dans deviously deceptive drunk dancing dudes
drunk again ill let u in on my trivialities....

something is in the air tonight, someting devious...i was at ryan and teggys again, and lets prelim this with the fact that i am there everyweekend if not several days a week....and tonight was rediculous, speller devil may care, so much anger and confusion was out and about among some of the party guests tonight, and i kept trying to get people to smile and dance it off, just dance, how can u want to fight that jerk if ur dancing and smiling.... some guy who claims that the guys at 1053a are his boys, tried to bounce smitty, me, jeremy, alan and john, for no reason, and im sorry but ryan and teggy are our boys, johhny and brad are out aquaintences, and none of us had ever seen the kid before, but dancin is nice medicine....we were on our way out anyway, but the kid wanted none of us, well fuckhim, dance it up dance it up...


tonight was just too drama/hostile at the parties that i was baflled, at least 6 counts of aggressive behavior from all sides of me, i was hangin out and just happy to be alive and kids are fighting over beer pong, people standing near their trucks, peeing outside...among others. and Kevin, kb, came home and said his whole night was ruined by drama and infighting, what was going on tonight?


since ive been back ive been watching james's webcam, i'd give u the link but its only workign so far for people on the jmu network and i dont want to link to somehting that will just error anyway. itll beon cannedjam when he gets it working right...now im watching him trying to sleep, but really just fidgeting cuz he knows hes on camera...he had the cam on his tv for a while and was showing some lesbian soft core that was on hbo or something and was making hand shadow puppets of like dogs biting the strap on that was being worn by one girl and "sucked" by another...sucked is in quotations because, what? whats the point of pleasing some plastic rubber? u are just kind of ignoring ur lesbian heritage if u are sucking a fake dick, and the one wearing it was pretending to like it, come on who writes this bullshit...


james seems to be out cold now, my legs are kind of numb, i feel like my whole body needs a good stretch, like a cat arching its back and clawing at the ground, raaarrrr....i thought i had a lot to say in this update but i can only think of one more topic which i was kind of saving to write thoughtfully and sober as not to...as not to...well something i cant think, theres a word or phrase i meant to go there, but i lost it, but i jsut wanted to mention sarah because i have been hanging out with her alot since i first met her a few days ago, and she said i better mention her, and something nice, well she might not have specified something nice, but why would i say something mean? hi sarah...but anyway we really are very quite similar, mostly in weirdness and some other qualities we ran down today. so..."dont secondquestion yourself"...so yay


also i have been getting some rediculous, very scary, very real deja-vu, do i dream the future, or is everything so similar that my brain thinks ive seen it before..the other night driving around with sarah i swear i have dreamt the same exact moment in time before, the place, the car, the feeling, her words...and when i dreamt it it meant nothing to me because it was so real but so unfamiliar and now it comes to life, and tonight at the party i had several of the same experiences, and after i was drunken yellling to everyone how weird it is, then i had to sit and contemplate something this, as marty mcfly would say, HEAVY.