Sanely out of Touch...

Well, it is Friday night, and I have with the help of me lovely wife to be painted the back room and turned it to our office. Yay!

We are now currently working on the front room and entertainment area. Grrrr! Painting although it is fun at times is a lot of hard work. My hat off to the professionals who deal with this shyte on a regular basis!!!

I am tired and have to go in at 7am. I will write later! :)

Well today we finished the office. no on to the living room, home improvements suck donkey balls! But I guess it beats paying out the arse to a contractor.

I am live and well to many others displeasure.... You may return to regular scheduled life. :)

Well it is one day till my procedure is to commence. I am calm for the most part, still a bit nervous though. I have excepted that if something happens it will be because it meant too be that way.

Life is a funny thing, and in watching people in my job, free time, and among friends and nieghbors, you seem find my dimensions to others personalities. I had a friend of mine at work the other night talk to me about our workplace, and after all was said and done he shook my hand told me to have a good night, and that he was glad to see I was as intelligent as he had give me credit for. It made me feel real good to told that I have eraned this man's respect. He was the same man who was offered the promotion at work over me a couple months ago, and he told me that I will be the next one to move up. He would see to it... I chuckled but the more I thought about it discussed things with him, it dawned on me that he didn't take the promotion cause he needed it, he took it for the same reasons I would have, to better the department, to bring our team together...

I have come to realize that a person's selfworth for most is dictated by the accomplishments one receives. I have seen many of my fellow officers who have moved up get sort of a ego or god complex because they have a set of Sgt. Stripes on thier lapel. And onc you break them down using intelligence, you start to see how hollow and empty they are. And more than anything they are scared or lack the self respect to improve or move forward.

I have taken in these things and kept my mind busy for the pass couple couple days so I will not dwell on the event at hand. However, in a little under 17 hours, I will be in the hospital and I will hope that everything falls into place for the best.

For almost four years now I have been dealing with the known fact that I have type II diabetes. For almost 3 of those four years I have been choosing to selectively ignore it. Upon realizing I have a great friend base and a young woman I dearly and truly love with all my heart, I finally buckled down and start taking care of me...

Last week, I was told I had a abnormal EKG after getting my yearly physical, it was the second abnormal one to date, and with that was sent for a stress test. After not hearing anything for a good week after the test, I felt that things were ok, well today that changed...

I have to go in immediately tomorrow to see a cardiac specialist. I cannot begin to tell you the things going through my head at this moment, it is almost like waiting for the proverbial I told you so after you have done something stupid you felt you would get a way with. After three years of ignoring my illness because I could not feel or justify eating pills day in and out I maybe on the verge of something much worse...

I know it could nothing serious, like just a hyper accelerated heart beat, or mild angina... But then again it could be deadly. It could be my punishment for not taking my situation a bit more serious when I had the chance. I just hate the fact that they cannot tell me anything, just take more test...

--Age

Ok I am offically cranky!!! I do not see how you third shifters do this wacked out schedule! I am now in week two and I am in hell.

I am getting hardly no sleep cause my body is wanting to stay awake during the day and fighting to stay awake at night while on the job. I hope the next few weeks pass quickly so I can get back to a normal pattern.

:(

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