College, you are a stupid-head. We're not friends anymore.
In fact, I don't think I can keep seeing you at this rate.
Consider yourself shunned next semester.

So yeah, I've been talking to people about how fucking stressed out school has been making me, and how I can't handle it, and most everyone has agreed that it would probably be best to take a break and do something different for a while. It has been established since elementary school that I'm just not cut out for schoolwork. It's about time I didn't have it hovering over my head constantly. Maybe then I can breathe and find something else to do while I decide where I want to go.

Hell, maybe I'll even be able to make enough money to travel. That'd be fucking dandy. There are so many places I have never seen and want desperately to visit. I hate the idea of being a tourist, but I think adventuring would be swell. I gotta work hard to convince myself and others that I'm up to the challenge of making my own way, though. I'm actually pretty excited about that.

Aaanyway, just had to get that bit of ranting out of my system. ^^;;

Carry on.


PS: HAY GUYZ SUP 8D

So hay guyz. 8D
Yeah, I did it again. I kinda forgot LJ existed for a while.
But no matter. I return!

Mo' drama in the family the past couple weeks. Won't get into too much detail about the actual problem (because it still hurts my brain to think about enough to explain x___x), but Charlie is in a mental hospital and isn't coming home for a while. We really have no idea when he might come back, but nobody actually wants to have him around, so it's okay. I just hope my mom holds it together through all this. I know she's been pretty close to breaking down for a while now.

So yeah, I'm fucking stressed out. It's just me and mom, and she's doing her best to cope with everything, but it's not totally working. Usually she's alright, but I guess her way of dealing with it is talking about it constantly, and that is not how I do things. As you may well know, I work things out all in my head. That works out just fine for me. It may take a while, but I eventually get to a point where I'm stable. This crap is just messing with my head, and I can't deal with it.

Agh, whatever. I need a vacation from my own family. I'm glad school's back in session, because it gives me an excuse to leave the house. .__.

When you see it, you'll shit bricks.

Hint for those not sufficiently amused or simply lacking bricks in their drawers: try reading the third most helpful review. 8D


Hell yes this deserved its own entry.


PS: Entourage, keep your January barren. There is a disaster in the works.
PPS: By disaster, I mean Gathering of Epic Proportions. Which will likely end in some kind of disaster. XD
PPPS: It would really help if you could provide a bestest date(s) for Gatheration between January 8-22. SO DOO EET.

HAPPY BURFFDAYEE, KRISNITFACE! ^__^ <3

Guh, I needz haircut. D: Right freaking now.
It's gonna be pretty drastic...hopefully I won't look like a retarded mushroom or anything. >.>
But I have to wait a couple weeks for mum's fancy shmancy stylist she insists on taking me to.
I'm pretty close to just lopping it all off myself.
THIS IS GOOD IDEA - Y/N? :D

In other news, *hack, wheeze, cough* I'm kind of horribly ill. 8D WINZ.
Have been wallowing in my own sickness since last Thursday, and have run out of excuses to avoid work and school by now.
'Least I don't have to ride my bike to work tomorrow. ^^;

Worst parts of this cold/whatever are not being able to breathe, and just smelling like a sick person. >__< Euw.
It's not like BO or anything else...it's just this general aura of unhealthiness. No matter how many times I shower, I still feel like it's haunting me.

I can't wait for my BPAL stuff to come in so I can cleanse my palate, so to speak. XD
If I'm lucky, I might even get something tomorrow. *crosses fingers for Bloody Mary*


Have a History exam on Wednesday...
Am I prepared?
O TOTES 8D
>.>
<.<
PFFFTTBBBBBPPT XDDD;

Yeah, there's potential for an awful bomb there.


The man on the TV was just saying that watermelons and turkeys are probably the largest things I will ever try to disassemble in my kitchen. o.o
He is obviously not familiar with me or my family.


This is a really boring entry, but I'm pretty exhausted from fighting this grossness off, so I totally have an excuse. It is also an excuse to skitter off now. Hopefully I'll get some rest and stop being dumb. :D


PS: I just got an e-mail that began with the word, "eleaebegesehecebegesehcmerdteaehehbudvehefokbylwwxslqjogajnqhwmdohrozgxk".
How rare. o.o


Yes/no: No
Tally: 1?
A: N/A
T: 11:43 am

SO HAY GUYS
YOU KNOW HOW HALLOWEEN IS ON WEDNESDAY
AND HOW WE ALWAYS GO TRICK-OR-TREATING IN MY NEIGHBORHOOD

THAT HAS NOT CHANGED JUST BECAUSE SOME OF US ARE IN COLLEGE

SO YOU ARE TO REPORT TO MY HOMESTEAD
ON HALLOWEEN
IN COSTUME
AT 6:30 PM

AND WE SHALL ROMP AND HARVEST TREATS FROM THE HOMES OF MY NEIGHBORS

KTHNXBYE <3

Hey, uh...scratch that whole relationship thing. XDDD;

We've been realizing we're too much alike in all the wrong ways, and it's not feasible for the relationship to last long.
So we decided to kinda call it off before any bad feelings cropped up and someone got hurt.

I really didn't see it lasting very long to begin with, but there you go.
At least I had fun. ^__^ And lordy, we work better as friends.

So yeah, thought y'all might have been curious about that one.


Also, I have not been fired from good ol' S&S, so all is well. :D
Is many good to not be worrying about that.

Now I just have to work on actually doing some school work. >.>

Yeah, that might be a good plan.


Yes/no: Yes
Tally: 1
A: N/A
T: 7:59 am

( Ganked from Shia-darling )

So let's see...what's the news around my end?

First, I'm a little nervous about my work schedule this week. I don't have any hours, but I haven't gotten a call from Terry, so I'm not sure if I've been fired. N/A wasn't written under any of the dates, so I really can't be sure until Friday. Unless I get the call. D:

Second, I uh...I'm kind of in relationship now. ^^; Kinda came out of nowhere, but it's cool. Maybe they'll help keep me out of trouble. XD And no, I'm not spilling the beans about them. Only one other person knows there's anything going on, and I want it to stay like that. No offense to anybody who's curious, but I've found that when other people know too much about my relationships, I'm spread too thin and take too much criticism/advice and everything goes to shit. So yeah, this is all on me. :3 I'll be responsible, I promise.

Third, stayed home today. I'm sort of a horrible mess of different emotions right now, and it's a volatile combination. I'm terrified of seeing or talking to anyone face-to-face, and I really don't want to leave the house. It's dumb and I know that, but I don't know what to do about it. So I'm here, humming this song and trying to make it better by thinking about good stuff. But thoughts about the future are distracting me a usual. I just have to stop that and I'll feel better. Oi, if only it were that simple.


Yes/no: No
Tally: 0, hopefully it'll stay that way
A: N/A
T: 9:47 am

I need to find someone to watch Japanese dramas with. .__. It's not as fun getting sucked in and then laughing really loud at all the wrong times without someone there to either beat you for your insolence or make really inappropriate comments. Sarah, plz to not being in New York anymore. T^T I want to forcibly subject you to Liar Game.

I don't want to enjoy this crap, but I can't stop watching it. O.O
It's a horrible trap. Make it stop. ;__;
I CAN'T LOOK AWAY
MY EYES ARE BURNING
DEAR GOD
I CAN'T LOOK AWAY

Um, so yeah. My life is kinda meaningless right now on account of me being a horrible slob-beast who does absolutely nothing but slag about on the Internet and refuse to put pants on. Gives me an excuse not to leave the house/room. 8D

I really have taken over my sister's room. >.>; I need a disaster crew to help me make my own bedroom habitable again. Considering how long it's been left to fester, mum must have phoned FEMA about it sometime last year. :3 They'll be here any day now.

...Did I just make a FEMA joke? -__- I'm so lame. Can't even blame it on fatigue, either. Got my average 4 hours of sleep in, so I'm good. Went to sleep at about 10 am this morning, got up around 2 pm. :D?


Have resolved to whack myself every time I notice myself pining for the fjords. Has not worked out so far, as it happens too often that I keep forgetting to hit myself. .__. But it's pointless shit, really. I know I don't have a chance, as they seem to see me as strictly friend material. Really sucks because for a while I thought we might have had something. Ah well, that's the past anyway. Luckily I hardly get to see them anymore on account of college, so it keeps me from doing anything stupid. Uh, hopefully.


I think if you listen to these songs enough (TOO MUCH), you start sort of absorbing the dance moves somehow, regardless of whether or not you watch the videos. Makes me angry that I can actually picture the entire routines in my head without trying. -__- Curse you, Zombies!


I'mma put four things at the bottom of my future entries as long as I remember/find it interesting. It's kind of fun to keep tack of these, if only because it's completely pointless.

Yes/no: Yes
Tally: 92
A: 2:07 pm
T: 6:43 am


PS: lawlz XD
Pure fuckin' gold.