Baaaaa on. Went to a Mardi Gras party at a friend of the family's house last night. It was alright, good food, knew a couple of people, definitely not the kind of parties I'm used to going to (snicker). But there was something weird. I waas definitely singled out age-wise. There were either high-school students or parents of said students. Hmmmmm, who to hang out with. I knew a few of the parents and did so. The 'children' didn't say anything to me. God, I've reached the age that I am definitely not in that age group. Was weird. But hey, the 'kids' couldn't drink Hurricaines either. heheheh.. Really felt fucking weird to be hanging out with my parents and people of their age and younger. Anyway, would have been much better if I'd brought someone to the party with me. But again, it wasn't bad except for feeling the definite age gaps. Heh, I made a joke about the Pink Floyd poster in the boy's room and it was funny and they just kind of heh'd as they would an ELDER. Bleh. bleh bleh!! ANYWAY! My room is a MESS!! And I want nothing to do with it except for the green fuzzy blanket, oh so comfy. Time to search for jobs. Wish me luck. Current Mood: amused Current Music: Old taping of Radio SLAK (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 21st, 2006
9:25 pm	The job market sucks right now. (8 Comments |Comment on this)
8:53 pm	Back in town, had a blast. Went to St. Louis and Chicago and just stayed for like 10 days visiting friends and all. Let me tell you, -16 windchill is not a happy confetti feeling. Then I come back here and there is ice everywhere. Current Mood: amused (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 5th, 2006
12:02 am	LambdaMOO still down? what the hell? It's always there in my time of need! dammit! Current Mood: annoyed (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 31st, 2006
8:09 pm	Only Tuesday??? Will this week never end? It feels like it should be Thursday without a doubt! So, my room is a complete mess, a lot of it being clothes and Christmas items I still haven't unpacked and the washer is broken. Looks like I get to go pick me up a laundry-mat honey! Er... no. Don't really have anything interesting to post so I won't just babble. Not really in the babble mood. Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: Waltzing Matilda - The Pogues (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 29th, 2006
7:14 pm	Wine hangover hit about 4 a.m. MMmmm fun. Peanutbutter Cap'n Crunch and tylonol helped. Then I slept all day. I need to work on my resume, but just can't get up the urge. So I'm procrastinating. I will finish it by sometime tonight. Almost done, just need to update it. Current Mood: apathetic (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, January 28th, 2006
7:34 pm	Dancing on the wineglass It's not so easy to log in while drunk. But it was a lot of fun! So yeah, Did I meantion I've been fired. I have. unfairly so. but happy about it in some ways. MY FEET HURT- That isn't the happy party. Wine is the happy part. Wine and not having to worry about going to work tomororrow. Oh come on, everyone has to have a few nights like this. Music is blaring, wine is flowing, cajun food is abound. I am having fun. And the people at my ex-work can't find the lawsuit file. I could say in four words where it is, but unless I get paid for it, mum's the word. I didn't hide it, it just was where I, when I worked there, could easily find it. Hee hee... *tee heee giggle* I want to go out and party for the first time in ages. I have really been an old bag. Of course I could totally hate this post tomorrow, but today it's streamers and confetti. Party with me, come one, you know you want to! Fal lalallalal!! (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, January 13th, 2006
2:05 am	Tooth still hurting, but the pain has now changed. :( I'm still on the list for the 18th. Ugh, seems so far away. He upped my pain pill dose. What a nice Dentist. :) No, actually, he isn't, but this won his pompous ass some points. I have a busy weekend ahead of me. Phone calls, munch possibly, bills, cleaning. Oh, and have I mentioned my tooth hurts? :( Current Mood: irritated Current Music: Rich - Yeah Yeah Yeahs (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 10th, 2006
8:32 pm	Ok, so went to the dentist and I have to go to an Endodontist and perhaps have a root canal. but the canal is so narrow that it takes a specialist. woo! expenses are fun! And guess what, first date available: the eighteenth. SO I will be doped up until then. Hello, emergency? But a toothache is a definite weight loss program. Man, I can't stand to even drink water right now. Current Mood: aggravated (3 Comments |Comment on this)