Welcome to Marc's livejournal. However, this journal is FRIENDS-ONLY!



Sorry, this journal is locked because I sometimes check my journal on public computer labs and I'm afraid that someone unwelcome will stumble on to it. That's already happened too many times for me not to take precautions. That means that to read my entries, you must a) have a livejournal account and b) add me to your friend list so I add you to mine.

Not to worry, I'm a generally nice guy, if you leave a comment or contact me somehow, I'll add you to my friend list. I love to make new livejournal friends.

I've recently decided to start posting icons here. It's one of my hobbies, so why not? It'll bring a little life to the old journal. Here ya go! I decided to post only icons of beautiful girlies:

Teasers:


-Amélie (1)
-Bjork (1)
-Greta Garbo (1)
-Hayden Panettiere (1)
-Kana (4)
-Maggie Gyllenhaal (3)
-Nora Zehetner (6)
-Scarlett Johansson (3)
-Misc. (3)

( ICONS (23 Total) )

PLEASE READ

My friends page is confusing me. I'm cleaning it out in a different way than last time. This time, I'm going to delete anyone that doesn't comment on this entry by next week, instead of just deleting people I don't remember. I'm doing it this way for various reasons: One, I don't update very much anymore and I'm sure this will be an easy way to get me off some of your friends lists without much bother. Two, I don't have much time to read so many entries- and to be blunt- I'm only good friends with a bunch of you, some of you I just know from communities and we don't have much to say to each other on a daily basis. I am not seeking having 1000+ friends, that's not my goal here. I just want people that actually care about my journal to be reading it, less clutter for everyone, right?

If you weren't paying attention before, comment here NOW, or be deleted. End of story. Sure, there are probably some exceptions- I'm sure some of you won't comment and I will still keep (because that's how much I love ya), but please make it easy for me by commenting anyway.

I love you guys, but understand what I'm trying to do here <3 And just in case you didn't check your friends page in time or whatever may come up, I will delete you by not commenting in time, but feel free to comment here and explain, I will add you back. That's why this is a public entry, I don't want to catch anyone off guard.

THANK YOU. Please comment by next Wednesday (March 1st) or you will be deleted.

Oop! Time for a friends-cut. If I deleted you go cry in a corner don't fret, I can add you back if you request it. The only reason I've deleted some of you is because:

a) You don't update
b) We don't have anything in common

However, if you don't update or have nothing in common with me, yet you still want me to friend you, I'll do that. Unless you annoy me or something =P (Which none of you really do.) Kk, thanks then.

Let me take this moment to say goodbye to baroque. They were one of my favorite bands, damn it >_<;! Why must they split up *sobs* WHYYYYyyyyy.... I hate them for breaking up now. Jk, I love them =/ Those bastards. Anyway, I'm really sad they broke up and I'm playing their music all day today. (With the occasional Teen Titans Theme for variety's purposes...don't ask.) Also, this layout is dedicated to them. Gah, I loved them so much, bands never last anymore? ;_;



Goodbye forever, one of my favorite bands <3 At least you made gakidou.

:D!

Leave a comment with your name if you want to know what I really think of you, and I’ll reply and tell you. No lies, all honesty.

Post it in your journal after I do yours so I can see the reverse.

All right then...just put your name and that's all. If you're curious or whatever.

This will make no sense to anyone. Don't read it, it's just me complaining and making no sense 'cause I don't feel like explaining it.

Man, I'm so miserable. I don't know why I try to pretend there's nothing wrong, that everything is just dandy. I'm so horribly unhappy. I try really hard...every single day to keep a smile on my face, I try very hard to not let things drag me down, but I can't fight everything. Nobody even listens. But why should they? I never help anyone else, so I guess this is just punishment for my mistakes. I've made so many, I'll be miserable the rest of my life. Besides, even if I told people, I can't expect them to solve my problems for me. I tell my parents that I'm unhappy, but they don't say anything. They don't give me one piece of advice. All my father says is, "What about graduating early?" or "Talk to your councelor to see if you can graduate early." My all time favorite is, "It's almost over." Wtf, that doesn't make me feel better at all. I can't be mad at him though, it's not easy to make people feel better. Maybe it's because I feel so alienated. My friends are so different, they don't even realize it. They don't even realize how hard it is for me to be around them, how hard it is for me to hold my opinions about their stupid decisions. What does it matter anyway? What happened, happened... I can't do anything about it now, I only wish I had been around before they made those decisions. I would have tried so hard to talk them out of it... I never thought they'd do any of the things they're doing now. Apparently I don't know my friends at all anymore, maybe I never did. I suppose I shouldn't be surprised. I don't even know what I'm so angry about, their stupid decisions or their great changes. Maybe I'm not even angry at all, I'm just... find it less appealing to talk to both of them. I want to crawl into a hole... I can't even talk to them, I just have to pretend nothing is bothering me. I tried bringing it up, but it doesn't phase them at all. When I talked to them about how I found out something that I thought they'd tell me about FROM SOMEONE ELSE, they just laughed and joked like it was no big deal. Like it didn't hurt my feelings at all that I found out from someone else. This was so long ago... but it just won't go away! I thought if I ignored it and kept pretending I was okay, this problem would dissapear. But I can't even fool myself into thinking I'm fine... "The longer that I wait, the more selfish I get." I'm trying so hard to like them again, to salvage the normal mood we had before they changed. I'm doing a fine job so far, they have no idea something's wrong with me. So... I guess I'll let this bug drive me mad until I figure out what to do. Writing about this helps me so much... though it makes me sad at the same time. It's not the sex, it's the changes. They're different people now, weather they see it or not. I don't even know HALF of what's going on with them anymore... if I did, I'd go mad. I'm already insane enough... I need to find my stillness in time...

"This could never really end,
It's infineatly sad.
Could someone tell me when,
something good became so bad?
If you have a cure,
to me would you please send
a picture of my life
with a letter telling how
it should really be instead."
-Jamiroquai (Picture Of My Life)

Hey wifey, dig my new icon X3 I couldn't help myself <3

Too early to post anything else...*shrugs* Off to school, kiddies.

//EDIT// All right then, I'm here at school...woot. Doing nothing during my open hour. I kind of want to go to the cafeteria to eat my lunch, but it's too early. Besides, it's warm here (surprisingly enough, today is a little chilly). For the first time this year, I have a little home-packed lunch to eat here in school ^_^ Doesn't that just warm the heart? It's a croissant my dad made, I just put it in a little bag and brough it to school. Can't wait to eat it.

Oh wifey, you'll appreciate this, that Korean kid I'm getting to know is talking to me more on his own. I thought I annoyed him at first, but he doesn't seem to mind me anymore seeing as how he came over here and all. He scrolled through my journal too n_n; He liked the Yuna icons. Uh, what else?... There is a scary big tall guy looking around the lab for a computer, he scares me, so I'm gonna go so he can use this computer. See ya around kids <3

I'm having a Labor Day Mecha Anime Marathon! Which consists of...Gundam Wing. Just Gundam Wing, I'm not going to bother with Neon Genesis Evangelion or anything, I'd need more than a day for that. So yay, the tradition lives on! I always watch all the episodes of Gundam Wing on Labor Day (or Memorial Day, one of the two) each year, so I don't go a whole year without my dose of Gundam-ness. So, just come over and watch all the episodes of Gundam Wing at my house, commercial free! (They're only commercial free because I have a fast forward button on my VCR remote, haha.) Actually, don't come because I'll probably be in my pajamas all day XD Jk jk. It's kind of sad though, one of my favorite anime series and I only have it taped off Cartoon Network, IN ENGLISH no less! Dubbed *sobs.* However! Gundam Wing was a very nice dub, so I don't have a huge problem watching the dub (not like I have a choice 'cause I've never bought the DVDs). I want some GW dvds now...T_T; Boo hoo.

I have so much homework to doooo x_X *dies in a pile of Gundam-Wing obsessed goodness*

Suddenly I wish for simpler times. ( I wonder how long I'll be able to see the moon like this )