wolf, right here and now!

FURRIES, WEEABOOS, BAD TYPERS, IT DOESN'T MATTER. Just don't be an ass!

HI GUYS, GUESS WHO'S BEEN ROCKING NEW MEXICO FOR TWO MONTHS yes, yes, I know. I didn't turn it UPSIDE DOWN but I did do a little damage. I... couldn't resist.

I've been having lots of fun playing with kitties and puppies and sewing a thing completely by hand, so I've been busy. Forgive me? I miss you guys. :(

Did any of you realize that whenever the pooh friends are having a conversation, tigger is like, always standing in the bushes meters away, listening? lurking? stalking?!

I'll be home August 4th, so I guess that means my hiatus will be over.

Just looking at my FL today showed a lot of paranoia memes and mentions of hate memes. Maybe fandoms should take a hot bath and a cool drink to calm down before posting. No one likes sharing vomit, be it word vomit or otherwise.

I LOVE YOU GUYS KEEP ON TRUCKIN'

OKAY I'M SORRY GUYS I'm not going to be able to check my FL very often at all. I just got here and it took me an hour to go through my friends list. That doesn't mean I won't be reading! I just won't have much time to comment.

I found this wireless connection near Mandy's house that only works if I sit on one corner of the bed (I don't know if I'll be able to find the right spot again, actually), so whenever we're in her room chillin' and readin' and stuff, I'll sign on aim and talk.

I have mixed feelings about this, because OH LORD I'm actually... getting closer to some of you! Which hasn't happened in forever! So I'll be on aim whenever I can, and I'll comment if there's something important I feel like I need to comment on.

IN OTHER NEWS I AM TOTALLY AWESOME AND HAPPY HERE. Mandy's dog is scared of me, though. :( But Dist, her cat, followed us all the way up the road.

OH YEAH and some lady at the airport called me a pretty peacock. YEAH.

AAAND that secret internet project is not going to be a go until next round. \o/

Best wishes to you all!

SO I TURN THE TV ON THIS MORNING. THE SOUND WAS ON. I DON'T KNOW WHY usually I turn it off BUT ANYWAY.

Winnie the Pooh is on! "Oh," I say, "I love Winnie the Pooh! He tastes like honey!" so I leave it on while I walk around the room being busy. I hear this little exchange:

Tigger: We can see oodles of acres from my house! I can even see into long-ears here's windows!
Rabbit: ...what
Tigger: *DRAPES ON* OHOHOHO, that [insert specific flavor here] oatmeal you had this morning looked DELICEROUS!
Rabbit: STOP LOOKING THROUGH MY WINDOW!

Just. wat IS THAT SUPPOSED TO BE REALLY CREEPY? :T Oh, Disney.

ANYWAY this summer, I'm spending two months with dekapai in Hell! I may or may not be scarce. Just a warning. I'll probably still comment the same... amount or something BUT. I have a super secret interweb project I'm working on, so most of the time I'm online I'll be doing that.

OH GOD I HAVEN'T GOTTEN ANYTHING DONE IN THE PAST WEEK SKJALKJLJADLSKFJ

Very small friends cut. If I removed you, either

1. I made efforts to talk to you and they weren't returned
2. I didn't think we would get along
or
3. You only update or talk to me once in a blue moon.

If I removed you, please remove me back. If you don't think I should have removed you, please private message me.

I FUCKING LOVE YOU, CALIFORNIA. I can't wait until it's legal to marry masses of land...! As long as I'm happy and not hurting anything, I don't see why it'd be a big deal! Come on, senate, get crackin'.

GUYS I MADE SOUP LAST NIGHT. And I didn't use the microwave ONCE. Be proud of me and my elite vegetable chopping, mixing, taste-testing skills.

I'm kinda down today (read: really down) because I just started opening up in front of my own family and got the verbal equivalent of "...........lol" (WHICH I HATE. DON'T EVER DO THAT SHIT TO PEOPLE, IT'S RUDE AND PATHETIC).

Can Boots learn social skills? Will Boots stop stepping on toes with everything she does? Tune in next week on the after school special Losers with No Friends Who Sit Alone At Lunch!

Wait, one last thing:

I'M SUPER THANKS FOR ASKING!

I've been thinking a lot lately. About intelligence, maturity, and compassion, and how most people don't think they're mutually exclusive. I thought there was something wrong with me when I listened to NPR and only heard five year olds with thesauruses. I honestly don't hear any argument, political or otherwise, that is above a kindergarten level. Sure, their vocabulary is advanced, and they use accepted terminology to describe their viewpoints, but vocabulary and terminology do not an argument make. Yet it seems that, if you have an opinion, you have to have at least four years of college to back it up. Doesn't make any sense to me.

I was also thinking about my problem with irritation lately. In high school, I was constantly thinking, "As soon as I get out of here, I won't have to deal with elitist IB douches who have no idea what they're talking about," but... Yeah no. Am I an asshole magnet, seriously? Or is it that I have a different definition of maturity than everyone else? To me, age, appearance, and intelligence have nothing to do with maturity.

For example, there was a girl in my Oceanography class who I will probably never forget. She had very lofty dreams, but there she was in a science class just for the credit, asking questions like, "Can you take a turtle out of its shell?" She was also the sweetest, nicest human being I've ever met. I used to think that maybe I have problems with people because when they grow up, they become bitchy and cold, but she was grown up too. tl;dr gay for sweet girls :(

Everyone in my seventh grade class read Flowers for Algernon, but none of them took away the lesson it taught. Before I read it, I really was one of those people who think they're better than everyone else, and that intelligence should be valued above all things. I've gotten over that, and I'm frustrated with people who haven't (which is probably out of line).

What is my problem with getting my thoughts out lately? I feel like there's a wall there. Anyway, I was fuming about elitists this afternoon, and I realized that if I were mature myself, I would like them despite their faults. I shouldn't insult someone's entire existence if he/she loads as many big words into a sentence as possible, or if they push other opinions down in favor of their own.


I do believe I've gotten to the point where I love everything again, and I don't have to choose between kindness and intelligence. \o/

IN OTHER NEWS, GUYS, GO SEE IRONMAN IF YOU HAVEN'T YET.

MY PARENTS ARE GONE FOR THE WEEKEND. YOU KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS.

PARTY@MYHOUSE

In other news, HEY TO ALL THE NEW PEOPLE I ADDED! You guys are seriously adorable. /creepy Here's a contact info post for you to fill out!

Just so you guys know, I'm a total spaz.


I had my speech todayyy. It was awkward as usual. Whenever I do speeches I sound really bored and pissed off and I don't know how to change it. People laughed at me. BUT THAT'S OKAY.

Where is my Deadland Wonderland 12-- oh there it is. YES PLEASE MORE SHIRO *A*

I only have one thing to say about today:


The people at my college are SO WITTY. I had to fix the comma splice after I took the picture dslkfjsldkfjds.

Actually, three things: Failed computer class. The teacher said we could turn everything in on the last day. Guess what? He lied.

SORRY FOR THAT ENTRY LAST NIGHT; I'M LIKE A WEREWOLF OF PMS PAST ELEVEN AT NIGHT, APPARENTLY.

EDIT: My counting abilities continue to disappoint me. I accidentally bought two copies of this shirt at Threadless. Does anyone want the extra? It's girly medium. NEVERMIND my sister wants it wtf.

THE SECRET LOVERS MEME

dfdkjfdfj SORRY GUYS I CAN NEVER POST ACTUAL CONTENT

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Oh my god, seriously guys, I want to go shopping so badly. I don't know where this newfound obsession with clothes is, or where my "OMG TACKY ♥" outlook went, but I want to buy super girly things. Or Tipping the Velvet-esque fitted suits/male formal stuff. Uhuhu top hats.

I am so FABULOUS lately I can't stand it. Like, other than a few random outbursts of dorama (what i use this journal for mainly sorry guys :(), I am back to my old optimistic self. I couldn't sleep last night, NOT BECAUSE OF EMO, but because I was so excited about the next day. Even though nothing awesome was planned.

Dunno, though, at work I get really uptight and emo. I'M FIGHTING THIS WITH EVERY TENTACLE IN MY BEING.

EMBARRASSINGFAX: I am really sick of this community college thing. As always, I'm passing by the skin of my teeth. Just because the assignments I DO turn in are actually good. :\ I want to get into a real college stat. I'm so bored. When I'm not bored, I actually do shit. ... Dadada, captain obvious!

I just want to say that I ♥LOVE YOU PEOPLE♥ no matter what, and I'm sorry for being a totally awkward human being, but I'm totally fine with that now.

thegoodbyebluesfriendingmeme

Guys, people are really getting on my nerves today. I'm really tired of making myself get angry, though; I don't know why I do it, just that I feel weird when I don't react to things that SHOULD make me angry. slkfjalfkj Usually, my irritation only lasts for like two minutes, so I'm not going to drag it out anymore for the sake of trying to be normal.

It is weird that I even like people who are off putting to me. Like that little boy who rolled his eyes at me! HE WAS ABUSING HIS ALIEN ACTION FIGURE I WAS LEGITIMATELY CONCERNED FOR ITS HEALTH, OKAY.

:)

( Picture post one of... something. Not dial up friendly. )

In other news, I'm addicted to Tilly and the Wall because of dreadable. ALSO I FAIL AT SCHOOL I hope I can still do all the work at the last minute and barely pull through this time like I did every year in high school!

And tomorrow I'm not going to Intro to Comp again! I've only been one and a half times... lolol.

OKAY NEW MEXICO WAS AWESOME. I stole a sign because I'm a gangster and I roll like that. That's pretty much all you need to know.

Well, okay. I also got my lip pierced and met my best friend ever ever and had many good times, but those are just little details. Also, there was a guy who was trying to hang-glide from outside Albuquerque to a ranch in Texas. Noooot kidding. I BELIEVE IN YOU, WEIRD HANG-GLIDING DUDE. I will post pictures when they're developppppped.


So I walked into work today and found myself with a shit ton of donuts and iTunes gift cards! It made me really happy. :'D My grandma also brought MORE donuts by, so I put the chocolate ones into the refrigerator for Jennifer and Meta.

This is my last year as a teenager, guys. QUICK, GIVE ME SUGGESTIONS FOR IMMATURE STUFF TO DO.

Short update: They rescheduled our flight for tomorrow, and if it's canceled, I'll go cut a bitch or something. I don't know. I'm in a bad mood from watching this:

"His wife impregnated him using a syringe from a local animal hospital, and then they went out and ate fast food."

I'm only posting this because more people need to watch it dfkljsdlfkjsdflkj. Don't watch if you're easily disgusted by humanity and people wishing pain and death on someone because of their physical sex/gender.

IN SHORT: I think the following: You don't need a dick to call yourself male. You don't need a vagina to call yourself female.

Jesus Christ, fox news.

I don't like ranting because it makes me feel like a cunt, but I'd hate myself more if I didn't in this instance, so.

SORRY I HARDLY EVER POST. But uh, American canceled my flight tomorrow so we have to get to the airport innnnnnnn six hours to try to suck cock* to get on another plane. WISH ME LUCK!

That said, see ya on Tuesday. Won't be posting or commenting until then. o/



GOD, SO EXCITED.


*please. PLEASE don't take this literally ;~;

Removed some unused journals. If I unadded you by mistake, uhh, tell me here? OTL

What do you say to someone who's dying? SORRY MAN, GOOD LUCK NEXT TIME? I'm sorry I never brought any difficult sewing projects to class? I'm sorry I skipped out of class so often to sleep?

She's really important to me. It's weird. She's leaving behind a hundred people or more who love her, and who were touched by her. Shouldn't that be enough? I always thought Lea would be here forever, bustling around and getting things done.

Right now, my room is all rearranged, I have a marble desk my dad built for me, I'm taking care of myself and doing my schoolwork, and I'm getting better at talking to people. It doesn't seem like much all laid out like that, but it's huge for me, and I'm turning into a different person as of late. Is this why I've been so afraid of change for the better? Because if one part of my life gets better, another will get worse, and I don't want to take the risk?

I don't want anyone else to die, but no matter what, I can't stop it. I'm extremely proud of myself for not huddling in the corner and cowering anymore, so I'm not going to let this push me back to where I was before. I love her, and I'll miss her, but the best way to honor such a prolific life is to get off of my ass.

I used to think that there are people who can overcome everything. Really, there are people who will keep going and going until they burn out suddenly, and people who slowly wind down and gather dust, and all different things in between, but no one can overcome everything.

I was about to get all depressed, self-absorbed, and stupid earlier, but Mandy always knows exactly what to say to cheer me up. That damn channeler. ♥

Why has no one watched Pani Poni Dash. Because if you don't, you'll get a human torso laced with anthrax in the mail. That is to say, watch it because Ichijou-san commands it.

LMAO WHAT IS WITH ALL OF THE RACISM IN NEWS POST COMMENTS?

ISFKLJSLKFJLSKFJSLKFJSLKFJSLFKJF. ANGER. Why can't my computers ever fuck up without deleting every bit of my shit? I lost all of my musics, animu, writings and graphics. And bookmarks. :( hugs (AND MAYBE LINKS TO MEDIA SITES OTL?) pls.

hiatus over because wtf i don't have anything else to do :|B fuck, that only lasted two days.

Except cleaning. And schoolwork. Eh.

Things that are bothering me:
- My trich is acting up.
- I keep messing up at work.
- I have these totally off-the-mark misconceptions about life and fiction that really. REALLY bother me. Usually I can figure them out on my own, but a lot of the time I'll say really stupid things and people just go, "Uhh."
- My English class, which is teaching me for the fiftieth time how to write an essay using engfish. I hate engfish. I want it to die. Why do boring essays hate happiness?!


Things that are making life worth it:
♥ The stairwell at school I hardly ever use. There's a bit of emo graphiti (lyrics?) in between floors three and four of the parking deck that passed over the line. And by the line, I mean the line separating "poetic" and "nonsensically fabulous." It says: You will climb more stairs than you'll have lovers in your life. Of course, people thought this was ridiculous! The responses: 1. Unless you're a ho. 2. Or a paraplegiclskjdfaf. 3. LoL 4. OMG YOU GUYS THINK THAT'S FUNNY?!?

WHY ARE PEOPLE SO ADORABLE?

♥ The sign on my way to work that says, "CARRIAGE CLEANERS: DROP PANTS HERE FOR IMMEDIATE ATTENTION."
♥ My hair, which is now blue and slightly blonde.
♥ My English teacher, who is cute and timid and obviously wants to have sex with semi-colons and engfish.
♥ The Cadillac I was behind today, which was white with gold accents. The windows were tinted and the license plate said RETIREDG.

Also, ♥ to Kaden and anyone else who's having a rough time.