geek 3/moderator 1 (![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} aseariel) wrote,@ 2004-11-17 09:06:00 |
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| Current mood: |  thoughtful |
| Current music: | "pretty pink ribbon"&"world of two"--cake |
/ without the pretty pink ribbon / you'd end up just like me /
| still fighting it... | ||||||
| ...even though i may hide my scars | ||||||
there's a, well, "trend" (for lack of a better word), that i've seen on lj. it involves putting up a color/bar or image (sometimes corresponding to those ribbon pins people wear--a pink one for breast cancer awareness, red for aids awareness, etc.--but sometimes a user just makes up their own). i decided, in light of a bunch of things, to learn some html and make my own.
i've been reminded a lot recently how many people i've known who've struggled with depression, suicidal thoughts (and sometimes attempts), self-mutilation, and sometimes just a general self-loathing or continuous discouragement. they're not alone. i know they're not, because i've felt the same. i also know that no one could try to help me until i told someone that i had a problem. at the same time, i didn't want to tell anyone--i felt so alone, and i was afraid people would think less of me, or that i didn't deserve help; i felt that i should be able to take care of this on my own, or any number of other things.
i was wrong. and i've gotten better. but there are still times i have to fight just to get out of bed. there are still times i don't win. and there are people i love that feel the same way. family... friends... there are a lot of things i keep to myself, and i may still hide my scars. maybe those i love will still hide theirs. but i won't pretend it doesn't happen anymore. so if you know someone who has scars, or perhaps keep a few of your own, feel free to copy the above html and put it on your livejournal, your user info, your greatestjournal, your xanga, your webpage, whatever. the link goes back to this entry. and comment. not for me. i know i'm okay, and i could drown in the grace i have been given that i know people who see my scars, and let me know i'm okay. i just want to let people know they're not alone. no one is. no one should have to feel that they are.
here's the code for the color bar and the link. it should work fine if you just copy & paste it.
<center><table width="50%" cellspacing="0" bgcolor="#999999"><tr align=center><td colspan="7"> <font size="-1" color="#ffffff"> still fighting it...</font></td></tr><tr><td width="12.50%" bgcolor="#666666"> </td><td width="12.50%" bgcolor="#444444"> </td><td width="12.50%" bgcolor="#222222"> </td><td width="25.00%" bgcolor="#000000"> </td><td width="12.50%" bgcolor="#222222"> </td><td width="12.50%" bgcolor="#444444"> </td><td width="12.50%" bgcolor="#666666"> </td></tr><tr align=center><td colspan="7"><font size="-1" color="#ffffff">...even though i may hide my scars</font></td></tr></table><a href="http://www.livejournal.com/users/a
thanks to:
annabella's html help for teaching me how to make tables
james marshall's html test bed for letting me preview my html code for free -^_^-
and
ethuil for caring and taking the time to make this (what originally inspired me):| Everyone Feels This Pain | ||||
| Show your support | ||||
χάρις ‘υμιν καί ’ειρήνη
grace to you and peace)
-g
edit: fixed an error in the html. sorry for any inconvenience.
edit2: fixed another error in the html. if the color bar looks wonky in your journal, try copying the fixed version. -_- sorry again for any inconveniance.
