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11/12/06 04:41 pm - No More Drama



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11/12/06 12:55 am - Dish it out. I'll dish it back

People piss me off and that's all I am gonna say about that.

Anyway, the Auction was tonight. Tommy took me to Kohl's to by some clothes. It was so annoying. First there was this gray pants suit I got the pants in a 3 (Yay) but NONE the Jacket or blouses would fit over my giant monterish-freak of nature boobs. Then there was lots of wondering around un't I found a jacket that buttoned XL :-( a camy that streched (yay strechy) and the size 3's... THEN all the shoes were too narrow for my feet, apparent my feet have gained weight?

The Auction was good but the volunteers pissed me off. They were not where they were supposed to be and so they missed there ride, but didn't need on any way because they HAD A FUCKING CAR!!! Why didn't they do that IN THE FIRST PLACE instead of making me crazy for a whole week? It was okay though the chocolate fountain fixed everything :-) (and I wonder why my ass is getting bigger)

I gotta get up early I have a presentation to give at a church in Ypsi (Joy) It's only for an hour or so. Plus I am giving myself a day off since I worked 12 hours of over time this week, which means I get to go out which Charles for Karoke Tommorrow,  YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY I really hope tom comes out for at least a little while

That's all I am too annoyed with people that think they have the right to tell people how to feel.

11/10/06 11:31 pm - Piss and moan

My Love just bought another video game, gears of war or something. I have to entertain my self I geuss. Also I am gaining a lot of weight, I can not even kidding. Tommy agreed to tak me shopping for tomorrow's Auction but I am not even excited thanks to my antidepression meds. Gaining wieght depresses me, does anyone else see the problem here? Tommy keeps saying "One's flankin" I dunno what that means.

Some good things to report

I got rides for the volunteers
I made homemade Mac and chees and it was not only edible but really good.
Tommy said he would buy me stuff
I got to see Katie and realized it had been over 7 months since she had been to my apartment... too long.

Listening to the boy plays games is more than a litle entertaining. He gets so excited. Goodness I love him!
Current Mood: disappointed

11/10/06 12:33 pm - I hate being in charge of volunteers

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH *stress*

So we have this Auction tomorrow right? And there about 10 volunteers that are helping out at this thing. They are the kind of volunteers where you are screwed if they don't show up. Well they decided to imform me that six of them need transportation to and from the event!!! I have one person who said they could take three there, and my mom says she'll drive them if I get stuck. But HELLO I mean they've known about this for months!

This jump is not for people with anxeity disorder.

11/9/06 06:10 pm - Sexy Specs

( New Glasses )
 I look like  I am completely spaced out on drugs be we can ignore that right?

11/9/06 01:57 pm - oh yeah..

I got my new glasses... no one noticed so they must be good.

I miss my stephy :-( *tear* thanksgiving needs to be here NOW.

We must so many people I love and need be SO FAR AWAY?

11/9/06 01:02 pm - The good and the bad

OH. MY. GOD. Guess what I have a GODIVA Belgian Blends DARK chocolate Mocha THIS is definatly better than sex. It is heaven, a gift from God incredable!

You know what really pieces me off. When you take time to do something nice for someone and instead of saying thank you for your effort they tell you they don't like it or you did it wrong.

yeah, feeling like you can't do anything right is really discouraging.

:-/

I am just gonna stop going out of my way to make people happy. Because nobody ever thinks of me... I know that's childish but I don't have a strong enough ego to cope with "Doing things wrong"

I give up, don't expect anything from me.

11/8/06 01:24 pm - Sorry Baby love....

Banana Pudding IS BETTER THAN SEX!!! 

*shiver*

That's all

11/8/06 10:32 am

No pics I swear!

( Nine People )



I did that survey 3 days ago and apparently I didnt post it. LJ saved it for me? Why doesn't that ever happen with the REALLY important updates. Not that they are important to you all. I got home last night around eight pm and when I crawled into bed at nine and realized that I would be back her in less than 12 hours because my mother moved and can no longer drive me in late if I want, I was very discouraged. I guess its paybacks for not working in college...

I am far less motivated this week and I have to work this weekend! Saturday AND Sunday.... growl. Saturday is the company Auction and sunday morn I have to go to a church in ypsi and talk about WTE. I think I am going to talk to my boss about making a display board for the Washtenaw Talent Exchange.

7 months for me and Tommy! Time is just moving so fast. I doubt we will do anything since its on a weekday and I have to work and Tom is not that type of person, I always thought it was fun, but you cant have your cake and eat it too. I guess, though way have cake that you cant eat?

Tonight I am going out to dinner with some of my friends from work.

GIR was so bad last night that I had to put him in ths closer. He leaves me alone when I am sleeping but he for some reason likes to pick on Tommy. He was not having that. Its a walk in clost so it whas nt all bad. He was really mad at me when tom left this morning but I woke up with him sleeping peacefully next to me so I think that I am forgiven

11/6/06 08:29 pm - Yes there more...

I'll stop after this



Aww he loves me



We actually look alot in this one. YAY!

I promise I'm done for the night

11/6/06 06:37 pm - sick of seeing GIR... TOO BAD so sad!

You never guess he was a devilish thing would ya...



LIES AND TRICKORY this cat is evil. But how do you hate that face...

I want to hug him and call him George

11/6/06 05:27 pm - I think he has a stash of cat nip between the matresses

( Photo Post cut for your pleasure )

I suppose I should make something to eat... but I am not hungry and cooking for one boy is silly

11/6/06 09:32 am - oooOOOooo this is a good one!

TEN random things about me:
1. My hair is getting REALLY long
2.I always cook more food then I need
3. My toothbrush is blue
4. I have the best girlfriend, boyfriend,best friend and roomie in the whole world
5. I am going to see aerosmith on December 1
6. My room is never clean
7. I often shop by texture... I feel all the cloths in the department store. The softer/cozier the better
8. I love cuddling up with a million blankets in the winter
9. I worry I am not making enough good memories
10. I have cotten mouth right now.

NINE ways to win my heart:
1. Kiss me for no reason
2. tell me I'm pretty
3. Be honest
4. Let me cry without asking why
5. make me laugh
6. surprise me
7. leave me love notes
8. cuddle with me like there's nothing else you'd rather do
9. Be my hero (help my family move, come get me when i'm stranded, fix what's broken ect.)

EIGHT things I want to do before I die:
1. Be really really happy again
2. Write those books I talk about so much
3. Get married
4. get a master and a PHD
5. learn to drive
6. be happy with my image in the mirror
7. Do something completly selfless
8.  Stay and a really expensive hotel for a weekend

SEVEN things I believe:
1. I believe you cant "get over" your past, you just learn to accept it for what it is
2. I believe that the little things truely bring the most happiness
3.Laughter is contagious
4. bubble baths fix everything
5. True love never dies
6. Family doesnt have to mean blood
7.Walking is overrated

SIX things that get me mad (or annoyed/paranoid/frustrated):
1.AB's in handicap spaces. The reason there there is so we have room for lifts/wheelchairs not just because they are closer
2. Hating anything based on isolated instances
3. PC uptight Assholes
4. people trying to "save" me
5. people who toss me aside and expect me to be there when the need me
6. Not throwing trash away

FIVE things I'm afraid of:
1. My own head
2.Getting my heart broken again
3, death
4. failure
5. People hating me

FOUR of my fave items in my room:
1. Pictures
2. my fishes
3. daddy and grandma's rings
4. my books.

THREE things I do everyday:
1. Kiss my Tommy
2. Play with GIR
3.take my meds

TWO things I need to do right now:
1. work
2. pay some bills
ONE person I want to see right now:
1. Stephy!
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11/5/06 08:53 pm

It seems I am never happy with the layout of this thing... I need to learn how to make one myself

11/5/06 05:42 pm - Sunday

Sundays are always so lazy. Didn't sleep well last night. I went to breakfast with my mom this morning, without Tom as he didnt feel good. Mom and I went shopping, since she has money now. I bought MORE close but then didn't give me the sale price so I have to take them back and see whats up..
Came back and passed out. Now I am talking to jordan and contemplating making dinner. I haven't talked to Jordan in so long, its happy!

thats all

11/4/06 08:20 pm - KITTY

not much today. Laundry and lunch with the friends. I FINALLY got laid, damn it took long enough! Tom bought a router today so I don't have to feel bored and rejected when he plays his games.

Now lets get on to the point of this post... pictures!



My kitty loves me... i really am sleeping in this pic I didnt know Tom took it until I commented on how long and hard I slept...


and tommy has a new gaming buddy

My cat picks weird places to nap
That's all. Enjoy your night.

11/3/06 10:04 am - what I want

Its friday and I don't feel like working. Last night was a good time (once Tom got out of his grumpy mood) we went out with Charles and Charles' friend Dave. Not sure how I feel about that kid. First of all he was trying way too hard to seem impressive, and I also got this weird vibe from him like he wanted to see what I look like without my clothes. Anyone that will hit on you while your boyfriend is sitting right there is sleazy at least in my opinion.

In other news I need to get laid. I keep having sex dreams...

Which reminds me that my little sis is going to be 18 soon, I can feel corruption's dirty hands reaching in already to turn her into god know what. *hyperventalates* I think I'll just pretend like its not happening... yeah that'll work!

I wanna go home. I wanna have my boy waiting for me when I get there. Then I want to cuddle up on the couch and get all cozy warm, order pizza, watch a movie together and then have sex in front of the fire place. But as Tommy would say, you can shit and one hand and wish in the other...

Hunting Season... bah humbug!
*shrug* I'll manage. I guess i could cuddle with my kitty until tom gets home and then maybe we can watch a movie it pizza and all the rest. Maybe.

11/2/06 05:57 pm - sigh

I love being ignored...

11/2/06 03:12 pm - I need to give myself a break

( rant...feel free to skip )

Okay hopefully that is out of my system.

My medicine is giving me cotton mouth like nobody's business. I feel like Jim Carry's charater in me myself and Irene...

Session was okay. Talked a lot about my tendency to make how I feel fact. I FEEL lik Tom doesn't want to be with me anymore, I feel like friends have abandoned me, I feel like I am a worthless blob, but none of those feelings are facts. It's weird how silly you feel when someone else looks at your situation objectivly.

thats enough for today
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Current Mood: anxious

11/1/06 12:48 pm - I'm one of those girls

*sigh* another day... it seems my headaches are coming back which really sucks. I'll live. I hope. Last night was fun. Tom's Aunt Joanne is one of those people that really loves the holidays. Nolan (Tom's Brother) got to scare all the kids by leaping out of a casket as they walked by. I laughed cuz for once, I wasnt the one jumping. Aside from the cold, it was fun. I was kinda sad that I didn't have a costume though.

I am so pathetic, Mom wanted me to go to her place and spend the night so she didnt have to get up as early to take me to my appointment. I told her I would miss my kitty and my Tommy way too much. She laughed at me but agreed to come get me in the morning. So I have officailly become one of those people that wants to be with their boyfriend as much as humanly possible. Who saw that coming? Yeah neither did I.

Oh well.

I'm off.
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