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I've been thinking about maybe writing a novel of sorts. I've had a lot of ideas...it would definitely be a fictional story with bits and pieces of things I've experienced. I don't know I thought maybe it would give me something to do from time to time when I'm just kind of random and bored. It's always been an interest of mine to become published in something, even if it's just locally. I don't know, I'll keep you updated on this thought...It might eventually drift away, like the many ideas that come to pass within my compulsive mind.
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[Thu 24.8.2006 | 1:21pm ] |
I'm on my hands and knees now...Praying for my sanity..You stress me out sooo bad. And, you say you've changed, but you're making me feel exactly the same way...if not worse. What do you want me to do? Tell you that I want to be with you...That I love you with every single part of me...No, that would be lying to you.....I don't feel the same way I did for you...I've lost a lot of respect for you through all this...And, I don't really care how you feel about me..I know I did you wrong in the past...But the past is just that..THE PAST! You taught me what lying does and how it affects people you love..This I know...That's why I'm no longer doing it...I feel no reason to...That's why whoever's with me next will have the best of me.
I wanted to keep you in my life because I love you...I care about you...You mean a great deal to me...But don't confuse this with I'm in love with you...I want you...And, I care about you before myself..No, it's not like that anymore...I've learned that you could love someone with everything you are, but that doesn't mean that will keep them from pulling your heart out of your chest and stepping all over it...Because that's what you did to me...And, the sad reality of it all was I trusted you...I thought it was best for you to stay in Florida for a while because the strain that was put on our relationship from missing your family...I trusted that you wouldn't hurt me...That you wouldn't lie to me...That you cared about me enough to not put me through everything you did. But I was wrong....Instead you tried to make me feel like the reason you cheated on me was my fault...Because we got in one fight? That gave you the permission you needed to go do things with someone else...Then how does that explain the several times it happened? Wait..I'm going ahead of myself...So you told me, that you hurt me ONCE...I dealt with that...I even put in money for you to come back to me...To find...an e-mail a few days later...with words I only thought you could express to me...It killed me...It gave me the most pain, I ever felt in my life...Because I was in love with you...Because I considered you my wife..Because I didn't think you could be so cold and heartless...Because I thought you actually cared about me...
And, now you think I'm just going to tell you that there's a chance of us being together...How can I answer such an absurd question? Sighs. You haven't changed..You don't understand that to even think about being in a relationship with you, angers me..I can't see past the things you did to me...The things I never deserved to go through..And, I still hurt, but I choose to keep that with myself because I'm not going to cry because of you..I'm stronger than that...
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[Tue 22.8.2006 | 5:07pm ] |
I have all of these thoughts in my head, that I just want to write out on my crisp pages of my new journal, that I ordered from ebay, but it's taking forever to get here...So I figured I'd give some insight on the happenings of my life as of the moment...
So school starts on Monday, and I know it's going to be more stressful than last..I'm going full time this semester...I can only hope that I can keep up with everything...I leave work at 5, catch the train home, get home at about 6, then change...Head off to Purdue because my classes start at 6:30 and end at 9:20, everyday, but Friday...Not really looking forward to that, but next semester...Online classes will be calling my name..I should have a laptop by then, so hopefully everything will work out...I'm just going to relax about it all.
Then, there's my personal life, which as of this moment is kind of just leaving me confused and up in there...I've been spending a lot of time with someone in particular, and it's hard for me because I'm just growing closer to that person to be eventually just pushed to the curb. And, I don't know how all this really makes me feel...Sometimes I feel so overwhelmingly happy, and other times I don't feel good enough...And, I guess it's just hard to fully describe how I'm feeling....Or, maybe I just think too much..And, I look into things too deeply..Or just overanalyze things...Whatever it is...I already know what's going to happen...Nice bois finish last.
And, then I get in a huge blow out argument with my best friend..I don't even get to see her before she leaves, which sucks to no end because we just have a really good understanding of each other, so it's hard not to see her because I usually see her a lot...But time will fly though..it always does.
Then, there's Heather...someone that knows me better than I know myself sometimes...But at the same time she still is my ex, and she's still highly jealous over me...And, it can't be like that...She hurts my feelings so bad..I'm trying so hard to do the right thing, but I just feel it all goes unnoticed..I mean I could be a total ... after all the crap she pulled with me, and say I never want to talk to her, but I don't want to be like that...I still care about her and her well-being, but that is the extent of it all...I don't want her, the way I used to....And, what hurts me more is that she'll throw up her lover so nonchalantly, not realizing that this is the girl and the reason why we separated...that made me feel like I wasn't good enough and less of a person...She has no idea how much that affected me...I went from feeling like I was everything to feeling like dirt, that I was just a piece of meat...And, I don't want to ever feel like that again...I just...sighs...
I just want to be fully happy.....with myself..with life...with friends..with everything....
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All I ask is for a few things..I bust my ass all day at work for you to go out and then do nothing at home all day. You even told me you'd pick up some before you left, but did you? No. I'm tired of it..it isn't fair..and you can't say it is. I'm tired of you walking all over me..like I'm the one doing something wrong...I'm tired of this relationship being 90% Lisa and 10% Heather. You haven't put in any effort at all. I yell at you because you don't seem to hear me, how many times do I have to tell you to do something? You wait till I get home to clean? What have you been doing all day where it couldn't be done before? I'm tired...I'm stressed...And, you're not helping me through this, you're just adding it to.
I love you, Heather, I truly do...but I don't like that you're not making things any easier..A relationship is 50/50 and our relationship is nothing close to that...I understand you can't work right now, but you can at least clean up before I get home..especially since I don't get home until 8 or 9. I think you don't want to be with me anymore...you just keep pushing me to this point...It isn't like I'm not stressed enough...
I'm tired of you putting this stress on me. You yelled at me yesterday for what...What did I do? When I invited you to come with me...You need to be with someone that doesn't care what you do..that lets you do whatever you want. You are very spoiled..and you don't see that. You say I'm all about money, but I wouldn't be working if I didn't have to..if there were no bills or rent..I would sit right along with you, but the sad reality is you have to work to do and get anything.
I'm still with you because I thought things could change, but maybe I'm a fool to think that someone could change because you need them...
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| Update Monday to Today... |
[Wed 1.2.2006 | 9:43am ] |
I'm worried..I need to catch up in school...this weekend will definitely be filled with doing homework..I'm not waiting to the last minute...I didn't go to Psychology, nor History..I hope I didn't miss anything in Psych...History I'm not so worried about..Math still need to do my homework and study for a quiz..AND, GET ALL THE NOTES I MISSED. I'm not too far behind..I can catch up...It's just my nature to worry..
Moving on...
Heather and I are trying are best to get our own place....what holds us back is the car situation...we really need a car, but I need a co-signer..so it really puts us in a boggle...We need a few things, and we could get them if I prove my damn residency and get the money that is rightfully mine because I live and have lived in the state of Indiana for two years in April now. And, Heather and I don't need the stress anymore...of Jenn, of the apartment....of anything...I feel if we don't get out now, our relationship won't be moving anywhere...
And, I know you're all wondering, that is if you read Heather's livejournal...Yes, I broke up with her and I feel really bad about it, I mean we got back together..6.I just want her to know, even if we ever did break up, I would not abandon her...I don't see myself ever being away from her. And, I'm sorry I've put you through more than what you're already going through...I'm just scared, but we can get through these hard times, I believe we can.
Monday was a nice break...I called in..Heather didn't seem to mind...We ended up going to that movie after all...Imagine Me & You...it was actually really good, but I still think there was a need to show them coming together and falling in love..I didn't think it was enough. I do suggest going and seeing it, if you're not a homophobe that is. Heather and I drove to the theatre which was crazy as all hell, and then we met Dave, Tina, and Gail, and Jessica there...I already had met Dave and Tina previously....I had a good time, I think everybody else did...Though we really didn't hang out with Tina and Gail too much...Tina seemed so reserved...and I'm not sure of my opinion of Gail...I mean it's not bad or anything....just kind of neutral...Heather seemed to like Jessica, though they were so hyper...And, Dave and I just watched them on the streets of Boystown..lol...It was a night to remember...Beat being at school with my textbook open...which I'm sure has cobwebs all over it by now...
And, now, I'm at work...wishing I was at home...spending time with Heather..I love you..and I miss you...And, and, and last night was wonderful...when I actually take my time, I realize a lot of pleasures, that I've missed out on...But we'll talk about that later, baby....Think of me.
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[Thu 26.1.2006 | 10:14pm ] |
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I don't want to jink myself, but I think I did extremely well on math quiz..so there is a chance to get a B in that class...I don't want anything lower than a B in any of my classes...I'm going to work my ass off...
That's all that's really new going on right now...Work and school...the usual...
Other than, Heather and I have a date to go see Imagine Me & You, at a free screening downtown, it's a lesbian-love flick..it looked really good from the previews...
Anyway, I'm at school, I'm going to keep this short, so I can head home...
I miss Heather.
Till I write again...
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[Mon 23.1.2006 | 4:48pm ] |
I look horrible..I feel horrible...
and I just want to be hugged, damn it....
Leave me some love, I could use it.
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[Mon 16.1.2006 | 9:38pm ] |
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Sometimes I feel like my life was so held back when I was young, like brainwashed into being someone I never truly was...And, when I found myself, I look back at my past, and I don't see anything that had me in at all...I gave all my happiness to make everyone around me happy...and it's sad because it never got me far, and I never realized it. And, now, I lay crashing inside myself with scars, that I can't even begin to hide. I miss things, that are gone. I feel anger for reasons I can't even explain. And, I can put blame, but I won't because it goes nowhere.
I guess...I'm just kind of down...been thinking about her lately...if you know me, you know who I'm talking about....I feel so selfish sometimes because I want her to be here so badly...I want to be able to go to her, and be able to talk about anything...and just have her there to listen, like she always did. It's hard to lose someone you love so much, that you've known your entire life...You feel so torn inside, like you don't always feel like yourself all the time...and you regret not being there enough...And, you blame yourself for not doing more. God only knows, how much I truly miss her and how hard it is without her....
I miss you, Grandma Helen.
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It's been two years, since I've been in school, and the feeling that I start next Tuesday is kind of nerving. I fear the worst so to speak...juggling a full-time job in Downtown Chicago, while maintaining three night classes, and trying to throw in some kind of work-out system in the mix...I'm a little overwhelmed.
Not to mention, all financial responsibilities are on me for the time being, and the constant worry about my gall bladder problems. I'm doing my best to hold the fort up, but it's just the stress of wanting to move out from Jenn, but being stuck because she has nothing right now, and Heather and I own no car, so it kind of leaves us in this boggle. There is only two resolutions and neither one is the route I really want to take. Firstly, Heather and I could wait for Jenn to get a job, move out into some small cheap apartment, leaving us with geo as transportation...save as much as money as we can...put a payment on a more reliable vehicle...Or, wait...stay at the apartment we're at with Jenn..and attempt to save money, but I see that as impossible because rent is so expensive, and not to sound heartless, but I can't live with Jenn too much longer...she just crawls under my skin half the time...What is a girl to do...I feel so lost.
And, as far as my medical problems, I need to start taking better care of myself, so I don't have to get emergency surgery. It's honestly on my mind all of the time...I don't have insurance...so it's a big problem right now...I don't need anymore medical bills in my name...And, Heather and I both can use some insurance...it's just so $expensive$, and on our budget, unaffordable.
Now, the most important thing...Heather and I...Our relationship... If I were to describe our relationship...I would metaphorically use a cookie...The ingredients to a cookie by assumption is eggs, milk, vanilla extract, and the mixture. When Heather and I began, our relationship was very fragile, we were long distance, never met one another, and our only form of communication and interaction was the telephone or the internet, I would consider this part of our relationship "the eggs" because it was such a fragile time in both of our lives. "The milk" is an equally important ingredient, a very enriching ingredient...I believe when Heather and I found each other we both became very rich in another aspect then money. "The vanilla extract" is the stink in our relationship, this ingredient smells horribly bad, but it sweetens everything it comes into contact with. The only thing I can say about this is Heather and I have problems, but the making up part is the sweetest thing. "The mixture", the foundation of the cookie...the foundation of our relationship is the love we have for one another.....the things we've experienced together (the good and the bad)...our friendship...our care...our devotion.When these ingredients are combined, they become one...and the cookie dough is made. The cookie dough is not quite substancial, someone could easily squish it between their fingers....the cookie dough consists of Heather's and my own insecurities...the things that have held our relationship back...And, has put us through much turmoil. I feel this is the stage we are stuck in...the stage, I'm sure we go through every single day...our relationship is wonderful, but when it hits a nerve, it can cause great damage...We still have some kinks, but we both have all the ingredients, that keeps us together, so to grow, we must work through these differences. When we do work through these, our relationship will not crumble (no pun intended), and we'll be better for each other...I just know with all of these circumstances right now, it's going to be hard, but I'm not going anywhere...I just need to know that you're not either...I just need some reassurance...
Heather, I've had so much time to think about us. I don't want to lose you, but we need to come to some agreement because I don't want to live like this anymore...You and I both don't need anymore stress, than we've already been dealt. I love you, Heather. Always will...
Write me today...tell me your thoughts....
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I can't admit my family is perfect, but I do love them nonetheless. I guess I'm just very upset because I don't know how my dad could do this to my family. He's so selfish...He finds out some bad news about himself, and he's a baby about it. He doesn't take what life dishes him, and deals with it. He acts like he's the only one going through anything. And, it's really sad because he isn't the only one that has to have surgery. I'm 20 and I have to have surgery, and he at least has insurance to get it taken care of right away. It just makes me so angry because my mom doesn't even know where he is, and he's been gone for two days, and hasn't even shown up at work. He's a big alcoholic, and I don't know why my mom puts up with it. One of the few reasons, why I left to begin with. And, he puts my mom through hell by worrying about him, and him not even at least calling her to tell her that he's okay. Great father. I have never though highly of him, but I thought he was getting better, and now he's just done a 360 all over again, like all the 360s he's accomplished in my lifetime. It really has messed me up in result of his foolishness. I blame him for these feelings I get of abandonment...I blame him for the thoughts I get in my head, about people leaving me. And, I'm so tired of him letting my mom justify his problems. I'm sick of no one doing anything about him. I hurt so bad right now, and I needed to take a few minutes out of work to vent before I explode with all these unwanted emotions.
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[Wed 23.11.2005 | 11:18pm ] |
Lately nothing I do ever seems to please you
And maybe turning my back would be that much easier
Cause hurtful words are all that we exchange
But I can't watch you walk away
Can I forget about the way it feels to touch you?
And all about the good times that we've been through
Could I wake up without you every day?
Would I let you walk away?
No, I can't learn to live without
And I can't give up on us now
Oh, I know I could say were through
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I fell cause I, I just can't live a lie
Could I forget the look that tells me that you want me?
And all the reasons that make loving you so easy
The kiss that always makes it hard to breathe
The way you know just what I mean
No, I can't learn to live without
Ohh, so don't you give up on us now
Ohh, I know I could say were through
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I fell cause I, I just can't live a lie
Ohh, and I don't wanna try
Ohhhh, I know I could say were through
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I fell cause I, I just can't live a lie
I just can't live a lie
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I fell cause I, I just can't live a lie
Oh, I cant live a lie
I found this to be the best to describe how I feel at this very moment in time. Heather really brought it to my attention how our relationship has been very strained, and not as passionate as it should be. And, we're both pretty stressed out about the news I found out on Sunday. I had to go to the emergency room because I was in extreme pain, and found out I have gall stones at the ripe age of 20...And, I don't have insurance to get the surgery right away, so I'm stuck with being on a very low fat diet. It's really depressed me, and has effected me emotionally. And, I'm scared, and confused, and I just don't know what to do with myself at the moment, but I've been reassuring myself, that she'd be behind me, regardless to how I feel. I guess it just really scared me today to read a letter she had a wrote me explaining things that were on her mind...Of course, I had things to add, and it went back and forth. And, the thing that hit her the most was the part I had written her about not wanting to go back to how our relationship was in the beginning because I wouldn't have my wife standing in front of me today. The bottom line is I don't want to ever lose her. That no matter how hard our circumstances are we'll work through them together, and continue on our path, that I can't see ever ending.
Heather, I love you, and right now, I need you more than anything. I need your support, your love, your care, your friendship, your happiness, your smile, your understanding, your truth, your light.....and so much more. I just need you, every single part of every single day. I need that reassurance, I'll see your beautiful face when I come home. Osh ta amelia, maizuta.
P.S. December 7th will be here before you know it.
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Today's saturday...I'm working today, unfortunately. I get to QC boxes what fun!!! I wish Heather could come along, but I don't want to get in any trouble..And, actually this job is pretty good, and I actually like it...The only downfall is I have to be awake at 5:30 in the morning, and I really hate having to get up from Heather..I always still want to hold her. Sooo..I'll usually rush to get ready, and jump back in bed even if it's only for 5 minutes...lol...
Moving forward, looks like I'll be going back to Purdue this spring, just part-time..I don't think I could juggle full-time right now, but I'm excited...because I miss going to school..and I want to come out this time with a degree...And, not only that, I'll feel like I'm accomplishing more in my life, and it seems to me, that my mom is happy that I'm going back...so it's a win-win situation. I've just been a little aggravated through the process because the admission people are so sllloooowwww to accept my academic progress appeal, I just finally have an appointment with a woman, and then I go see my advisor, and set up my classes. I think I'm going to take English and Math..even though english is not my forte..I want to get it over with.
I'm very adament about getting a handheld pc...I want one so bad...I looked into the Dell Axims, but the screens don't seem very big..and I found one I think I might look further into getting. It would definitely help with the homework situation, I'll soon be having..I'll do my damn homework on the train, lol. Anyway, I'm hoping my mom will give me money towards this for christmas..that'd be nice. That's what I really want. And, as far as computers go, Heather is trying to fix my laptop..I told her, if she did it's basically her's..she'll probably get more use out of it...It's a good laptop..just my dumb fault for messing it up (spillage sucks!). We also have to work on my mom's old computer, that she gave us..It needs a lot of bullshit, that only Heather know exactly what..she's so good with computers..I'm surprised I know how to turn one on..lol.
For those who didn't already know, Heather and I are getting our domestic partnership this December 7th..And, I really wish we could have some sort of reception..even if it's just going out for pizza with our closest friends...I don't know..I think it'd be nice. I don't even know..really what we're going to wear when we go..I'm not even sure about our plans because I have to actually work that day, which sucks sooo bad. But we've had this day plan for well over a year...And, I don't want to go back on that date..It's really important to me...I don't know who's going to come along with us...we'll need a witness or two..I'm sure Jenn will probably come..and I'm hoping maybe Joanna, or even Mallory...I just want a few of my closest friends to be there for me and Heather..this is an important time in our life.
April will mark the 2 year mark of us living together. I'm hoping by then we'll be moved out, and into our own place. It's been a tad stressful living with Jenn..Nothing against her, I'm just needing my space from her..and Heather knows what I mean when I say that. I think Heather and I will be better off to...It's been well overdue that we get out on our own....Our only really set back is another vehicle. It just excites me that we'll finally be on OUR own. This end of november we're going shopping for things for our place...the excitement!!!
Everyone in my life has doubted mine and Heather's relationship, and I really think that's one of the reasons that's made US stronger because we've surpassed anyone's expectations. And, I have no regrets being who I am..and I have no regrets, period. I'm happy and that's all that should matter. My mom still needs to see the big picture...one day....
And, Heather..I'm going to tell my mom that I'm going to get a domestic partnership with you...I'm not going to keep our relationship a secret. And, I haven't.. I'm in love with you, and I don't care what anyone else thinks...We're not foolish for committing to our relationship..we've been together for almost two years, and I don't see myself with anyone, but you. You've made me who I am today, and I wouldn't change that for anyone. I love you, Heather. I'm so madly in love with you. I don't know where I'd be without you. You've brought so much meaning to my life...Everything you do is beautiful....And, when our day comes, you'll officially be my wife...And, I couldn't picture anyone else in your place..because you'll remain in my heart forever...You'll always be my forever love.
I love you with every part of me, maizuta.....
Osh ta amelia.
Lisa Christine
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[Fri 28.10.2005 | 6:25am ] |
It's been a long time, since I've written in my journal. I finally got a job, I've almost been there two months already, and it doesn't even feel like it. I'm just in a good mood today because I can't stop thinking about her. In a month, she'll be technically my wife, and I can't think of a happier way to begin our life. The thought of spending the rest of my life with her, leaves me with this amazing feeling....
Heather,
I'm sorry I haven't written in this...I can't express how much I love you....You mean more than anything to me...And, I can't wait to be your wife. Well, I'm heading off to work..I just wanted to leave you a short note. It's FRIDAY..I LOVE YOU!!! SEE YOU SOON!!!
Miss you like crazy,
Lisa
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We had to take Heather to the emergency room this morning, and I was just extremely worried about her. I'm not that fond of hospitals, and seeing her lay in a hospital bed, scared me. I don't want to ever lose her, and I wish I could take away all her pain. It is so hard watching someone you love so deeply, go through any sort of pain at all. I just wanted to put my hands on her, and let the pain transfer through me. I just want to be able to do everything for her, and I feel I just can't do it. I'm just glad, she's okay. I don't know what I'd do without her...
On to something better and more uplifting, two nights ago, Heather made the most amazing love to me. It was soul shaking...She had me screaming in Lithuanian. And, I think it was so needed, it just brought us closer together. We haven't been very sexual towards each other lately with her in school, helping her with homework, and me starting work....We haven't made much time for us, and that night, just opened my eyes even more to how lucky I am to have her. Even though, I do admit we have our rough patches, from time to time, overall, she is amazing, and I can't picture myself ever without her...she is my soulmate, the love of my life, and I'm thankful, that God has led us to cross paths because she has affected my life for the better....And, I just need to get this off my chest for good....
To Heather:
From the moment we've met, I knew that you would be a part of my life forever. We have been through so much together, and we have surpassed all the narrow-minded people's judgements, who never thought our relationship could last. I believe our love is stronger, than anyone could ever imagine. We may get in the worst of fights, but through them all, I still loved you, and I love you, today, even more. I don't see myself aging without you... I feel our souls have crossed in lifetimes before us, and that this bond between us can not be broken by anyone. When I looked into your eyes for the first time, I knew you weren't going to leave my side at the end of that week...I couldn't let this someone, who had already impacted my life, walk away.
I love you so deeply, and I need you now, more than I did yesterday. My love for you continues to grow everyday, and I fall more in love with you every second. I take one look at you, and I know that very instant, that I want to spend the rest of my life with you. There will not ever be a person, that will ever be able to grasp me the way you have. You understand me, you complete me. Heather, without you, I don't think I would know, who I am today. You have filled my heart, and completed my soul..and I need you. I need your love, everyday...and, I'll need it for the rest of my life.
Heather, what I'm trying to say is...This December 7th, will you marry me?
This song describes exactly what I feel....
( I wanna be inside your heaven )
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Stellar
Meet me in outerspace
We could spend the night, watch the earth come up
I've grown tired of that place, won't you come with me
We could start again
How do you do it, make me feel like I do
How do you do it, its better than I ever knew
Meet me in outerspace
I will hold you close, If your afraid of heights
I need you to see this place, It might be the only way
That I can show you how, it feels to be inside of you
How do you it, make me feel like I do
How do you do it, its better than I ever knew
How do you do it, make me feel like I do
Do oh oh oh oh oh
You are stellar
You are stellar
How do you it, make me feel like I do
How do you do it, its better than I ever knew
How do you do it, make me feel like I do
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[Fri 2.9.2005 | 10:47am ] |
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Has anyone ever wondered where Heather and I began?
If so....
( here's our story. )
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[Thu 1.9.2005 | 1:44pm ] |
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Heather has started school, and I just miss her like crazy all the time...it honestly is hard....I get the same feelings, that I had before we met. The situation was so much different though. I longed to hear her voice day in and day out. I missed her comfort...listening to her soul. And, in the same aspect. I miss seeing her, I miss touching her. I miss her, every single part of her. Luckily...I get to see her in exactly five minutes. I'm excited....I miss my wife...
( All the things she said... )
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