| On disappointments, the act of letting go, film scores, and true love |
[Jul. 26th, 2008|06:27 pm] |
I'm supposed to be watching Mamma Mia this afternoon with my family, but they decide to postpone. I'm pretty disappointed because I've really been looking forward to watching that movie (I haven't watched Dark Knight, either! *Sniff*) and my family rarely gets together to go and just hang out in the mall.
*Sigh* It's okay, I'm over it. At least I get to write...and I've been meaning to write.
But speaking of disappointments, I found out that around P2500 was stolen/lost from my wallet yesterday. I don't know where and how it happened, but I was in Intercon, working at another workshop with Anthony, and when I checked my wallet in the afternoon, I didn't have a single peso in my wallet. Buti nalang talaga I had a free valet parking pass from the hotel and my ATM and credit card was still safely in my wallet. So that left me with a big and heavy sigh, because I don't even know how it went missing. It could've gone missing from the day before pa and I wouldn't know because the last time I checked my wallet was when Carisse and I had to stop by the gas station on the way to Marj's house the night before. Oh, well...gotta let it go.
And speaking of letting go, I have decided to let go and sell my film score/soundtrack collection. That's around 70+ hard-to-find CDs.
  SOME OF THE ALBUMS IN MY COLLECTION *Pause for gasps and reactions of horror*
I've been cleaning my room lately and selling old books and clothes, and cleaning my shelves. I'm very happy with my film score collection, because I love film scores so much. But one day, I got the nagging feeling that I should let go and sell it. Believe me, it was not a pleasing thought. I feel like Abraham, when God told him to sacrifice his only son, Isaac.
And it's not about the money--I mean, surely, I could use the money--but I could sell my other CDs first and not touch the film score collection. But I don't think that's what I'm supposed to do. It's like what happened to the Israelites during their journey to the Promised Land. I feel like selling the other CDs and not the ones that I'm being urged to let go of would be like delaying...and like the Israelites, it would take me 40 years to get to the Promised Land instead of 10 or 11 days.
To put it simply, I have such a hard time letting go of the collection, which tells me that I should really let it go. Which is why I'm blogging about it, so I put my intentions out there so I have no choice but to follow through with it, no matter how difficult it may be.
I would like to see the CDs go to people who would enjoy them as much as I did. I mean, hindi naman kelangan na ganun...but it would be nice. :) I'll be pricing them in a bit; I honestly don't know how to price them since some of them aren't available here in the country and are really hard to find. Some of the hard-to-find ones are in old and scratched cases because I bought them from second-hand stores, but are still in very good condition. Anyway, check out my very random and diverse collection here. Yes, I have Alvin and the Chipmunks, too. Hahahaha. If you see something in my list that you really really wanna buy, message me and gimme your bid, so I can remember you when I price these stuff and start selling them, hehe.
But on a serious note...it really was heartbreaking, and it took me weeks to finally get the courage and feel the peace and grace to go ahead with it. Pardon the drama, but I'm pretty sure you all have/had something similar in your lives....maybe it was a comic book collection, an expensive cellphone, a bag of makeup, computer files, etc.
It WAS heartbreaking...keyword: WAS. I'm okay now...I know what I'm supposed to do and why I'm supposed to do it. And while it might not make sense to a lot of people, it makes sense to me. :)
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Yesterday was a looooong day. I assisted Anthony at a Zig Ziglar Essential Presentation Skills workshop. As always, it was fun. I got to play teacher, too. Haha. After the workshop, I headed to The Fort for dinner with mi familia. It was a post-birthday celebration for my stepsister, Nicole, and a welcome home party for my dad. My dad just got home from a golf tour in Scotland (oh boy was he happy!) and a 3-day tour of Dubai with his high school classmates. He was so excited to show me his photos earlier; he even had a folder of photos called "Liz's photos"...he basically took a whole bunch of photos of trees, flowers, mountains, and castles in Scotland because he knew that those are the kind of things I'd love to see. :) Isn't that really sweet? I heart my dad.
This is our family, being silly @ The Fort Strip last night. Those dinosaurs they have on display there are trippy!
 MY DAD with my NEPHEWS, MIGO & TRISTAN...YUP, THAT'S MY BROTHER!...THE GIRLS with the little boys
DEREK & AMANDA @ my bday last May After our family dinner, I rushed to go to the home of Derek and Amanda Ross and see if I could still join Derek's birthday festivities. Their family just got back from a 2-month trip in the US, and over there they were busy catching up with people, meeting new people, and spreading the word about their ministry back here in the Philippines. Since I came late last night, there just ended being a few of us left at the party, so at least we got to have a good and lengthy conversation together with Eauj.
It is such a blessing for me to know Derek and Amanda. They moved here from the US around 8 years ago, if I'm not mistaken, and they work full-time to push their campaign called TRUE LOVE WAITS. You can check their well-updated website here: www.wagmuna.com. I met them late last year through some common friends, and I've been in touch with them ever since. They're the type of couple that prays for you and checks up on you all the time. Very thoughtful, very simple, and very caring people. And the type of work they do...I'm just so grateful for them, that they're here in the Philippines, doing what they're doing.
Last night we were talking about teenagers...how heartbreaking it is to hear stories of sexual abuse or deep emotional scars from bad relationships. I told Derek and Eauj about how I heard of stories of high school kids--affluent ones--going to parties just to have sex...and blindfolded sex at that. As I was telling the story, Derek's eyes welled up and I could see how much it burdened him to hear about it. If it burdened me deeply, imagine it affecting him 50 times worse than it affected me. His heart is really to reach out to millions of Filipino teenagers and to teach them about purity and real, true love, not just because it's right and it's what the Bible talks about, but because it can save lives, dreams, and hearts. I COULDN'T AGREE MORE and I'm so glad that there are people like him and Amanda who are throwing their lives into reaching out to young people and spreading these messages.
I touched upon this briefly in my previous post. For a lot of people (not everyone, though) the problem of giving into sexual relations before marriage all stems from impatience, which in turn, stems from the belief that they need to get what they want now because they can't wait for a future that they're unsure about. They don't believe in a future that's worth the wait. I get where they're coming from, because I used to buy into the lie, too. So what happens? We end up settling for a sub-standard, less-than-ideal setup that's nothing close to real, true, safe, selfless, and extravagant love. And people will say, "What's wrong with what I have now? It's not THAT bad. We're not killing people. And it's my choice, and it's the risk I'm choosing to take."
This fact is that this isn't just about what awaits us in the future. This isn't just a sad story about people who have chosen to hold on to what's good enough. This is also about the state of each and every heart at present. God knows what the heart has to go through when it becomes vulnerable. He knows all about the skipping-of-the-beats, the mush, the passion, and the excitement, but He also knows all about the scary risks, the hurtful words, the nagging insecurities, the selfish desires, the blinding jealousy, the distracting lust, and the all-out sacrifices of a vulnerable heart--and He wants to protect every single person from that. Because He knows how scarred or callous one person can become when it suffers from heartbreak, and He wants to spare us from that. He wants to build each and every heart to know the difference between a poor-and-pirated version of love and the authentic and magnificent love He has waiting for us.
"He puts a little heaven in our hearts so that we'll never settle for less." - 2 Corinthians 3:5 (MSG)
It's sad how people feel that little bit of heaven in them, but treat it as if it's nothing but an annoying teaser. My prayer is for single people--especially the youth--to hold on to the little bit of heaven that God has placed in our hearts and believe that there's so much more in store for them, beyond their wildest dreams, and never settle for anything less. I believe that in His right time, God will bring real, true love into our lives--the kind of love that He prepares carefully and beautifully for each and every one of us, the kind of love that is shaped to mirror God's real and true love. And finally, masasabi mo na tunay na 'yan, hindi na pirated. ;-) |
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