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I seem to have found my muse again. I never thought I would be writing Terminator fanfiction, like... EVER... but I guess that shows me to never say never. lol.
Anyway, work sucks... still. I'm dealing. And in the meantime I'm looking for better. lol.
My muse is quiet right now. Hopefully I'll be more inspired again after the new episode. Or maybe it's the fact my head hurts like a bitch right now.
Goddamn headache never goes away anymore.
Fuck. Well, I'm wishing you all well. I miss you.
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| I am such a GEEK |
[19 Dec 2007|09:58am] |
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OK.
I am about to reveal the hideous depths of my inner dorkdom.
I am getting the X-Files Complete Series boxset for Christmas and I am STOKED.
No... not just stoked... there isn't a WORD for it. Mulder! Scully! That awesome roach episode! The freak show episode! The strange, deformed brothers who booby trap their house episode! And more!
ARGH!!!!!!
*breathes*
Ok. Can't open it til Christmas..... that sucks... but still....YAY!
I know I'm rambling. Sorry. Ignore me. But I think the only Christmas presents I've ever gotten that rank above this one are my ipod and the original Nintendo system (back when it first came out).
What are some of your guys' favorite gifts ever?
And, on a side note, Hanson has releases a cd/dvd set of acoustic performances- all songs from their first major label cd Middle of Nowhere. Get it. It rocks.
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| VENUS DOOM HAS ARRIVED! |
[11 Sep 2007|04:58pm] |
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I'm SO STOKED RIGHT NOW! Venus Doom has already arrived and is now on my ipod! I guess it pays to put rush shipping on a pre-order, as Venus Doom isn't going to be officially released until tue 9/18...lol.
I am so damn happy right now.
*hugs the world*
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[12 Aug 2007|10:01am] |
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Finally feeling better. Thank God.
Anyways, lol... Work still sucks. Boss is on vacation, so I'm stuck trying to keep everything together while still retaining some semblance of sanity... and trying to do it all in a normal-sized work week. Ten-hour days are killing me. I swear.
I hope you all are well. I read much more than I post, so while I am still hideously behind on your lives on lj, it's not as bad as it could be.
I miss you guys.
We've started walking for fun and health. lol. It's going okay so far, I guess. It's August, though... super hot and humid. Right now, my fingers are sticking to the keyboard. Gross.
Haven't been writing at all. Too much real life, not enough time for playing with my imagination. Can't complain, though. Real life pays the bills.
Been doing a fair bit of Sudoku in my spare moments. Gods, that game is addictive. Need a new book soon. ^___^
Can't wait for the new HIM album to drop. "Kiss of Dawn" is awesome. The video rocks. Thank you, itunes.
Happy Hopscotch, Everyone!
*heaps blessings upon you all*
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[27 Jun 2007|06:39pm] |
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So I've been at my job for eight years now. As of Sunday. I'm not sure how I feel about that. I don't feel appreciated most of the time. I work my ass off and for what?
I don't know.
Feeling kinda down right now. Don't know what the problem is. I haven't felt this way in a long time. I hope it passes soon. I hate feeling this way. Depression, please go away.
Body hurts, so I might be coming down with something. Wonderful. I really need this, since I'm working a long week this week. Nothing seems to be going right for me lately. I know I need to adjust my attitude if I want anything to change but it's so hard when I feel so shitty.
And I've been sick constantly this year. I shake off one thing just to come down with another. I'm putting my goddamn doctor's kids through fucking college right now.
I should've known this depression was coming. Things have been super stressful- so much so that when I got upset the other day I had to dig my nails into the skin near my eyes just to keep my temper. I haven't done that since I was a teenager. It's not a good feeling to know I still need to. I thought I'd conquered that impulse already. I thought I didn't need the pain (anymore) to cope. I hate this.
What the fuck is wrong with me?
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| Got me another TATTOO |
[12 Mar 2007|03:50pm] |
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Heh. About a month ago I got my second tattoo. Hell, I don't even know if I told you guys I got a first one. But...
My first one was the Triforce from the Legend of Zelda games. Very cool. heh
My new one is a heartagram. I love it. The Triforce i got is really subtle, really light and kinda hard to notice (mainly cos it's yellow). This one ain't. It's red with a black outline. It's gorgeous!!! HIM rules!!! lol
That's about the only interesting thing happening in my life right now. But it makes me happy. yay!
^___^
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| Stolen from on_the_cusp |
[11 Mar 2007|10:35am] |
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1. Can you cook?
2. What was your dream growing up?
3. What talent do you wish you had?
4. Favorite place?
5. Favorite vegetable?
6. What was the last book you read?
7. What zodiac sign are you?
8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?
9. Worst Habit?
10. Do we know each other outside of Livejournal?
11. What is your favorite sport?
12. Do you have a Negative or Optimistic attitude?
13. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14. Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15. Tell me one weird fact about you.
16. Do you have any pets?
17. Do you know how to do the Macarena?
18. What time is it where you are now?
19. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21. Would you be my partner in crime or my conscience?
22. What color eyes do you have?
23. Ever been arrested?
24. Bottle or Draft?
25. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it?
26. What kind of bubble gum do you prefer to chew?
27. What's your favorite bar to hang at?
28. Do you believe in ghosts?
29. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
30. Do you swear a lot?
31. Biggest pet peeve?
32. In one word, how would you describe yourself?
33. In one word, how would you describe me?
34. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
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| Been a long while... |
[12 Jul 2006|09:58am] |
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Been a long time since I've been on here. Things are different for me now... so much work to do and so few good people to help do it. I feel overwhelmed a lot of the time and frustrated too... I hate not having the time/energy to do the things I WANT to do because of the things I HAVE to do... But I guess that's life.
I feel pretty depressed lately... I think it's because I'm just always tired... I don't know...
I miss you guys.
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[31 May 2006|09:05pm] |
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I LOVE YOU GUYS.
(AND I MISS YOU TOO)
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[10 Apr 2006|01:58pm] |
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Wow. Can you believe it? I actually made it back on to livejournal. Color me just plain shocked. lol
Anyway, this is going to be the busiest month of my life, starting from right now.
First of all, the anime convention is coming up. Ghost and I are going all three days, so I'll be spending my entire weekend there.
Then, at the end of the month, my dad and stepmom are coming down for a week... at the most hideous time they could have chosen. End of the month is always hugely busy for me work-wise, what with payroll stuff and all that, but I still requested the whole week off (with an extra few days at the end to recover...lol).
Then, in May, XMen 3 come out. Looks awesome... Can't wait for that. ^___^ I'm just worried Rogue isn't going to have much of a part in it. She's always been my favorite of the XMen, so that'll make me very sad...*sigh*
Anyway, on top of all that, I'm working Sundays now... which is good, I guess. I get a lot of work done on Sundays... But the boss wants to put me back on Saturdays and that'll suck big time. I HATE Saturdays. But what can ya do, y'know?
Aw, hell...
I have to go again and get to work... but I miss you all and I'm thinking of you! IM me on AIM or Yahoo Messenger... I have a new cell phone now and try to stay logged in when I'm not working...lol
I hope I see you all again... if i can make it through this next 30 days or so. Ciao!
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[22 Mar 2006|09:48am] |
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Life sucks...yea.
My apologies to anyone who wants to catch me online. I get on to check my email and that's about it these days. Work is slowly killing me and it looks like I'm going to be putting even MORE time in starting this week. If it weren't for the fact I need (and kinda love) this job, I would quit already.
And we have this guy in to consult with us on some stuff, and he's driving me crazy. He's a bit strange and can be a real ass when he wants to be.
On one bright note, I'm contemplating buying an ipod. I know I said I'd NEVER get one, but the itunes music store has the Tori Amos Fade to Red video collection, and I WANTS IT!!! (Not that I didn't already get it on dvd, but it would be PORTABLE!)
Anyway, if I do, it won't happen anytime soon. My sister is dragging me to the anime con that's coming up, so I have to save my money for that. Then my dad is coming down to visit and I'll probably need to save A LOT of money for that. I'm taking a whole week off when he and my stepmom come down here. I'm not sure if he WANTS to spend a whole week with us, but I don't know how to ask him, so I figured 'better safe than sorry', you know? I don't wanna intrude on his vacation, but I haven't seen him in 7 years. That's a long fucking time, y'know?
I'm off to work now. Wish me luck!
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[10 Feb 2006|09:24pm] |
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Fuck.
I haven't been on here for awhile.
I haven't been ONLINE much in a LONG while.
Sorry, guys. My work schedule is eating up any free time I have. I'm too tired to chat or be on here much. All I do is read my Honor Harrington novels (which I love SO much).
Ugh.
I'm gonna burn out pretty soon if I don't get a break. I can feel it.
...
In other news no one really cares about, I got contacts. They're pretty neat. I've never tried contacts before and I'm amazed at how well I can see now. I must've been fucking BLIND before.
If I could get Ghosty contacts, I would. I know how much she wants 'em.
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Fuck my father for forgetting her birthday. A simple "Happy Birthday" would've been sufficient. She doesn't deserve this shit.
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My frustrations are eating away at me. I read to escape. Thank god for manga, sci-fi and fantasy. Without them, I would be lost.
And very, very bitchy.
But that's not really news, is it?
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(Edited)
And my best friend's grandfather just died, leaving her to pick up the pieces of her grandmother, who is using her as a crutch to begin with while the rest of the family is a bunch of arrogant, self-serving pricks (as usual). Fun.
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| Is this really me? Yea, I guess so.... |
[12 Jan 2006|10:08am] |
Stolen from xellinamazoku:
Your Social Dysfunction:
Avoidant
You are excessively sensitive to potential rejection, humiliation or shame. You tend to be socially withdrawn, in spite of desire for acceptance from others.
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Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com
Please note that we aren't, nor do we claim to be, psychologists. This quiz is for fun and entertainment only. Try not to freak out about your results.
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| *Big sigh* |
[21 Dec 2005|10:22am] |
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Well, I know I haven't eben on here very much recently. To anyone who was hoping to talk to me... I'm sorry. I've been working my ass off lately, and I don't have a lot of time or energy to devote to the internet. I haven't even been writing (or trying to, anyway), and that's just pathetic. But the writer's block is winning, I'm sad to say...
I still have one little drabble-ish piece that I wrote months ago and have never posted. Maybe one day I'll get around to doing that.
I hope you're all having a very Merry Christmas (those of you who celebrate it). I haven't had a lot of time to spend enjoying the holidays, but my shopping was done super-early, so that's okay. I'll just make up for it this weekend. I get a three-day weekend!!! Yay! ^___^
I miss all of you terribly right now... But it's time for me to get ready for work so I have to leave again. I don't know when I'll be on again, so I'll say it now:
MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!
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[30 Nov 2005|09:35am] |
Stolen from Ghost and Mysticlynx:
| Your Birthdate: November 29 | 
You have the mind of an artist, even if you haven't developed the talent yet.
Expressive and aware, you enjoy finding new ways to share your feelings.
You often feel like you don't fit in - especially in traditional environments.
You have big dreams. The problem is putting those dreams into action.
Your strength: Your vivid imagination
Your weakness: Fear of failure
Your power color: Coral
Your power symbol: Oval
Your power month: November |
Scary....
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| For Mysticlynx |
[29 Nov 2005|08:57am] |
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My pervy little kitten wanted some song recs, so here they are, for your pleasure. lol
( Recs )
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[25 Nov 2005|09:24am] |
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Happy Thanksgiving, everybody who cares. Hope all my little buddies across America enjoyed the holiday.
As for me... it was good. My aunt and cousin and my cousin's two little boys came over to celebrate with us. It was loud, crowded (in our little two-bedroom apartment) and actually a lot of fun. I didn't think it would be. My aunty can be a royal bitch and my cousin Raven can be hard to take sometimes... but everyone was happy and it was good. I even helped me mum to cook this year. Go me!
Called my dad too... had a nice little chat with him. I don't talk to him nearly enough.... Sister talked to him too and that was good. She needs to get to know him all over again.
Also, since I work on my birthday, we celebrated it yesterday. I got to open my gifts and everything. That was fun. I got a whole lot of DVD's, for some reason (maybe cos I asked for them...lol). BTW, nobody buy the Angel Sanctuary DVD. It sucks. Just read the manga. My DN Angel collection is now complete (yay!) and I am now the proud owner of HE-Man Season 1 Volume 1. Yup. I is happy.
And even better than all that, I got that perfume Fantasy from Britney Spears. I LOVE IT! It is SO SWEET!!! (and not floral AT ALL which is the best thing about it, in my opinion). So, life is good right now, even if I am a little depressed.
And I don't know WHY, so don't bother asking.
Anyway, I think I've bored you guys with my life's little details long enough. Hope you've all had a wonderful holiday. *Hugs to everyone!*
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[13 Nov 2005|04:42pm] |
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Yay! Ghost and I have FINALLY updated our website. The winners of the Fan Fiction Fall Festival have been posted and links to their stories are now up. Congratulations again to the lucky winners!
In other news, I am officially addicted to Sudoku. Damn it.
This is the last week of my freedom. After this week, I'll be working nights again until the end of time. DAMN IT.
Life sucks, even as it gives me 'joy'....
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[03 Nov 2005|07:33pm] |
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Yoinked from illianaka:
Ask me what happens after the end of one of my stories.
I may have more than one answer depending on the story.
Or tell me your own theories.
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In other news, our assistant manager is quitting, so guess what? I get the job! It's a lot more work, but I get a raise and the title of Asst. Manager... looks great on any resume, right?
Hooray for me... I think! ^___^
I'm not really sure if I'm up to the task, so I'm not sure if I'm happy about this or not...
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Now I just have to get over this freaking cold/infection/whatever the hell it is that is making me so damn sickly....
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