This is my line

Aren't my friend?
 

Fuck Off!

Sorry about this, but Friends Only.

Which most of you don't have to worry about cause you already are my friends.

( And It's so Emo )

Well... that's what I get for copying and pasting.... I'll be more productive with the next post... promise....

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm a faerie!!!!!!!!


And I'm not broken!!!!..............Yet.



Party Time!!!

Halloween's coming up.
I'm going to be a faerie.
I've got wings for it. They're pretty.

I feel this overwhelming sadness welling up inside my chest. Festering like maggots freshly hatched inside my heart. With green pus filling in the cavities for the little critters to swim around in.

I'm also terribly angry with someone. Tim to be precise. Not that anyone knows that no-good-mother-fucker. Punk ass son of a bitch used me. Well.... FUCK YOU BITCH! See if I fucking give you anything again you dumb ass bitch.

Anyways... Back to the mellow-ness that in reality is a headache clouding my head and forcing me to shut down. Shutting down though is better then breaking down. I guess it is anyways.

One of these days I'm going to write a whole speel about my ex's. That'll be lovely, considering I know the ones that have access to the net still read my journal.

I wanna bleed. Blood's such a pretty thing to look at. It reminds me of life. My life. Spilling out of my wound ever so slowly.

Mmm...Blood.

Oh..and AFI is coming out with a new cd. Yay.

I'm feeling sick.

My Love Poem



A chord is strick, sounding of orchestral beauty
Sending a flutter of life into a dead soul
Plankton-filled aqua colored eyes open to a light they've seen so many times
But as ivory light seeps through dilated pupils
Purple-pink lips crack and curve to the aqua ponds
Inhaled deep is the scent of blood, sex, and tears
A fortress of fear cascades down
Unvailing the crippled heart that's been hiding for so long
Tendrils stretch out, covered in thick black blood
Grasping the source of light and music
The source of this new found life pulsing so violently
A dull razor slices into the visery, bringing this child screaming into life
The pain floods her viens as she wraps icy arms around love
Sinking nails and teeth into flesh
Draining life and blood from this love
Leathery wings rip themselves free from her paper skin
And she takes flight into a winter's night
Given life.

1. Are we friends?
2. Do you have a crush on me/are you attracted to me?
3. Would you kiss me?
4. ...with tongue?
5. Would you enjoy it?
6. Would you ever ask me out or go out with me if I asked you?
7. Would you make a move on me in a movie theater?
8. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
9. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?
10. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before?
11. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me?
12. Do you/have you talk(ed) crap about me?
13. Do you think I'm a good person?
14. Would you let me sleep with you (in the same bed)?
15. Do you think I'm hot?
16. Would you call me just because?
17. Would you ever listen to my problems even if they don't involve you?
18. If you could change anything about me, would you?
19. Would you have sex with me?
20. Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?
21. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

Some days it's not so bad to.

I'm drifting. Drifting like the proverbial red ballon. Set free from the grip of an uncaring child whose lost his interest and patience with holding my leash. The wind guides me through my course of life.

But if makes me wonder if I'm not just a captive again. The wind pushes me were it wishes as I stride so hard to reach higher. To push my way out of this world.

My eyes can see the stars. Brighter then they've ever been in my life. So close. So close I can taste the fire that pulsates their lives. I can't get out though. The atmosphere keeps me bound to the world. Bound forever to stay stuck in a place I wish weren't my home.

I'm trying to find a hole. The hole we humans have created. It's so difficult. My thin skin is stretching. Ready to burst at any moment.

I just want out.

To Angeh's faithful veiwers, she is still alive. She trusted me well enough to update her journal. If anyone it just HAD to me. I feel so special. She trusted me!!!! I'm soooo wubbed! Well I know she doesn't want me to put any of my nonsense. I'll I do is jabber about junk. Just FYI to you all, Angeh's alive and I guess well.

--Your Friendly Neighborhood Techno Princess

Okay... I'm just putting up this first pic to...Well... Iunno anymore...something about annoying Geoff....blah...damn me and my forgetfulness...

the second one is my brother... cause... yeah...I thought I'd put it up...It's not all that great of a shot..cause it's blurry... but yeah...anywho..