Sunsweetness

Whoa does anyone still have this thing? Its been ages since my first entry, and everything is so different, yet bitter sweetly beautiful. I'm beginning to forget everything- a sign of Alzheimer's or dementia, hopefully neither, and its all cuz i'm in a house in the middle of no where all alone by night, and by day i'm at work and i can't chat or reminisce with anyone. I can't wait to move back to the city. In college i totaly believed that i'd get out of school and party for the rest of my life cuz there would be no homework, no tests. My expectations have left me disappointed, as everyone is now busy with work. I'm unsure if want to continue on in science, which sucks cuz i've invested so much into it. I need to decide if i want to go on to genetic counseling. I need to weigh the pros and cons. I totaly need to talk with D, who finally took the plunge of fate and left law school last week. I can't function without a schedule, and have organized everything possible, all apparent signs of OCD which i don't have. Looking back at this past year, its been eventful, i actually left the state, i moved, i attended my first conference, volleyball, i went to the mall many times with Kai-yu, but there is one thing which clouded it all. And i don't know what to make of it, and i wonder what i'll think of it in a year. I'm counting on it to be at least a little easier and less consuming.

So i'm in lab right, and i order all my primers right, and then i realize (with a start of course) that i have nothing to do. What a luxury, what a delight! Wrong. I'm bored out of mah mind. I hafta stay around though because i have class at 5pm, and driving back home for about 40 min, and then back would be quite silly, and i can't skip my class because i have another one right after it, and both meet only once a week. So i'm stuck in this cubicle with a computer, and some books that i don't want to read. Its a pity no one is free to share in my new found free time. D-girl is close by in Huntington but she has class, oh what a shame to waste away this beautiful day in my cube staring at a computer screen, yet alas thats all i can do really. I tottaly wanted to go shopping, but i need to save money, yup even my landlord called today claiming to need the rent today. Today! Its due the first of the month, whats with being due ahead of time.

How did i regress and become less of a serious/responsible person as i got older?

Everything just came crashing down today. I love my job and what i'm working on, but recently we have no longer been able to produce any data using microarrays. I still have a project to do (yea) and so Stephanie, Maya, Constance, and Abi follow me around the lab as i work and keep me company. Constance left last week. Maya is leaving in two weeks and Stephanie just announced her last day is on Friday. Because there is no Data production I def contemplated leaving two weeks ago, but talked to the Proff and he convinced me to stay, mainly because he said i'd be done in 3 years as opposed to the common 7 years for a grad student. As of yesterday my project slowed and i can't take having nothing to work on. I feel like every moment i'm idle is like wasted time. I am also so so unbelivable sad that Stephanie is leaving. I'm not even gonna be here on Friday to see her last day because i have a weding to go to. I get so attatched to people and when they leave i'm a complete wreck. Steph has been with me through so much.. i hit a parked car with her, we went out to lunch, and on walks, dress shopping, and just talked about everything. I'm not gonna be able to take any one else leaving, and yet Maya is going to. I remember last year B4 i started grad school, i told my friend that i don't think i'm gonna care about what lab i'm in as long as the atmoshpere is like a family, like the one i'm in now, and now its like my family is leaving and i'm so sad.

I don't understand how people can persuade themselves to be in the lab on weekends and after normal working hours. Like aren't you afraid you'll miss something life related? I feel dizzy Oy.

So in lab when we deal with trio's meaning a mom, a dad, and an affected child, that has an unaffected sibling we do a quick paternety test just to make sure that everything is kosher. We found out that when the parents have an affected child the very next child (the healthy one) usually fails the paternety test. Omg Bio 358 strikes again!
I fear that i am going deaf. The long commute to and from lab has me stuck in a car for about 1 1/2 hours a day where inevitable a good song will come on the air. When it does some how the volume on my car radion will increase continuously until the song is over leaving a throbing in my ears. Man i realised i can't concentrate on music unless its uber loud, which is super bad for me, and i can't stop.
Being in a genetic's lab you'd think i'd be doing bio work or lab bench work, but no, i'm learning C#, and other types of coding. Go figure. I get to live in my very first cubicle though, and thats kind of nice after i gave it a personalized touch, of AFI and OLP. In addition my professors current project is Greenspace, a play on myspace, since the part of long island our lab is in is called Greenlawn. There's also a never ending candy basket, a continuous stream of alternative punk/Bluegrass/Banjo comming out of my proffs office, a technician who has a squirrel, and a two year old who belives everything in the lab is hers, including my lunch. Now who's gonna tell me being in a lab is boring?

...and in closing the two year old steals cell phones and she knows how to use them! i did not know they could do that!

I can not stand people who are smart but go around on a daily basis going "omg it was sooo cool" and like "omg no way" with their vally-esqu increase in pitch at the end of every sentence reminiscent of asking a question. Are so asking it is so cool? Are you asking if it is no way? Other than that they walk around fake smiling at everyone, with a plastered grin on their face. (Genetic program excluded) It is so sad that all they have in their life is like the TV shows they watch (tottaly boring and unacceptable) and the new desk they got the night before. ( it was a plain desk how do you talk about a desk for a half hour?) Take the plainest undergrad and he/she will top them. Why don't they have more in their life? i can't understand how they got to this point acting the way they do. They would'nt have growing up in da 'hood thats for sure.

And i started to go insane and thought there was something wrong with me. But today i was saved when i sat near by all of them and realized no its definitly not me its them, and Maria told me to give them all an STD. ( using your mind ) Where is the posse? I miss you so.

in other news i don't know anything from Bio202, and bombed my TA lab session, explained buffers wrong, mixed up the pH scale, broke the projector screen, and explained the experiment wrong which means all my students did the experiment wrong, and i have to shape up, but i'll be doing human genetics soon YAY! Welcome pedigree charts, welcome.

Tottaly slow day in lab today like whoa, and i went and ate lunch early cuz i thought i'd have work to do later but alas some one is using all the apparatuses i need for all the different projects i'm working on. What are the chances that would happen! So now everyone else is at lunch and i'm lonely. So i decided to waste my time on line, and checked my e-mail, only to recive awful news. My TA assignment has been changed, and instead of TAing Biochem 2 like i would have soooooo enjoyed, i now TA bio 202. God no. That is the worst class ever and i am so deeply saddened. The funny thing is i so failed the lab, with like a D or something, How am i supposed to TA it. So the pieces don't fit like i thought, and i guess i'm gonna have to give up autisim research. I'm also being mean for no reason to people who are competing against me, that also makes me sad afterward for they are far better and deserve respect. but fire the gun into the mouth of doubt i will conquer although the average would break. If i repete that enough times mabey i'll belive it. Tomorrow going on retreat to a MCC. My heart is with my MEFS and i hope they live and not get a nasty fung and produce virus a plenty.

While apologetic for my long absence from updating my live journal, i still give the common excuses which should make all better. Right? Sure! So yeah nothing interesting happened since...when was the last time i updated? Sometime in April. I just graduated, started grad school, got to live in an apartment, and today i found a super awesome downloading site that had all my favorite music except for bane.
Anticipating graduation was the best feeling. You know that you're done with school, and that it’s over forever. I had been getting ready for leaving school, hoping for a good job, but alas i got into grad school. So no break for me. Graduation itself was the greatest day! You walk around with these pointed caps, with string coming from them whacking you in the eye, or that vicinity, and you listen to speeches tailored to your school and year, but you know that its over rehearsed and trite, but who cares you graduated! I got a picture taken of me and Dale!
My summer was filled with playing pool at La Cue every Mon, Wed, and the rest of the day's i just hung, and was a bum, for the first time in many years. I enjoyed it, and went to the city many times, never tiring of the bright lights, and the ordered chaos of the streets. So beginning with the fact that I’ve become hardcore over the summer, why, oh why! i've been listening to so many band I’ve hated before, and every song i hear is better than the last, and I’m even using a lyric in my presentation on Tuesday. Oh man what a one-eighty. So silly SBU gave me a hard time when i tried to get housing on campus for the fall, and so i got me an Apartment. Whoo! mah first crib. But it’s more of a dorm, and i rent out one room in it, but have access to the kitchen, and Laundry room, yay. It’s so close to campus i can walk to class in 7 minutes if i try.
School is hard. I can't make the connection as to what’s causing me to do really bad in my classes. My grades are the lowest they have been in my life. This makes me sad, and confused. I majored in Biochem and am doing horribly. I'm not as disciplined as i was before, cuz i only have 2 real classes! Yea only 2! This is a far cry from my previous 7 classes, overloading style which caused me pain. Now in grad school, i'm watching TV, hangin out, having lunch. The last time i had this kind of free time was during the bad year when i got a C in Calculus. Free time does not work for me, for the past eight years i've always had to be somewhere at some time, and had to study these many pages in a set amount of time. I can't deal without structure. I missed classes, which i have never done, and wake up super early to get to class, but underestimate that amount of time i'll need to walk to class. I've missed the clock to one too many classes.
Its so strange to be on the same campus, without the same people. I no longer have Kaitlin, my ruffle, who was a good sport to deal with my many over exadurations, such as "it is THE END," "i'm failing again ahhhh," and my many "omg i saw insert fakename here"! Annie my partner in crime is gone, and i have no one to open random doors with, or someone to interpret my seagull sighting, which oh man i'm is confusing me. The campus is the same and everywhere i go there are so many memories that surface while i stroll though campus in a mad dash to class. I want out, which i probably why i'm trying to get to CSHL.
Going through grad school, i've realized a lot, maybe even done that thing where you learn something and people commend you for having "grown." So i am working under a new boss, who is the complete opposite from Papa Marcu. He graduated from Hardvard, and drinks afternoon tea like the British people. He is what some people call high class, and although i'm all for being civilized, high class people bring out the worst in me. I get very cranky having to listen to them, and disagree with their opinions openly, and my are the opinionated. People are all the same, but there is a rift between "high and low class" and i don't feel like i fit in with "high" people. I feel like all their wishes have been handed over to them, and they don't know the struggle to live pay check to pay check, like normal people do. Its just a really different life style and i can't work for a boss who does not understand when i say i can't buy a car yet i have to save up, and he asks why i don't have a trust fund for this situation...umm what's a trust fund anyway. Sigh, why can't all people have the same amount of money then we'd all understand each other. We should ALL just have a lot of money, what fun would that be.

I feel smothered. Bothered. So after i got my many rejections from grad school i made a plan in my head. It was beautiful. It was a plan for my future, but like all plans they never go the way they should or could. I was going to get a job in the city. Mabey at Cornell Medical, mabey at Kelly Pharmaceuticals. I had applied to 15 different companies and places of academia to be a Lab-tech. Of course a Lab tech with only a B.S would not make much money but i would be in the city. Near my friends and my family, and i would be happy. After about 5 years of a hectic laborious life of a biochem student i could finally rest... and i looked forward to it. My friends and i planed our graduation party like a year before, and had plans to get an apt. together. While living in the city, i would volunteer for say the red cross, or the various other positions where i culd get that gratifing feeling that i matter. After about 2 years of being a tech, i would deliberate and finally make a decision. Would i choose Med School, Opt School, or go back to my original plan- to be a genetic counselor. But then i got an Interview, and i was so exited, and extreemly nervous, but the program was not my first choise. I was not my second either, it was my back up plan in case i would not get in anywhere. It was also a different program altogether. All the others i wanted were to get my masters and certification whihc would take 2 years and this one i was being intervied for was to be 5 years. Whoa. Thats a long time. So i got the interview and rocked it, and got accepted. I was so exited, and showered with love and hugs from like everyone who knew about it. but soon things sorted out in my head, and i am not looking forward to this 5 year thing, but well everyone expects me to be. I talked to a few people and they all gave me good advice, "that i was seriously selling myself short with my other plan...that if i think i can do it why won't i... that if i back out now i will regret it forever. I think its great that everyone so highly of me, but now i feel like i have an obligation to everyone watching me (which i more people than i ever expected)to succede. I know i should not be crying about the fact that i got accepted, but now my life will be so much harder. I will have so many more obligations, and i just don't want that. All my life i felt like i was never free, and thats all i want. At least for a little while. And now i will never be. I accepted the 5 year program, and two days later my dream job called me for an interview, and i had to tell them,no i'm sorry i already have another position, and now i'm so sad. and regretfull. So now i know i will defintly be able to graduate from the 5 year thing and get my degree with flying colors. I would be very successfull in the end. So its not a questin of what i can or can't do. Its more of what i would like to end up doing. So should i choose what i want to do or do what everyone thinks is perfect for me? How is this not a communist society with everyone telling everyone else what to do, and as we've seen in the Stanley Milgram Obedience experiments usually people do.

In a few weeks my undergraduate career will be over, and i will be a college graduate. Ha! So since freshman year so many things have happened. Some good, mostly good, and that phrase of "when you look back to where you were crying you will laugh, and to the part where you were laughing you will cry" or something to that extent. That really pertains to these past 4 years. The only regrets i have was missing the deadline for the URECA poster show, and not being able to show my poster of siRNA knockdown of the IKKalpha subunit in the NFkappaB pathway, and some others, like not being able to hang out as much cuz i always had exams. So about last week i got the news that i had an interview ! An interview! Unfortunately it was not to Sarah Lawrence, which is where i REALLY wanted to go. So since this news i have realized that i am a complete nerd, and i'm not to happy about it. Maybe i've been denying this but now i've noticed. Here are the signs, see when we left the lab "i got out of the building and had to squint cuz the sun was so strong, even though it was behind clouds, and they said that is the first sign of being a lab rat. Secondly, i was extremely exited about the ICON SCi-FI convention that is held here annually. Thirdly i can say things like siRNA knockdown of the IKKalpha subunit in the NFkappaB pathway, and think its normal. This is a sad day. More importantly Mei-Mei has won Jimmy eat world/taking back sunday tickets from K-rock, and we are going and it will be the funnest thing ever! I have to brush up on my jimmy eat world and stuff.

My Vacation started and ended with many day trips to the new and improved Queens Center Mall. All of the trips were quite entertaining mainly because of the friends who accompannied me on these trips. The Mall is so much better than before and the store papaya is my new favorite store. In between these trips we celebrated Cindy's and Kai-yu's Birthdays, which were also quite fun. The best trip was Kai-yu and her sister's and my adventure to the Korean Buffet place. Where i had to keep exclaiming where does it all go?!! The vacation also lead to more discoveries and rumours. I found out that i go to school with two people i know but i had no idea i go to school with them in all my three and a half years- Hang out/ catch up time with them will hopefully follow with one of them. I also heard a rumor that someone is married, which i can't belive for some reason. I went ice skating in the rink in central park called the lasker rink or something like that, and omg it is so much better than the wollman rink, they play awesome music like on the radio instead of like christmas carolls that they play in wollman, and NO ONE is there, so you have the entire rink to your self. They played the macarena which was scary skating to it while it was snowing and no one was there. No one is there cuz its in the "bad part of town" but honestly its not any worse than the beautiful 168 st armory, where i basically lived every weekend for 3 years. the day before i left for stonybrook i spent like 6 hours baking cookies with a good friend of mine. It was a lot of fun, and we made as many cookies as memories, we made about 150 cookies, and by the end we felt like we were in a cookie factory, and then had to eat dinner surounded by all the cookies cuz there was no room. So i came back to stony.The first day of oreintation was ok, we got out early and i went to lab where i got suckered into doing a lab swipe, 22 minipreps, and 4 qiagens, and by geting out of orientation early i mean that we did not work from 8am to 8 pm, so now i'm quite tired, but i can't fall asleep now cuz i'm not a napper. Today i had my palm read, while i bought a toothbrush. My palm reading seemed pretty acurate, but i'm not quite sure how lines on your hand tell stuff about you.

A certain someone did not come to the Oreintation leader Dinner, and that certain someone did not get the comemorative Oreintation leader Ledger, or the really good food, and a certain someone did not find out when Dorms where opening for the winter break, even though that certain someone keeps asking about that. FYI the are opening for the second week oreintation. anyway i have not updated in a really long time. hmm i don't know what to write, so i would like to take this time and express how angry i am at my advisor. He is a mean man. He told me that i could not take cell signalling and instead told me to take mammalian becasue it was easier for me. I hate myself for listening to him, because i am sooooo bored in mammalian class, and i know i would love to be in Cell Signaling class. If i had no morals, and was a lil bit more insane i would contemplate sending him a letter bomb. I need to find an advisor that will actually be helpful, becasue i need to decide which classes to take, but there is good news. I only need 2 more classes to graduate. One for my major and one for DEC. Whoo Graduation party! 7 more months. How exiting, yet i will still have to stay here all summer, but i may get an all expense paid trip to ITALY. i am so exited omg if i really go to ITALY which all plans say yes, the only not cool thing is that i won't be going with Sona, Sylvia and Dorothee. that is the saddest ever , and if i went with them Sona and i would be going to clubs like every day and night, it just would be insane. But now that i'm going later on who am i gonna go to clubs with? Alesandro? Millena? Paul is 100% against clubs i remeber that. He was even gonna wake up at like 5:00am to come to rescue me from one. Sona would be so cool to go with cuz she's just a crazy party girl. I still have some hope that i'll be able to go with everyone, and i'll trully be crushed if i can't go. Millena is comming back to the US soon, and we are all supposed to go back with her. The only good part about going later is I would be able to go in the summer, and i might just might be able to make the vacation there longer, which is what Oumou told me to do. I'll just be like "oh i want to visit the University, and then i'll just like take of", but i need someone to take off with. I'm still decideing on who to take with me, and i did narrow it down, but i can't make the final decision. I need someone who would want to go on trips to Rome, and to see the culture, and the sisteen chappel, and going in to the mountians, but someone who would want to go to to the clubs like everyday, and never get tired, like me. I <3 ITALY, and i have not even been there yet.

So i thought i lost my earings in DYLAR which is the Mouse facility in the hospital. This is because when we go there we've got to suit up in gloves face masks, and gowns and stuff, as if we were going to surgery. I thought that when i took off my face mask, my earing flung away with it too, cuz i realized i lost the earing right after i left the facility. But just now, i was in the bathroom, and this is four days after i lost it, since last tuesday, i found it! I am so relived, and amazed! It was sitting on the ledge next to the flower pot! Omg i'm so surprised to find it!

So i missed Neal Stephenson's book signing last night because has a P-chem exam, and Psyc quiz today. So all the frivolous hours of studying P-chem did not pay off, and i am so lost. My brain hurt during the exam. So i am gonna stay the weekend! ANd work on the exam in the library with hopefully a lot of people. Two brains are better than one, as they say unless you are a siameese twin. I feel bad for this one girl, who was asking Londa to study with her, but its Londa's Birthday so she's going home cuz her dad is gonna go pick apples with her. So the girl has no one to study with, but i don't know her so i did not want to invite her, because i've never even seen her before, but no i fell bad, cuz she'll be studying alone, and Physical Chemitry is the one subject taht can not be understood alone. I did SO, SO bad on teh quizzes i really need help. Tomorrow Kaitlin, Cheryl and i are gonna have so much fun!
I lost my earing! the one my mom, gave me that she got from Russia. I am so upset. there is no where that you can get that kind of gold, exept like russia, or the middle east. I also need earing cuz i'm afraid the holes will close up. My grandma's ear holes closed up, but she pierced them herself, which i don't have enough guts to do, so i'm gonna need to get something.
Lab time is fun. Pete, Ingrid, and Dorothee's husband came to Lunch on wednessday! We had a massivly good time, and of course Sylvia emmbarrased me again, but i think i'm getting used to it. i can't wait for the grad student halloween party! Sona said last year was a blast, and everyone talks about it for like the entire year after its over. Sona is in Salem right now! She's gonna bring us back pumpkin beer, and hopefully lots of stories!

Today Sylvia packed on like 3 projects for me to do in a cloning experiment, and when i asked her if i'm supposed to finish them all today, she told me "yeah" with a streight face and all. In my head i was thinking OMG i'm gonna be here forever, but not so, becasue as she was leaving, she told me to pack up and go. so i get out of lab early! At least earlier that last time (9:00pm) Today i ate Legos, and Ruffled potato chips, all during French lesson, and then Hindi class. I love Hindi, but i can't pronounce anything the way its said. And its supposed to be based on Sanskrit, but none of the words i learned so far match up with the sanskrit, that Sung Bae Park, taught us in RLS class. But i'm pretty sure that my teacher knows what she's doing. Oh no i just spilled Red Kool-aid on my shirt :( Anyways, I am so confused about what i'm doing with the rest of my life, but sylvia say's that if you want to get ahead in any buisness, they are not gonna pick the person who has a Bachlors, but i hate school! I wanna get out! i've had enough! Kai-yu Cindy Liz, and i all had this plan to get out of college and share an aptment, and party like every day. How is that plan gonna happen? Also Sona said that when she gets out of Med-school, she's gonna have a lot of money, and her plan is to buy one of those houses in the private Northen long-island communities, where they are all snooty, and exclude every one who basically does not think Golf is a fun pass time. When she does she's gonna settle in, become accepted and then out of no where she's gonna throw the biggest keg party in the whole universe. This plan is gonna be shot down in like 5 minutes tops i bet, cuz they are probbably gonna call the cops at the sound of Sona's insane rock music tendacies, but yeah that all we were planning in lab today. Spending time like that does make Grad school sound a bit more appealing.

so going back to recap cool events that occured since the last update, i moved out of my Undergrad apartments, and moved back into Irving on friday. I could not have done it without Cindy, who is an indespensable roomie, and friend. I called Kaitlin, so many times to confer about the arangements of the room, but she never picks up. Arg. Then that weekend i moved i was like Ahhh, ::wipe sweat off brow:: I may actually have a weekend to myself, which was bittersweet because living in the Apt. this summer, i realised i'm happiest when people are around. So the phone rings when i get home, and Kai-yu saves me from a boring weekend with plans for both sat and sun. On saturday, we went to the dentist office so mah girl could get that dental assistant job she deserves. Then we went to Rockerfeller where we watched the Basketball game between Latvia and United states on the big screan TV's while sitting in the bleachers, which was a lot of fun. At her house later that night we took those personality and relationship tests on her E-mode account, and they all said the same thing about me, which is the same thing Kai-yu has told me all along. I am doomed.
Orientation was so much fun. This being my third year, i got to do a lot of stuff i did not in previous years. I got to do the parent program, where i gave a tour of O'Neil. I got to be part of a panel in front of all the parents and answer questions on stage. I also finally got my own advising group to lead! Yippie!!!! I was so exited, but no one was listening to me :( Advising today was insane, we had 280 students, and no classes were open. I'm still debating about wheter or not to work on Mon, Tues.
Diane came to sleep ova, on Tuesday, and Wednessday, and she's leaving tonight. Yesterday, we went on an adventure to Roth where we saw that her Quad got new beds, mattress, and they finally got lights! Two in each room! We also went to visit maria, who was not there, and i really hope we were throwing rocks at the right window. I also hada nother traumatic experience at 7 eleven.
There have been strange power outages in random hallways in my building, and i finally saw my RHD, who is an old friend, and i'm quite pleased is my RHD. Well not i just have to wait for Kaitlin to come back hopefully soon. Come back its dark and scary. I don't want school to start next week. I still have to make my schedule.

Saturday's picnic was attended by a racoon. Looking at the racoon from our side of the fence was like looking at an amimal at a zoo, which explains why certain people keep refeing to me as "the city girl" because i get exited at the wilderness, while it is commonplace to long islanders. Other than the racoon, it was a plessant event , almost pedant, but incohlate for us hardworking folk. Today was my first day as an oreintation leader this summer which led me to smile wide all day. As i had been told, there are a lot of changes that took place with the events and such, but while it is aberant it is propitious to anyone who greated with antipathy the very long 12 hour day we had. That dread is mitiagetd, as our day has been decimated by 5 hours! Yup i can aver that and so can anyone you corrobaorate with. I know you're off your seat ready to eulogize the news, but don't celebrate yet. We only get paid until 4pm. Any work hours done after that won't go down in that leather bound book, which is stamped and walked over to to Admin every two weeks. Our chanted motto now is to make those unpaid hours obviate. Occuding our view of the sweet taste of freedom is the burgeoning newest citizens of the campus we share. They lack the complacency to our reverie, only because they don't know better, and can't be blamed- we love them all. The burocracy i learned about is insipid, so now on to other topics i can embelish about, although this entry will be slightly anachronistic if i do that. As i sat in the auditorium waiting for orientation to start, i was joined by UC, and Winnie, who rock. I met a bunch of really great OL's today, and by great i mean that they really do their work, hopefully that image is not specious. Being diffident at first, i rapidly became acclimated back into the routeen of the day, thanks to everyone. The newbies think that this is my first year as an OL, Psh i say. Its my third, they have just not seen me before. I tried to dissabuse their notion, but mabey that seams a bit childish. I registered our clients(the freshman) in the CEAS room, which means i was surrounded by budding engineers all born in 1986- year of the tiger. One client had an appealing disposition, and i could not help but fix my pupils his way, which led my lens to focus an image of his profound hazel eyes on my retna. Looking a bit longer i relized he had some sort of twitch going on, but i dismissed it, as a hungry man dismisses a drosophila in his only bowl of soup. I got to register him, while he carresed the hand of his boyfriend and future roomate, and made all the girls cry, even the one's on a diet, who were looking at the desert stand. After oreintation i went to lab, and did transfections, and changed media on my darling cells. Yup thats right, i'm working two full time jobs at one time. Its Hella Good.

Today was so much fun you'll have to HOLD YOUR HEAD to keep it from exploding when you hear how much fun it is. hold your head is a polish saying that works a lot better when said in polish but anyway, today was a lot of fun. Our lab went on a fishing trip to Capree state park. We went on the fishing boat called the Jib IV. I was my fist time fishing from a boat on the ocean ever. We had to pay $28 which was a lot to me anyway, and we could chip in two dollars to a pool, where if you caught the biggest fish you would get all the money in the pool. Since i had never been fishing other than in central park with Cindy and Vanessa using a plastic cup, and tomatoes for bait, i did not chip into the pool. About an half hour into the trip i felt a tug on my line and pulled out a bluefish from the sea. It turns out that my fish was the only "keeper" on the boat. All the rest of the fish were too small, so i could have won the money from the pool, but did not. teh whole trip was very much fun, but another really cool occurance on the trip was when i fed a seagul from my hand. When the boat moves apparently the seaguls know that we will feed the bait from the boat. Most people throw the bait into the air and watch the birds attack it in mid air. One seasoned fisherman near us instead took a fish and held it on the side and the seaguls, would eat it from his hand. i copied his method and it was so cool. I could feel the beaks of the seaguls in my hand! Ok i think i am ammazed by banal, and pedant things. Any hoo i've wanted to write the new updated list of the bands that i enjoy since it is placable.

1.Our lady peace
2.Dream Theater
3.Lacuna Coil
4.The Start
5.Linkin park

Bands i will always listen to: (the top five + these)
Incubus
Bush
U2
Alien Ant farm
Type O negative
DoubleDrive
Foo Fighters
Rammstein
A Perfect Circle
Avril Levine

Bands that i will probably forget about in a year:
From Autumn to Ashes
Modest Mouse
The Killers
Franz Ferdinand
One true thing
Full Blown Rose
My chemical Romance
Haste
Waterdown
Christina Milian
Beyonce
Black eyed peas

I will never pass the GRE's help due to things that i do like this (see above) but i do need to practice typing since the Analytical essay is typed, which i think is insane because what if some one can not type well.

I was let out of work early for just about the first time ever. I went home while the sun was still warming the earth with its rays, and enjoyed the gourgous day. The lushous green lawns had that sweet meadowesque scent. The birds were catching a drink from the spray of the automatic sprinklers. I spotted a buttefly, that was black and a creamy yellow, fluttering softly among the flowers near my dorm. At my room, i turned the key to open the door, changed into home-clothes, went out to the bathroom, and locked myself out of my room. The RA's close at 5:00pm, and it was 5:05. I had to wait until 7:00pm until i would be able to get a key to get back into my room. This happened the first day i was let out early. i felt so helpless, and sullen since i had nothing with me. And with nothing to do, i tend to go insane. So i sat in my sweet and made myself a sandwich, for comfort. Stacy my apartment-mate was so kind, and she let me use her phone, to keep calling the RA office, but to no avail, since no one was answering. So we sat in the sweet and chatted the two hours away. then at 7, i got my key. I made two decisions today i will not be victim to the proselytes of the world, and Emroy University is no where near Yale.