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[04 Feb 2004|08:40pm] |
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I have a lot of white noise in my head right now... thoughts are buzzing, and I can hardly concentrate on anything...
....anything... except that match.
It can't be described in words.... It can't be described at all.
And best of all.... it isn't over yet.
It's been a while.. since I'd anticipated something so intensely.
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[30 Jan 2004|07:53pm] |
I am not quite certain what to say here.
One thing is for certain, I owe.. someone.. an apology.
I wonder if I shouldn't think I am lucky only one person (other than the one I was with) witnessed me with such an... immature behavior. I think I lost sight of my goal... and it did slip from my mind in quite a short time as it was replaced by... what was it? Revenge? Anger? At this time I am unable to tell...
I will make sure that this is the first and last time something like this happens. The damage remains though.. and I am the only one who can patch it up since I, after all, caused it.
Many of you reading this may wonder what exactly I am talking about.
Well you are never going to know.
I may get more than a few questions tomorrow...
( OOC info for Hyoteians )
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| Ore-sama no UPDATE ni yoi na! |
[28 Jan 2004|11:31pm] |
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Yes, yes I am back with another entry, and things have finally shifted towards more interesting patterns!
Friday is thankfully coming soon.. One single only chance.. and I will not miss it!
Classes and practice are virtually the same... I keep thinking it is quite shame to have no tornament to look forward to..
....speaking of which... I wonder if I can beat Agassi before he retires... Of course the question is not on the 'beat Agassi' matter.. but on the 'before he retires'.....
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| Thank heavens it's saturday. |
[25 Jan 2004|12:42am] |
Rarely do I remain awake so long... For some reason I seem unable find sleep...
It may be time for me to think things through again.
And no, you don't even deserve a private entry, peasants.
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| Well well... |
[20 Jan 2004|05:34pm] |
Geology exam this morning... I actually had to put my thinking cap on, which was quite a change from the usual. I wonder if sensei created that last question especially for me... not to mention that one practical part. After all, geology is supposed to be easy... it's simply remembering characteristics, factors and.. voila. I do wonder if sensei did not humour himself by giving me pyrite. Fool's Gold. Analyse this, indeed...
Nothing noteworthy happened for the rest of the day.
Now for homework. I may get more practice in tonight. Something big will be happening tomorrow.
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| Freedom? |
[17 Jan 2004|07:16am] |
Hm... student council meeting later today. I do hope we all can be productive. It seems many draw a blank when the semester starts, and a few have trouble getting simply moving.
While I have a minute, I should probably state that this one Saeki person is really quite a number.
As far as meeting once again goes, it is absolutely not my priority.
Speaking of meetings, I find myself pondering upon what may happen wednesday. History will tell me if it was a mistake or not... but then ore-sama hardly makes any mistakes.
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| Small reflection |
[15 Jan 2004|11:40am] |
So yesterday I had a game. With none other than Rokkaku's buchou.
If any of you are saddened about missing it, I will point out that nothing incredibly great happened... I shall also point out that Rokkaku's tennis club captain is a first year.
Ah, good, the excitement died now didn't it?
I will be honest though, it was more useful and interesting than to work on math problems. I believe that any tennis match is training, as easy as it sometimes is.
For those wondering, the score was 6-4. Ore-sama does not need to tell you who won.
One last thing: That.. is really a strange racket he has.
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| Before going to bed... |
[12 Jan 2004|11:09pm] |
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I was awake for a little longer, pondering over my recent actions, feelings and decisions.
( Private Conclusion )
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[12 Jan 2004|08:28pm] |
I thought more about this.
It was weakness, after all. I don't have any weaknesses now.
It was easy to get rid of it, after all.
Moving onto other things..
Homework is out of the way... among other things.
Now for some tennis.
At least my wednesday is taken care of.
Which reminds me, Ohtori. If tomorrow evening is all right I'll come by for the chess game.
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| A few stray thoughts |
[12 Jan 2004|12:56am] |
It is strange how things can be a rollercoaster at times.
Tonight... I finally have time to settle in my chair and think, and write.
My week at school went as usual. Tests, reports, homework.. and practice. I want a tournament, somehow.... This is my bigest dissapointment about being eliminated.
I need the crowd... the cheers... I need something to make my adrenaline pump.
Maybe I could look into some upcoming tournaments and go by myself. There is bound to be a few being announced for summer.
I want to be there. On top.
Somehow, the excitement about being a buchou doesn't cut it anymore. Sitting around doesn't suit me.
Aside from tennis, I mingled momentarily in another peasant filled place yesterday. What was it again.. some dance club? It was quite noisy...
I almost forgot about the amusing event that happened on friday... Ore-sama attracts lost people? Well, I did get a tennis match out of it, which will be nice to fill my wednesday evening, I predict. A trip to Chiba is in order after dealing with class work....
Now, about that other debt.... hm... I admit at least one interesting person lies at Rokkaku besides Bane.
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| How strange... |
[05 Jan 2004|10:23pm] |
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One hour you want to get out of this life... but the next... is different.
Too bad it's private again, eh?
( For ore-sama's eyes only )
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| What is going on? |
[05 Jan 2004|06:28pm] |
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Funny how I don't understand others... or even myself sometimes.
This probably belongs to the world of privacy. Of course you can still click on it and read at will and I,ll never know. I suspect it's too easy sometimes..
I have to write this down though, in dim hope that it can alleviate some of my burden. Just because I can't seem to do it myself anymore.
( Click and suffer ore-sama's wrath )
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| Early Morning |
[03 Jan 2004|06:41am] |
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I came upon the realization that much had yet to be done before the start of the last school run. It is not that I do not think I can do it all before everything starts again, but I would like to get things out of the way and grant myself a day or two of rest. I trust those of the school council that need to contact me for buisness will do it promptly.
That, and I had forgotten the joys of home cooking.
...I think if a certain someone is reading this, he may get a laugh or two.
I have realized that most of us were dragged into this LiveJournal thing, even by different purposes and different people, since more or less 6 months. This is when it was officially started in either case.
It had its good points.. and also some bad points. It is in some sort just like a real journal. Some, like myself, keep a bit of a distance while others seem to pour their beings out. It can be a great communication, and I will not deny its use.
I do think those who assignated us to do this can be happy with the knowledge they achieved their goals... whatever they may have been.
The year has just started... and I already have quite a few things to look forward to.
By the way, Ohtori.. Do you have any day and time you would like for us to meet and play this game of chess?
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| Home Sweet Home? |
[31 Dec 2003|11:58am] |
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It did take me a while, but I finally cleared the way for the new year. It is just what I had hoped for, even if it did take me more time than I thought it would.
What it all boils down to is that I can go back home with a clearer head and more of a free mind.
Looking back on this year, I can see the many roads I walked, the many victories and all those small defeats. Despite what many may think, wether I say that i have changed or will change hardly matters at all. Whatever happens, whatever may happen in the future, I am myself.
Only myself.
This year, I have noticed I made new acquaintances, but also earned what I will call friends, because they assured me they could be designated so.
They know who they are, and for one of them, I will say that the saying 'a friend in need is a friend indeed' does apply.
Well, it now is time for me to go back home.
On this note...
Happy new year.
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| So what next? |
[27 Dec 2003|06:46am] |
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I am finally ready to go and tackle the last few things related to student council woes. Hopefully these issues can all be resolved before the year ends. If everyone that I want to talk to is available today, it may even be finalized before the end of the afternoon, but I am not putting my hopes up.
I must say that I had the strangest dream last night. I vaguely remember something about a farm, but there was snow as well as dried wheat. And then there was the issues of being paired in rooms and having tasks to do. Hm... Freud would have an interesting time with that one, no doubt. I would ponder the imagery, but I hardly have time or interest for it right now. It was simply quite strange and unusual, also somewhat noteworthy.
Ah, time for me to go now. I look forward to matters being resolved, and shall enjoy that winding path.
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| Ah, after-christmas vibes |
[26 Dec 2003|12:05pm] |
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My parents may just be in league against me.
How am I supposed to move onto my duties after being woken up with such a grand breakfast? I have to say, I rarely had the occasion to eat such tasty french toast.
The other factor that makes me want to remain behind a day or two more and act as if my duties don't exist is the fact my aunt, uncle and cousin happened to stay with us. The breakfast table has rarely been so lively.
I might have been slightly presomptuous in thinking I could be back at the dorms today.
Fine then. But tomorrow I will go back, for at least a day. I still have a few problems to solve concerning the student council, and the slight challenge of the problem as well as the implied consequences of either result simply makes me tingle. I like challenges.
I had a nice christmas.. and I find myself hoping, somehow, that everyone else did.
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| Short intermission. |
[24 Dec 2003|03:24pm] |
First of all, a very merry christmas to ore-sama.
And now that this is done, a very merry christmas to everyone else.
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| Am I spoiled? |
[23 Dec 2003|05:47pm] |
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Ah, Home sweet home! We are going to have a lst decorations check-up, but before that...
For my personal record, I will keep a tally of the gifts I have recieved so far.
If some sneaky people wish to take a peek... I suppose you can. It's not like I can check who looks and who does not.
( Christmas gifts! )
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| I'm Dreaming of a White Christmas |
[23 Dec 2003|11:57am] |
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In less than an hour, I will be home for Christmas.
Over the last few days, I have had... fun.
Yes, I had. Even if it somehow ended up in me losing a coat to muddy projectiles along with a pair of uniform pants and shoes, all were easily replaced, and what remains are memories that somehow never fail to make me feel a little happy.. and perhaps a tad childish. I am glad I did not have to explain my.. how shall I say.. improper conduct.
Thee is a saying for it, isn't it? Not seen, not caught.
I do need to make sure not to let myself slip again... even if it did had the final result of finding the perfect warm fuzzy-collared coat.
I also took this brilliant opportunity to get the tips of my hair cut into something more presentable. The ordeal had left it in a slight mess. Of course I could not present anything less than perfection to my priceless parents and extended family.
I am looking forward to the next few days. Immensely.
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