| so long |
[Mar. 25th, 2005|05:18 pm] |
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I am not going to bother writing in this journal furthur more. Why? (1) Nobody reads it and (2) I don't feel I need it to sort out my thoughts. If anything it has blinded me from my suppression and victimization. Actually, there's no point in writing this little farewell either - but there's nothing I love better than finality. So - this journal will stay up on cyberspace just as something to amuse me for a later date, but for any other purpose it has now officially ceased to exist.
So long,
Lia |
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| Lovely |
[Mar. 5th, 2005|08:11 pm] |
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| |  chipper | ] |
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| | Bright Eyes | ] |
Well, since Nisha is the only one who reads this crap: I wrote a response to your last journal entry and I'd appreciate it if you looked at it.
Today was pretty good, although I didn't get much homework done. My day started off kind of weird - the night before I was contemplating affairs with teachers and how the instructors at my high school should be much more loose. This trail of thought stayed with me until morning where I decided that my desperation had gone too far. But it's such a temptation when you're English teacher is the only literate soul in the entire school.
When I showered I heard 5 songs in a row on the radio which I loved. Music affects an impressionable girl like me in a way such as intoxicants to the body. I felt so much happier when I got out of the shower that affairs with teachers had all but dissapeared from my silly head, to be replaced with no lust but a simply indenial happiness that is simply as good as it can get for me.
I did my animal activism for the weekend by writing a letter to J. Ho about how much her clothing line sucks because it includes fur. I also took some unwanted books to the bookstore, and I got 17 dollars as well as a Vegetarian cookbook and a Edgar Allan Poe book. It was a lot of fun for a small town girl like me.
After this I think I talked to Diana for no more than 60 minutes, and then I got to see the movie Constantine with my daddy. It was a pretty good movie actually - not the best I've seen, but it wasn't bad at all.
And now I am here dwelling on this fine piece of technology. But this computadora is also a piece of shit because I tried printing out some Peta stickers and it didn't work very well. I think I will just buy some, you can get 60 for a dollar, and the sticker paper is pretty expensive. I also want this poster from Peta but it's fairly graphic and my mum would be concerned if I got it.
Well lots of love to the world at large, I am forever your faitful disciple until I fall into either the earth or flame. |
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| Homicidal |
[Feb. 23rd, 2005|08:25 pm] |
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Today I experienced, for the first time, a real passion to do physcial harm to someone. I think what made it so frustrating was that I couldn't actually satisfy this craving. But now, at the end of the day, because events have occured since then, no such passion. It's funny how quickly things change. But I really did love that emotion while it lasted, in a way. Exploring new feelings is very enlightening. |
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| Drop it like it's HAWT!!! |
[Feb. 11th, 2005|09:00 pm] |
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| | gloomy | ] |
HiT LisT:
1. The User
2. Preppy bitch, starts with a T
3. Poser gang member, starts with a D
4. All the men I've met, all the ones I'll never meet (there are a few exceptions)
5. All the blonde R.E.S.O.P.s that take my men
BANG BANG BANG! Oh the powers of an imaginary gun.
Sorry I haven't posted in awhile! I've just been busy with my petition. SIGN IT PLEASE IF YOU HAVEN'T ALREADY!!! Or I shall add you to my hit list of doom!
I just went to a b-ball game, it sucked techie dick. Hahaha it's so much fun making fun of kalinde. Have you ever felt so ugly that you just wanted to walk around with a paper bag over your head? Welcome to my sad life. But at least I touched an emo hand... it was like I was finally touched by the grace of God... if they were such a thing.
Well I'll stop my delusions and get back to getting signatures for my petition. Oh and I sent for the Liberation CD today, I wonder when it'll come in the mail...
Toodles! *mua*I love you my adorable computadora! |
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| Me being random |
[Feb. 7th, 2005|06:06 pm] |
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| | horny | ] |
Three cheers for soft porn and chics that drink blood
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| Nuttin' |
[Feb. 7th, 2005|03:20 pm] |
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| |  contemplative | ] |
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| | Phantom of the Opera by Nightwish | ] |
Phrase of the Day: Bisexuality is just another form of optimism
Today was about as mediocre as it gets. Nothing happened really. I had to do a speech in front of the class and it sucked but considering the dude who went after me I don't think anyone noticed... he was being really weird and he kept calling the President insane. I think it's rude, the President may not be intellectual, but he's not "insane". Calling the President insane is also demeaning to those who are insane...
I looked at Anti-K's journal again and it reminded me of how lonely I truly am. Whatever, I told Nisha not to do this and I shouldn't be hypocritical... but it's so hard!!
Speaking of Nisha - she inferred that I was a vampire again today! Yay! I like being a poser vamp. 'Tis fun.
PLEASE SIGN MY PETITION!!! I made one online against Wet Seal, it looks really spiffy and I made it ALL - BY - MYSELF!!! Here's the link: http://www.petitionspot.com/petitions/wetsealfur
^ Nisha you better sign it and if you're afraid of stalkers just use your first name but you have to put an email address or it doesnt count :P |
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| BLOG!! YESH!!! |
[Feb. 5th, 2005|11:24 am] |
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| |  blah | ] |
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| | If I listened to music I think my head would split in two... | ] |
Word of the Day: coven
I'm kinda sick again... fuck it life sucks when you're sick. But other than that the last two nights were somewhat eventful - I went to a concert on Thurs. night and I actually talked to an emo guy... seriously I think that is the most emo person I have ever had a converstation with... it's kind of sad and happy at the same time.
And it's also really weird, because last year in middle school I was a dork (obviously, and I still am) and all of the skater blokes that smoked pot never even glanced at me. Well okay there were two in my homeroom that were took notice of me - one of them was just mean and made fun of me all the time and kicked me off the couch in the back of the room, and the other said I was as sexy as Britney Spears but he also made fun of me because I listened to Evanescence. Wait no there were three from my homeroom - I made out with this one guy who hung out with the skaters but he himself was really bad at skating and after we made out he told me he was gay so I wouldn't talk to him anymore.
Anyways, as I was saying I was basically a dork and guys didn't find me fanciful. But this one skater dude that I recogized from last year said hi and introduced himself at the concert last night(and obvoiusly during last year he never even took notice of me)... and it was like there was this weird ironic light shone down and I was like OMIGOD THE WHEELS HAVE TURNED!!! I mean I had never liked the guy but it was just weird that someone of a 'higher' social status was talking to me. So I felt rather perky and spunky after the concert and I actually have enough faith in myself now to believe that someday I might actually fuck some really hot emo guy. It would be even better if he had a british accent but I don't want to get my hopes up.
Last night I went to a b-ball game and it sucked but it made me realize just how intolerable and vain some of my friends are... and I'm not reffering to you Nisha ;) But yes so the past two days were days of realization and revelation.
I also made a blog last night, it's spiffy. Here's the link: http://arcoven.blogspot.com/
AND OMIGOD NISHA GUESS WHAT!?!?!?!? ANTI-K HAS A JOURNAL!!! I found it on myspace, I won't post the link but uh yeah I'll tell you how to find it later. |
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| Sunday SUCKS |
[Jan. 30th, 2005|08:08 pm] |
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| | crappy | ] |
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| | Nothing... :( | ] |
Word of the Day: Albino
Okay well I didn't do anything but homework today. YAY FOR ME!!!! And I wrote a letter to Benetton (some gay store that I'd never heard of) that used Australian wool and told them to stop using wool because it supported the abuse of sheep... it made me feel SPECIAL!!! *runs around* ME SPECIAL! ME SPECIAL!
Anywho I don't have anything to say so um here's an email chain letter from hell that I filled out:
1. What time is it? 7:57
2. Name: Lia Shrewsbury
3. Name as it appears on birth certificate: Lia Helene Shrewsbury
4. Nickname: Queen of the Damned Shrews (okay its not a nickname but a gay thing I came up with in 6th grade)
5. Number of candles on your last birthday cake: 13
7: Pets: 2 cats, 1 dog
8:Natural Hair color: light brown
9. Body Piercing: NONE
10. Eye color: brown/hazel
11. How much do you love your job on a Scale 1-10: Don't have one
12. Birth Place: Ashland-fucking-Oregon
13. Been to Africa? Nope
14. Been toilet papering? Nope
15. Loved something so much you have cried? YES!
16 Ever been in a car accident? I don't remember...
17 Favorite day of the week: Thurday. No... Saturday. AHHH I DON'T KNOW!!!
18. Favorite word or phrase: "Better a witty fool than a foolish wit" - William Shakespeare
19. Favorite Restauraunt: Jade Dragon
20. Favorite flower: A black rose, if such a thing existed
21. Favorite sport to play: I HATE SPORTS!!! AHHH THEY SHOULD BURN IN HELL!!!!
22. Favorite drink: Pepsi!!! WHOO GO BRITNEY!!!
23. Favorite Ice Cream: Like cookie dough or something like that
24. Favorite fast food restaurant: FAST FOOD IS THE DEVIL but okay maybe like Wendy's or Jack in the Box
25. What color is your bedroom carpet? Yellow... burgundy... god I dont know
26. How many times did you fail your driver's test: Haven't taken it yet
27. Which store would you choose to max out your
credit card: ENGLAND!!!! In London, probably. Or maybe in Paris because then I could buy cool clothes... NO LIA DONT BREAK DOWN YOU KNOW YOU WANT THOSE BRITISH MEN sorry I'm talking to myself again
28. What do you do when you're bored? Cut myself. HAHA FOOLED YA. Uh yeah I listen to music or get on the computer or punch my brother
29. Most annoying thing people ask/tell me: "You're really quiet, you should talk more" OMIGOD EVERYTIME SOMEONE SAYS THAT I WANNA PUT TWO SHOTS TO THE BACK OF THEIR HEAD!!! (hehe I love quoting my chemical romance)
30. Who will respond to this e-mail the quickest? Well I'm only sending it to like 2 ppl
31. Who is the person you sent this to that is least likely to respond: ME!! hehe
32. Favorite TV shows: Daily Show w/ Jon Stewart, The O.C., Point Plesant, and the Top 20 Rock Countdown
33. Last person you went out to dinner with: My family hahaha is that sad or what
34. Ford or Chevy: DUDE... I DONT OWN A CAR!!! Stop rubbing it in.
35. Time you finished this e-mail: 8:07 |
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| Alone |
[Jan. 29th, 2005|09:13 am] |
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Word of the Day: incest
I have a lot of homework this weekend so I don't think I'll be doing anything worth posting in my journal. But I'll try posting again Sunday so I don't feel guilty.
I wanted to go see Phantom of the Opera but now I feel like staying home all weekend... I have so much homework I can't waste two precious hours to see a movie. But of course I don't mind wasting two hours on the computer, but you know how it goes.
Yesterday I went to a concert. I was so tired at the end I thought I was going to collapse and die. I hate being half-sick. And when the really good band comes up I had to leave. But then when I went to sleep, you see, I dreamt that I saw them perform. So then when I woke up I was all happy and the concert didn't seem so bad after all. It might've not have been worth the $10, but whatever. There were too many weird old people performing. And then other old people that were really, really drunk were scattered all over. Sometimes I wish everyone over 40 was shot. It would be doing them a favor, really. And I wouldn't mind at all when I came to my own forty years of age. It's a win-win. |
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| FUCK YOU |
[Jan. 28th, 2005|06:00 pm] |
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| | Nuttin' | ] |
Word of the day: Lucifer
No one has posted any comments on my last couple of posts, and it peeves me. FUCK YOU STUPID PEOPLE YOU DON'T COMMENT ON MY POSTS. :D <--- happy face!
I'm going to a concert tonight, and I have a bad feeling about it. These horrid scenarios keep repeating in my head - like that everyone's going to be really old and I'm just going to be like a little young'n that they all look down upon. What I would give to skip the next five years and then spend five years being 19. That is a beautiful age.
Today was mediocre. Nisha was Nisha, Kalinde was Kalinde, and Barleen was his BASTARD SELF. God I don't understand him at all! He just goes up to me and Nisha and makes awkward small talk. I want to believe that he fancies me or something but then I go home and see my ugly face and I'm like "uh... nevermind".
Also Diana told me a few things the other night and I've tried to keep them out of my head but it's killing me. And besides WHY WOULD YOU ASK ADVICE FROM SOMEONE WHO HASN'T DONE WHAT YOU WANT ADVICE ABOUT? God, people. Where's yo' head at?
That's all I think... yeah... except I have a shit load of homework and that's why I didn't post a journal entry yesterday. But I still love you my wittle computer! *huggles* |
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| Staying home |
[Jan. 26th, 2005|12:03 pm] |
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| |  sick | ] |
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| | Helena by My Chemical Romance | ] |
WORD OF THE DAY: libido
Eh... I'm staying home from school today. And, for the record, I'm not taking the day off for mental health. I woke up to a sour throat and when I got in the shower I got extemely light-headed and I thought I was going to faint. My temperatue was 101, and this is the first time I've had a fever in at least two years.
I think I got it from the concert, because I didn't even leave the house Monday, and I don't think you can develop a cold overnight. So perhaps my feeling of dirtiness and being tainted by the concert wasn't only in my head but also in the rest of my body because I was infected with germs.
Thats all I got to say for now... I feel pretty good at the moment actually and I was going to go back to school at lunch but I didn't want to risk it and get sicker and miss tomorrow as well. |
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[Jan. 25th, 2005|09:39 pm] |
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| | crushed | ] |
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| | Last Summer by Lost Prophets | ] |
WORD(s) OF THE DAY: incinerate & paramour
GOD DAMN IT I HEARD THIS SONG BY THE LOST PROPHETS IN THE MORNING AND IT'S BEEN STUCK IN MY HEAD ALL FUCKING DAY!!! I don't even like them that much... ah well.
I feel really suicidal... well not suicidal but... I don't know humilated? It's weird like someone says the smallest thing and I can't stop thinking about it... I'm really too sensitive. I wish I would grow up... but god it's so fucking hard... ughhhh. Nevermind I'm ranting and I doubt anyone will have the slightest clue as to what I'm talking about so I'll just shut up right now.
Well today wasn't as bad as I thought, I thought P.E. would slaughter me. It might in the future but at least it didn't today. In art I was a loner but that's okay. People are kinda used to it now... I mean me being a mute and such...
I went to a basketball game and it was boring as fuck. I got orange soda and a donut at Safeway and the sweets have gone to my head... sugar always make me depressed...
Whatever. I'll be good in the morning, and perhaps the rest of the day tomorrow if no one says an ill remark. Like that'll ever happen... ah I think I'm going to go read my dear Q.O.T.D. book. It cheers me up. |
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| HAIL THE DARK LORD!!! |
[Jan. 23rd, 2005|09:48 pm] |
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| | Damned | ] |
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| | Closer by Nine Inch Nails (I just like the vulgarity) | ] |
Today was rather boring, but I did do some worthwhile things:
I called the manager of Wet Seal. She said that they no longer have fur in the store and it was only for the holiday season. DAMN IT!!! Now I'll have to find something else to protest until next holiday season. Fuck fuck fuck... oh well it was still brave of me to call her and I am very proud of my pathetic self.
I started reading The Vampire Lestat again... I haven't been able to since x-mas break because of finals. I miss my vampires! It's so pretty how she has these men love each other, and I had no idea homosexuality could be so BEAUTIFUL. Anne Rice is so poetic!
I went to a concert tonight with She-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named, and it was really cool until they started like worshipping god. Stupid... religious... peoples. I really don't have anything against religion, it's just when I'm confronted with it I get defensive and angry. But like I was saying the music was pretty good and I actually LOVED the moshing, unlike She-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named. But then again she's smaller than I :)
Now I really wanna go to like some Satanic death metal concert so I can cleanse my self of Christianity. I swear on my soul, everytime they said Jesus I just wanted to run around the place screaming "WORSHIP SATAN!!!!". If I wasn't so fucking shy and if those nazi gangstas weren't there I so would've.
Too bad there's no death metal/goth music around here really... or at least if there is any locally I haven't heard of it. Ah well. |
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| I failed miserably |
[Jan. 22nd, 2005|07:26 pm] |
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| |  devious | ] |
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| | Vampires Will Never Hurt You by My Chemical Romance | ] |
I didn't really tape my little posters all over the mall like I wanted to, partly because I was stuck with Nisha's mom, and I'm not sure if she'd approve of me disrespecting public proprety. But I did tape at least ONE up in a bathroom stall which was all I promised myself to do. I might try to call the manager of Wet Seal but now I'm scared, I might just type up a nice letter and send it by snail mail to Wet Seal so I don't actually have to voice my opinion. I'm am very timid and shy and pathetic.
On the bright side, I got emo glasses and a really dumb dress at the mall today. Wait a minute, THERE IS NO BRIGHTSIDE! *sigh* I think I'm going to end up wearing the dress my mom got at Ross. It's actually really pretty despite the poofy part.
AND I HATE BEING VAIN but this dude at Hot Topic gave me $10.50 in change when he was supposed to give me $10.01. I know he was probably just spacing and not hitting on me but you know what IT'S ALL I'VE GOT SO LEAVE ME ALONE.
I'm pretty sure that's all I have to say. I'm really tired so please forgive me if I forgot something. Oh wait one last thing.... WHOOO WORSHIP SATAN!!!!!!!!!!
P.S. I actually don't believe in the Devil, it's just the right-wing Christians are pissing me off and it's pushing me to my athiest limits |
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| Wet Seal MUST DIE |
[Jan. 21st, 2005|08:57 pm] |
Wow my first entry...
Okay, so here was my day: Awoken by my mother, get dressed for hair appointment, have time before hair appointment so I check my email, get an email from Peta2 asking me to confront my local Wet Seal manager about using rabbit fur for their clothing, deleted email, get my hair dyed brown, come back home, attempt a nap, diana calls, I also talk to nisha on the phone, attempt another nap, end up trying on my winter formal dress on again to make sure I can dance in it, eat dinner, take a nap, end up being restless, come downstairs and get one the computer, play halo, get bored of halo and watch Jon Stewart, get back on computer after TV bores me, decide to visit peta2.com, decide to print out leaflets against wet seal, WILL TAPE UP AT MALL TOMORROW, maybe call manager as well, yes I am desperate for something to do. |
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