Date:	2005-01-26 19:38
Subject:	Well been a while...
Security:	Public
Mood:	apathetic
Music:	Begin the Beguine- f

Hi,
My roomie has made a live journal, so thought since she added me as one of her "friends" WoooHooo!
I should like write something so people have something to read.

I have been bad about this...life got in the way.

Sorry, will up date soon.

Hi Raechel! (rlcoon)


Cindi

Hi all...
Well not much to report other then I have been at work now for 2 weeks doing data entry for the Mass. Dept of Revenue. Type type type....

But with my new found riches (ie my first pay check) I was able to buy a couple of things...
First off, I needed to move up in size to a new dilator and found a 1 1/2" today at a Womens toy store... its a 1 1/2" stent and I thought I would never get it in me, but Oh My! I did and its great! wow.... have I progresed or what!

And also I bought a Hitachi Wand and an attachment for it...wow! More later after I play... *smile*

Other than that, not much to report, Im glad to read the Joann's boobies are growing.
I remember when I started HRT...it is a giddie and happy time for girls when they first start hormones. So I will be eager to see her changes and all...

OK well till next time...hey all if you read this email me would you please so I know
people are reading this.

cindigirl@cindigirl.com

Love and hugs,
Cindi

Well Raechel and I will head off to Maine to visit with friends.
Her work has changed her hours so this will be the last Sunday/Monday off she has
for a while, and I start my new job Monday.
Not able to sleep much the nite before, not sure why.
But sitting in bed I realised, its the first time up to Maine since getting dumped
by my lover the day I arrived at her house after my surgery. I imagined that when that happened I would lose contact with most of the friends I made because of her, then I realised, shit, I know most of them inspite of her. So..I will go and have fun. And later in the Spring I hope to have more contact with all the people I knew up in Maine before my surgery. I hope that beside changing my life for the better, my surgery hasnt caused me to lose friends. Why do great good changes cause so much change to the people around you?
Ah well...

I owe an apology to Joann, I need to be more careful how a talk about her and all.
In future she will only be refered to in the best of terms and with love and carring...sorry GF!

Cindi

Well seems like now that life has to take hold and shake me...from my euphoric journey of the last few years...I now need a job.

And to pay some bills long over due...well in fact all my bills are long over due..
I will take a temp job with the IRS doing data entry...Yuck!
But beyond that, Im looking forward to seeing Hellboy this weekend with Raechel and Peter.

Well seems like now that life has to take hold and shake me...from my euphoric journey of the last few years...I now need a job.

And to pay some bills long over due...well in fact all my bills are long over due..
I will take a temp job with the IRS doing data entry...Yuck!
But beyond that, Im looking forward to seeing Hellboy this weekend with Raechel and Peter.

Hi all..

Im real sorry for all my friends and loved ones that I havent updated the journal since my return.

Let me just feel you in then, get a cup of coffee and sit down right here dear!

OK so... I returned home from Maine on Feb. 22, I know I know, I was supposed to
stay up in Maine for a week to rest and all at my lovers house. Well that fell
thru in a big way, when I got there she informed me she had found someone else!
And I was just too upset to stay there even though she wanted me to. So she gave
me a ride back to Mass. and we parted in tears and friendship I hope. Love sucks.

So, I was at home in the bossom of my friends and glad to be home. Was good to see
Raechel my roomie. And I began the routine of the past few weeks, wakeup, shower, dilate, douche, rest, dilate, rest, dilate, rest, dilate, shower, duche and bed...mon ichi, mon ichi, mon ichi..! (Japanese for again, and again, and again..)
But dear friends amazing things began to happen! I heal very fast and by the second week home, my skin graft stopped hurting, I was able to drive, and by the 3 1/2 week, I was up to using the largest dilator with no pain! Wow! And I began to have
very definate sexual feelings down there...oh goody!

And so...my good and dear friend, Joann came over to visit and stay with me on March 13th, and wonderful things happened! For the first time as a woman I experienced vaginal sex! I go Laid! Yeah! Twice! Oh god, the after glow is amazing....
Now he/she was very careful and gentle..so I was not afraid of any damage. And
he was able to come inside me twice...what I had waited for for so long had happened.
And it all felt so wonderful. So Natural! And there was no trouble or pain so please dont worry...

As of this writing (March 26) my dilations are going well, and with the help of a hand held vibrator and other toys, I have come so close to orgasm, and it is so
amazing and wonderful, when it does at last happen Im going to explode I can feel it!

I am well healed now the skin graft has little or no pain, but does itch as it continues to heal. My vagina and clit is healing fine with only some itching at times and some phantom pains from time to time. So in the end all things have worked outfor the best! Dr Brassard and the crew are amazing. To quote my doctor here at home who examined me the week after I got back, "Well no one can say you dont have a vagina now!" How right she is! At last. Now the rest of my life continues, find work, find a lover(s) and live and enjoy life!

Thank you all so very much..hope to hear from you all please email me.!

Love
Cindi
3/26/04
www.cindigirl.com

Hi all, Im back from Montreal...feeling a bit dizzy right now, so just let me say Im doing fine, the skin graft has given me lots of pain, but its getting better now. My new "parts" are fine, and healing well. Will give a complete report in a day or so.

Love and hugs to all that cared and gave me support the past weeks and months.
Speacial hugs and love to, Raechel (always), Ivy, Jamie, Joann, Sue, Pamela and all my specical new friends from Montreal...
Feeling a bit dizzy, must be staring at a monitor again after missing it for 2 weeks....internet withdrawl! Bye for now...

cindi

Hello all, my name is Joann, a friend of Cindi. I spoke with her on the phone Thursday night and she gave me an update for everyone.

SRS surgery part 2 started Monday Feb 9th 2004 at 11:39am.
The surgery lasted about 3 1/2 to 4 hours.
Dr Bassard was able to give me 4 1/2" to 5 1/2" of depth.
He was able to free the clitoris and make me a hood.
He was also able to repair my Urethra.
I was groggy for 2 days. Woke up on Tuesday in the room with
a local girl from Worcester who had her surgery before mine at
8am the same day. On Thursday the 19th I am going to the residence.
I am doing fine, and I have very little pain.
On Monday the 16th(Valentines Day)I get to start Dilating and I will be
able to see how much depth I have. I will talk to Joann on next Friday the 20th and give her another update.

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Special Thanks
Hello, love and thanks to Jamie for the beautify Flowers. Sorry you can not pick me up but I understand.

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To Pamela Hayes,
Thank you for the flowers, it is a beautiful sentiment from a friend
I have never met but hope to.
P.S. call me at the residence.

Love and Thanks to all concerned with my well being.
Cindi Girl

This is Raechel, I keep forgetting to update this for Cindi, and then when I do remember, we don't have web access.

Anyway, she got up to Canada fine. Her surgery was monday at about 10:30 int he morning. This also went fine, spoke to her the day after. She was told that the Doctor was able to do everything she wanted. :)

Well had a great time at my two going away parties, one at Friends Landing in Haverhill,Ma so many good friends came.
Thank you all so much.

And I met a really nice girl, Joann. She made my going way extra special along with Kristy...didnt get home till 6am...... ah the after glow. *smile*

And my roomie Raechel and I went up to Maine to be with my GF and many more friends for SuperBowl Sunday..Yea Pats!~ Thank all for coming, Ivy, Sue, Kassy and Russell. And Of Course! To Jamie, love you so hon...will see you again in 3 weeks!

So now I wait till Thurs at 7am when I will leave with Summer for Montreal.

Cindi....impatient....

Sorry very hectic here, well its now exactly 7 days till I travel to Montreal.
On my website I have posted a pix of the area map with address and phone # of the places and hospital I will be staying at.

Had a bad ear infection last week, but all cleared up now.
Found out only Summer will be able to drive me to Montreal, our friend Kathrine cant go. So sad! :(

My party is Saturday nite at Friends Landing in Haverhill, Ma, come on by...
And Raechel and I will be then heading up to Maine for SuperBowl Sunday to be with
my lover Jamie and friends for 2 days...than on Tues visit my Mom!
Weds is a quiet day ( I wish, will be running around like crazy) Dinner that nite with friends and then 7am on Thursday Feb 5th Summer and I drive to Montreal! WhooHoo!

All for now...just a quick up date..promise to try and keep this going...

Cindi

Well this day is starting off just peachy! Got up early to go to Boston and get my
temp passport for my surgery last year made in to a 10yr passport, needed to include a copy of the surgery report. The Temp Passport expired today, the nice woman at the passport office (very TS friendly by the way) said all I had to do was mail it in!
So I wasted $3 for the tolls and froze driving in to Boston....
Onward and upward I guess, work in 2 hrs....argh!
Cindi

Hi,
Its 3:20 am on Tues 1/20/2004...I thought Id start this to try and gather some of my thoughts as to my pending surgery to repair the damage done nearly one year ago.
Im not very good at keeping journals like this up to date, but I will try....

Everyone keeps asking me if Im nervous...no. I have been thru the operation before, but I am anxious to have it over with and to finally experience all the events and things after a successfull SRS. And I want to enjoy the whole Montreal experience too! For years I envied the girls that got to go to Montreal and have Dr Bassard do their surgeries. Never thought it would happen for me, and for sure not this rather round about way! God Im glad 2003 is over!

I took my last HRT (hormone) shots tonite...no more now till after surgery. Surgery is Feb 9th, so till at least the 10th or so no hormones...argh!

Well off to bed...another day closer to Montreal...17 days to travel day, and 21 days to Surgery!
Cindi