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[Thursday 21st of August 2008|11.05am] [ music | Banana Pancakes -Jack Johnson ] So, school. It started on Monday. And my school week is already over! I love it. Haha. I only have school three days a week. So it's like I get a four day weekend. It's quite lovely, I think. On Mondays and Wednesdays I have English from 10:50-12:05. And to be honest, I think it's going to end up with me being too smart for it. It's like a cross between Mrs.Alvarado's English 2 Honours class and Mr. Harpers AP English Comp. But without the intensity. :/ Boringgggg. Also on Mondays and Wednesdays I have Humanities Since the Renaissance from 1:40-2:55. The teacher is a little out there. Or, you know, a LOT out there. Meghan is in there with me, so I don't have to suffer alone haha. But we both think she talks funny. Haha. This'll probably be the most challenging class. It's all like memorization and notes and BORING. haha. On Mondays I've also got Intro To Education from 6-8:40. I knew before classes even started that it would be my favorite. Andd I was right. The great thing about people who want to teach, people who love kids: they're kids themselves. So that makes it fun. And the teacher seems really nice. On Tuesdays, I have psychology from 6-8:40. It seems kind of...dry. Like the people and the teacher seem boring. But, maybe it'll get better. And so, yeah. That's school. Not really too interesting. quack

[Tuesday 19th of August 2008|1.17pm] [ mood | content ] [ music | Break It Out --The Rocket Summer ] Well, it's been a while. A lot has happened. Stephi and Katty came. Probably the most amazing two weeks of my life. I'll try for detail as much as possible. Friday, July 25. I woke up way too early, showered, got dressed, etc. Got bagels for Colin and I. Went to the airport and just about tackled Stephi when I found her waiting for her baggage! Drove home. We went to McDonald's because we were all pretty much starving, I think. ahha. Then back to my house. We pretty much just chilled here for a while. Then at 6 we went to Ruby Tuesday with Jocelyn, Alex, and Holly. Jocelyn was hit on, as per usual. It was pretty insane. Afterwards we stood outside for a while before Alex suggested we head to Dunkin Donuts for dessert. Jocelyn had other plans, if we weren't doing something interesting. So she left. But not before putting her number on the waiter's car! ha. So the five of us went to Dunkin Donuts. Ate and had smoothies and such. Princess Alex! haha. Oh my. We stood outside for a while before deciding to head to our respective homes. Well, actually, Stephi and I went to Colin's for a little while. I think we watched food network or Jon and Kate Plus 8 or something haha. Then Stephi and I went home and probably went right to sleep. I'm fairly sure we were exhausted. Saturday, July 26. I had work from 8-4, unfortunately. So Alex came over here to pick Stephi up. They went to Christian's house and played video games and hung out and stuff, I think. When I got home, Stephi was already back. And then I'm pretty sure we just kind of hung out. I really don't remember though haha. Sunday, July 27. Shower day! haha. We showered and then we were hungry. We wanted something in between McDonald's and Ruby Tuesday. But NOBODY understood what that meant except for the two of us. I finally just asked my dad to start naming restaurants. He said something about a chinese buffet. So we were like "yeah, let's go!" We were on our way there and then I remembered that Colin got out of work soon. So we stopped by Big Lots to see if he wanted to come, and he did. So we waited for him before going. We got there and it was wayyyy yummy!!! We reallyyy enjoyed it. I forget what it's called. But it's that place by Save-A-Lot or Joe's Deli. Over there. Yeah. After that we headed over to Veronica's for game nightttt! Alex, Holly, and Christian came too. And Heather, when she got out of work. There was Guitar Hero going on, which I refuse to play. Haha. Anyone that was there for my first attempt knows why. Heather went in Veronica's room, so Veronica, Stephi, and I followed. Then. Haha. Veronica showed me this poster she got of Shia Labeouf from this magazine. And, well, I HAD to have it. So Stephi and I went to Walgreens, got the magazine and a couple of other things she needed haha. Then we were hanging out in there for a while. Alex left to bring Holly home. Jocelyn came over, when the baby shower was done. Eventually, Alex came back. It took him like two hours. Fishy, indeed. Haha. More video games. At one point, Stephi went outside to get something from the car and didn't come back. So I sent Colin after her, and he didn't come back either. So I went to check on them to find them sitting on my car. Stephi was waiting for a call. Everyone else came out to see what happened when we didn't come back. haha. THEN! Karaoke. haha. Colin did splendidly, as per usual. Everyone loves when Colin does karaoke. Then there was more video games. Veronica and I fell asleep. Especially me, I was exhausted. Haha. Eventually we all left. Colin went home and Stephi and I went to my house. And went to sleep! haha. Monday, July 28. BEACHHHH! Haha. It was me, Stephi, Jocelyn, and Veronica. A regular girls' day out. We got to the beach, laid in the sun. Had some yummy food and smoothies! mmm. haha. Probably went in the water for a little bit. Laid in the sun some more. But then there were some really big, really dark clouds. And we knew it was gonna start raining really soon. So even though we had only been there a little while, we packed up and left. We decided to stop at Coldstone first. The guy was definitely hitting on Jocelyn, but what else is new? ahha. I was a little sad because my brownie was really crunchy. Like rock hard! Bah, humbug. But then we left. We stopped at CVS because I was reallyyy thirsty. We got to looking at the used DVDs. Stephi and Veronica bought me Disturbia, as a birthday present. WOO! haha. And Stephi bought a movie, The Invisible I think it was called. And then we headed for home. And there was some serious backstreet boys blaring, and us singing and dancing. haha. There's a video or two, I believe. We got back to my house and decided to watch The Invisible. It was pretty good. Veronica kept falling asleep haha. They left, because they were tired and stuff. And so were we. And we probably wanted to shower. So I think we did. And I really don't remember anything else about this day. Haha. Tuesday, July 29. By this day, we were pretty tired and ready for a really calm day. So, luckily, we had nothing planned! I think Colin came over. I cleaned my room up a little bit. We made a little trip to Walmart for some stuff Stephi needed. I don't remember what else happened. Wednesday, July 30. Stephi and I were QUITE excited. haha. We woke up, went to Colin's. We made apple turnovers that Stephi had bought the day before at Walmart. They were pretty yummy. Andd then we left! I got gas on the way, which ended up being a fiasco haha. But, anyway. Airport. We got there a little late, but not too bad. Stephi and tackled Katty! Ahh, that's when it started to get crazy. We almost fell over, if I remember correctly. There was poking. I may have licked some people. Haha. Then we headed home! We stopped at McDonald's again for lunch. Ahh, it felt so good to all three be together again! We hung out at my house for a little while. Katty and I actually fell asleep. haha. Stephi and Colin managed to keep themselves busy by taking pictures of us. Haha. At like 6 we left for Applebee's. It was the four of us, Jocelyn, Veronica, Alex, and Holly. We were there for a little while, it was pretty uneventful. Alex and Holly left. Then we went to the park! And we did the whole little kids thing haha. Heather joined us. We played, talked, and whatnot. It was great fun! Then it got dark, so we all went to my house and hung out there for a little while. Eventually everyone went home. We had to bring Colin home. We stayed there for a little while. I think Katty and Stephi videoed a tour of Colin's house. They love his house, haha. Went home and slept! It was interesting, all three of us on my bed. haha. Thursday, July 31. Shower day! Haha. By the time we were all showered and ready it was late in the day. But, no matter. We went to Sally's and got my blue hair and stephi got some purple. haha. It was raining reallyyy hard, so we tried to wait for it to let up by going into a bunch of other stores. We told the lady in payless all about how we met and stuff. After an hour or two haha. We decided to just brave the rain and ran to my car. We went to Walmart. Stephi and Katty bought my birthday present while I wandered. We bought some fabric markers and ribbon. We couldn't find any suitable shirts though. So we went to Walgreens and did that. Then we finally headed over to Colin's. We spent the rest of the day there making our shirts for the next day! Woo. And we made muffins! Haha. Then we went home and slept, I think. Friday, August 1. Woo! We woke up and got ready and stuff. Colin came over and he drove us to Ocala. We stopped by Barnes & Noble to preorder our books then headed over to the mall for a little while. We left the mall and fell asleep in Colin's car for a while, haha. Then I think we went to Coldstone. And I was like wayyy out of it. ahaha. Then we went to Petsmart and walked around there for a while. Then we sat in the car outside Barnes & Noble for a LONG time. But it was fun. Finally, we decided to go in. Mainly because our bladders were ready to burst. haha. We sat around and read for a little while, because we are quite the book nerds. Then the fun started. We got in line to get our preorder sheet. But they didn't have it. So we had to wait before finally someone helped us. Then we made masks! For like no reason, really. haha. I left mine on a table there, because I didn't feel like carrying it around. And then we did a scavenger hunt/puzzle thing. GO TEAM BLUE! haha. we won! And got these nifty buttons. It was fun. Then Colin and I were sitting around for a while. Katty and Stephi were sitting outside. We went to find them. And then we got in line. And then they moved the line! Poo. So we kind of cut a little. We joined Morgan, Danyelle, and Katie where they were in line. They did the raffle. Katty, Morgan, and I think Stephi too were all one number off for each of the raffles! Lameeee. Haha. Colin went and sat in the car to wait for us. But we were out by 12:17! Easy peasy. Haha. Saturday, August 2. So we went to Colin's house, dropped him there. Went back to my house for pillows, pajamas, and glasses. Then back to Colin's house! Colin was already asleep when we got back. So we tried to be quiet. We made ramen before we started reading. Or for Stephi and Katty, who had been reading in the car, started reading again. Haha. I was on the couch in the living room, Stephi was on the couch in that other room, and Katty was on the chair in the living room. At like 4, I think? We decided to go to sleep for a little while. I went and laid down with Colin, Katty took my couch, and Stephi stayed where she was. At nine, we all woke up. Colin had to go to work, and we had to get back to reading! haha. We readddddddd. And ate. And then read some more! Colin got home at 5, I think. And I was almost done. I finished at like 5:30, I think. So I'm pretty sure I went up to Colin's bed and sleptttttttt. Woke up to find that those lazyheads had pretty much given up reading! haha. I think I went back to sleep. Eventually, Colin brought us home. We ate, went to sleeeep! Sunday, August 3. Shower day! And then I think we just hung around. I reallyyy don't remember. Haha. Monday, August 4. The first thing I remember is Jocelyn walking in my room and yelling at us for not being up yet haha. We hurried to get ready and stuff for Wet 'N Wild! WOO! This was EXTREMELY fun. We did the whole water rides thing. But, the best part was probably the knee boarding! We all kneeboarded. It was HARD. The first time I did it, I slipped off my board after the first turn. haha. Katty made it just a little farther than me. Jocelyn really didn't make it at all. haha. And then Stephi made it to the third turn! The second time I had the hang of it more! I would've made it all the way, I think. But Jocelyn was right in front of me, so I was reallyyyyy afraid I was gonna hit her and I let go. So we both made it to the third turn. Katty made it all the way! Stephi decided to pass on doing it again haha. But it was WAY FUN! We did some more rides. Ate some food! And did all that fun stuff. Lazy river! haha. And then Stephi and I wanted to lay down so we found some chairs and did. Katty and Jocelyn decided to do the knee-boarding, but the standing up kind! Haha. So when it was their turn, we went up there and watched them. They didn't make it...like, not more than ten feet haha. It looked hard. OH! And I sat in gum! It made me really sad. Haha. It was disgusting! More rides, and then lazy river! For like hours haha. There was a little something going on with Jocelyn and one of the lifeguards! haha. But before she could get his number, his shift changed. ahha. Then some off-duty lifeguards randomly started talking to Jocelyn, ignoring the rest of us. haha. She was offered their number. Oh my. Haha. We decided to head out, so we changed and peed and stuff. Then we went and got our pictures! We got a keychain and a 4x6 I think it was. And then Jocelyn and Katty got some keychains of a picture of the two of them. haha. We left. Went to the HUGEEE McDonald's there. More to show them than to eat. But we got like a TON of fries. Like 5 large fries. When we only ordered like two. haha. and some quesadillas. which was yummy. Then homeeeeee! I think we went right to sleep haha. Tuesday, August 5. I think we were gonna go to the beach with Jocelyn on this day. But we were tooooo tired and she couldn't go anyway. So, I think we just hung out. Our arms were wayyyyyyyyyyyy sore! Because with the kneeboarding. When you go on a turn, it loosens the rope you're holding on to. And then when you've cleared the turn, it pulls you really hard and fast and you have to pull the rope close to your chest. So, anyway, we were sore haha. Wednesday, August 6. My birthday! I think we showered. Yeah. And got ready. We went to Crystal River Mall to see Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2. It was goooood! And! The HBP trailer played! We got really excited. haha. Came back here. Colin was already here. And Jocelyn came over too. I was kicked out of my own room because they were doing something with my present. haha. So I went with Colin to buy me a cake and some icecream. Yumm. haha. I came back and we were just hanging out. My dad asked what we were doing for dinner. I suggested pizza. But he was like "Oh, that's it?" and I said, jokingly, "Well, you could pay for us all to go out to dinner." And he said okay. So we decided to go to Ruby Tuesday. Which was fun. Veryyyy silly. There are videos. Haha. Katty told the waiter it was my birthday. So I got a sundae and pretty much everyone that works there came up and wished me a happy birthday. We left. I got my presents! Woo! haha. We had cake. Hung out. It was fun! Oh, and all throughout the day...Katty kept getting up and punching me! haha. 18 times, and one pinch. bah, humbug. haha. Thursday, August 7. We went to the beach with Jocelyn! Well, after getting stephi's money from the western union in sweetbay and going to dunkin donuts. haha. But, oh my god. Best beach experience of my LIFE. We got there, Katty was SO excited. She went right in the water, as soon as she had sunblock on. She immediately found a hugeee snail! haha. So she and Stephi were searching for sealife. haha. And cool shells and stuff. Stephi and I got out of the water for a little while. But then! This is the best part. THERE WERE DOLPHINS! Like five of them! So everyone was going wayyy out to get close to them. we have videos and probably a few pictures. It was AMAZING. And then there were sting rays too. It was seriously amazing. We were wayyyyyy close to the dolphins. Eventually they were wayyyyyyyy out there. So we went back and got smoothies. We took a few pictures. Stephi and Katty let their sealife go haha. Then we decided to leave. Went back to my house. Then the first of the goodbyes happened. Stephi and Katty said goodbye to Jocelyn. it was sad to watch haha. But, yeah. Then I think we showered? Colin was here a little while but then he left. Uhmm, yeah. we might've watched tv or a movie or something. katty and stephi did some packing. We went to sleep. Friday, August 8. The most dreaded of days. We got ready and stuff. They packed everything up. We went to Cockadoodle's for breakfast. Yumm. Then back to my house, and we took a nap. Then to Colin's, then to the airport. It was hard. Really, really hard. Colin brought me back to his house and I was there until late that night. And that was it, they were gone. bah, humbug. well, I'm gonna go do something else now. since this took me almost two hours to type up. haha. And I have class in three hours and I'm still in my pj's. haha. that's all for now! quack

Writer's Block: Phobias [Thursday 24th of July 2008|9.06am] Today's question is: Do you have a remarkable phobia? Does your phobia impact your life? Bridges. I'm terrified of bridges. The best explanation I can give is this: they fall. They fall and can crush people. If you're on top, the force of crashing down to the ground would probably kill you, even if the actual chunks of bridge didn't crush you. And if you're on a bridge over water, then that's even worse! The force of the water won't let you open a door or a window. And if they don't get you out fast enough, then you're going to suffocate. And die. I wouldn't say this necessarily has a large impact on my life, but it certainly has an impact. I manage myself well enough. I've driven on bridges and over bridges. Of course, I feel the need to floor it, squeeze something as tight as I can, and basically either stop breathing or just hyperventilate. But, I mean, I do manage. quack

Writer's Block: Time Capsule [Tuesday 22nd of July 2008|5.42pm] [ music | What Are You Waiting For? - My Favorite Highway ] So, the question today is: You are allowed to place three items from your lifetime into a box that will be opened in fifty years. What do you put in, and why? Well, this one is intriguing and difficult. Haha. Let's see... 1. A picture of Katty, Stephi, and I. They are the best friends I've ever had, and the best I ever will have. Naturally, I hope we stay in touch for the rest of our lives. And I hope we're always this close, or closer. But, just in case, I want to remember them fifty years from now. No doubt it would make me get in contact with them again. Those girls have been my everything for years. Without them, I wouldn't be the same. 2. My Chuck E. Cheese hat. Fifty years from now, I'll be nearly 68. The hat would not only remind me of an amazing day, Colin's birthday party, but I think it would remind me that no matter how old I am or what's happened in my life, I'll always be a little kid at heart. 3. One of my novel attempts. Writing a book has always been a very big and important dream for me. Sixty-eight isn't too old to dream. quack

Writer's Block: Supermarket Grabfest [Sunday 20th of July 2008|11.35am] The question today is: You have three minutes to grab everything you can from a supermarket. Which items do you go for? Well, it seems obvious enough for me. I would head straight to the sour cream. Take all of that. Then over to my carbonated water and grab all the Tropical Fruit. Then I'd hit the frozen section: icecream and pierogies. And if by some miracle I still had time, I'd grab as many grapes, strawberries, and blueberries as possible. I'd be set for life. Yumm. 1 rawrs quack

Writer's Block: Awesome Openers [Monday 30th of June 2008|11.18am] [ music | Miss Sobriety - CIWWAF ] So sometimes I answer these because I read the question and something immediately comes to mind. A gripping opening line from a book. The first thing that came to mind was that of Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy. It's the only opening line of a book I can actually remember word for word. "Happy families are all alike; every unhappy family is unhappy in its own way." And, you know, it's true. Why would you want to be one of those picturesque families from those '50s sitcoms? Boring. Predictable. But being unhappy has character, it has twists and turns and the only thing predictable is the unpredictability. That is my favourite opening line from a book. My second. I had to look this up, although I knew I'd love it. "On an exceptionally hot evening early in July, a young man came out of the garret in which he lodged in S. Place and walked slowly, as though in hesitation, towards K. Bridge." The opening line to Crime and Punishment. Now, the majority of the world knows what the plot is in Crime and Punishment by Fyoder Dostoevsky. The main character murders two women. Knowing this important plot point, I think the opening line serves to juxtapose the serious nature of the crime with something so simple as walking on a hot evening in summer. Of course, the simplicity of this novel appears to fall away after this sentence. But the juxtaposition of that first sentence, which I think has a lofty feeling, really sets the scene for the ultimate crime. And a third, and final. This appeared to be a favourite in the answers, and I happen to agree. "It is a truth universally acknowledged, that a single man in possession of a good fortune, must be in want of a wife." The opening line to Jane Austen's Pride and Prejudice. Anyone who has read any of Miss Austen's novels (or even seen a movie adaption of one of them) knows that they are based principally on two things, social standing and marriage. The opening line of her most famous book so easily summarizes not only Pride and Prejudice, but every novel Jane Austen ever wrote. Her ability to write with such sincerity and composure is truly amazing. This one opening line really shows that and with ease. And now I want to go pick up my copy of the complete novels of Jane Austen. haha. Well, that's all folks. 1 rawrs quack

[Thursday 12th of June 2008|9.47pm] [ music | Colin breathing ] So, Colin is currently sleeping in my bed. Big surprise. He's not to blame though, he woke up at 4am to go to work. He needs his sleep. There's really no reason for me to update this, besides being bored. I'm almost afraid to type and wake him up. I'm sure it's not a problem though. Still, I'm trying to type softly. Ahh, shame. I have to wake him up in ten minutes anyway, because he has to call his mom. Anyway. I need to start picking up shifts, now that it's summer and I have nothing better to do. Besides, I'm in desperate need of money. So many things that need buying! It's going to be an expensive summer. Warped Tour, ciwwaf tickets, and the visit of my most lovely luna sisters are going to wipe my bank account clean. I need to give myself a little cushion for these things. Work, here I come. Blehhh. I can already tell this summer is going to fly by. Just as the past school year did. It'll be a great summer though. It has been a great summer so far, and it's only been a week! I think part of the reason it has flown by is because of Colin. Every minute I spend with him feels like a second and like eternity simultaneously. Either way, when 12 comes around, I'm unhappy and I feel like it wasn't enough. I can't wait for the following day. A good summer this is definitely going to be. Five minutes and counting until I have to wake Colin up. He really is perfect. We really are perfect for each other. I feel extremely lucky to have found such perfection so easily. Three minutes and counting. Two and counting. One and counting. That's all, folks. 1 rawrs quack

and please don't forgive me... [Tuesday 27th of May 2008|5.51pm] [ music | Wine Red --The Hush Sound ] I'm currently just sitting in my room. Taking a break from the all-too characteristic yet long forgotten breakneck reading I've been doing. It's almost weird to be doing this again. Going through a series of books that would take the normal reader at least a month to read. But I'm no normal reader. I read with such a passion that my life seems to fuse with that of my heroine, my protagonist. Maybe that's a little silly, but it's true. Going through the day at school, all the while thinking desperately of the more important things at hand, how my heroine will survive. Being this possessed reader, incapable of putting a book down, feels much like seeing a good friend after a leave of absence. It's nice. Anyway, enough about that. As I said, I'm just sitting in my room. I'm on Colin's laptop instead of my computer for the simple fact that I like feeling he's still here with me. Something I suppose his Mac somewhat makes up for. The gentle pressure and the heat on my calves only reminds me of him. But he'll be back soon enough, after work. He'll be here in four short hours. Someone has to be the breadwinner anyway. It's obviously not me, the way I've been working. Tsk on me and my laziness. I guess I'll continue to tales of Bella Swan, reading the much acclaimed Twilight series. I only have Eclipse to go. And it's good. I don't know if that surprises me or not. But I like it. That's all for now, folks. And I'm glad you in particular are reading this. Enjoy my happy tales. quack

[Tuesday 27th of May 2008|12.24am] [ music | It's In Your Blood -Lydia ] I think I'll take my chances. I wish I were stronger. quack

Writer's Block: For the Day Off... [Monday 26th of May 2008|8.03pm] So, today is Memorial Day. No school, no work, no worries. Today's question asks about my plans for today. Well, my day is almost over. So I'll tell you what's happened so far. Colin came over at about 9:15 this morning. We slept. I woke up around 11:45 and took a shower while he slept. Then my dad made us french toast. And we went back in my room. I finished reading Twilight [Stephenie Meyer] last night and was anxious to start on the sequel, New Moon. So, we took a trip down to the Library of Veronica. She was in her pajamas still, so she just handed me New Moon. As well as the third novel in the series, Eclipse. Seeing as I'll probably be done with New Moon about mid-day tomorrow, if not tonight, I thought it would be good to just go ahead and borrow it now. So, for a while, I was reading and Colin was on my computer. Each of us immersing into our own personal havens, our sections of nerd-dom. Then it was requested that we go swimming. So, we got into our bathing suits. I jumped right in. Colin just put his feet in, since he had to leave for work soon. At 4:40 Colin went to change and then left for work. I ate with my family, and it was peaceful enough. Then I retreated into my room to continue reading. This, I did until just recently when I decided to take a break. When Colin gets out of work at 9, he'll be back over here. Where he belongs, with me. And that is how I've spent my day. Uneventful, maybe. But perfect in its own little way. quack

Writer's Block: Your Theme Song [Tuesday 20th of May 2008|7.21pm] So, I am bored. And felt like updating, since I hardly ever do. Therefore I've decided to answer these little questions of the day. So, today's question. What would be my life's theme song? Well, that's a good question. There are a couple songs that I like, that I think would be fun to have as my theme song. Funkytown --Lipps Inc.; Teasing To Please --CIWWAF; Be Aggressive --Powerspace. But I don't know what song would describe my life best because there are different areas of my life. Some songs would relate to one part and others would relate to different parts. Like, for when I'm with Colin. The only song I would think of is So Much Love --The Rocket Summer. And at school it would be something slow and boring. I don't really know what. And for when I'm asleep. Either track number 7 on the third harry potter soundtrack or that one mozart (?) song that I love. And for when I'm at work. Something depressing and lonely. Something sad. Anyway, I have to go do my homework now. And then watch the American Idol finale! Woo! GOOOOOOO DAVID ARCHULETTA! :] That's all for now, folks. 1 rawrs quack

[Monday 5th of May 2008|12.49am] Colin Toney = most perfect husband. that is all. quack

maybe... [Friday 25th of April 2008|1.27am] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | Doctor -CIWWAF ] Maybe.... Maybe you're right. Maybe.... Maybe I have no idea what I'm talking about, what I'm thinking. Maybe.... Maybe I just don't know. Maybe. It may be true that I have many faults. I'm stubborn, controlling, I find joy in the oddest of things, I'm incredibly naive, and I don't think before I speak or act. There is possibly one word to describe this. I think many would describe me with this one word, beginning with the letter b. However, we won't delve into me being a 'tard. This is widely known and acknowledged. Thank you. It may be true that Colin and I spend too much time together. It may also be true that I have no idea what I'm doing, that I'm taking everything one day at a time. It may not be widely known that Colin and I truly believe that we'll be married in a few years. Well, if you didn't know this, now you do. We talk about it sometimes. And I'm not ashamed to say so, although I may have been afraid to say in the past. Maybe I don't know what I'm talking myself into. Maybe I'm just too young, too naive to even consider it. Maybe I don't know what I'm saying, what I mean, when I tell him I love him. However, I do know that I am never as happy as I am when I'm with him. I know that I feel like a part of me is missing when he's not around. I know that every stupid cliche is in effect when Colin is around. And I know that I never want this feeling to end. That's all that matters to me. It may be true that I don't hate you. Maybe I'm only saying that to seem the mature one. Maybe I'm saying that with selfish intentions. In any case, that's how I really feel. Or think I feel. You walk by, and instead of feeling an intense hatred I feel something akin to pity and remorse. I can't really say what it is I think when I see you. However, it does make me feel angry. And I wish it didn't. Why, I don't know. My lifestyle has been completely revamped. And, you know what? I'm happy. Happier than I've ever been. It's funny how something so little can change your life. In our case, it was something so simple as me being forgetful and overreacting. And then again, me having an uncontrollable temper. But, as I said, I'm happy. So maybe these things have worked out for the best. It may be true that one day we'll be mature and put our pasts behind us. Never again will we be friends, of course. But, maybe I won't feel awkward and out of place when you randomly show up. Maybe not. Maybe we'll forever continue with the immaturity that is our pointless feud. But, you know? I'm done actively contributing to the immaturity. This is the last time I'm going to talk about this. The last time I'm even going to think about it. I am done. Maybe this post is a pointless one. Maybe I forgot half of what I wanted to say. But, maybe I feel a little better now. I hate to kill the "maybe" theme. But, how about some straight up facts? Sure. Colin and I spend every possible waking moment together. I wouldn't want it any other way. My friends are amazing. I am extremely upset about the Katrina issue. And I'll continue to be so. I miss Stephi immensely. I get paid tomorrow, woo! I want to start looking for a new job. Maybe at a day care or something. I need to start really cracking on my community service. I also need to start cracking on the studying for AP tests. They're soon. I think Colin and I are going to Ocala tomorrow. Should be funn. I kind of miss Colin. Which is insanely lame of me. It's only been two hours. Ha. Overall, I am happy. And hopefully it'll stay that way. Over and out. Maybe I'll go to bed.... quack

[Thursday 3rd of April 2008|1.56am] Colin is perfect. 1 rawrs quack

burn this city tonight. [Thursday 7th of February 2008|11.34pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Counting 5-4-3-2-1 --Thursday ] So, hello. It's been five weeks since last I updated. Which is a while. In retrospect, not much has happened in the last five weeks or so. New semester at school, new classes. More boring classes. Haha. More homework. I like third and fourth blocks though. Third, I'm teacher's aide for Mr. Berry. Which means he has me do stuff for the first half hour of class and then I sit in his office and do nothing for the last hour and eat starbursts to my heart's content. Fourth block is fun because the people are interesting and the teacher lenient and oblivious. I mean, one day, for five minutes we all oogled a beetle for ten minutes and loudly exclaimed over it. Uhmm, but yeah. It's pretty fun. There's me, Ben, Justine, Lisa, Danyelle, Adam, Kelsey, Kyle, Craig, and Brittany in my immediate vicinity. Which means I usually talk to Ben and Justine. And Brittany, if she's there. and we basically goof off all block. it's fun. Uhmm, I'm president of the Spanish club! Which I think is pretty nifty. Haha. Uhhh. Homework Eats Dog and Other Woeful Tales went splendidly. We got a Superior! Which is great. I'm really proud of everyone, and of myself. It was such a great experience. I just wish we could've gone to State. But, still. That's basically all that's new. I really like the word retrospect, though. It's going to be one of my words of the day for today. Retrospect, and the other is ditty. Retrospect and ditty. Let's see, what else can I ramble about? Hmm, how about my favourite topic? That amazing boyfriend of mine. God knows I love talking about him. Haha, except I really don't know what to say about him that I wouldn't feel awkward having my mother read. Not that I care, because you know. I'm a very open person. Especially to my parents. I feel they deserve it, for all the freedom they give me. I mean, I never really realized before how much freedom I really get. But, in comparison to the meager freedom Colin gets. Well, gee whiz, oh man. I got it made. So, thank you parentals. Anyway, back to rambling about Colin. Even though I never started to because I got side tracked. Haha. Uhmm, Colin is basically amazing. Andd, apparently we're married. According to my parents anyway, who call him their son-in-law and refer to themselves as "the in-laws." Funny, I don't recall a marriage ceremony or signing any papers or anything. And, I've asked, Colin doesn't recall that either. Oh well. Maybe he should tell his parents he's married so we can spend even more time together. Becausee, yeah, I can never spend too much time with Colin. He makes me too happy. I'm lucky to have him. It's trueeee. Okay. I need to go to sleep or do some more homework or, I don't know. Do something productive. Haha. So, that's all folks. 2 rawrs quack

[Monday 31st of December 2007|12.17pm] Well, another visit has come and gone. Stephi left yesterday. But, the few days she was here were amazing. Unfortunately, she couldn't come Wednesday night. Which made me rather angry, as Kolin could tell you. Ha, yeahh. But, that's okay. Because she came early Tuesday morning. So Kolin and I went to get her at the airport in Orlando. And then we went to a couple malls. And Stephi and I learned that we're insanely bad shoppers. So we pretty much walked around and looked at stuff and didn't really buy anything. Haha. Oh, except for when we went into Hot Topic. We all got something there. Haha. So eventually we ran out of things to do in Orlando and so we left and came back to my house. Where we sat for not a very long time. haha. We brought Kolin home. Came back to my house and sat around for a little while. Then she and I went to Subway. And were there for like 2 hours because we were talking about...well, everything. Which is one of the things I miss most when I'm not with Stephi and Katty. I feel comfortable telling them anything, even when I know it's stupid. It's not hard to talk to them about everything and anything. But, anyway. Then I drove her around town for a few minutes, showed her the school. Nothing very interesting. Haha. Then we went back to my house and went to sleep, because we were exhausted. Next day, Friday. I had to work 8-4. Stephi stayed at my house; she went on the computer, slept, watched a couple movies. When I got home, we talked for like an hour before I took a quick shower. Then we rushed over to Veronica's [we were late] and piled into the mini van with Jocelyn, Heather, Mary, and Veronica. We went to Applebee's with the four of them, Vinny, and this kid Alex. It was pretty fun. Stephi said she was reminded of her friends and that she likes my friends. After dinner we all went to Veronica's house, except Vinny. We played Guitar Hero, Halo, and Dead or Alive. We learned that I am quite blonde, and do not grasp basic video game concepts. Particularly those in Guitar Hero.  But, it was fun. Despite everyone making fun of me for snorting. And not being capable of playing Guitar Hero.  Although I did fall asleep on Veronica's floor for like ten minutes, haha. I was exhausted. Finally we left though. It was funny, because I was driving in front of Alex. and so I decided to drive in the middle of the road and go like 5 mph. hahaha.  Good stuff. But, yeah, Stephi and I went home and went to sleep. Saturday we were gonna go to some thing at that kid Alex's house. But we didn't. Because, uh, yeah. We didn't want to. So instead we went to Ocala with Kolin and Tom. My driving was made fun of quite a bit, because yeahh...my driving skills are subpar. But, that's cool. We decided to go to Red Lobster. Which was awesome, because that's my favourite restaurant. And I had a couple gift cards for there. I got a 1 1/4 lb. Maine Lobster. It was wayyyy yummy. I'm fairly sure I disgusted everyone else though. Because, yeah. You order a lobster, they cook it, they bring the entire lobster out to you. So, you have to break it apart to get the meat that's inside. So, I did so. And I mayyy have played with my food just a littleeee bit. Like with the claws. Haha. And at one point I think I said "Look guys, I ripped him in half!" and at another point I said "I think I can see his brains!" Well...yeah. Kolin said he's never taking me to Red Lobster again. Ever. Haha. But, anyway, after Red Lobster. We went to the mall and did that for a while. Stephi and I were considerably better at Ocala mall than at the malls in Orlando. The boys were walking behind us, and we were like "Alright, let's go into Claire's and see if they follow us." Well, they took one look into where we were headed and I believe they went into FYE instead. Haha. But we went in there and found these amazing bags. They say "I heart my planet!" and well yeah. We bought them. haha. So we each have an I heart my planet bag. Then we met with the boys again, walking out at the same time. They decided to go into As Seen on TV. So we went into Spencer's. We found these amazing buttons in there. Stephi kind of traded some of hers out. Mine say "Drop knowledge not bombs!" and "Anything war can do, peace can do better!" and the third has peace signs on it. Stephi traded some for gay rights ones. I'm not sure which she has and which she traded. But we were happy with our find. Bought those, left Spencer's. Didn't know where the boys were. So we went into a couple other stores and didn't buy anything. Went into Bath and Body Works. And bought a bunch of stuff there. haha. Then went to find the boys, only to find that they were waiting outside Bath and Body Works and we had somehow managed to pass them. So we decided to leave the mall. And we went to Coldstone! And everyone let me pay for them, which made me quite happy. And I got me some Birthday Cake Remix. Mmm. haha. Then we went to Target and once again lost the boys. Stephi and I wandered. She bought You've Got Mail and I bought a pair of shoes. Haha. Andddd then we left Ocala. Went back to Kolin's house, Tom got all his stuff. His expensive computer stuff. And put it in my trunk. And I drove. With the computer stuff in my trunk. To Tom's house. Uhhh, yeah. I'm assuming everything is working alright, since nobody has told me otherwise. Because we definitely at one point heard a "boom!" and yeahh. From then on, I went like 5mph. haha. But, anyway, dropped Tom off at his house. And then Kolin, Stephi, and I went to see a movieee. We saw Alvin and the Chipmunks, which was wayyyy cute. And then we went to McDonald's for Stephi's food and Wendy's for me and Kolin's. And we went and sat in the parking lot at WTI for like a while as we ate. Then we went to my house, I believe, for a little while. Anddd then we brought Kolin home. Which I got in trouble for, because apparently I'm supposed to let people know when I leave the house and why I'm leaving the house. Because, yeah, I totally do that every time I leave the house. But, whatever. The fog was insane on the way there and on the way back. Stephi and I went to sleep when we got back. Then Sunday. Stephi and I woke up and went to Cockadoodle's for breakfast. I showed her the wonder that is the cheese blintz, haha. Some old guy wished me a happy birthday when I left. I'm not sure why he thought it was my birthday. But, whatever. We came back to my house and did whatever for a while. I fell asleep, haha. And then we went to Kolin's house. We were there for like ten or fifteen minutes before we had to leave for the airport. Kolin drove. We decided we don't like Tampa airport. Haha. We got to the airport, found the bathroom, and headed straight for icecream. And, before I knew it. She was gone. It's so different to be the one staying, instead of the one going home. It was weird to get into the car and not have Stephi with me. And it was weird to walk into my room and not have Stephi with me. And it was weird to go to sleep and be able to sleep in the middle of the bed again. And it was weird to wake up this morning and not have Stephi next to me. It's really weird to be all alone again. I really miss Stephi. But, to look on the bright side, summer's not that far away. Is it? quack

[Monday 24th of December 2007|9.32pm] [ music | Living In Your Letters --Danger Radio ] It is Christmas Eve. A mother sits quietly wrapping a mediocre amount of presents. A father sits nearby, watching television. A baby, asleep in his crib. He knows naught of what goodies a jolly man in a red suit is supposed to bring late in the night. A child sits watching television, anxiously awaiting the traditional tacky Christmas Eve present. The joys of the morning linger close in his mind. A teenage son is out this Christmas Eve. What he does is unknown, and most likely best kept that way. Soon he will return. And a daughter. Well, a daughter sits pensively in her room. She thinks of nothing, and of everything. Lately, said daughter has been excessively happy. She has everything she could ever need, ever want. She has ambitions and a plan. She has a dream. But mostly? Mostly she has people she cares about, people who care about her. And, for once, she wants for naught. quack

[Sunday 18th of November 2007|12.12pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | Gray Matter Game -Apathy For An Enemy ] Hmm, so life right now? Yeah, it's pretty amazing. quack

[Monday 22nd of October 2007|2.13pm] Well, everything has been going really amazing lately, which is good. I'm very happy with how things are starting to turn out. Homecoming week was great. And I dressed up all the days! I'm quite proud of myself, to be honest. And homecoming was A LOT of fun. I'm glad I went. And I obviously adore Heather, Jocelyn, Veronica, and Mary. They're rather amazing, and we all had fun. The Boys Like Girls, All Time Low, We The Kings, and the Audition concert was AMAZING. I met two of the people from All Time Low, Jack and Alex if I'm not mistaken [however I might be very mistaken]. And got both their autographs on my ATL shirt. And Morgan and I also went to the We The Kings acoustic set in the parking lot afterwards, which was beyond incredible. And I met Travis, who signed my WTK shirt. Much fun. Uhh, what else. Oh. The Academy Is..., The Rocket Summer, Armor For Sleep, and Sherwood concert. That was pretty good, until we got to TAI. Then it was AMAZING. This one guy behind me totally had his knee up my butt, but I stepped on his foot and he moved so it wasn't too bad. I tried really hard to lose my voice, but I just made it scratchy. So much for trying to get out of work the next day. But, the epitome of awesome for the night: I most definitely touched William Beckett's hand. I was the only one out of our little group to do so. Haha. Because he was singing up against the bar-thing-y. And so I reached over everyone else. And, well, yeah. Haha. It made me quite happy. I'm starting to get rather excited about winter break. You see, I'm going to Illinois and staying with katty! So I get to see Timmy and Laurenzo again! It's been over a year since I've seen them. And Stephi might come tooo!  And then I'm going to Ohio and staying with Dillon, and I can see Cassie and Mathias. And maybe Stephi again, since she lives in Ohio too haha. So, it's going to be rather fun. I'm really looking forward to it. uhmmmmmm, I can't really think of anything else to say. which is fine, because I'm the only one that ever reads this anyway. and uhh yeah. okay. that's all, folks. :] quack

[Wednesday 26th of September 2007|3.45pm] I need to get away from here. quack

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