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Tuesday, May 27th, 2008
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2:13 am - Catharsis-Inspiration
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We are Human, are we not? Limited in our Being, by being Limitless.
We have Strengths and Weaknesses, the attributes of our identity. Yet we are given talents and blessings beyond true measure. We are given a lifetime to become. To become what? To become what we think we can become, yet there are attributes that we are not able to imagine upon ourselves. We give reasons for our shortcomings and our limited vision… my father said to me time to time during my life “Its just an excuse”. For years and years I never understood the true meaning of the phrase. Each time he told it to me, I felt something inside of me grow angry and stubborn. If I were to translate the phrase with my perspective now, it would read, “That is just a road block to your own ability and potential”. Now I know what grew angry, my Pride. It understood the phrase in its entirety, groking the fullness of what I could become yet denying the existence of something more. Such pettiness only breeds stagnation. We are able to expand every horizon, it is in our nature to become More. We can’t let the world define that which we are; the world itself is limited in its’ imagination and will never share the expansive vision we have, as a single person. Thus we become more than just ‘me’ or ‘you’, we become immeasurable in our journey through life.
There comes a time in every person’s journey that they must come to a decision, come to the Moment of Truth, the Cusp, the Turning Point, the Limitless Fork in the Road, the Precipice of Life.
The illusion of that Moment… is the notion, the idea that it is a single moment.
We make that moment, every beat of our heart... we make that moment what it is.
Every thought, every action, everything makes a difference upon that Cusp.
To make a decision, we become it.
No man is, without the road he has traveled. The fruit of our labors is never the ideal of our adventure; the journey is treasured far longer and much more appreciated then any physical treasure or mental achievement.
Aye, ye might suppose tha’ end of the road to be grand, aye, it is, yea… this too shall pass.
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| Friday, April 11th, 2008
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6:56 pm - W000! WISDOM TEETH!
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Well. I got the old Buggers out.
I'm going to be a happy camper when my teeth finally start
shifting back and stop crowding the crap out of my front teeth.
paparazzi teeth. lmbo.
oh man was I trippin during the surgery.
I don't think I ever 'fell' under.
I was literally stuck in my brain the whole time.
but I wasn't aware of anything outside of my brain.
But i was seriously daydreaming/daytripping.
I only have glimpses of glimpses of those moments.
It was... WACK!
when I 'woke' up.
I was Crazy, uninhibited, SASSY, and singing.
I really was amazingly Sassy. The 'Black' Sean started to come out
in all his Blackness. "Oh No you Didn't" -while waving hand-
Singing anything in my repertoire that I could remember.
Beatboxing, smiling unabashedly while staring at people.
Then when I finally got up I was dancing, bumping my mom, still being sassy.
while I was going home.. I started pouting at my mom when she was telling me what to do..
and then ...pitched a tent.. and started yelling out 'I GOT A BONER!' before I got in the house...
wow... it was really amazingly silly wacky crazy.
You've never seen Sean as Crazy as I did today.
It was kind of like these clouds..
current mood:  cheerful
current music: Good- Better than Ezra
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| Thursday, April 10th, 2008
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2:17 pm - Hat,Taco,Salmon!
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So... I get Salmoned.
I don't know if anybody knows what it is...
but its when you get randomly connected to a user through LJ.
You have to have your aol im screen name in your profile.
And after you post, on your aim you'll get a random message
from a Bot. and you'll be seeing the 'bot name' but you are really
talking to someone else on the other line. But they see the same thing
they see the 'bot name' who they are talking to.
its quite funny!
^_^
I enjoyed it.
But then again.. I'm an odd one :D
current music: Time Stands still- All American Rejects
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3:55 am - ?
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I've been looking into my own eyes of late..
and I can't tell if its my own eyes twitching..
or just the perception I have?
or if I'm just going mental...
but theres a soft... Soft... purple hue in my eyes.
am I tripping... or what...
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| Wednesday, April 9th, 2008
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8:31 pm - Bad Day.
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Today was just a Bad Day.
Morning was awkward.
Afternoon was Worse.
Evening was Different and Nice. Talked to some old friends at B&N.
Dee was pooped on by her parents (metaphorically) therefore no hangout yesterday
Erin was sick... so no hanging out, today.
I just felt wack today.
Happy Still... partially.
Just not feeling all that wonderful.
I think its partially because I'm leaving soon... and I want to have one last memory? I don't even know. I'm just being Moody. Very Cancer Like.
-_- CRABBY!
oh and my Car is still in the shop... thought it would only take a full day...
but 2 is the magic number this time... weee!
now I'm just complaining. Crap on me.
Duce.-Sean
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| Tuesday, April 8th, 2008
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6:03 pm - Biking!
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so... I went from... 1:20 p.m.
to 5:00 on the dot. Biking.
I went from Saratoga and Crosstown..
to the Harbor Bridge, To A&M, back to Home.
I feel.. Satisfied. Yet my buttocks and scrotum would answer otherwise...
25 miles, with the wind blowing at 20mph, and gusting to 30 mph.
And for most of the 25 miles.. I was heading straight into the wind! oi!
It was awesome. I was even tempted... HIGHLY tempted... to try to ride up the side
of the Harbor Bridge... I mean I got on the side and went about 25 feet...
then decided it wasn't worth somehow getting in trouble or hurting myself.
Though I'm highly tempted to do it!
Heres my Route.
I'm happy.
Want to Play?
current mood: cheerful
current music: Hey Jude- Across the Universe
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| Thursday, March 27th, 2008
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8:17 pm - Yes... I'm Alive!
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Work... Work.. Work... 5 more days... 5 more work days and thats it!
FREEDOM! I'll have to pickup my last paycheck the Thursday after...
I've been incredibly tired from work.. and some every so often play.
I'm tired... way tired. I'm probably going to read my book and call someone and then fall asleep....
I'm leaving the 16th of April for Utah.
If you want to hang out before then give me a ring..
801-602-9932, or for my house 985-9712...
I'll be all over Texas one of the upcoming weeks...
Hopefully San Antonio, Houston, Bryan, and Dallas.
Care to fly a Kite? Watch a Sunset? Go Ocean Kayaking?
Go out for some Sushi? Watch a Flick?
This is a a goodbye of some sorts... I'll be be back in July... for possibly a few weeks or a few months depending on my Mission Call.
I'm betting a few weeks...
Thus... if you want to get your last kicks with me... nows the time.
Just leave me a message, btw I'm Buying, because I can.
^_^ If I don't see you... I guess this is a possible goodbye mentally, or physically...
Its weird to be saying goodbye in any manner... but when I go on my mission in august... that'll be it. For 2 Years.
I can't... can... wait. But... .... I don't know.
Its hard to say.... where life takes me any more....
I'll still be online till august...
No Matter. Call me if you care. I'll not hold it against any of the people I know. Heck I don't even know who reads this anymore.
oh well. Life is How I want it. And I'm Happy.
It Can Only Get Better.
Live. Love. Learn.
Talk to ya'll later.
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| Friday, March 14th, 2008
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12:34 pm - Wow..
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I don't think I've EVER ever have a Girl stuck in my brain like this before.
I'm just walking around at work and she pops into my head,
and then my mind starts twisting around ideas that materialize and
I have to mentally throw a bolt of lightning at the thought to get it out!
Curse my attraction to Fair Skin and Irish/Scottish heritage.
I've never been betrayed by myself like this before. I will not
be weak like every guy. I will not be stupid. I WILL NOT.
I didn't even think I was that attracted to her.
But I'm brought to my knees... finally a trick good enough to catch me
and challenge me till I Win or Lose.
Why do I have to be this knowledgeable and strong-willed?
Ignorance is Bliss.. for awhile.
okey. Time to take a shower and meditate to let some stress out.
Then head to the bank get my check deposited and then to work.
talk to the Austins later, help my pa in the backyard jazz, and then off
to go Water-skiing with John and Eric. w00t.
Later.- Sean.
<@#$% being a Teenager and its Urges of Stupidity.>
current mood:  enthralled
current music: This Fire (is out of Control)- Franz Ferdinand
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| Monday, March 10th, 2008
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1:22 am - I decided I need to write before I sleep
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Its been awhile hasn't it...
I've been busy. Went to Houston last weekend and visited my Friend Jenny
and hanged out with my Brother Bob and Sister in Law Anna.
Chris went with me. We had a jolly good weekend.
Work is work. Makes me tired, but I'm getting used to the daily grind.
It gives me hope for this next semester. I'll be ready for the grind there.
I'll quit my job probably on the 4th of April. Gives me a week and a half to chill and get ready for school and take care of my Pop.
Tentatively planning. Leaving on the 16th of April for Utah.
Going to Houston/Dallas the weekend before I head for Idaho.
Its another season for growing and learning.
Deciding to be the Better Me.
The More Patient Me.
I could never be Hopeless, just because I know I can always push forward in my own strengths
and weaknesses, looking to Christ for his Love and Guidance. And to my Father in Heaven for Everything.
Thank Goodness I am who I am. That I can stand for my Life and Potential.
God Speed and May he hold you in the Palm of his Hand.
-Peace: Sean.
P.s.- This was my fun at the beach with my New Kite this Weekend. Hanged out with Dan and had a Fantastically joyful time. w00t w00t for the Beach and Access Road 3's isolation.
current mood: chipper
current music: Pray for Rain.
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| Wednesday, February 13th, 2008
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12:00 am - Good Omens about.
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I finished my freshly new Favorite Book of all Time.
Lion of Ireland by Morgan Llywelyn.
Its a Historical Fiction of Brian Boru (mac Cennedi)
It was passionate, heroic, war stylized, brilliant, heart warming, and tear jerking.
It was ... perfect.
Love it. Need to pick up more of her books.
Just got back from Ryan's house played a good night of Halo3 games.
And ended with a 2v2 that I was especially happy with.
And I got out around 11:45 walking out into the Cool Night air.
And as I look up, there is Orion facing me.
I saluted him and smiled as I walked to my Spartan Jeep.
And then I looked at the rest of nature and laughed,
because right there in the night sky a bit aways from Orion was the Moon
Smiling with a Great Big Old Grin, that sly old Cheshire. Gotta love the Fella.
On another Note I started memorizing 'Grief' an extremely sad song.
I'll record the piano part on finale at King one of these days... ^_^
I get paid Thursday... I'm excited. Nice Fat Check.
I was proud of my conduct of late. I've kept my mind clear, my heart clean, and my body
working. I just chilled saturday and today, nothing extravagant but just peaceful and fun.
I guess I should wait for the hammer to drop again, better shore up for it.
Karma and I like to play and so we shall.
Bring It On Buddy, Bring it.
And to ya'll, may he take his fun with me and leave you be.
May God hold you in the palm of his hand and keep you.
Peace.
current mood: cheerful
current music: Blue Light- Bloc Party
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| Tuesday, February 12th, 2008
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2:04 am - Tired of Sleeping.
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Ironic neh?
I was just wondering.
If I were to have a giant Food Fight at the beach... anyone I know is invited.
and I mean EVERYONE. If you know me by looking at me, you are invited.
I can't decide which weekend I would want to do this.
I'll have the food fight around access road 3. There are free showers
in the state park ;) Just a walk away.
I plan on having all kinds of grody sloshy, mucky, throwable foods.
If you have any preferences of which foods you would like to throw, let me know.
I'm planning this for reals. This isn't a Dream nor a fancy. I get paid thursday
and part of that check is meant for this. Straight Up.
I'm Serious, And I totally want your opinion, even if you wouldn't care about seeing
me in a million of years. Please?
Thanks ya'll.
-Sean
current mood:  determined
current music: Weezer
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| Friday, February 8th, 2008
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9:40 pm - Life is something to be Tested..
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I've been reading "Lion of Ireland" by Morgan Llywelyn. It is an Amazing book,
I'm truly loving it so far. It reminds me of my own writing style, but how I would want
it expanded. I think after I finished reading it I'll be able to get back to writing...
So I got the Job a Humpal Physical Therapy. I started The monday before last. This was my
first 2 full weeks. I get my first paycheck on this upcoming Thursday... a good 700$
Which 352 of it goes to paying Credit Cards. 100 Goes to my Bank Account.
70 Goes to Tithing. 100 goes to on-hand cash and the rest to my Savings account.
^_^ A real Job...Me? On Time? At 8:00 in the morning to 6/7 at night!? WOW!
I've been late twice now due to stupidity. Don't Ask.
I'm loving my Coworkers. Loving the Job itself. I get paid 10$ an hour.
1.5 hour Lunch Break. And Tuesdays and Weekends off.
I think I finally "Gradumated" with the Treatment area.
I'm doing Electrical Stimulation and Muscle Contraction setups, Ultrasounds, Massages,
Hot and Cold Packs, IFC and Premod Electrical to be exact. I'm pretty comfy with Russian and VMS.
The only thing I haven't done is the Facial Setups.
I feel accomplished.
Chuck the Truck(Jeep) is out of the Hospital ;) and up and running again.
I need to get one more new tire and get the other Highbeam light fixed.
I love my Brown Pseudo Casual/Formal shoes. Comfortable yet aesthetic. Good for on the Feet all day.
I think I'll write a new note tomorrow after finishing this book.
It seems like a real writer's block killer.
If anyone cares to go fly a Kite... I'm seriously up for it anytime. I need to buy
a 2 stringed one though... ^_^
Anyways. I'm going to read and sleep and see if Ryan calls back.
Have a Wonderful Time Lads and Lasses!
current mood: cheerful
current music: Foreign Language- Anberlin
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| Saturday, January 12th, 2008
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5:23 am - This week... has been Amazingly Busy.
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I've worked a good 30 hours ATLEAST. Probably 40s more like it.
I love chillin out playing Halo3 with Ryan and John. It is very Therapeutic
when you get a Beautiful teamwork game going, " SNIPER HS- SAVED YOU, FUDGE! YES! AHAHHAHAHA"
^_^ I love social gaming. It is hella a TON better than my old addictive tendency.
It was nice meeting Alita's new friend from College; Kendra. She was a real sweetie with
a spicy inside? lawl. They are great to hang out with. Went to ?Emerald? beach and flew
my new Jet Plane Kite and threw the Frisbee around and talked. I love being able to
truly talk to people. Makes me Joyful.
You know I might have a particularly dirty mind at its core, but I do a heck of a good
job of limiting its reach into my life. Especially since I've started into my routines.
I just need to not use any kind of 'fake' replacement cuss words. They just lead to the same thing.
Gah... I was looking at my Winter Project; fixing our hobie cat, trailer, and sunfish. I've got way too much to do with that jazz. Money Sink... :( Oh well. I'm sick of seeing stuff in my life being put to waste.
I've got way too much to use.. not to?
Gah I was about to state I'm too lazy to post the pictures, and was like CRAP laziness? BAD! DANGET. -_- :D
So here are todays silliness.
Ya'll have a lovely week!
-Sean B
( Fun in the Sun )
current mood: cheerful
current music: Yellowcard
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| Sunday, January 6th, 2008
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6:55 pm - here we go
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12:45 am - Another Day, Another Set of Memories.
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| Saturday, January 5th, 2008
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4:36 am - ?
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>_< DOH!
Grawr.
You can look at a persons face nearly every school day for fours years and never truly Look at them. Odd eh?
-_- Tired.
I've been told that I have 3 looks, one for Puzzlement/Confusion/"You are Stupid look", The regular Sean look, and the "I love you but I live Love."
^_^ I'm happier with who I am of late, at least physically and 'work ethic' wise.
I need to shell out some cash for a trip to houston, a wetsuit, fixing the boats, and figuring out my stupidity.
kekeke.
Anyways. I will get a Picture post up today or tomorrow. I just finally did laundry and spring room cleaning.
Have a Great day Folks... "Make it a Greeeeeaaat! day." lawlllll
-Seanie.
current mood:  busy
current music: Silence
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| Sunday, December 30th, 2007
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1:01 pm - Vibes anyone?
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| Saturday, December 29th, 2007
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1:01 am - Grawr!
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Brawr.
To say the least.
I need to work, and I'm loving construction.
Learning how to build something that will last a long time
is a interesting feat, and doing wonders for my mind achievement lvls.
I feel sorry for any Guy not going on an LDS Mission and wanting
to stay a Virgin till he is married. Chris and I were discussing it,
I'm already feeling the tugs of wanting to marry and be with someone
for the rest of my life and eternity, and I'm definitely feeling
the tugs of wanting to create Children. I can't imagine how bad
it gets during the 19th and 20th years when the Male body is at
its Hormonal High. Thank Goodness for a Mission ^_^
I'm still kind of in shock that it is all coming up so soon.
2 Years in a 'Foreign' place that I do not choose, I CANT WAIT... but I can.
I'm wrestling with the final throes of my immaturity. From the end of
this rut I can start working on maturing instead of fighting my immaturity.
I've been a Peter Pan for too long. I need to get my Hands Dirty, Mind Full,
and and see life for more than I have thus far.
I don't know if I'll ever be able to say this enough.
I LOVE my Sisters, they have let me see, to be who I am today.
I LOVE my Brothers, they have shaped me into my form now.
I LOVE my parents, for giving me the ability to be who I am.
I LOVE my family, for constantly being there.
I LOVE my religion for making me Happy, teaching me who I truly am, and giving me strength.
I LOVE my Redeemer. Because without him, I have a faint Idea of the terror that would be inside me.
I LOVE my trials, without them I'd never be able to fully enjoy Life.
Why am I blessed with many beautiful, lovely, fantastic ladies in my life?
Why dost my heart offend me thus?
What makes me Weird?
What could I have done to change that one person's path... oh how I miss her Light.
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Did you know that 'Vibes' are real? The heart creates an electromagnetic field which
can be felt by some part of the Human body; the sixth sense, or feeling you get from
an person is actually your interpretation of that Field.
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I'm sorely tempted to have a Fling, yet I must resist. I fear I will fall.
Not that I truly mind falling.... ^_^ but it would indeed be a fling.
4 months. But you never know, putting your Papers in is sure-fire way of getting
dates. lol..
Anyways, I've got work in 7 hours and 30 minutes. I ought to sleep. Perfect timing.
G'night, Belated Merry Christmas, and Early Happy New Year. Good Luck. God Speed. Love ya.
current mood: chipper
current music: Breathing
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| Tuesday, December 11th, 2007
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8:12 am - Life on the edge of the table.
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Well we come to another Endpoint and Startpoint of something new.
Thursday is my Last Chem Test. Friday my Last Psych Test
and my Chem Final Exam is also Friday.
Craziness. I've made it through my first semester at college.
Maybe not as well as I hoped, but well enough.
Learning to be on your own is something definitely interesting.
Cooking has become a whole new kind of fun ^_^
I can't wait to get home and try all kinds of stuff.
I get home Saturday at 10:19pm. I'm soooo happy.
But I have to catch the Shuttle down to SLC at 2/4 in the morning
and my plane isn't even till 3 or so. -_-
I've started working on my story again.
Zade's Story. Its some whack stuff mang. really trippy
and I'm loving it.
"There has got to be more to life... oh yea now I remember. ACHIEVING."
Now get off your lazy arse and get working. :D
This winter I plan on Fixing the Catamaran in our backyard.
Cleaning Both the Hull and buying a new Trampoline for it.
Getting the Trailer's tires fixed and set. Cleaning and fixing
the hull of the Sunfish too. I'll probably buy a Wet suit this winter
and be out windsurfing for days ^_^
heh-"CRAP I've become more Responsible!" -me
Losing Weight. Gaining Muscle. Learning. Studying.
Making Snow Angels. Dancing. Growing. Being. Living.
Saturday night we were playing cranium (Hans and I pretty much won :D)
and then a friend's BF showed up randomly, so we went to chill out.
We went to Idaho Falls on a Whim (at my urging) decided to catch a flick
Golden Compass. OH HECK YES. I loved it. It was a great memory for me to pull out.
it was SAWEET at this one part. You'll understand when you see it.
Though, at the end I voiced "HEY! THATS NOT THE END OF THE BOOK!" the whole crowd chuckled.
then we went to Dominos and got 2 pizzas. [6 ppl in a 5 person car lol]
it was like 2 in the morning when we finished. It was 15 degrees outside when we
were eating behind Dominos, I was wearing a T-shirt, Shorts and Sandals of course.
Man I'm truly a Bear. ^_^ Yesterday it was less then 20 degrees and I had pants and long sleeve shirt on
I was making Snow Angels all over campus :D I was soaked for 2 of my classes but I enjoyed every second of it
SNOW :D Love it, be It, Dance in it.
^_^ I love being myself. I'm a Happy Cartwheeling, 6'4 Giant Singing Mexican with an Afro.
I want to learn to do Backflips and frontflips... but I'll wait for my leg muscles to be
fully able before i even dare attempt...
well I'm going to work on something or other... lol.. yea.... ^_^
Later ya'll. Be Safe and Happy
current mood: chipper
current music: Angels and Airwaves
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| Sunday, December 2nd, 2007
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4:18 pm - MmmM
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Oatmeal and Honey= Delicious!
Ramen+Veggies+Seasonings+Cheese= Delicious!
Boiled off Chicken+ Soy Sauce and Italian Seasoning= Delicious
Family Recipes=Outstandingly Delicious
My Own Recipes= Delicious yet Totally 'bull recipe' ^_^
Soooo Good. I love cooking now. Especially with spices I've
experimented with...
I'll put Celery, Broccoli, Spinach, Corn, Lima Beans, Peas, Green Beans, Cucumbers, Carrots into my Ramen.
I'll put Italian Seasoning, Cumin, Basal Leaves, or Chicken Bullion also.
Some Cottage Cheese if I want it a juicy cheesy, or Provolone, Pepper Jack, Cheddar, Monterey Jack, Munster Cheese.
Oriental, Beef, Chicken Ramens are my favorite.
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I was lying down on a bed after watching End of all Days "Arnold gets pumped up by God" "I will PUMP you UP" (Good clean action movie) and Hello Dolly (awww I loved Dolly[ NOT PARTON JERK. ] Red Hair and wonderful voice will get me any day. Plus there was wonderful Hopeless Romantics points. ^_^
I thought to myself, "ahh to be married and live the rest of your life with someone to love dearly! To be able to snuggle, kiss, cuddle, and hug without any thought of being out of order." I was like WOAH HOLY MOLY WHAT AM I THINKING!?
[ I'm a Pre-Missionary, I can't! oohh to be an RM (Returned Missionary) and be able to think of such things.]
I was thinking about my sister who always got onto me if I wasn't dating around, and about how dating around is to figure out what you want in someone you would live the rest of your life with.
Which always reminds me of "You don't marry your girlfriend, thats who you go have 'fun' with on the weekends, you Marry your Bestfriend."
That is who you would love and care for day in and day out.
Which gets me going about what I want in a Woman. haha.
I've already figured it out for the most part.
One of the easiest general descriptions of her would be that she
is akin to my Sister's qualities. I remember going into Middle School and High School thinking " WHY ARE THESE GIRLS STUPID!? WHAT THE CRAP IS WITH THEM? DID THEY GET KNOCKED ON THE HEAD AS A KID!?"
When you come from a smart family with musical inclinations and no "stupid culture" intermixed you find that 'regular' girls... just don't work for you.
ahh 'Thus is Life'. Have a Great week Lovelies. ^_^
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