So i did attempt to get a handle on the costume thing.. found out that those Halloween stores i was gonna go get some info are not open yet, i was about to go to plan b and get some other info when reality stepped into my world again.

Got a phone call while i was out, and my moms blood pressure, which we have been given orders to keep an eye out for, spiked to around 148 and stayed there.    Spent another night in the hospital... tween watches it dropped to 128.. then down to 66 which sent them panicing the other direction.   While i was begininng to think that my mother had been a victim of some kind of accident via "CHina Syndrome"  (like maybe one or two people get this reference im aware)  in the meantime im wondering what kind of shit medicare will pull with this and if they do i may be hurting big time. I got to watch my Cowboys game from the hospital... which.. sadly is JUST not as fun. 

Good news is, shes out again, not a clue whats going on, more bloodwork to be done but her blood pressure is holding steady again. personally i think they may be taking a dartboard approach at things.  just throwing shit at it and seeing what sticks... so that puts us in the crosshairs without a friend... on one side, we gotta do SOMETHING, on the other, we got medicare saying half the shit is unneccesarry and threatening to make us face this on our own.

So we got her out tonight, i took the early shift, my dad taking the late shift.... plus getting Scotty ready for the upcoming week. Thank GOD that i can count on Scotty to do his own thing, which includes homework, bath, hanging up his own clothes... it would have been nightmarish if not.  


For fun.. i hooked up speaker wires for the surround system today.  To give you a statement of how sad that is, that meant crawling thru attic space in fiberglass. Yah well.. took my mind off things.  I get stressed out, things get done. Sigh...  i mean... hey ask Jess,  i was fine with steam cleanign a flight of stairs to take my mind off things.   Jeez.. way my life is for the cost of an airline ticket to any of your homes and the next phone call from medicare, i would probably clean out your garage...   Ha... ill be the first to admit i need to get laid BIG time! hahaha..


In truth i need a job more to bury myself into it, people seem to understand that i have to go out to "make that paycheck" and it actually seems to lessen the load on my back.. 

In the mean time, i still have two back speakers to hook up... and its looking like a good time to do that... yoikes.. sad..sad... sad.

Ok yeah.. so this may sound wierd.  But.... bear with me... I need some specifics, i OF course will look at costume rental shops in the area... so thats not the advice im looking for..   But i need.. with a MINIMAL of fuss... a Nazi uniform--SS-is better, but you know beggars cant be choosers.

this is NOT some radical political departure i am making i ASSURE you and this is strictly a costumeing thing.  

I will start using the net and phone book tomorrow, but like what im looking for is if you know someone in that kind of field- then get thier input, let them know im in the Dallas area and what would it take for a rental period if three or more days from them, or get me in touch with someone in the Dallas area.

The Upside is that the Halloween type places are going to be open real soon and im sure i can get some phone numbers of places on my own with a lil bit of work.

Back in Dallas and.....its 78 degrees?????   Woah. (for those not in the know.. thats FREEZING for early September standards for Dallas) 

So i get off the plane and YIPPY, i am printing out some paperwork and im back out the door to the medicare people. No rest for the wicked i guess.  hmm.  except im not even getting the fun of being wicked! maybe ill kick a puppy while im out or something.      After this tho.. im gonna sit down and take a hard hard look at possible Screamfest budgeting including costuming.   I think we have a brilliant idea brewing if Jason Mewes does indeed show.  Im getting him to sign a pair of Clown Shoes.

 

BRILLLLIANT!

And i was looking thru for costume ideas.. this is not Screamfest material.. but for a possible return to Dragoncon I think id be a good Walter.  I need a good "THe Dude" tho. 

Im gonna tote around a Folgers Can to complete the cast.   Actuyally if we could find a "The Jesus" that would be schweet. 

Anyway... its good to know that i can still take care of kids with the best of em, that i still have the ability to change diapers with one hand and cook supper with the other(when its NEEDED... mac an cheese being made after i cook RIBEYES???? NO soup for YOU!!!)  and still manage an attempt at major household undertakings like steam cleaning...   I didnt get the banana tree till i actually saw the saw on like my next to last day there.. which was ok as i think that was the only day it didnt rain.   Got to see "The house" and was majorly impressed so good times good times.   NOW back to reality which is waiting outside that door to rape me. Yipe.

Ok... if anyone is a wizard at working loopholes in medicade and medicare... step up and speak now.... I woulde rather slam my dick in a sliding glass door than deal with these asshats anymore.  This is why they get away with murder (literally)  Masters of working the paper tricks (im sorry you need to fill out 223-32-C and you filled out 223-32-B!!!!)  That kinda shit....

Tried to see if help was gonna be coming from anywhere else here for this for me and my dad and just got brickwalled... i was literally told once "well.. you dont understand.. you dont have expenses whats the problem?"  Uh.. well.. see if i wanted to have a LIFE... thats where the expenses occur... so then... essentially your telling me dont have a life.  FUUUUHCK you.   I havent left the HOUSE since my contract expired...
well.. i do get my lil 3-4 hours watching the cowboys game...  that should be enough according to people. feh. Whatever, im tired of fighting.  ITween me and my dad well take care of it all. We always do.  Responsibility is such a pisser.

And I get home tomorrow and have a broken computer to take care of and Then BACK to ye olde grinde of work.   I was just told i really need to find more work from home... because.. thats helpful to them.  Yep. Ill work on that for you...

Id like to see things from thier point of view... i just cant seem to get my head that far up my ass tho.  Im just not flexible enough.

I have managed to minmize the damages at the moment to this whole medical situation....   When i say minimize it means im only on the hook for 500 dollars for scripts and to begin the testing she needs.... i still could quite possibly be on the hook for another 1k, but ill blow up that bridge when i get there.   Fuck chase bank for making me jump thru hoops and incur overdraft instead of being able to transfer money via visa like every other bank who dosent have shit for brains can do but what can i do.  I hate the fact that I was not born with the ability to just go "Not my problem"  like 90 percent of the other guys out there.  They seem so much happier for it.


Welcome to sunny Florida.... SHYA!  rained almost entire time ive been here.... so no outside work, but stairs have been steam cleaned... well.. i think they are gonna need another go, but im gonna let them dry and see.  Julians been fine... only seems to hate me in diaper changes now.   as i said i got grill working on first day here so i thought id go all out and make some steaks....got some premade loaded mashed potatos (Hey, i needed a time saver) and stuff for ceasers salad.   Nobody but julian and I ate all that, so next day i pointed at fridge and said "leftover day"  And i also loaded the fridge with PLENTY of Sandwich making stuff.  (Lettuce, Tomato, Pickle, cold cuts)  If i make food and all the people eat is salad and ahem.. making macaroni and CHEESE for themselves afterwards then i think i see the first place to cut out some trouble for myself!  So... any rumors get out of me starving these kids.. they LIE!   (I have all the makings for a large batch of Chicken Ceaser Salad tonight... nobodys starving... if they dont like THAT there are leftovers from when Jess had left... all is well.



So i just got done with the stairs and if it werent for the nearby lightning, i woulda just fallen into the pool...rain and all. in fact i think ill go check that out now. 

Ok.. all is well in orlando... Jules is napping, shae did homework... twenty minutes of reading so i honestly cant think of something to keep her watching TV for now. As im a bit fuzzy headed and still a bit lagged, i relented there.

the calls i shouldnt take? 

Medicare doesnt want to foot the bill for my moms new set of problems.   They want to do some further testing because some of her blood work is giving them cause for concern.. i dont have the details but they are concerned about the functioning... or lack thereof of some of the valves around her heart.  They dont agree with the current medical plan, nor or they keen on the prescription drug plans, and are really trying to tie our hands.  without getting into all the legalese that i dont quite know.. nor would i understand, the short term deal is "You want these drugs, and this testing... you pay for it. "  They want to reevaluate with another doctor that cant even SEE her until nearly the end of October.

This is making the doctors she DID go to become quite alarmed. They feel this is damn near dangerous. yeah.

Now my parents retirement plan that SHOULD be what covers things like this, well... most of that was eaten with the unexpected expense of having to take on the role of parents again to Scotty.

So its been me, and them, splitting expenses.....why? I have one sister who has an autistic child, gets NO help from her pig of an ex husband (yes.. we have court ordered child support.... so GUESS who was in court when i came out here to orlando for NON payment) but she cant help as she is nearly swallowed by her own medical expenses.   My other sister has an autistic child, and two other kids to boot, so help there is minmal.   As the single guy, no kids...  well...  What am i supposed to do? Turning my back isnt an option. Debate fairness.. but yaknow... fairness never counts. Its not fair to my mom and dad OR scotty for that matter... some ssacrfices have to be made.

So.. the prescriptions alone... 334 dollars.  A MONTH.   Im not kidding.

The further testing?  I dont even wanna think about it.... i figure if its under 1500, its a bargain.  And... it may need to be repeated.

With that kind of stuff working in my head... ive been a bit... preoccupied. I do what i can do, and then i just kind of stomp around outside  (God damned bannana tree!!! ) just having my "THIS is just not FAIR!!!"  moments. The situation... the effect this could have on my (complete lack of) life.... and the general wallowing in "WHY me !!" moments.. (I am an enigma... i am the p rince of darkness... Nobody understands me!!!!) yah yah yah..  But.. I do it when nobodys looking so grant me that at least.

Me and my dad are still both working on trying to get out from under this problem, so im not dead in the water... but the first person that hits me with some comment like "Well try and stay positive" gets bitchslapped.... that kinda comment ranks up there with "Have a nice day" with me.

Hey ive already checked out, and got that grill working in Jess backyard and bought some stuff for a somewhat nice dinner that im fixing to cook so hey... i can  still  be pissy and productive!! 

 Ok.. in Orlando tending to the homefires here for for mutual benefit of my distraction and to do my part in keeping Dragoncon festivities going.  
 
Shit i need friends like me because in my plans i was planning on trying to work that a banana tree out in Jess back yard and now i see stairs that needed some steam cleaning....  I do wierd things on vacation to escape.. im aware of this. 

Banana tree looks to be a losing propostion on my end because i wasnt really sure of the setup here, and i am VERY worried about 1. Damaging things here... and 2. The footing around said area is--- at best... unsure.  I will attempt to see what can be done with a shovel to just try and dig underneath the entire thing, but should that fail, my honest recomendation would be to remove a few screens to get the work done with some proper power equipment... and thats outta my league. 

Other stuff? going on.. well.. bad choices always come with consequence don't they?  Its why i came out here and dont mind in the slightest manual labor.  Its goal oriented, straightforward and simple, where as people..... lets just leave it that at best they can be overly complex and at worst downright false.  I have time for neither.  

Standard disclaimers apply here, does not pertain to anyone READING this journal!   THis is not any NEW situations, just continuing fallout from things that i MUST do to protect myself from further harm... and it just sucks. That... and there is just other things that are just hanging over me, and as much as i would like to just say "Ill deal wit that later" circumstances seems to keep dumping further obstacles in my path that require me to address things MUCH faster than im actually capable of. im being rat-a-tatted with these things and my guard is TOTALLY down leaving me scrambling .... AHH well.

I hate people. I hate them. I hate them hate them hate them and i get the general idea they do not like me.  Fuck them. They can all go fornicate themselves with an iron stick.

AGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!  Ok its not even NOON and im going to get drunk..  Im going to get drunk, recover, and then begin packing for Orlando. Im going to SHOOT things if i do not do this. 

I have no sympathy for any of you feculent maggots and no more patience to pretend otherwise. Gentlemen, I wash my hand of this weirdness.

Ok so... i didnt get the job. 

I passed all screenings and the position was actually offered to me but i didnt get the job.

Apparently there is some rule written into things with Verizon that says that as i just came off a contract with Verizon, im not elgible for any kind of rehire until 1 year has passed.

Ok.. they themselves didnt even know this apparently because i INTERVIEWED with VERIZON people who SAW this information on my Resume and nothing was said.

So this job i had been wanting this whole time was apparently NEVER actually available to me.  Way to waste a good month of my time Verizon. Thanks. Appreciate that. This has been appealed up to highest levels and and they are standing firm.  See... everything was COOL until it went to HR.    Nope.. we cant talk to people that know what they are doing...we must talk with HR.

Fuckity fuck.  Ok.. well back to the drawing board....Can anyone get me on with a company that i can bypass the whole HR department?  jesus.

I ended up taking that job- pending background and drug screening... i think im all good there.  I had already told them about some "Unspecified time off in October"  and they said cool so Screamfest??   Hmm i think so!  I think i need me some costumes....  so idea pitching people.. be all about that.

Same goes for DC this time next year.... ive always said that if i go i want at least ONE costume... and thats probably been holding me back more than getting time off or money factors honestly... so....     

i have a quirk tho... i dont wanna shave... ive tried 2-3 times with no beard in the past year and it just makes me wince.. i think i look GOOFY that way.

Oh.. and i heard thru the grapevine...

Ex friend bitch.... 

getting married on sept 1st.

To the guy  that stalked her down. To the guy that beat her down. To the guy that stole her daughters laptop.  To the guy thats currently in prison for intent to distribute......... 


snkk..

SNKKKKKK

BWHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

yes im sure it will be a LOVELY prison ceremony!!!! 

Oh and im so SURE thier life will be so wonderful... what with the fact she does not want to work at all and be a happy housewife, and he when and IF he ever gets out soon will have a SERIOUS felony on his record.... Which means welcome to the 12.00 hour job if your ass is LUCKY.    And im certain that when FACED with that kind of life he would NEVER go back to his OLD enterprise... which by the way is selling the drug that makes him and her stone fucking crazy and not to mention STUPID.  Yaknow.. because they are in love n shit.

So.. one of these fine days further up down the road im gonna find out that either both of them are in prison, or shes dead at his hands. So youll have to tell me what reaction im supposed to have when i hear that kinda news.  Its sad isnt it? Pulling for prison because its the better of the 2 options?

I mean... there is stupid.. and there is this.. this is just a special kind of stupid that i cant even put a classification on.

this is like 10 steps below "Jerry Springer" guest stupid.

I feel better... MUCH better about myself now. I may be ALONE... but god damn tween alone and.... THAT??  Oh HELL no... ill take alone 100 times out of a hundred!



  

 Man.. i been busy.   

First... I got offered a job... its a little less an hour than i wanted.. 19.00 but ive been told they review every 6 months... so i told the guy i would take the weekend to think it over.  A valid point got raised to me... after October is Hiring DEATH. Trying to get a job in the holidays is nigh impossible, so I dont take this, ive got September--- which is iffy, then it will take nearly to February-March to pick back up. 

This job is cool with my trip at the end of August, and is cool with me taking off some time in October (Screamfest appears go if i take this.) 

This is a logistics job, so on my resume i will have quality assurance and logistics... all this makes me more and more attractive...  

I am leaning heavily towards taking this... 

Note.. this does not change anything for my trip to Orlando.. so.. if you skipped a few lines-- no panics! 

Now my mom...  diagnosed Congestive Heart Failure... hence the buildup of fluid in the lungs bringing on pnuemonia. YIKEs.

Shes out of the hospital and doing better... but  im being leaned on a LOT.  Sigh...  Oh well...  somewhere on the line im convinced kharma will work this out for me.  

Anyway its football season again so hey..  Its kinda sad that im looking forward to a good alchohol buzz and a preseason football game but hey.. some of yall look forward to getting into costumes when its not even Halloween so i guess we all have our small quirky "wins"

 As some may know, The Dallas Cowboys are building a new football stadium.....   While i was coming out of a Rangers game, i took a look at the Stadium being built near buy, and it HIT me like a thunderbolt.... It looked like something.


The Stadium.....  

                


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and SHUSH i liked Iron Man.... this is just my immature response to my fav guy taking some heat!

Got a call today... different contractor, same company... Verizon.   

Call Center Planning Manager. 

Jesus.   For the most part, seems like data analysys mostly...  I would really have to bone up on formulas in excel and whatnot.  ( I kind of have a basic grasp of excel, enough to navigate, not as good as I would like in the formula portion of it, but Im sure i can crash course on that.   

Its the Manager portion of it that is really throwing me...   Ill have to see what exactly they mean by manager, but Ive never gone management before, and that is kind of a scary thought.  I mean, that probably means a heap of stuff bein dropped on my shoulders and the axe is always that much closer to my neck at any time.  I mean there is always comfort in being BELOW management level. I have always been great at flying just below radar level... i mean, thats probably not GOOD in so much as you dont get noticed, but that also means that im not noticed.  Get your work in, get them what they need, i dont talk to them, they dont talk to me, they pay my bills. Its a comfortable arrangement.  

I wont have that luxury here.  Oh well...  

Plus I will either be making the exact same ammount as I was making OR upt to 2k to 4k more.  THis is good. I had a VERY good living wages before. 

The bad... its still on a contract.  They said till January.... BUT.... strong possibility i go on Fulltime with the company from there. They informed me they are tired of having to constantly fill in for this position, so i got the idea that this is more of a tryout than a contract situaiton.  They get what they want from me, they bring me on.  I fail to deliver... they can just end the contract in January and start over. 

I will know more soon, but If this is as advertised... wow...   it could mean the world to me.... i Mean for real this time, I have gotten old debts down to a manageable level with this last job, and I am happy as can be with the results... no regrets whatsoever there.  

THIS type of job, and you just dont know...... i dont talk about it... where i came from...but this really would be me climbing out of the total abyss and DOING something with myself.  This type of job, we are talking the ability to provide Scotty a good REAL home when my my parents are no longer able, and to me, that is a definition of success.  If I do NOTHING else with my life and thats all i can hang my hat on, i can be content. 

I am peeking into apartments in the area, which Im worried i might be jinxing myself... but... 

 

I wanna ask you something....    I made a statement to those that asked me about the film and i want to verify..

I will have to be vague to not spoil it for those who havent seen it.... so work with me. 

There is a scene in the movie, and im NOT giving anything away here because this scene is in the trailers and in the commercials....  It is the scene where the Joker is riding with his head outside the police car...letting the wind blow thru his hair....  And that scene is played totally silent, no music, no sound effects... nothing.

Now what i have to be vague about is that THAT scene comes right after a very climactic moment.  


I stated that i knew i was watching something "different" , something really special , because in that scene, in MY TOTALLY sold out theater, you could have heard a PIN drop.. NOT... ONE... Sound...  Nobody was eating popcorn, slurping up a softdrink... noone was talking....   It was my feeling that everyone was sitting, dumbstruck, still digesting the events that had just occurred.  The sound of 260 plus people (capcity for that theater) being totally silent was damn near eerie.    

Those of you that saw the film, was this the case in your theater?   

(Unles you had a screaming baby in the theater.... which would just suck on all levels  )

Dark Knight- 

From looking at my icon, you could probably guess my leanings, but ill go ahead and say it anyway-

Dark Knight---to me, is the undisputed BEST comic book movie made---- and second place is  nowhere close to this film. 

I find only one flaw in my book.... the Christian Bale "growly" Batman Voice needs to be done away with....  Other than that....

As i said tho, this is not a happy shiny movie.  This is hard stuff to watch--- Christopher Nolan took this to areas even darker than some of the comics.... 

Heath Ledger?   All i can say is if Anthony Hopkins won an Oscar for his portrayal of Hannibal Lecter, then this SHOULD be all sewn up for Ledger.  I cant look at the Joker the same way again without seeing Ledgers take on it. He became chaos incarnate-- no rhyme, no reason, and he acttually had me wincing at him his time on the screen because you truly could not predict what this guy would do.  Im telling you i cannot even think of a "Villian" that comes close...

Now that ive seen this film im totally conflicted on the future of the Batman franchise... the bar is set so impossibly high, I have ZERO idea on what Nolan could do to top this. I fully see any future Batman films failing to reach the heights this one made so... i dont know what to think.

This is NOT a super-hero film--- as i said, the fact that one guy is dressed as a flying mouse, and the other is a scary clown is incedental. There is a story, with twists, turns, and completely well developed characters- This is a story, and a thrill ride.

So ya.. i liked it.

Please.. please please i HAVE to find me a BLACK girlfriend.   I know this will sound horriffic, but after trying to collect an OLD debt from the bitch----- i was accused of being SICK because i was "Fucking a Nigger"  

I dont know HOW we got to that topic... but now that it was thrown out there, i HAVE to find me one.  OOOOOH.. i have to find me one.   


HELP me!! hehe....  I would love to throw a successful black woman into this bitches face to show her just how PATHETIC her and her Aryian Nation boyfriend whos in PRISON are.

Any place i can go to find me one?  

Without question, Racism is TRULY the domain of the  TRULY pathetic people.

Hey.. cant revenge be the domain of a good relationship?

I just have one question.  


Stargate My Little Pony?  

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