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 Friday was so much fun. I haven't had fun like that in a long time. My legs hurt, my arms hurt, my back hurts, my entire body hurts. But it's a good hurt. We went to the stage after school was over, which happened to be around 10:30am. So of course the only option was the stage. Duh. Every-fucking-body was there too. You have no idea how many people just saw us and decided to just pop their nosy asses in our shit. haha. It was funny though. Val brought his guitar, played for a while. I played hackey sack with just about everyone. I'm quite addicted. That lasted for an hour or so. Val decided to get his soccer ball and we played a bloody big game of soccer which kept us occupied/hurt/exhausted. Then around 1:00pm or something Oreo bought back well, OREOS and soda so we were fucking good. Especially since we just finished playing soccer, it was so tiring. Actually, this old man came and said he just fixed up the grass there or whatever so we had to stop. We all complained and whined but you know everyone really wanted to stop. It's just in our nature to complain and put up a fight. After that we kinda relaxed. Played around with the soccer ball a bit, played more hack. Mostly, we just calmed down and got food. Stuffed our faces. People started leaving. When only a few of us (close friends instead of just random fucks) were left, we just laid on the ground watching Val (who got waaaay frustrated i might add) and Marsen skate. The day was perfect. At least, I thought it was. Besides the fact that I can barely walk now.. all is well.
I just crawled away from Tekken 3 for a minute and I couldn't even play that because, fuck, it hurts. I don't know what kind of shit we did on Friday that got me like this, but hell.. I don't want to do it again. Anyway. I have to start doing better in school. I mean really, I'm getting nowhere. I can see it, yet I can't stop myself. Fuck.. but enough of me. What's going on with everyone else? I'm all ears. Even though I'm like.. about to knock out on my bed for a minute.. I'll be up later. I keep on missing VERY important instant messages and it's pissing me off. It's just bad luck.
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[29 Dec 2003|07:11pm] |
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i'm so tired of people taking surveys and posting them.
seriously, 99 % of the time i really don't give a flying fuck.
it's the same bullshit over and over.
make it private or take me off your friends list if you're gonna be posting only quizzes and all that other bullshit.
i'm serious.
it's stupid.
you're stupid.
d i e.
i think i'm going to do some deleting of my own.
i have way too many friends and i can't comment on everyone's shit.
plus half of the stuff i see people writing about is just daily crap that happens to everyone.
if it's not interesting.
don't post it.
some daily events are exciting though. i won't lie.
but some definitely aren't
i'll try and do the same.
i'm going to go back and view all my entries. deleting/making them private because i know no one cares.
ps- i drank alcohol.. big no no.. but i just felt like telling everyone the truth. i'm warning you.
don't bother caring.
i truly don't.
and everyone who posts pictures.. i love you.
love to look at photos.
yup.
ugh .. but livejournal... you're getting on my nerves.
i'm addicted to you and you don't careeee.
make yourself uninteresting.
mother fucker.
p.s.s- now is the time to delete me if you like. i won't care. i won't bitch. i might give you this "fuck you hard" but that's about it. nothing too dramatic because i'm not a very dramatic person.
have a great day *thumbs up*
racquel
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[29 Dec 2003|11:01am] |
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Portishead - Sour Times |
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[29 Dec 2003|08:30am] |
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dear love,
find me now please.
( <3 )
racquel
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[28 Dec 2003|04:26pm] |
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why couldn't i have been named sebastian or even jet
i'm seriously thinking about making the necessary steps needed to permenantly change my name
just to get this out of my system, a few more names :
. joey
. neeta
. lee
. nova
. elle
and if your name is lonte, it means hoe in indonesia. i'm sorry.
racquel
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[28 Dec 2003|01:04pm] |
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air - lucky n unhappy |
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i dreamt i could play guitar and amazingly well too.. i wish
racquel
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[27 Dec 2003|03:24pm] |
racquel
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[26 Dec 2003|08:11pm] |
leg warmers that cynthia (fairypooflinger) gave me
along with these rainbow armwarmers. fuck yeah. <3
i dropped the camera on the floor and thought it looked pretty cool. so *snap* and here we are.
okay. enough photos.
obviously i finished cleaning my room.
i can now lay on my bed.
but i still have shit on my wall i want to tear down...
i'll do that tomorrow.
does anyone want a godsmack t-shirt. ugh.
i hate godsmack.. so i'll never wear it.
if anyone does want it just say so.
it's a large.
take it away PLEASE.
and if no one does i'm gonna cut it up and make something useful out of it's remnants.
racquel
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[26 Dec 2003|03:38pm] |
i wish things didn't bore me so easily.
i want to go out.
but i won't.
i feel so desolate.
i have so many supressed feelings and thoughts..
my dreams scare me.
i'm trying not to think about things too much but when i sleep i have no control.
i think about everything possible.
i'm so stupid. living in the past.
why did i put myself through so much bullshit.
.. actually it's not MY fucking fault.
i didn't do a thing.
not a damn thing.
i didn't deserve what i got at all.
all this hurt.
permenantly scarred.
so stupid.
and for what?
what the hell did i get out of it..?
jack shit.
everyone forgets so easily i think.
but i'll remember everything until the day i die.
this is what keeps me so hateful.
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