Cdawg's Journal

unsweet dreams...
why am i awake?...i dunno...i've gotten very very little sleep in the past couple of days...man...two nights ago...after hours of anthro reading...i dreamt about early primates...no kidding...don't exactly remember the dream...but i know it had to do with what i was reading...scary...and last night/this morning...after studying math til 5...i had a fitful sleep, filled with dreams about numbers and math...><...dang...

the math midterm crushed me...i thought i was doing pretty good...til i got to the multiple choice...dang...

can't wait to go home!

alrighty...i'm gonna nap now...

Current Mood: groggy

the day...
it's frustrating when you know you're prepared for a test...but you feel like you did badly on it...urgh...psych 100A...if only i had more time i could've checked my answers...but i was rushing at the end as it was...grr...i was hecka prepared for the test...i knew what i was doing...just not enough time...if i made mistakes they were stupid calculation mistakes =(...

anyways...to make myself feel better...i went and bought some books at Ackerman...

T is for Terrible - i collect children's books...and i haven't gotten a new book for my collection in awhile...normally i get books that i read when i was little...like the ones that are "classics"...but this book caught my eye...it only came out this year, but it's really cute and i like the illustrations...

Peter Pan - i think i wanna read this over Thanksgiving break...and then go watch Finding Neverland...=)

A Series of Unfortunate Events (Book 1): The Bad Beginning - i've been wanting to read this for awhile...but i've been kinda hesitant cuz the series is already like 10 or 11 books long...which means if i like it i have a lot of books to buy...but today i just decided...what the heck...if i like it, then it's worth it...plus i wanna read it before i watch the movie...

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more bad news...so i FINALLY bought my plane tickets for winter break last week for $69 each way...so it was about $150 round trip...and now...southwest is having their sale again!!! grrr...$39 each way...boo =(

:edit: i refunded my original plane tickets and got the cheaper ones using the refunded ticket money...so all is well...:end edit:

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okay...time to study...or sleep...whichever happens first...

Current Mood: tired

election...
ugh...i'm an idiot...i didn't think the lines would be that long so i didn't take a book or my phone with me...waited in line for over an hour! luckily i went when i did...cuz after i finished voting...the line had grown even longer...the people at the back of the line now will prolly have to wait over 2 hours...

sadly...my vote will probably not even matter as i voted for Bush...and unless there's a miracle, he ain't gonna win California...all that time i could've been studying for anthro...but, hey, at least i can say i didn't take my right to vote for granted...

you hear disturbing things in the line while you're getting ready to vote...people have interesting methods of deciding who they're going to vote for...=\

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side note: professors sometimes really annoy me...one of my professors has a slide of President Bush in almost every lecture...and in case you couldn't guess...they aren't meant to be supportive of Bush...today he thought it would be funny to post Bush's college grades...it's freaking election day and you're a freaking professor at a public university...sure have your own opinion, but i really don't want to hear it during my lecture...when i could be LEARNING...not to mention we're BEHIND SCHEDULE in lectures...yeah...that was a real good use of time that my mom and dad happen to be paying lots of money for...

Current Mood: tired

Harvest Festival...Martha and Mary...
Harvest Festival was crazy...the orange highlighter is still on my face...but i guess you can't really see it unless you really look...

ARK booth was awesome! definitely #1...it made me so sad to see it come down...that's the second time this week that i had to see decorations taken down...*sigh*

dude...Isaac and Chloe were sooooo adorable!!!! ahhh...Andrew is crazy, the R2 D2 costume turned out sooooo awesome...isaac is such a cutie! and i just wanna pinch chloe's cheeks =P

LOTR booth was tite! i liked that game =)

the third year booth (The Giving Tree) was also very very spectacular =) it turned out even cooler than i had pictured it to be...it was a very original and cool idea and the kids really seemed to like it =)

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today's sermon made me think...it's funny how you read a passage like the martha and mary passage so many times but sometimes you just need to read it again...

i dunno...i wonder if i've been being a martha...like...all the church stuff...i've basically been spending my entire weekends at church...but at the same time...that's the time i'm least stressed, where i can just not really think about all the other stuff i have to do and just fellowship, serve, and have fun...it's during the week when i'm trying to do my hwk that i get all stressed out...

and another things is...i really do pray that i won't be stressed out...but a lot of times even when i pray...i'm still worrying...i dunno...is it just a lack of faith? i really want to trust God with things...but somehow my heart just doesn't seem to let go...i pray for greater faith...and sometimes i'll stop worrying...but then a few hours later i'll be worrying again...how do you let go of worry? i mean...the sermons make it seem so easy...just give your worries to God, right?...but what if you try to give your worries to God, but u just keep worrying? like pastor said it's a decision...but i've made the decision to stop worrying many times...prayed about it...asked God to help me lift my burdens to Him...and yet...a lot of times it just doesn't go away...

sometimes...i just wish i could stay at church all the time...when i'm at church is seriously my least stressed out time...*sigh*...

k...better stop procrastinating now and get some work done...

Current Mood: tired

i feel it in my fingers...i feel it in my toes...
i've been listening to christmas music all week...it feels like christmas! i really can't wait until christmas =)

Current Mood: tired

All Hill Halloween
this was the first time in a long while that i've done something fun that was nonchurch related...i spent the night decorating for All Hill Halloween with my floor =)...our floor looks good...i don't really think we have a chance of winning cuz some of the other floors are crazy good...but...we look pretty darn good for only 2 nights of decorating...

i am now incredibly behind in my work...tons of stuff due thursday that i haven't done...but it was worth it...

this weekend i'm gonna be doing a lot of decorating for Harvest festival...i will probably fall even farther behind in my hwk...but at least it's gonna be fun =)

yay! Friday night broomballing, Saturday Night Pumpkin Night, and Sunday Night Harvest Festival!!! I think I will pass out from exhaustion after this weekend...but it will be a contented exhaustion...

i cannot wait until Christmas...=)

Current Mood: tired

sleep...
this had to be the strangest weekend ever...

so...i had two midterms last week...but they actually helped me catch up in my classes...but then the weekend came...

i dunno what it was, but i think maybe i've been fighting off a cold or something cuz i've been exhausted...friday night i didn't really sleep much...so saturday after outreaching at church...i was gonna study...but instead i just curled up on one of the couches in the fellowship hall and slept until it was almost time for ARK...

that wasn't too abnormal since i didn't really sleep the night before...but then...usually when i take a nap during the day it screws my sleep schedule up and i'll be able to stay awake to study...but saturday night i was so exhausted i still slept at around 1am...

then...sunday morning...i tried to wake up to do QT at 8:40am (i've been trying to shift my QT time to the morning)...but while i was doing QT...i pretty much drifted in and out...what was weird about this was that i had gotten enough sleep AND i was not in a position to sleep...i was like...sitting on my knees...but i was just really exhausted...

during worship and service i struggled really hard to stay awake...but i wasn't really fully there...then after lunch...i stayed for study hall...but i took two of those pink chairs and curled up and fell asleep...once again it was really strange cuz i was in a very uncomfortable position...and i slept for like more than 3 hours i think...

then last night...i was still exhausted so i went to bed at around 1:30am...set my alarm for 8:50 for QT...but this morning when my alarm rang...i was so tired...i knew if i got up and did QT i'd just fall asleep while doing them...so i reset my clock for 9:20...i got up at 9:20 got ready for class...was ready at 9:30...but i was so tired that i set my alarm again for 9:40 and crawled back in bed for another 10 minutes of sleep...

during my chinese class at 10...i was sooo tired...looking at the overhead during my quiz made my head hurt...

during math i kept on dozing off and i have no idea what's going on in my notes...

then after class...i came back and ate...and i was still so tired that i took a nap around 1...i just woke up around 3:30...still kind of tired...but i'm behind again because of this weekend...*sigh*...

what's wrong with me?

Current Mood: sleepy

1st Shepherd Group was tonight...

all i can say is...wow...

i feel empty...but not in a bad way...in a way where it's like...i know God's gonna fill me up...like He has something super cool in store...

i am also very tired...

Current Mood: calm

1st day
it was a loooong day...tuesdays, thursdays, and fridays are all crazy days for me...

i have 4 thursday classes but one is a discussion so it was cancelled today...however...in mandarin they were only giving out 6 PTE's per section during each lecture...i didn't get a PTE the first lecture...so i had to wait til the second lecture...luckily my anthro discussion was cancelled...chinese teacher seems nice...

then i came back to the dorms for lunch...but found out that bruin cafe doesn't open til 12:30...so...didn't have lunch...but i did sign up for my chinese class...

headed back down for psych 100A...the prof. seems nice...she's really young...but i dunno...it's kinda boring...

then i had anthro 7...evolution...greeeat...basically it seems like it's gonna be a review of high school bio + psych 15 + ls 15...yeah...not too interesting...

then i head to westwood to try and get all my book shopping done for the 2nd time this week...ugh...book buying has never been this difficult...textbooks plus still doesn't have the psych 100A book...i've given up and decided just to get it from Ackerman...but the line was too long today...so...basically it's going to take 3 trips to the store for me to complete my book shopping...not to mention i couldn't get the used versions...so basically after all these trips...i end up buying the expensive versions of all my books...even though i got like 2 books from my sis...the total is still gonna be like...over $200...=(

Current Mood: tired

i call myself a sophomore...but i guess i'm still a freshmen at heart...
so...i was supposed to update on church "later"...but i guess i never did...church was good =)

haha...i know...lame update...but...i don't know what else to say...my sis and my mom went too...so that was cool...

last night was cool...i've missed the Garden Girls =)...

sadly...i couldn't successfully point a freshman towards Rolfe...i knew where it was last year...but i don't think i had any classes there...so...yeah... i guess he thought i'd know cuz i was pointing out Haines to my cousin, jeff...and so he comes up and is like "do you know where Rolfe is?"...and i'm like..."uhh...north campus somewhere?"...and jeff was like "you call yourself a sophomore?"...haha...dang...i knew it was somewhere near haines and royce...(just looked at my map)...haha...i have no shame in still using my beaten up map from the beginning of last year...

yeah...so...today's gonna be busy...there's the fair...then gotta go buy books and stuff...and prolly more floor stuff...

oh yeah...i overslept for my mandarin placement exam today...if jeff hadn't called, i would've been late...haha...that's a bad sign...it's too early in the year for me to be oversleeping!

Current Mood: tired

busy busy busy...
so...i'm moved in...but we still have to get our beds bunked...so...when that happens i have some more moving around stuff to do...

i forgot my remote for my tv at home...booo...however, my room is so small that i could prolly just lean over and press the button on the tv...but still...booo...=(

so...i forgot how much stuff happens zero week...so busy...plus i gotta take the chinese placement test...i'm still jet lagging too...

my RA and PA are kewl...seems like it's gonna be a fun year =)...except i have such a huge load of work that i might not be able to join in the fun =\

i'll update on church later...have a floor dinner soon...church was grrrreat! ;)

Current Mood: busy

there are several sports i'm determined to learn more about and follow from now on...i guess i feel i should get interested in more things so i have more things to talk about...funny thing is...most of the sports i wanna follow aren't really the "popular" sports...

1. football...i used to follow football...but i never got to the point where i really knew which teams were better and why...and i usually only knew a couple of players' names...

2. hockey (college and NHL...maybe women's college too)...this could have something to do with the fact that i watched Miracle 3 and a half times this summer...the first time before my cousin's wedding cuz he said he wanted to be "inspired" before his wedding...haha...then on the way to Japan i watched it once...and on the way back from Japan i watched it 1 and a half times...each time i watched it i liked it more...anyways...hockey is a fun game to watch...so we'll see how this goes...

3. gymnastics (men's & women's college and international)...if you don't know...i used to do gymnastics when i was little...i did compete for like a year...but then i quit...i kinda sucked...haha...since then i've only followed gymnastics during the Olympics...this is gonna be hard to follow during the actual year as they have almost no televised coverage...=(

4. karate...also has no televised coverage...but i figure since it's the sport i do, i should become more acquainted with what's going on in the karate world...

5. maybe basketball...like football...i've watched bball before...and i understand the rules...but i just am normally too lazy to follow it...

i will prolly end up hardly following any of these once the school year starts...cuz i'll prolly get busy and forget...haha...oh well...

i also wanna start listening to a wider variety of music...i should get a radio or something...

still haven't packed...=X

wake up call
wow...29/50 on my math 31B midterm...they graded that one fast...58%...the lowest test grade of my college career...actually...i think it's the lowest test grade of my jr. high, high school, and college career combined...luckily that's without the curve...with the curve...i maybe got a C+/B-...the mean of the class was 20..3/50...so i definitely did above average...wowsers...what's annoying is...i was just about to solve the last problem when my TA appeared before me to collect my paper...booo...and one of the ones i totally missed...was a problem i actually had studied...

God finally gave me the grade i deserve...all this time i've been sliding by getting A's without working...i suppose this is my wakeup call...

i think i can still pull off an A in the class if i do well on the final...=)

Current Mood: embarrassed

so...i haven't updated this in a long time...when i looked on my page...the first thing i saw was "happy 19th birthday gloria!" and at first i thought i was on my friend's page and i was like..."o my gosh, it's gloria's birthday today!" and then i realized how stupid i am and that this post was my own post from earlier on this quarter...and it was talking about the BIG surprise dinner we had for Gloria...and i, of all people, ought to remember that...man...hahaha...sometimes i kill myself with my own stupidity...

just like how i've been thinking about tiana's bday for like...the past month...and i had it written in my planner...but i didn't look in my planner at all yesterday...and it wasn't til i read her xanga at 11:30 pm that i remembered...doh! i am an idiot...

birthday fun
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY GLORIA!!!

oi...so awesome! she didn't even suspect!!! hahaha =)

even though i was a bit stressed out at church...it was worth it...surprises are so much fun! especially when the person is actually surprised =D

good food...good times...passed out at study hall afterwards...a little bit of food coma...

man...i was gonna do REV reflection...but there's too much...i need like...a day to just sit down and organize my thoughts...but...i don't seem to have a day...seriously...my schedule is packed...and that's not even counting the 15 chapters that i'm behind in my classes...oi!

schedule for this week:
Monday Night: Floor government meeting...tying verses to candles...
Tuesday Night: Rieber Memorial for Karen
Wednesday Night: UCLA Big Group
Thursday Night: karate
Friday Night: practice for Senior Grad Banquet and possibly go to Otis Senior Show
Saturday: possibly Martha's Vineyard or Otis graduation...and senior banquet at night...
Sunday: church

seriously...i need like...a week off...just to gather myself and catch up with everything...*sigh*...on the one hand...i can't wait 'til summer...on the other hand...i can't even imagine a whole 3 months away from The Garden...

mmm...seperate note...my plant is not doing well...i still need to repot it...also...it's not getting enough sunlight...=(...wahhh...it makes me sad...

Current Mood: busy

paradox
i'm such a guy...and yet such a girl at the same time...what a paradox...if there was a girl version of being metro...that'd be me...i guess u could call it...tomboy-turned-semi-girly...

i think i'm still more tomboy than girly tho...being girly is too much work...serious...

Current Mood: contemplative

playing...
i love my church...it's fun stuff...unfortunately...so distracting from my hwk...haha...i was supposed to get stuff done! ahhh

anyways...fellowshipping with people was awesome...even though we uhh...didn't do so hot in softball...ALL I wanted was to get home ONCE!!!...yah...softball is not my sport...

sprained my finger tossing around the football...i did not know fingers could get this big...and daniel kim was scaring by telling me that if i don't straighten it out the muscle is gonna heal bent...so now i'm paranoid...

then...during bball...sprained my ankle...i don't think i've ever sprained my ankle before...like...it's weird cuz in all the sports i've done...my ankle has never had an injury worse than maybe a twist that would go away in a couple hours or a day...mmm...but it's still not that bad...luckily...that penmoor park has is out for people's ankles...another guy sprained his ankle pretty badly...and last time we were there paul broke his ankle...

ok...time to do something productive...

Current Mood: chipper

Desperation...
"if i just touch his clothes, i will be healed..."
*Who touched me?*
But Jesus kept looking...
people recognized him...
they ran throughout that whole region...
to wherever they heard he was...
wherever he went...
they begged him to let them touch even the edge of his cloak...
...are you DESPERATE?

*Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering.*
~ Mark 5:34

"...and all who touched him were healed."
~ Mark 6:56b

**excerpts from Mark 5:24-34 and 6:54-56**

Current Mood: busy

life...
so the hwk i stayed up til 5am doing...wasn't collected...but i guess i'm not that upset...i mean...i wrote a pretty darn good myth about why Los Angeles is called "Los Angeles"...go me!...napping after this entry tho...i need some sleep...

i realized today in my math discussion...that even after reviewing a little yesterday...i still don't remember enough calc to do my hwk...but the weird thing is...in high school...if i didn't know how to do something we were doing in class...i'd freak out...now i'm just like... "eh...i'll get it later..." i guess that's good...and even though i don't know what i'm doing...i still really am happy that i'm taking math...i feel like i'll be having fun...is there something wrong with me?

i had a nice long break cuz my 2 hour astro discussion was only 20 minutes long today...so i got some good QT time...and thanks to Jane, I have a few new nice couch/sleep/study places to spend my time...

today was my 3rd day of taco bell for lunch this week...

on my way back up bruin walk...i decided i'm going to have a xanga/online journal/AIM/Trillian/IPC forums fast (i specify IPC forums because i may need to go on my classics 30 forum for school)...but yah...i thought...dude...it's Easter...i should be spending my time thinking about Jesus...not wasting away online...plus...i feel like God is really challenging to be excellent in school this quarter...last quarter i was lazy and God still blessed my grades...but i can see i have a lot of work to do this quarter...it's only first week and i'm already behind in my reading...plus i need to catch up with calc...so yah...this weekend is gonna be God and the studying/reading that God is telling me to do...if you see me online Friday, Saturday, Sunday...yell at me...

Current Mood: tired

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