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Writer's Block: The Bad Habit [28 Jun 2008|01:04am] Talk about a habit that you just cannot break. View other answers Kuba ako. now en poreber. also, the habit of sleeping while reading long texts. hahaha ambadkokasindiakonagbabasangjournalsngiba.badako.badako.hahahhah. 1 comment|post comment

Writer's Block: Choose a Power [25 Jun 2008|11:04pm] If you could have the power to fly, be invisible, or teleport anywhere, which would you choose? View other answers ... Another galaxy where walking backwards is normal. post comment

iba't ibang thoughts [23 Jun 2008|10:53pm] gusto ko maging NKW. ayon sa aming cute na teacher, si Ma'am vaquer, isang Nomadic Knowledge Worker. waw. deep. gusto kong lumibot sa buong mundo at malaman ang mga bagay-bagay, at tumulong sa mga nangangailangan, in response to what I will learn. :D and. I have just been set free from hiding for years. from something I didn't own up to. But in the end, all is well, nothing was lost. Just the burden of keeping IT for myself (and with a few friends) for a long frikkin time. Thanks, Lord. hhahaha. Pwede na ko mamatay. Tapos, sana pala ay mamatay na lahat ng corrupt officials sa mundo, or anyone with power na sobrang inaabuso ito. dahil feeling sila, and they deserve to die after indirectly killing more than half of the world's population. Hindi ito activist rant. just a thought. they don't deserve to live, not even to breathe the same air we do. hahahhaha! eeeevooool!!! mejo baliw at random ito, pero botohin niyo na si Ping Lacson pag nag-candidate siya sa Presidential Elections a? para maglaho na ang majority ng mga corrupt officials dito sa pinas. At nang mag-weaken ang ating National Mafia Organization, a.k.a. Philippine government. naiinis ako sa mga batang feeling matanda na at nagsusuot na ng make up at the age of ten. they suck commercialism. hhaahahhah. i hate them, because I used to like to be one of them. then i realized, that being a DORK all my childhood was the right path. All hail the DORKS!!! Dorks are trained better psychologically and communication-wise. Before engaging into conversation, we analyze what could happen if we say this or that, to prevent humiliation (because we're too paranoid).. we also experience more hurt than most other "campus classes" (i.e. the populars, the 'leaders', the burn-outs, etc), thus making us very much used to all the 'pain and suffering' normally experienced by single men during their mid-life crisis. we're advanced in that sense. But 'hurt' and 'loneliness' being normal can also make us think that it would also be normal to other people. hahahah and also, stereotypical as it may seem, we are sort of, uhm, better in academics. So most of the dorks end up as either intellectual maniacs (scientists, pioneers, artists, etc) or big-time CEO's! (or... fucked-up suicidal philosophers) I love writing! I wish to write more, but in a less technical sense. I'm quite tired of writing too formally in my subjects. Although, working for a research firm and conducting case or investigative studies on organizational behavior, advertising techniques, and market preference will definitely be a plus point in my life. Maybe another reason for me to stop thinking suicide methods. :D I love the world, but I love myself more! <3 Ingat kayung lahat! post comment

Writer's Block: Passionate Eats [23 Jun 2008|10:51pm] What foods do you associate with romance or attraction? View other answers passe(i) , cliche(i) atbp, pero I relate chocolates with romance. hahah. post comment

[30 May 2008|06:48pm] i just realized that i have been a slave to the western line of thought - to be consumerist and to be an individualist to the extent of apathy. i hate it. I just also realized that NCR has the least culture left in the younger generations. These are all revealed at the CEGP Conference/Congress in Davao. I realized that art or any other medium, is not just used to express one's explosive magnitude of emotion, but to also help others realize that there is a problem in society. I know, it's a very petty thought, but yeah, I just realized that now, despite having drawn propaganda images for the student publication for . ugh. I also realized that I'm really an asshole in communication, so I don't deserve a degree from my current course. But yeah, too late for that now. Already an incoming fourth year shtudant. ugh. The lifestyle of today's middle class generation is so... un-Filipino, and I hate it. It's imitating America. like every other country without an economic stronghold does. The Lumad people are so-called 'indigenous people' living in the Cotabato and the Compostela Valley area. They were driven away from their ancestral lands by force by the military, because their land was rich with gold. The military, the dirty-worker of the government, 'guards' the land for foreign investors to molest and take as their own. Why won't they dig in their own country, you know, if they have IP's there, maybe they can kill them too. Is it a capitalism trend to kill people just to drive them away from lands in their possession for more than a hundred years? Then I guess it's just as rampant as the tamagochi trend back then. I hope people who have the talent in any form of art would somehow, even for just a bit, stop thinking about their self-gratification through the effective and aesthetically-pleasing expression of individualistic feelings. Start using those brains for a bigger cause. Don't let the 75% of the Philippine population (farmers, workers not yet included) get oppressed any longer. The government needs to be aware that we have to learn to stand on our own, economy-wise. ugh. so saaaaad. I know we can do it. I know that I'm no authority in economics, but i hope that by just limiting the imports we receive from richer countries, or by prioritizing Filipinos in availing our natural resources, we could somehow stabilize our 'saging' economy. ===================================== that was a random 'tibak' rant from yours truly. I really don't have any organization in mind - that was just an explosion of thoughts... maybe opinions. Yours are welcome at the comments section :D LOVE! 2 comments|post comment

apple bottoms jeans [12 May 2008|08:36pm] jean boots with the fur (with the fur!) the whole club looking at her! niweis. Sabi kasi ni ate, "100 liters of tears". Wala lang. natawa ako. sinabi niya rin dati "One Million Dollar Baby". WHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA... Tapos may nakilala akong 2nd degree cousin ko sa papa side, na mahilig pala siya sa anime, at apparently, we went to the same con two times nah. hahahaha. and we had no idea na may kamag-anak kaming naglu-lurk dun. Tapos, bukas na last day ng OJT ko. Oh love. <3 post comment

I'm a liar [25 Apr 2008|09:45pm] I realized that I can't lie verbally (the guilt and all), but hell I can frikkin lie through my actions! I've been lying my whole life. hahah.. for example, I'm supposed to be a progressive student, fighting for utilitarian causes, but I'm actually a liberal emofag. Yes, that's right. I know the issues and all. But I don't frikkin move. I can't move. I don't have the will to move. And if I move, it's because of some other capitalist country's fad. I even speak in con(y)otic English when thinking. What the hell is 'progresibo' with that? I don't even tell my close friends the truth about what's happening in our country. so now, I'm declaring that I can't make commitments with activism. I suck. I can suck bullets too. ugh. I hate it. it's too late for that. I even study frikkin Japanese? I'm still not doing stuff for the UPM centennial portfolio? I don't write articles! I haven't transcribed my assignment for Kule! Maybe I took the commitment to progressive causes as a joke. Kahit na ilang beses ako mag-e.d., parang walang nangyayari. I have the same ellitist views. What's happening? Looks like no one can smear that selfish mentality I've had in years. I am sooo. selfish. post comment

I have a... [08 Apr 2008|10:02pm] [ mood | KRAS! ] kras. on a faggity fag. joke. but i really have a kras. a KRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAS!!! AAAAAA KRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSS!! :3 weeee!!! i kras heeem! wahahahhahh! Lovely, I'm with my father and sister right now. this is a pretty rare moment. <3 ============= I know you I've walked with you once upon a dream! I know you the gleam in your eyes is so familiar agleam but i know it's true that visions are seldom what they seem!!! but if i know you! I know what you'll do! You'll love me at once, the way you did once upon a dream <3 ============== 2 comments|post comment

obsessed with [22 Mar 2008|01:44am] [ mood | 2am and still typing ] [ music | ichirin no hana - high and mighty color ] human complexity. yes, i am currently obsessed with the randomness of every human encounter (or internalization). and, the randomness of having an utterly unacceptable crush on someone. and that's a strong crush at that. and i hate it, because, like i said, it's utterly unacceptable. and being with that person makes me think about how weird my tastes are. hahah pin knows this. haha. and i hate it. i hate the fact that ... shinseki ni natta nante. there. i said it. now i ask, why? why of all situations, this? I'm really not good at english today. hahahah. I've ran out of English after comparing it with German. Oh, and yeah, i think i'm kind of obsessed in learning languages now. now, i'm learning german alongside Japanese. but i think i have to also relearn Spanish. it be an asset. From Eroica with love is also one of the best manga i've read in terms of excitement (not psychological/ philosophical issues) :D love Major Klaus! I think that's exactly why i wanted to learn German. Ich werde schlafen! :D Auf wiedersehen! :D Guten nacht! 2 comments|post comment

[14 Jan 2008|11:10pm] [ mood | ugh ] [ music | wala ] i would like to tell everyone that i'm such a wretch that i hate myself and i'm beginning to think that it would've been better if i started college at the age of 12. i wish i was a genius. hahah. i also think that it would've been better if i studied harder these past years. imagine the joy it would have brought my parents. but I'd rather be a mediocre dumb ass than be an overly-pressured topnotcher. i hate pressure. that's exactly why i don't tell my parents any clue about how i do in school - which is usually so-so. i really hate how they tend to blow things out of proportion. in the end, i didn't have a choice because I AM a mediocre dumb ass, and being a topnotcher is out of the question. It's nice to imagine one's own triumph over insecurities. post comment

what. [09 Jan 2008|11:46pm] [ mood | nodame is love. ] [ music | wala eh. ] haha. lately, i've been thinking about how boring my life has been. boring in relation to supernatural happenings and RPG-ish adventures. i have actually been thinking that maybe that's why people tend to love, because life is boring if you just live everyday without excitement. but if someone wouldn't be able to have such feelings, then he must be the busiest person in the world. even haggard college students have their craving for a little excitement in life. and frankly, i may be one of them. just watching more shoujo anime (targeted to girl audiences, usually love stories), i have suddenly realized that i also want to experience my own version of a shoujo anime. Another symptom is that i bought an obsolete copy of shoujo beat that contained a few such stories in manga format. fuuuuck. and i usually buy shounen jump. T_T could this be... what? but then again, i have sort of pledged to myself that i can't fall in love yet. YET. haha. there are so much things to be busy with. maybe i should just face them with the same overacting enthusiasm anime characters have towards cooking, baseball, and even microbes. I have never thought that being overexposed to so much excitement all my life will lead to my numbness to simple, everyday things that most people label as 'inspirational'. Life has been sucked out of me. I want superpowers. ======================================================================================= それに、自分に約束をしたんだ。ほかのだれかを愛する前に、 私の本の気持ちを はっきりに 伝えます。きっと伝えられるわよ。 でも、今やちょっと。。。まだはずかしいので ちゃんと待って。。。ね？ アマテラス様。 無事になりますように。 2 comments|post comment

Merry Christmas to all! [21 Dec 2007|09:59pm] [ mood | relief !!! ] yey! it's been a long time since i've posted anything on the net. well, lately, i've become sort of ... uhm, addicted to gaming again, this time, with the Sims (2). so there, instead of spending the first days of my christmas vacation surfing the net till morning, i ended up spending hours and hours in front of the pc, rearing virtual characters. the reason for this addiction? uh, one of the characters is sasuke. yash. anyways, i've also just finished watching lucky star. at first, i thought it was one of those uber pa-cute anime, but in the end, it was so funny, and i could almost say that it's very good. the impression it gave me is exactly the same when i watched haruhi. i think both were animated by the same staff... no wonder. that's also why we're burning a copy for the anime addict that lent us haruhi. the type of anime that i like nowadays... the one that acknowledges the eccentricity of anime culture. just like zetsubou sensei. um.. i have nothing worthy to write anyways. just thanks to everyone who made my pre-vacation days happy. omg. i have totally lost my touch with words. sorry. nothing more to expect here. but i;m really looking forward to seeing everyone on the 27th! >< hug!~ MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! post comment

Me BDAY! [23 Sep 2007|03:14am] [ mood | ah, life! :) ] [ music | nuthn ] WE HAD AN APPLE BIRTHDAY LUNCH! hahah! I bought 5 sanfo apple thingies and 2 bottles of Tropicana Twister Apple Juice. kumain kami, pero, marami pala sa ming me braces, so mejo nahirapan silang kumagat dun sa mga matitigas na parts. hahaha. malas. malas ko rin, kasi ako umubos nung halos lahat ng natirang apples. buti na lang peborit proot ko yun! ============================================================= Meanwhile, pag-uwi ko, nagsimba kami ng 7pm, tapos kumain kami sa isang singaporean resto somewhere in the fort area. hahah. kasama si mama, ate, nanay, tito arnold, moe, kels, tita tess, and kuya joseph.... tapos, naglakad-lakad kami... and i saw cosplayers in the area i asked them kung anong kino-cosplay nila. kala ko high school sila eh. they were cosplaying togainu no chi, which is, by the way, some yaoi game that i can't handle. fragile po ako, and i don't understand why girls find yaoi fun. so yun na nga, tinanong ko school nila. yung kinausap ko, tiga-CSB, so college na pala. tapos nakita ko ang isang ... vaguely familiar face. tinanong ko kung tiga-anong skul mga yun. UPD. Tinanong ko kung siya ba si... Jin Hoson? sobrang di ako sure. so parang napaka-uncertain ng tone ko. tapos siya nga. OMG. hahaha. look at who i bumped into. >< i was such an ugly fan girl then. i really looked stupid. for those who don't know anything about Jin, she just happened to be one of the more famous names in Philippine Cosplay, at least,that's what i know. My knees were shaking. i was in awe *correct me grammar!*. she looked like a kid. her face was so small. hahaha. i didn't expect it to be that small, but yeah, it was small. so, we took a picture - i was stupidly smiling amidst their serious, in-character faces. ( See my stupidity ) I had a fun time with everyone! Thanks, te kels, Moe, and tita tess for celebrating with us! > 6 comments|post comment

みんあわたしのことをわすれますように! [18 Sep 2007|01:43am] ごご、チングおねえさんとはなしました。 かみさまにシンがありますことについて。 "かみさまのことをぜんぜんきこえないひとたちには、 どういううんめいがありますか"とききました。 アフリカのじんこうはほとんどバガンとかアニミストじゃない? かみさまのことをきいてないかもしらない。 じゃ、そのトライブのひとたち、いいひとになったのに、 じごくへ? どういうせいぎなの?いままでわからねえ..。 ちょっと しぬきが もどりますわね。 ますますしにたくなるかなあ~って でもね あたしのしなんて かみさまがきめること。 かみさまには、じしんがあります。 ================================ それでいのり: かみさま、このわたしはぜんぶ あなたのものです。 ころしたければ、ころす。 もっといのちをのびたければ、いきさせて。 あなたがきめることでしょう。 ずっとまえからぜつぼうしたわ。 わたしには いきれことなんて とくべつことなんてない。 ただ いきてる。そんざいしてる。たいしたものじゃない。 Why did I write in Japanese when I'll post this publicly? Or rather, why did I bother posting it even if no one would probably understand? さあ こたえは かみさまに post comment

My entry was google-able. 0_0 [16 Sep 2007|01:13am] because the name, "Cedric Jose" is in this blog. Heck. I don't even know him. WHO IS HE ANYWAY? isn't he that pharm-turned-compsci kid? haha. and wasn't he from santa rosa? uhm. no? whattheheck. i only know him as embing (sa dinami-dami ba naman kasi ng pangalan nya.) ( I shall show you proof ) Wrong timing pa na " HAHAHAHA... PUPPY-EYED MY ASS!!! yung nakalagay dun... pak. :( HAHAHAH! Hindi pa ganon ka google-searchable si embing, kaya tutulungan ko siya i-publicize yung sarili nya. pero pramis, hindi ko siya sisiraan. PRAMIS. yung pagkakaroon ng screen name... hm... para sigurong may iba kang buhay. ano kayang feeling? hehe. post comment

found something! [14 Sep 2007|04:13pm] [ music | wla. ] Hey, Manix Abrera fans! Habang naatasan akong magresearch sa past mastheads ng mkule (Manila Collegian), nadala ko pala sa bahay yung compilation ng pkule (Philippine Collegian) na binigay ng dati nilang editor sa dati rin naming editor. AT!!! may nakita akong original Manuel Abrera comic! wahahah! di ako napakali, skinan ko. :) ( M.Abrera's College days comics ) =============================================== Other news: sasuke (na totoong tao) is officially homo. sad, but who cares! cute pa rin siya! woot! 2 comments|post comment

bloggable day 2 [23 Jul 2007|11:59pm] [ mood | hayskulayf... ] [ music | wala naman. ] today: sasuke's birthday (uchiha=papel) daniel radcliffe's birthday. GMA's SONA Taekwondo training. sasuke's birthday - inannounce ko sa klase nina chelly na birthday ni sasuke ko my labs. masaya naman sila! hindi ko sila nalibre. hahaha. pero sasuke, basta ikaw talaga... kahit ilang taon na ko nagpapantasya na maging totoong tao ka... ahuhuhuhu... daniel radcliffe's birthday - beybeh, kahit alam ko na mejo imposibleng magkakita tayu sa lifetime na to.. hahaha. nontheless, happy birthday! GMA's SONA - went there. mama found out. dengit. haha. but i love her still.. mama. hemingways, nakita ko si lia dun! huhuhu. hindi parin siya nagbabago, ke kyut at ke bait! huhuh. lia maaaaiii! nakiinom sya sa RC cola ko... haha. sana pala pinreserve ko yung laway mo.. pero me naki-inom din sa RC ko, si Marice. nauhaw siya, inubos nya. heheh. pero ok lang, kasi masaya naman ang lahat (asan ang logic?) LIA MAI! ADIK KA!!!! Taekwondo training - late. haha. kasi mga 6 na ko umalis sa batasan. haha. 300 45 kicks ang parusa. pero mas parusa pala yung training ng mga hindi late. saw chez and jeun there. masaya. hhahaha. sparring pagkatapos nun... una vs. uretz. nahirapan akooooo TT_TT... ang aggressive ni ureeehtz!!! huhuhuh. na-drive ako sa boundary a lot of times... si erika, nagka-problema sa knee!! T_T huhu. sana ok lng sya ngayun... na-kick ko si James sa ... crotch nya. shit. sorry. SORRY. SOOOOOOOOORRRRRYYYYYYYYYYY!!! huhu. kinwento ko sa nanay ko. sabi nya, "naku, nakakamatay pa naman yung ganun..." o_o shit. sana hindi mapano si James... bka mamya ma-sue ako... huhuhu. (fear conscience) tapos, nung umuwi ako sa bahay, todo kwento with tita vivian. hehe. ansayaaaa~~~ huhuhu... 3 comments|post comment

ughness [10 Jul 2007|10:30pm] haha. naiilang lang ako sa buhay. hahahahhaha. someday talaga. shet. yun lang. :D post comment

MOST BLOGGABLE DAY IN YEARS [10 Jul 2007|07:34am] [ music | eroplano sa labas ] Yesterday... * Someone got "possessed" in our library * Saw a dying person on the street * Witnessed a butterfly die at the mall * Taekwondo training killed me and new priorities emerged. very bloggable indeed. 4 comments|post comment

[08 Jul 2007|03:00pm] PLEASE SUPPORT my "secret" crush's MOVIE! It's quite late for that, though. it showed in cinemas last year, and i just found out recently. so much for stalking. nice. http://www.pinoyfilm.com/idol-pag-asa-ng-bayan-ateneo-de-manila-screening http://www.malaya.com.ph/jun05/ente_2.htm "making puppy-eyed lead actor Cedric Jose an instant star among the youth of Marikina" HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA PUPPY-EYED MY ASS! HAHAHAHAHAHHAA he's not puppy-eyed. he is not a puppy. It's hard to suddenly find out that your campus crush is an overnight crush ng bayan, specifically ng marikina. fuck. takte. lumabas pala siya sa ang tv ang walang hya. AHHAHAHAHA. dooadeeedeedeedeedum deedeedoom. hahahahaha ============================================================================================== でもたしかにわたしのことぜんぜんきずいないですねえええ。 わざとむししてるかもしらなああい。 ぜつぼうになれるわ しかも、おまえのかのじょ..。グァアアアア! あのひととスイートでいますわね? わああああああああああ! がまんできない! なんていのち! しあわせになりますように。T_T 4 comments|post comment

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