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 happy five month.

 i've been weird lately, things have been weird lately.
hopefully things will go back to normal. i'm sleepy and sneezy, and excited for laramie tonight.
i can't wait for electra to start. i haven't been this excited for a role in a while.

how can i make things better? 

 albert and i celebrated our fourth month not too long ago. we're pretty good together. :).
last night, he took me to see the sisterhood of traveling pants: 2. best date ever.
i've gotten a bad job, and apparently got fired from it quietly.
fortinbras will be good.
today at greeley park, at two.

 
    rehearsal was really good. i don't feel like i suck right now.
sweet.
 we only rehearsed with five of us today, and it was so fun. i love most of my cast. it's really nice.
i did my first day of work at the mariott today. it was very hard. oh lord.
my feet hurt horribly.
oh well!
I'm pumped i got hired.
albert and i are doing well.

 
  laramie project is one of my favorite shows,
i hope i put together a good enough audition.
julia plans to audition for once upon a mattress. which is freaking adorable.
oh nine year olds.
it makes me sad because yesturday she told me albert and i make her feel invisible. ah. terrible.

good news! - dad is giving me his car tonight.
bad news- albert is driving him home. haha. how awkward. forced bonding!
good news! - mum just quit smoking!
bad news- she's going to be a huge bitch this week because of it! haha.
good news!- cute pageboy outfit costume for shakespeare in the park.
good news!- anna's 20 yesturday! How crazy.
good news!- al's setting making us dinner picnic style in a few days and has a surprise for me.
altogether- i'm mostly excited to find out my schedule, and even if i don't get into the show, i still have my school shows, which are so fun. and this summer has been good so far, :).

 Everybody should come see Shakespeare in the Park the second and third weekend of August. It's funny Shakespeare, and who doesn't love that. besides a lot of people.

  everything is very stressful. i'm not a fan of it.

another downside, they didn't have my fave tinned jerky at the gas station! Which makes me sound disgusting, I realize. ha.

 I hate when you envy someone for no reason, without really knowing them, and try to convince yourself to hate them even though they seem really sweet.

I should be offbook today for Fortinbras but I'm not. Darn it. I'll get on that after watching Enchanted.

  he'd rather 16000 dollars than me.
not that i ever really wondered.
the money came from my being in the hospital for 3 months,
and he doesn't know all the things i felt,
so how most of the time, i hardly felt like being.

but it seems like his sick kid finally did something he hasn't resented.

  
   
     changes are up and about!
today i'm walking over to the mariot because it's literally right across from my house, and i hope to get hired.
wish me luck.

 

  the prospect of not going to mhs next year is really scary. 
nothings permanant, and we havent even looked at the school yet.
i hope i don't like it. 
our theatre program will be so good next year. 

 
    happy birthday mikie.
<3.

 unshakespeare auditions were tonight for shakespeare in the park in greeley, and i feel so good about my audition. car and i both got to read two of the ophelia scenes, which may have been because we were dressed a little slutty, haha, but it was extremely fun, and i also read for horatio! which was funny. : ).
i feel so good about this.

 the weekend was so good. i love reading in bed with al.
nerdy, but whateves.
so tomorrow will be an easy day at school, then i'm seeing my tutor, then its off to shakespeare in greeley auditions with carly. I'm so pumped for then. i decided against young company. pretty sure i wouldnt have had a good time if i had gotten in. i'm dissapointed i didnt get to audition, though, just because i was excited about my selections. haha.
tomorrow should be decent.
p.s gossip girl was intense.
and i starting to love the o.c.
just like...five years late. hah.

 so.

 albert is staying over all weekend, and getting here at 2:00. and he will awkwardly hang out with my mum for a half hour. we're going to a party thing at lei's with ashlash, so that'll be fun.
i've missed him a lot this week. things have been bad lately, and he's been ridiculously supportive and sweet about it. i really need that night now. i can only be thankful.

 starting drivers ed now of the second of june. lame. oh well. atleast all get my car soon.

 

 seeing lei's and sarah's show was al, carly and mike was really fun. we went out to dinner afterwards, and albert and i shared buffalo wings with extra buffalo sauce, of course. when he slept over last night, he scared me from an absolutely horrifying mouse. god bless that boy. haha.
car and i just drove him home. it was really sad to watch him leave. oh well, i'll see him next weekend atleast.
i can't wait until drivers ed starts.
i'm pumped.
 i'm in need of a shower.
and i should get on that if i want to be out before leila get's here!

  it's been sort of a crappy week.
i felt trashy and missed.
tomorrow my phone will be up and running, which is good.
hopefully it'll be a double date this weekend with car when we see sarah, leila and ryans play this friday, i'm excited.
i really need to work on my research paper.
i always leave things to the last minute that shouldn't be left to the last minute.
i would love to see albert this weekend. so i hope it works out.
i might go sleep now.

  weird.
my hands are cold, and my cramps are crampy.
and things happened quickly, and i don't really regret it.
i'm excited for summer.

 can one relapse without having fully recovered first?
this is a bad week.

 i'm pumped for young company auditions, and a lot of merrimack girls are auditions so it won't be as scary. ha. and i have a really good monologue.

 al and i are doing wonderfully. he's the best boyfriend i've ever had. we understand each other entirely. it's a lovely feeling. he's visiting again sunday. we had a sleepover this past weekend, and saw a lot of carly and leila. it was so fun. and so nice to wake up with him.

i'm probably going to bed soon after he calls, i am exhausted. and constantly dizzy. good times. just kiddin'. hah.
 
 

 so!

 albert is adorable. and i like him a lot.
school is school.
I'm starting drivers ed on may 6th, and i'm taking it with leila and i'm pumped.
i'm often tired.
i love salsa this week.
i'm going to bed.