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frank's just being ironic, honestly / July 26th / 4:09 PM / / Share

lady_stargazer

...is it narcissistic to say that i kind of totally want to move into my wedding band au universe? because i dooo, oh god. my ideal career choices go like this: 1. film director 2. oscar-nominated screenwriter (hey hey dream big okay) 3. MEMBER OF A WEDDING BAND.

there have been about four weddings so far, but at least i haven't impregnated anyone yet? high five? orz. THAT'S SIGNIFICANT FOR ME OKAY.

the main point of this post is: anyone know any of the favorite bands of nick wheeler (from the all american rejects)? because i KNOW i've read an interview with him in which he reveals this, but all i can ever remember from that interview is tyson's epic rodgers&hammerstein love.

...which you know i'm sure you can forgive the fact that's all i ever remember. OH TYSON, BABY.

in addition to this, everyone please pray that this doesn't go over 20,000; because my eyes are starting to turn inwards kthnx.

oh also also i wordled what i have so far! GUESS WHO THIS FIC IS ABOUT YOU GUYS




ugh this thing has like six titles at the minute. I'M INDECISIVE.

(subject) / July 26th / 2:44 AM / / 6 thoughts / Share

shoemaster

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let it try. / July 25th / 8:45 PM / Feeling / Hearing tiredFeeling / Hearing broken | unkle / 39 thoughts / Share

leucocrystal

I've seen XF2 three times now.  Yes, already.  (Getting into the premiere was a complete surprise, so it's not as if I'm trying for a record in 72 hours or anything ridiculous like that.)  We already had our tickets for the midnight show at the Arclight Sherman Oaks (great theater!), so naturally we went!  Matt even drove all the way up from San Diego just to have the shared experience of seeing it with all of us (he really liked it, too).  Laugh all you want at my expense (and I'm sure several of you are); I really don't give a fuck.

As for me, I enjoy it more each time I see it.  If you want to hear more about what I thought (or what I did in the past couple of days, which have completely exhausted me), just check the previous couple of entries.  Spoiler warning for the post prior to this one, if you read under the cut and the comments!

I'm trying to stay in my happy bubble, but it's becoming hard.  I knew critics, for the most part (*kisses Roger Ebert*), would leap onto this one, and not in the good way; they did the exact same thing back in 1998.  Yet I still love FTF all these years later, and I honestly believe XF2 is the stronger film.

I will not less this goddamn fandom depress me; not after such an amazing week.  But it's becoming a struggle, I must confess.

(subject) / July 26th / 12:56 AM / / Share

aileane47

Just found this site: http://hdfan-vidz.blogspot.com/search/label/Panic%20At%20The%20Disco

Which is wesome, since it seems they have Panic's performance at the 2006 VMAs (I'd been looking forever for a good quality version of that), and Lying... at Leno, which I hadn't seen either.

(subject) / July 25th / 11:39 PM / / Share

aileane47

1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Write down whatever snarky returns come to your mind afterward.

(watch for number 19)

ANSWERS )


(subject) / July 25th / 11:02 PM / / 2 thoughts / Share

aileane47

Greta!! I didn't know she was so bendy and strong. Girl-crush raising...

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More Greta )

as requested / July 25th / 11:40 AM / Feeling / Hearing discontent / 7 thoughts / Share

tonparapluie

Here is the download link for Hollaback Boy.

Also of note: it looks like I'll be going on an orientation trip into the great outdoors after all. I should probably be excited, but mostly I'm kind of freaked. I really hope the people in my group are nice! I don't know why I thought it was a good idea to sign up to traipse through the wilderness with a bunch of strangers. D:

(subject) / July 25th / 2:01 PM / / Share

aileane47

Hey there!

Since the temperatures have dropped quite a bit this week - it's still hot, but not skin-melting hot - we've decided to finally start painting my room, since I hadn't repainted it since I got it, and you know... So, I've taken the posters and pictures down, and we'll start painting this afternoon, so i don't know how often I'll be around - if I can at all - until I'm done painting.

I let my mom chose the shade of green, and she's brought a pretty green-grey shade that I think it's a bit too dark, so I'm voting to add some white paint to lighten it a bit. My room is not very big, and I want it to be light.

Then, I'll try to convince my mom to let me decorate my way. With that i mean, that she doesn't make me put up again these two pictures of me as a kid. Then, I'll substitute two posters of dogs I had, with a promotional poster for Davidoff's Adventure (yes, the Ewan McGregor one. My mom is friends with a woman who has a perfume store, and she gave us the carton with the poster): http://mestosanj.blog.siol.net/files/2008/05/davidoff-adventure.jpg

Sure. Fine. Whatever. (!!!!!!!) / July 25th / 1:19 AM / Feeling / Hearing giddy / 13 thoughts / Share

exsequar

I feel about to EXPLODE with an excess of emotion. I kind of love feeling like this, whatever the reason. Usually it's a confluence of relatively silly things, but hey. This is fandom. You guys GET it.

Things wot are making me flail:

  • X-FILES MOVIE OMG!!!!! (Yes still) The premiere is in the process of playing (on the east coast) RIGHT THE FUCK NOW. Eeeeee. I watched two episodes with Rob tonight, Syzygy and Pusher. One hilarious, the other tense and wonderful. Scully's bitchface is a glory to behold ("Sure, fine, whatever") and oh, her skepticism of the one and only WHAMMY ("Would you please explain to me the scientific nature of the whammy."). OH SCULLY YOU ARE MY FAVORITE. IMDB informs me that the X-Files creators had someone else in mind for Scully at first.... wait for it.... PAMELA ANDERSON. I almost died of laughter, not gonna lie. DEAR CHRIS CARTER FOX NETWORK, UR DOIN IT RONG. Did you know Gillian was only 24 when she started?! Holy crap.
  • WARPED IN TWO DAYS! Cobraaaas! LOEEEEY! Lots of funtiems! Luckily a storm broke the heat here yesterday, so it's going to be low 80s and partly cloudy. YAY!
  • [info]arsenicjade's A Light to Burn All the Empires. Mikey/Frank. It's one of those stories that you feel in your whole body. I haven't finished it yet, but I keep physically flailing, and I've been repeatedly on the brink of tears, and she writes the Gerard-Mikey dynamic like no one else, and OH. <3333
  • MCR MIGHT DO A BOB DYLAN COVER FOR THE WATCHMEN SOUNDTRACK!!!! I think Gerard came in his pants. Seriously. This piece of news about our hiatusing boys is giving me a completely inordinate amount of joy. NEW MUSICS. FROM OUR LOVERS. Ughhhh ♥___♥
  • Not so much joyous as just... I dunno, satisfying? Tomorrow is the chemistry department's summer poster session. Last year, I was FREAKED the fuck OUT. I kept flailing about how I wouldn't be good enough and they would grill me and it would be horrible!! ....then it was super duper low key and I shouldn't have worried at all. So I'm not! I've got a beautiful poster, and I understand my work, and everything is grand. Lalala!


I need to go to bed. MULDER AND SCULLY SO SOON OMG.

BIBA COLOOOONIA / July 24th / 10:40 PM / Feeling / Hearing crazyFeeling / Hearing die Butzemanner - Snow | Scrobbled by Last.fm / 8 thoughts / Share

drusillathemad

Home from Germanfest--good times yo. Germanfest is always one of the heights of my summer and this. Yeah, awesome. I was worried, because usually it's only Fri-Sun, and this year they had free admission and were open Thurs evenings...there weren't any bands I recognized (Dorf Kapella ;__; Chikeria ;_____;) so I wasn't sure how into it I was going to be. BUT, it was super fun. Amazing weather, not too crowded, and this amazing band called Biba & die Butzemanner. They're really really good -- they play a lot of pop songs in German/with heavy German accents. The lead singer has a nice ass. I know this because he disappeared and the bassist sang for a while, only to reappear as German Pop Sensation Nikki, in a micromini with balloons shoved into the top and a thong. Yeah. Gotta love the Germans ♥ I bought a CD (and got it ~siiiigned) If anyone's interested (and everyone should hear a medley of Bloodhound Gang tunes sung with a really heavy accent) I'll upload it later/earlier/tomorrow.

If there's something you're scared of and are pretty sure is true, is it better to ask and know for sure or be scared and try to believe it isn't?

(fic) // home // (card captor sakura(!!) // (syaoran/sakura/tomoyo; past touya/tomoyo) // (pg-13) / July 25th / 4:39 AM / / 16 thoughts / Share

lady_stargazer

Wow, it’s been a while for me and these guys.

home
(1500 words) // (Card Captor Sakura) // (PG-13/Light R)

They say it’s where the heart is, after all. (Syaoran/Sakura/Tomoyo; past Touya/Tomoyo)

Some things don't change. Touya, and the cherry blossoms, and how Touya looks when Sakura says Tomoyo's name. )

i know i know, two posts in one day but / July 24th / 9:41 PM / Feeling / Hearing speechless / 6 thoughts / Share

lady_stargazer

my parents bought me a car.

they just. brought it home. i don't know, you guys.

i want to name her something aiw-related, but since alice and dinah are out, i don't know what.

seriously, you guys. a car. i can't even drive!

(subject) / July 24th / 8:00 AM / Feeling / Hearing hungryFeeling / Hearing Heal Over - KT Tunstall / 1 thought / Share

gaiamyles

My first week back in the working world is halfway over! It wasn't as bad a transition as I'd been fearing - it does helping liking nearly everyone I work with! Then again, the prospect of getting to go be a belay slave on Saturday's climbing trip is a pretty exciting one, too. Getting paid to go climbing is ALWAYS something I enjoy. I'm kinda-sorta looking into the High Ropes course at the Space and Rocket Center, though, in case my way-overdue six-month review doesn't go where I'd like it to. I'm not really sure where that is, but I would like to be able to continue doing recieving in the backroom, and I'd like a raise - considering that last review, Jarod got more of a raise than I did and now I'm doing much more than he is, I'm hoping that'll pan out for me.

On the other hand, having my last at-camp entry reach my two-week public limit is kinda depressing.

I have possibilities of second dates for both that I went on, which is a pretty cool and completely new prospect to me.

If you can't tell, I'm currently out of anything really constructive to say. My days have been spent working, taking care of [info]rumershard's family's animals, and forcing people to watch Doctor Who. (I'm tired of being the only one I see with any frequency that I can squee over it with.) Obviously, things have slowed down, as I knew they would. Not having to do anything has been making me incredibly lazy, which is terribly sad, and I'll just have to try to fight it.

And now, to go enjoy the rest of my day off!

(subject) / July 24th / 3:43 PM / / Share

aileane47

I'm uploading Dr. Horrible's to sendspace. It's currently at 56%, with 3 hours to go *crosses fingers*

* Progress update 1 (aka "If we can call it progress"): 5 hours after I put it for upload, with an eta of 5 minutes, the page has gone to one of those "can't find the page" or whatever, signs. I'm shaking my fist at it. I hit refresh, knowing that it probably wouldn't do anything and that anything that was already uploaded has been lost. Anyway, dumb me for getting cocky and trying to upload all three parts at once (i saw the multiuploader thingy and couldn't resist).

Well, whatever. It's not going to break me. I said I would upload it, because I decided so, and I'm going to upload it dammit!

ACT I: hxxp://www.sendspace.com/file/5rz7ih
ACT II: hxxp://www.sendspace.com/file/5y0zze
ACT III:
hxxp://www.sendspace.com/file/t3rmxl

(subject) / July 24th / 12:38 PM / / 2 thoughts / Share

aileane47

* I'm so excited (kinda ridiculous, feel free to laugh at me) because I just read that we're gonna get a sequel to "Jon's Bookstore" by [info]foxxcub which is one of my favourite Panic/MCR/FOB fics ever.

* Pete had another date with John Mayer. Hee

* Finished Superman Returns. How stupid it is that everyone is gushing about the Dark Knight, and I'm stuck with SR? hahaha. Brandon Routh is kind of pretty, but the movie itself... I didn't like it.

we're so high! I don't know what happened! / July 24th / 2:01 AM / Feeling / Hearing ecstatic / 61 thoughts / Share

leucocrystal

Um... Jesus fucking CHRIST on a cracker.  YOU GUYS.  I don't even... okay. *breathes*  I know I've got tons of comments to reply to (and I'm so glad you guys liked my last post!), but now is not the time.

Today was so fucking incredible (beyond, really), that I don't even know where to start.  I'll sum it up as briefly as possible right now, because all the adrenaline (which I've been running on for a good 12 hours) has left me and I feel like I've been beaten up (or at least like the walking dead).

I checked in with Lisa (on behalf of The Chicago Tribune) at about 5:30PM in front of the theater.  Got my press pass (is it stupid that I got a little thrill just putting that lanyard around my neck?  I had credentials, y'all.).  Went down to our spot on the red carpet, and THIS is where shit got surreal; as we were walking past all the fans in the bleachers (not quite yet 500, but they were filling them up fast), we got cheered at.  I walked a red carpet, stopped, and waved to my friends, fellow fans, and complete strangers.  I felt like I was losing my mind; my cheeks hurt from smiling so much.

We corralled at our spot on the press line (really nice real estate; right on the corner, so they would stop as they turned to go down straight into the theater), but unfortunately there was no seeing the stage from our vantage point, so I'll be "seeing" the Q&A for the first time as soon as I'm able to download/watch video.  The one downside, really, but you will not hear me complaining.

They were blasting the theme song, over and over (and then, once the arrivals came in, started playing the brand new XF2 soundtrack), and the cheers didn't seem to stop.  David pulled up, got out, and the response was nearly deafening.

But stop that; rewind to before DD and GA even arrived -- Frank, beautiful, personable, fucking adorable Frank, came right over to us, said hello to Lisa (he was the one who invited her to the premiere), and then said hello to the rest of us, one at a time, until he got to me.  He shook my hand very warmly and repeated my name back to me, smiling very big and looking me right in the eye.  He is so sweet, I can't begin to explain it, you guys.  He came right over to talk to us, and stayed for a good 5-10 minutes, just with us.

Then the official arrivals started, and Frank dashed off to join them, promising to come back and talk more when they were making the rounds.  We saw everyone; Brian Thompson, Madeleine Martin (from Californication, who I talked to for about 5 minutes and is fucking adorable), PAMELA ADLON (didn't catch her, but died just to see her tiny, hilarious self), Madeline Zima (and sister), a co-star of David's from The TV Set, MARK FUCKING SNOW (I died again, he was so sweet and funny!), Chris and Mitch and Arlene (with kid), Xzibit and Amanda Peet (gorgeous and very funny), Chris (he looked me right in the eye, smiled an amazing smile, and gave me the two-handed sandwich handshake for a long moment that was so sincere, I cannot even), and of course...

...(Yes, you saw it coming) DAVID.  He looked amazing (I saw his shirt -- gray and black stripes -- before the rest of him and was already flipping the fuck out like a moron), and being that close to him again was just as intoxicating as the last two times.  For a man who doesn't really wear cologne, why does he always smell so damn good?  Also, I'm still afflicted by the incredibly inappropriate desire to stick my fingers in his hair.  A bit of stubble, still looking very Hank-ish and thereby ridiculously sexy.  Very shiny black shoes (I always forget how humongous his feet look in person), nice pants, and here is the crazy part... I am almost positive now he must know my face.  I'm serious, y'all.  We had A MOMENT.  He walked up to us, said hello to Tiffany (who was subbing for Lisa with the mic and questions), shook her hand, gave Seema (with the camcorder) the same hello, and then turned to me.  I introduced myself by reflex at this point, and he parroted my name back in a contemplative tone, cocked his head to the side while scanning my face, then put his hand on top of mine where I had it resting on the metal divider (for balance -- let's just say I'm goddamn lucky I didn't FALL OVER).  He then squeezed my hand warmly (big hands too, I always forget! but I never forget those lovely, long fingers), then tapped my fingers pointedly -- like he was playing absentmindedly with piano keys -- then gave me a very intense look, right in the eye, and smiled.  I promptly died.  No really, I think I now know how it feels to have your insides liquefy without your permission or any prior notice.  I don't know how to explain it, but in that moment (a) I got a little electric shock, right up from my knuckles to my toes, and (b) I just know that he recognized me.  It was fucking NUTS.  I didn't say much (my BRAIN, it was BROKEN, which was of course all his fault), but he was very gracious and funny, and I still find it a bit hard to look him in the eye for too long, because (a) he has fucking gorgeous eyes, and (b) he looks at people so intently!  It's crazy!  Anyway, I'll save the funniest moment, which of course was perpetuated by him, for a later post, because it involves some background explanation, LOL.  I'm not even done with this post, and I already have so much more to tell!

But I am not yet to the amazing part of the story, y'all.  True, I was on the fucking press line and was technically a member of the press covering the event, and I got to meet and talk to almost everyone, and they were all lovely and gorgeous (Gillian is such a fruitcake, yes, even in person, but she looked beautiful and very, very pregnant), and all of that jazz.  But YOU GUYS.  Let me tell the next part, before my brain explodes.

Being on the press line means (a) having camera(s) and camcorder(s), plus cell phones and various and sundry tech, and (b) being stuck there for the rest of the arrivals (this is NOT A COMPLAINT) while you realize that OMFG, they are letting everyone in the bleachers IN TO THE FUCKING PREMIERE.  Naturally, we stood our ground and did the professional thing; kept interviewing and photographing, realizing that our chance to see the film early was walking right past us in gigantic chunks of people.  And then suddenly, everyone was inside, and the press crews were beginning to pack up.  But then.  THEN.

We figured, hey, we've got press credentials, it can't hurt to ask.  So ask we did, just the nearest ELS security dude.  And he was like, sure, go right on in!  Just drop off your gear in your car (which was parked right in the H&H garage) and head inside, here are your tickets!  Um, HOLY FUCK.

So naturally, we dropped our shit off, went in, and WE SAW THE FUCKING MOVIE.  The Zima sisters, Pamela Adlon and Evan Handler (plus others I probably didn't notice) were in our theater -- there were so many they had to split us between two, if not three, screening rooms -- and we watched the movie, and...

Cut for my reaction, because I absolutely cannot help myself a moment longer -- SPOILERS WITHIN! )

The only tidbit I will offer outside the cut is this: STAY FOR THE CREDITS, y'all, if you don't already know to.  Not just for the music (which is fucking awesome), but for that wonderful, quirky, strange little surprise.

I... need to breathe.  And eat.  And SLEEP, because I cannot even begin to explain how I feel right now.  I literally feel like I've been on the wrong end of a bar fight; tired and sore and completely and utterly exhausted.  And I LOVE IT.  Oh my shit.  Oh my shit.

P.S.  Unsurprisingly, I got hundreds of amazing photos.  Okay, seriously, sleep time, before I keel over.

I... am an X-Phile. / July 24th / 1:13 AM / Feeling / Hearing excited / 9 thoughts / Share

exsequar

I'd just like to say one thing:

I LOVE THE X-FILES!

Phew! It's been a long time since I said that! Way back in the day, when i was but a wee thing in high school, I started catching this show called X-Files in reruns on TV. Sadly, it only aired while I was at work that summer, so I used this ancient device called a VCR to schedule recordings of two episodes a day. Then I would come home and watch them. My experience was all jumbled, since two networks were airing reruns from completely different seasons. But I loved it. Oh how I loved it. Somehow, I stumbled onto fic, and I was a GONER. I inhaled vast swathes of the Gossamer archive, and from there stumbled into eljay, and so I think we all have Mulder and Scully to thank for my shining presence in these here parts of the interwebs \o/

One X-Files fanfic that amazingly still sticks out in my memory is this epic series called After the Future (that's a link). It was started in 1999, and at the time I was reading it, about 2004, it was still IN PROGRESS. I just dug up that link today, and it appears that it was finished about a year ago, but the author is still posting little codas and missing scenes every now and then. Holy crap. That's amazing. And the thing is, it was GOOD. The premise (vaguely, since it's been four years since I read it) was that the alien colonization occurred, and Mulder and Scully and most of the named characters in the show escaped and set up a settlement, one of many scattered across the nation, and tried to do battle against the Forces of Evil. To a large extent it was domesticity fic, as Mulder and Scully, you know, realized they were in love and started having wee kidlets, three of them, one of whom was named after Alex Krycek which gives me SUCH GLEE, OKAY. (He plays a strong role and while all conflicted and kind of assholey, mostly comes around and is Made Of Awesome.) Skinner marries Scully's mom, and the Lone Gunmen are around, and it is just fabulous and awesome and I kind of really want to read it again.

ANYway, what prompted this post is that I got the yen tonight for some X-Files, and as I have only the third season DVDs, I sort of picked an episode at random. It was called Oubliette, and it turned out that not only had I not seen it, IT HAD JEWEL STAITE IN IT! Wee, 14 or 15 year old Jewel Staite! Getting all kidnapped and scared, awwww! It was totally random, I swear, and made me squeak and flap my hands! She was so precious. And then the episode itself was just made of fucking win, as is all of season three, and OH MULDER AND SCULLY. FIRST LOVES OF MY HEART.

NEW MOVIE IN TWO DAYS OMGGGGGGG!!!!

I am so excited :D

These are my explainy hands / July 23rd / 11:01 PM / Feeling / Hearing thoughtful / 13 thoughts / Share

exsequar

Hi flist! So I might have mentioned a little while ago that I was given an assignment to write a short essay about my undergraduate research experience and how it contributed to my education. The possible use of this essay is vague; admission materials were mentioned. Anyway, I just sat down and banged it out tonight, because that's how I write, at least for shortish things - I start and then I finish, with little break in between, or else I feel incomplete. Anyway, I was wondering if maybe you, my beautiful flist, with your lovely ways with words, would be willing to take a look at it for me? It is quite short, under 1000 words, and I wrote it very informally, like a story. I'd appreciate input on tone, flow, grammar, anything you feel might be improved. Even if you have no concrit, I'd love reactions of any kind, as I am kind of nervous about sending this out into the world!

Thanks in advance, loves <3

A Mile in Shoes That Don't Fit )

(subject) / July 23rd / 9:29 PM / Feeling / Hearing cold / Share

green_griffin1

We took four loads of tree branches to the yard waste dump site thingy. It took two and a half hours. Loading the back of the van was the biggest pain, although I think cleaning out the van (which still has to be done) will be much worse. At least dumping the branches was pretty easy. Tucker decided to join us for the rides and even decided to try and get out at the site on loads two and four. Dad had full control of her the first time she decided to exit, but he had to chase her down the second time. Now that huge pile of tree branches on the deck is gone, I feel a little sad about that because I can no longer easily tell I did any work on the yard.

green_griffin1

Ficy Things / July 23rd / 6:49 PM / Feeling / Hearing chipper / 26 thoughts / Share

clex_monkie89

So. Finally posted my Big Bang. I think people like it, no? I totally have to respond to comments on it. Either tonight or tomorrow, probably. I'm kinda enjoying being lazy right now. :P

Oh, also, I've been longhanding DID!Sam's origin story. I want to smish them (Sam and his alters) V hard. Dean too. And John. Also Bobby and Jim.

Also speaking of my Big Bang, pretty much every single comment has had at the same question in it in one way or another. So

Spoilers for Postcards (From Easy Street). (My Big Bang.) )

Yeah, so. Now I go to respond to comments. 52ish and counting, yo.

Fic! For me! / July 23rd / 8:28 PM / / Share

fairestcat

So, back in May, I carpooled with [info]olivia_circe down to see the HCT in Chicago. And on the way down I told her all about the awesome plotbunny that had taken over my brain that I knew I'd never manage to write.

And then when, a little while ago, she asked for ficlet prompts in her lj, I said, "hey, you remember that bunny of mine..."

And she did. And she wrote it. And it's the most awesome, perfect thing EVER. Pretty much exactly what I had in my head, only better!

Every Man by [info]olivia_circe - MCR fic, PG, Basically Gen. - Girl!Gerard and the making of the Ghost of You video.

(subject) / July 23rd / 11:31 PM / / Share

aileane47

1.- http://www.panicatthedisco.es/album/index.html
These are pictures from when Panic was in Spain (July 10th), posted in a PATD Spanish page. Apparently, the festival was recorded, and the girls in charge of the web page say it's very possible it will be shown on TV, and they're talking with MTV to see if they can release it on DVD. PLEASE, PLEASE!!

Anyway, there's pics of the concert, the M&G, and the press conference. The girls got to give them some presents, too (including the flowers that they're holding in some of the pics). They're adorable!

2.- I'm watching Superman Returns. The movie is entertaining, but a bit blah. I still have an hour to go, though. And I wish they'd have picked a different actress to play Lois Lane, someone less fragile looking (and I'm not talking just about Kate Bosworth's weight, that is an issue for me, but... Keira knightley? she's way too thin too, but she's more, er, blunt. Lois Lane should be fierce, you know?)

(subject) / July 23rd / 1:25 PM / / 18 thoughts / Share

wolfshirts

 

MAKE SHIT UP.


 ETA:  This was found at in the nature exhibit at a children's museum where I was volunteering at.

(subject) / July 23rd / 1:17 PM / / 1 thought / Share

wolfshirts

So, a weird thing happened. I was listening to "You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In Prison" on my iPod and it came to the part where Bert is giggling and Gerard is talking about card games and doing pushups in drag. Except that I could only hear Bert's voice, not Gerard's. The first thing I thought of was, "Bert ate Gerard's voice!"

So I thought, someone should write an AU about a song vampire, who eat's singer's voices for energy instead of blood. Kind of like Ursula in The Little Mermaid. Bert wouldn't have to be the vampire.

let us go and make our visit. / July 22nd / 11:01 PM / Feeling / Hearing grateful / 35 thoughts / Share

leucocrystal

I lay awake last night in the hotel in Calabasas, just outside of beautiful Malibu, unable to sleep.  Too much news and excitement, nervousness and adrenaline all swirling in my veins, synapses firing mercilessly.  Ruminating quietly, alone, on the days ahead of us, and how we had all come to be here, together.

Picture this: Halloween night 2007; the hairs on the back of my neck and up my forearms had been tingling for days before with the promise of exciting news on the horizon.  There had been rumors of another film recently, popping up here and there, but did we really dare believe it this time?  It had been so long, and hope always thins with time.  But I remembered that Mulder, the questing hero who forever holds my heart, had once said to "never give up on a miracle," and I'd said, All right then, Ahab; lead on to that horizon (doesn't matter which slice of Earth the sky meets, as long as you're there).

And then BAM, the news broke like a six-year drought doused in a thunderstorm (is that you, Rain King?), the Internet exploded and I stayed up all damn night, scarcely believing my eyes and ears.  But it was true, our moment had come (again), and we were off on such a goddamn wild ride, I could barely hope to keep up.

And what a ride it's been.  Nearly eight months already, so many of us half-mad with anticipation, anxiousness, over-speculation (it's never just a nice little trip to the forest, is it?); discussing and arguing ourselves into oblivion and lapping it all up, every tidbit, with a spoon.  The ups and downs (and there have been many of both) wilder and more jarring than any rollercoaster could ever offer, all the way up until the end.  Fake news, real news, something-in-between news; photos, videos, interviews, junkets, TV spots, trailers, magazines, cards, books, DVDs... I'm sorry, did I slip back into 1998 for a moment there?  Nope; nostalgia may be thick and strong even now, but it's still 2008 and going strong, baby.  When we say "We are back!" you don't quite know what we mean until we hit you upside the head with it.



How can I possibly fully explain everything, or even anything close to that estimation, that this show means to me?  Has meant, and continues to mean; how it has shaped and molded and inspired me?  How it pushes me on, knocks me down, kicks me around, and yanks me back up again, while I soak up every minute of it?  How can someone who hasn't been there every step of the way (hell, even those who have) know what I mean, or how I feel and have felt?  They can't, but they can tell me how they feel; you can tell me how you feel.  For the sake of this record, here is what I feel.

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In 1993, I stood in the living room of my family's home, mesmerized in front of the television screen (something that rarely ever happened up to that point in my life).  I watched a man, who was immediately beautiful and intriguing to me, chase a white wolf into a dense forest and fire a gun to warn he and his fellows away from a shallow grave; saw him break down and cry, alone, in a sparsely lit church.  I didn't know what I'd seen (I was promptly yanked upstairs by my mother), nor when I'd see it again; I was a little eight-year-old girl who was late going to bed one fateful Friday night.  How could I possibly have known how much of my life would be affected by the few minutes I'd stumbled upon?

Over the years, I came to see more and more of the show; came to love and respect the actor behind that man who'd arrested my complete attention years before, came to adore and abscond with that show like a secret treasure of the ears, eyes and mind.  It heightened my vocabulary, it made me think, it made me imagine a world beyond my own, it made me believe.

See Mulder and Scully; dark coats blotting out the sky behind them, shoulder to (not quite) shoulder, in step both in their fierce loyalty and in their deep, wounded hearts.  In love first in mind; friendship and partnership stronger than anything, and above all else.  I saw pure love in all these things and more; small touches rife with meaning, long looks full of promise, and ultimately support and comraderie in their darkest hours.

JET once wrote a farewell of sorts to the series, and it made me cry the first time I read it (and still does).  This show, MY show; I so often say it, as do many of you, in such a way: "This SHOW, GAH." or words to that effect.  If you haven't seen it, haven't felt it, you just don't know.  I once walked miles, on my own, to greet an empty field, and it was one of the most personally significant moments of my life.  I watched the dying sun hit the browning grass that stretched out before me, and I knew I could never answer if someone were to ask me why I went; no one but myself.

Today I drove through Venice, saw new little beach homes being constructed in the empty spaces between half-streets.  One tiny lot housed nothing but a concrete base and three metal staircases, reaching upwards into nothing; gaping open and waiting toward the skies.  This is us, this is me, for the next 48 hours, give or take (depending on time zone, access, et cetera); waiting with our hearts open and our minds aching for that first stretch of ground to appear, to open up to our feet, and carry us on to continue our journey.

Fifteen years of my life; on and off and then forever on, and these few words are merely the tip of the iceberg, though I don't know what else to say.  These people are real because Double D and GA and countless others; the writers, directors, crew members and all made them so; so real they almost hurt to look at sometimes, that we can almost hear them speaking in the silences or lurking in the shadows, can almost smell the lingering scent of a cigarette; can wade in the sea of the vast imagination they helped create.

It's not over tomorrow, nor the day after, nor the day after that.  It just keeps on going, because, like Mulder, I want to believe.  I do believe; that truth is out there, immortal, carried on in all of us.  We are hovering on the precipice, on the edge of that staircase in the air, and the ground is fast approaching.  We all built it together, and I can't wait to walk it with you.

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Lastly, there is absolutely no forgetting all the people I have met (in person and through no more than electronic connection), who have changed my life beyond explanation.  The writers who have inspired me, who intimidate and encourage me, who lift me up even as they crush me by the weight of their talents.  Alex, Farah, Wendy, Dasha, Sarah, Jennifer, tree, Kylie, Kathy, Rana, Becky, Ericka, Julie, Allie, Mary, Lisa, Kristen, Courtney, Devon, Lid, Aly, stellar_dust, Vieh, Sandee, Perla, Tiffany, Grace, Andrea, Lissie, Naraht, Cassie, Circe, Aloysia, Tamar, Diane, Jade, Erika, Phil, Elizabeth, Penumbra, JET, Susan... so, so, SO many others who I only have handles for but don't wish to divulge, as I want this to remain as personal as possible (I can only hope you know who you are).  Late-night conversations, countless e-mails, IMS and comments; endless laughter and stubborn tears, stories created and told, parties hosted, squee and flail shared, hands held, hugs given and received, and ultimately: time spent.  I cannot thank any single one of you enough for your time and care, can only express my wishes that we continue to share more time in the future.  This show will never die, though we will, but I like to think our connections won't, either.

The most important things on The X-Files are the most important to me, and quite frankly should be to everyone: honesty, loyalty, friendship, love, courage, perserverence, faith, and of course, trust.  The knowledge that when you reach out into the dark, there will be someone there to grab hold of your hand (or at least shine a huge-ass flashlight helpfully in your face).  "Here be monsters, Scully."  "Shut up Mulder, I'm playing baseball." ♥

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Unforgivably sappy?  Pehaps.  (Okay, likely.)  Heartfelt and necessary?  Without a doubt.  If you're here with me on this one, then we believe the same thing.


I leave you with the first stanza of a wonderful poem by Dylan Thomas, which never fails to remind me of my beloved Mulder ("all scapegrace and mettle, and built like a poem"; cheers, Penumbra, please don't ever stop writing)... )

For posterity's sake, if you will.  For the record, I very nearly flocked this post.  Laugh if you must, but yes, this is something very personal.  Those who know what I mean when I say that, they're the lucky ones.


Wish me luck for tomorrow!  I am so fucking nervous I don't think I'll sleep one hour tonight.

And as we're falling down / July 22nd / 11:17 PM / Feeling / Hearing MCR - Bullets! / 20 thoughts / Share

exsequar

I just made brownies! Besides being delicious, this has the wonderful effect of making my whole apartment smell like chocolate. Mmmmmm.

Today ended up being good! I won't go into all the nerdy chemistry details, but I was having a LOT of trouble with a reaction, and I think we figured out what the problem was! One of the materials was very old and had decomposed, so it was a dark yellow liquid with crystals. I purified it into a beautiful, perfectly clear liquid, and I am so excited to use it tomorrow and see if it makes everything work. FINGERS CROSSED!

Well crap. I just saw that mcr-pics.com took down all of its HQ photoshoots. What a total bummer, I always go there when I'm making graphics. I don't bother to save them all because they're so big, but now I wish I had. Rar :( Does anyone know of a good alternative anywhere? Or does anyone have any HQ images saved from the street urchin photoshoot? The one this picture is from. I have an HQ shot of Frankie from that shoot but no HQ of Gee or anything :(

I just added three headers to my rotation! I'm super proud of this one of Greta, and I made another of Dublin at night and one of Frank and Gee the street urchins. I am most pleased :D Rotating headers are fun! I now have three headers of Gerard at three of his most radically different stages: professor!Gerard (tousled hair, coffee and a cigarette), Black Parade!Gerard (bleached blonde, heavy eyeliner), and undead!Gerard (bruised eyes, straggly black hair). I love all of them EQUALLY. ♥_♥

I also edited my journal name, subtitle, everything to be lyrics from the Hushies' Hurricane. I love that song.

Om nom nom brownies.

I also made some new icons! Frank and Jamia being dorkfaces, Frank and Gerard being dorkfaces, Frank's multicolored arm, Frank being a sexass on stage... are we sensing a trend? That makes 18 icons containing Frank. Sigh. There's also Rodney and the ORANGE FLEECE OF JOY \o/ And also Darren's precious face. Boys! <3

I should go be productive.

going about my business / July 22nd / 10:12 PM / Feeling / Hearing awakeFeeling / Hearing Joss Whedon - Slipping | Scrobbled by Last.fm / 19 thoughts / Share

drusillathemad

Work is worky. I called a Mr. Manlove today, which brought much glee. I mostly try to pretend I'm not really there and doodle Revenge-era Frank and pregnant fem!Ways in my notebook.

Watched Pride & Prejudice with Mum and Juj today, sweet as always (the Keira Knightley version) and tomorrow will be Karaoke (Revolution) Day!

I feel really boring, and I'm sorry the commentfics are taking me so long to crank out /o\ I wish I had some fun stuff to show you, but the one story I'm really working on I don't want to ~spoil before it's debut.

In other news: Bandom Dressing Room! I know I linked it before but seriously guys, if you roleplay it's a great way to blow off some steam and mess around without any commitments and if you don't, it's an awesome way to get started and try things out without expectations. Plus, I need your loooove~

And now for a different type of Wiki news / July 22nd / 9:34 PM / / 2 thoughts / Share

fairestcat

[info]damned_colonial has set up the Geek Feminism Wiki, as a resource and information center for women in all types of geek communities to come together and share and document our experiences.

From the announcement post in her lj:

I set this up in response to the Open Source Boob Project stuff a couple of months back, because I saw people talking about common experiences shared by women at SF cons which sounded a lot like some of the things I'd experienced on geeky IRC channels, and, well, I figure we all have a lot in common and might benefit from getting our experiences down in one place and having something we can refer to next time something comes up.

(subject) / July 23rd / 12:55 AM / / 12 thoughts / Share

aileane47

Dr. Horrible’s Sing Along Blog videos, on sendspace:

Act III: hxxp://www.sendspace.com/file/t3rmxl

Act II: hxxp://www.sendspace.com/file/5y0zze

Act I: hxxp://www.sendspace.com/file/5rz7ih


I've watched torchwood 2x12. May have to watch it again tomorrow, cause I was to busy "OMGWTF!"-ing (it's totally a verb) and with hearts on my eyes with all the Cpt. Jack/Ianto stuff (1983? Oh, Ianto is such a baby!!) to actually pay attention.

(subject) / July 23rd / 12:19 AM / / 2 thoughts / Share

aileane47

http://www.patdonline.com/gallery/albums/494/004.jpg

I bet you anything Brendon is the kind of person that will make a re-enactment of the "I'M THE KING OF THE WORLD!!!!!" scene in Titanic.

Dammit. Now I'm picturing Ryan as Rose, and that's just so wrong - because i don't have any image-editing software here with which to make a ridiculous manipulation!!



(I've been missing Supernatural a lot lately, and it occured to me that Jared and Jensen could get along pretty well with the PATD guys, if they are anything like the "fanon versions" of themselves. You see, the way Jared and Brendon are written is pretty similar. Jensen would be more like... Spencer?)

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