Title: And I guess that I don't know (Part Nine)
Category: fan fiction, role play, chapter
Genre: romance/angst
Date: October 2005 - unfinished

hyde – Ren onegreysunrise/bloodied_quill
tetsu – Kit togiretamelody (Chapters 1-4 – Ryo tetchan_69)
ken – Amaya amaya_kazuki

(Part One) (Part Two) (Part Three) (Part Four) (Part Five) (Part Six) (Part Seven) (Part Eight)

Part Nine: messy - December 4, 2005
Paring – tetsuxhyde
Character in this section - tetsu

tetsu solo. Far too short to warrant a summary. Consider reading his entry from Nov. 29. His journal often says a lot about how things are. And remember that tetsu can read and comment in hyde's journal if he choses.

The glare of the morning light slashed through the blinds, temporarily blinding him as he reached for the alarm clock. His hand hit a bottle and he cursed as it fell to the floor. Messy. His home. Messy. His life. Messymessymessy.

The days had blurred together in an alcoholic haze. hyde had left him. That one thought permeated through the alcohol-induced cloud. That one thought forced him to get out of bed. He had to get a hold of himself.

L'arc~en~Ciel? What of them? tetsu shook his head. He had to think of this in small pieces. First him and hyde, then the band. ...Was there even a "him and
hyde"? He shook his head again; he needed to take this one step at a time.

He showered and grabbed something to eat before cleaning up his house. There were very few traces of the fact that he had been drinking, with the exception of himself, pale and shaking as he was.

But it was a start. With that done, he grabbed his coat and walked out. It was cold, but that was okay. He just needed to get out. He needed to think. He needed...to find a way to make things right again.