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hahaha! 13 weeks! I'm an ace blogger!
It's funny how time flies when you're having fun... or bored as it may be in my case. I've reached on of those points where my life has taken on a tedium that I really can't be bothered getting out of bed for. so I though I would isolate the components of my life to figure out what the problem may be.
Tom
nope- definitely not the problem. In fact, I would say he's one of the primary reasons I do get out of bed every morning. It's pretty amazing- I remember my mum telling me that you feel it inside when you meet the one. It just feels easy, stress free and never an effort. As much as it irks me when he gets all vague and loses things, it is just all over cute and loveable and really it makes me laugh more than it annoys me :) Aah yes. I am stupid in love... and I get a man who can make sails for our boat for cost price! bonus! Considering he does it for a living maybe it isn't that amazing.... moving right along, a picture!
Sailing
Sailing is fun. Sailing is also annoying. It's annoying to sail with people who don't listen to you and make stupid decisions. It's also annoying to sit around for hours in the middle of the harbour completely busting to go to the toilet (becuase you helped the boys drink all the beer) with not a lick of wind to be seen anywhere. However, the feeling of when the wind does kick in, and you put up a kite and fly down the harbour in a 28 foot boat overtaking 50 foot maxi's, knowing that one of natures greatest forces is what is powering you would have to be the most incredible thing ever. full stop. Ok, so sailing is great :)
mama and papa and little michi
I just had to make a not about what mum and dad did the other week for us. Tom and I were moving our little boat to it's new home in mosman, and mum and dad wanted to come down to have a squiz at our first sail in it (not that that happened- we ran out of time!). So they drove down to Mosman, helped us carry the boat about a km and brought us a picnic! Champagne to wet the boat and a freshly baked chocolate cake that was still warm! So we sat on the wharf watching the rich people go past on their lovely big boats and surveying the most beautiful city in the world! Little michi is just not so little- he's the raddest little (21 year old) brother ever :)
Work
What do you know! the culprit! I did actually know this all along but I just wanted to give credit to the things in my life that make me happy! Work is boring. I'm working on a major project that I'm really enjoying, but the little bits in between are so tedious that they make me want to throw things. BIG things. I'm over writing current awareness on Torts. I'm over writing about the legal industry. I'm over working with people who seem to need to find something the complain about and can never make a point in one sentence! I'm over doing work for lawyers who just don't give a crap. So I'm being proactive and looking for something else. Anyone need a researcher/ librarian/ knowledge manager? better still, anyone want to pay me to do nothing?
Right, so I've established that the days I go sailing are great. The days I go to work are not. My boyfriend is the best thing ever. I love my family very much.
The end
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| The Business |
[16 May 2007|09:05am] |
As off Sunday, "The Business" is coming first in the "Sports Boat" division.
Pretty good for a bunch of people who have no idea, sailing on a boat that is super fast and that no one else in Australia has dared to race here huh?!
[actually, I have no idea what I'm doing, most other people on the boat have a fairly good idea whats going on ;)]
I think its also worth mentioning that the boat is made in trinidad, and our 40 year old eligable bachelor owner/skipper likes to do fancy dancing.
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| My new home!! |
[10 May 2007|03:32pm] |
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( clicky here for pics )
big, 2 beds, 2 baths, under cover security parking.
moving in just over a week!!!
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| Happy Admin day!! |
[02 May 2007|09:59am] |
So, I don't actually work in an admin role, but our firm likes to lump all support staff as admin. I don't really like being classified as admin, but hey- when I get this on my desk in the morning:
a big lump of rocky road
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in a nice white china bowl all wrapped up in celephane. Also get afternoon tea :)
so, yay admin day!!
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[16 Apr 2007|10:51am] |
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I finally got around to uploading my photos from our fast and furious stint on the Gold Coast a couple of weeks ago.
I came to a couple of conclusions- ( clicky here (image heavy!!) )
5 Crazy days in the sun with Lockie, Dad, Sherryn and other assorted crew members provided me with more laughs that I can remember having in years. Special mention goes to matty and the seedy stripper who lap danced for you- I haven't laughed till I cried in a very very long time!
Today I feel like I might actually be ok.
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[05 Apr 2007|08:48am] |
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It feels like every couple of months I hit this same point again, and post about it in here again.
Last night I had one of my classic breakdowns- over everything- the bottom of the barrel had been scraped and there was nothing left to give for myself or for anyone I love.
There has been a lot going on in my house recently, and as always, I seem to take it all on board as my own problems- I just can't help it. I should probably start from the beginning.
My Dad reached a major achievement last week by completeing his first open water sailing race. I was at the finish in Southport and was met by a very very weathered and beaten crew, who explained to me that the weather and seas were worse than in any Sydney to Hobart they had sailed. What a race for my poor papa to be christened with. Since then he has been pretty down. Everyone is so proud of him, and has continually told him so. He the picture of what sailors with disabilities is all about, yet this race showed him he wasn't able to do everything he had hoped he was able to do after his operation.
On top of that, mum is in Europe at the moment, so where we would generally share the "job" of trying to uplift dad, its all feeling pretty lonely. It's just shitty, I don't know how to deal with it properly- I know he's depressed, and I'm doing everything I can to care for him, so that nothing else can bring him down, but I feel like I'm even struggling with that. I honestly have so much apprciation for everything my mum does, but now I have even more. The house is a mess- its dirty. The dog hasn't been on nearly as many walks as he should have been and the fridge is full of rotting vegetables that I don't even have the time to consider cooking.
It feels so self centered writing all this now, but I seriously have reached the bottom. I don't mind being there and helping everyone, but sometimes I need to be looked after too.
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[06 Mar 2007|11:12am] |
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Results say: that my boobies are all good :)
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[19 Feb 2007|04:10pm] |
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Free ticket to Snow Patrol tonight at the Hordern.
Working tomorrow night on the charter boat for the Queen Mary, Queen Elizabeth boat event
and I'm tired already.
But it will be fun- yay!!!
Edit: AND I want to go to the Fall Out Boy concert at the Hordern on the 8th march, but I don't think anyone will go with me. Yes I am Emo.
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[31 Jan 2007|01:24pm] |
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People who always eat from the biscuit/lolly jar, but never contribute anything themselves make me very very angry.
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| The view from our villa in Italy |
[30 Oct 2006|03:49pm] |
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In other news, I am no longer unemployed! woo!
Have interviewed for one job since my return, and have landed it! Pretty happy with those statistics, and the package they're offering isn't too shabby either :) Start date is on Monday, which is pretty much what I had planned for! Happy Happy. My new job is Intranet and Content Librarian in the Minter Ellisons Know-How team. I'm so techy, or will be... maybe..
Adam's back in just over two weeks
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[26 Oct 2006|05:36pm] |
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my love for sailing has become all consuming these last few weeks- All I can think about is being back on the water, seeing Sydney from the best possible angle. leisure sailing on sundays and twilight racing on wednesday nights.
the object of my affection is Kaz (now actually known as NRMA due to a sponsor change!) and is owned by my dad's crew 'Sailors with disABILITIES'. Not all of them are disabled, but all of them are able sailors despite some of them lacking of limbs or senses. They inspire me, and the work that they do with disabled people and their carers is so great.
Bringing joy to someone elses life whilst doing what you love has got to be the coolest thing in the world.
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| I am home. |
[13 Oct 2006|07:37pm] |
so far I have:
had dinner with my family
given present to my family
slept in my own bed with a little lovely dog at my feet
scored a job interview at Minter Ellison
gone shopping
made phonecalls to 4 of the most important people in my life
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Chinese Laundry tomorrow night- will be there from 8pm. Be there or be square.
I'm pretty jet lagged, but slept 10 hours last night so it isn't that bad.
Despite my boy being on the other side of the world, I am loving being home.
Yarni, I forgot to tell you I bought you ciggarettes, and a bottle of pimms for us to drink in Nelson Bay.
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| Peta's Fundraiser B & S Ball |
[28 Sep 2006|03:36pm] |
( with photos!! )
5000 pounds were raised for Peta- which is fantastic. She's now walking, talking and at home. I've been having text and email convo's with her and one of the first things I'm going to do when I get home is a road trip to dubbo to visit her.
I can't believe that we've gone from being told to say our goodbyes to having her write me emails telling me about her plans to move to Sydney permanently and finding work.
keep going Peta :)
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| My life has become a countdown |
[26 Sep 2006|04:03pm] |
3 days of work left
8 days left in London
1 week and 1 day till I fly to Pisa
2 weeks and 2 days till I land in Sydney
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I keep wondering what its going to be like being at home again.
I see photos and people look the same.
I read stories, and people sound the same.
One may safely deduce that things will be the same. But will they? Do I want them to be??
Sometimes thinking about coming home does my head in, but mostly I'm so excited that I really don't know what to do with myself.
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| Things I am looking forward to.... |
[19 Sep 2006|11:40am] |
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soaking up the sun in Tuscany
Going to the beach in Sydney- Seeing the pacific ocean, laying on the warm sand
Getting dressed up and going to Opera Bar- Having a glass of champagne between the Opera house and the Harbour Bridge and appreciating Sydney Harbour
Seeing the people who I have missed so so much over the last year- my best friends in the entire world.
Being able to hug my dad properly, to go bike riding with him and to go sailing with him
Walking my dog
Starting a new job
Buying an apartment
Always having someone to call, to go shopping with, to have a drink with.
Sleeping in my own bed!
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[04 Sep 2006|02:17pm] |
So it's been about 2 weeks since I got back from Spain so I thought it was about time to share it with you in the shortest form I can manage!
( Very long post with photos )
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| okey dokey! |
[24 Aug 2006|12:44pm] |
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things look to be all good (apart from dad being totally unlike himself and being a grumpy old man!)
op went well, they haven't turned the thingy on yet, but they stimulated the parts of the brain during the operation and mum said she hasn't seen him not shake at all in like forever! exciting. Apparently this also shows that its effective enough that he shouldn't have to take meds as well! he'll be shakey again by tomorrow, at which point they will turn it all on and check to see its all functioning as should.
Dad is being all pooey though- the last 3 hours of the op are under general anisthetic so we're blaming it on that. he's been making all sorts of grumpy old man demands (bed up, then two minutes later he wants to go to sleep and have the bed down! haha). The surgeon also was talking about how this is only the first step in a lengthly process- learning to deal without the obvisous symptoms but also dealing with the not so obvious ones. parkinson's also affects cognitive functions etc etc. So a long road ahead, but a positive start! I still can't believe its all happening :)
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| The phone call I dreaded and wanted at the same time. |
[22 Aug 2006|09:13am] |
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My dad never calls, it's too hard for him to use the phone, so imagine my shock to have him on the other end of the line last night.
He is being operated on on Thursday.
I resigned yesterday stating my last day as end of September on the grounds that Dad would be having the Op soon and I had to go home to be there for it. Now its on Thursday.
I'm in shock, I want to be there for him. I'm not afraid of the operation itself, but I'm afraid of it not working and us all having to face the reality that the medication isn't working anymore and there isn't anything to be done to improve his quality of life.
My dad said he's scared shitless, and I don't blame him! 8 hours on the operating table, awake, while doctors mess with your brain is a pretty intense thing to have to go through.
10am Sydney time thursday.
ps: spain was awesome. more to come on that when I've got my head around everything else!
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| Because I <3 my [not so] Little Brother |
[31 Jul 2006|09:48am] |
and a few random ones from Krakow
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| Semi good news all round! |
[28 Jul 2006|09:38am] |
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Monday: Peta was awake :) eyes open, looking at you when you spoke to her. Lifting her head, morving her left arm and left foot. I realised that she was doing the same sequence of movement over and over, but it was better :)
Wednesday: Yarni got a nice judge :)
Thursday: Visited Peta on my own last night. She had obviously just bee bathed as her hair was all wet and they had dressed her in her own PJ's! yay! The ventilator had also been disconnected- so she is breathing on her own! Peta was asleep as she had been worn out with the whole bathing thing, but they had the TV on for her which I thought was nice. I Had a chat with the nurse and apparently Peta is following simple commands such as blinking her eyes to answer questions and squeezing a hand (although faintly!) on command :) I was so excited hearing it, but it really didn't seem real.
Peta woke up for a bit and was looking at me while I was stroking her arm. The nurse told her she was going to give her an injection, and after it was done she asked peta to blink her eyes if she was ok- and she did! I almost cried. It was so incredible. I guess it was bittersweet though, my though is- if she is following commands, does that mean she is trapped inside her body?? Adam says it may be that she is starting all over again - learning to do things, rather than re-learning or struggling to do things that she could do before. I really hope so.
Washed some of her clothes- so will be going back to see ehr tomorrow! will go after lunch so that she is awake.
Going to a free comedy show tonight- apparently some comedian who is going to the Edinburgh festival testing his material! should be cool.
Picnic in green park tomorrow to drink up some (or alot!) of the duty free vodka we have collected!
Spain in 2 weeks!!
Things are looking ok at the moment :)
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