What a world of difference from BBQs of times past.
Today I felt a bit flustered today regarding my life. I got to talk with Doug about how I felt scarred from the last few years, how I didn't want to trust, make plans, or hope on anyone. I didn't feel it was fair that he get the brunt of my trust issues. You know what? He didn't yell, argue, question, or try to make it all about him. He listened and then offered his view, calmly. He thinks I'm stressing on certain areas a bit too much. But he's reassuring AND right. I find this incredible strength in his gentleness.
He's coming to Holland next month. He's coming for me. Oh snap.
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An African proverb states, 'Before you get married, keep both eyes open, and after you marry, close one eye'.
- Mood:loved
- Mood:sad
- Mood:contemplative
The sounds are something else. I awoke to two men working on the mill, a baby's laughter and flute playing, two dogs yapping, ducks quacking, boats running, ambulances chasing, and finally my alarm saying it's 9:00am.
I had missed Doug's call. So I hid from the sounds of the world and called him back. We had a good talk. I don't miss him for he is not dead, he is right here in my heart. But I do miss his sweet embrace. Sigh.
Due to economics, I'm eating simply and more healthifully. I feel the weight coming off. I find myself embraced in this forgiving and wise culture. I have come to learn to forgive and become easygoing. I have found the happiest place on earth. And it sounds like my life and I are changing for the better.
I'm hosting a farewell dinner party on Friday September 5. Pasta Pomodoro is donating 20% of the proceeds to my charity work. Please join me around 7:30pm at:
300 W. El Camino Real, Ste.G
Sunnyvale, CA 94087-1306
Please let me know if you can make it.
Thanks,
Amanda
It is the end of an era for Jeremiah's Promise. I'll be out on Friday. Lisa is also leaving to go back to school. And Angie, after 3 long years, was given sabbatical and permission to quit this foster youth program. Angie is already gone. She gave me a lovely card and $75 for my volunteer work. These women weren't just my coworkers, they are my sisters. We fought, laughed, cried, fund-raised, struggled, and prayed to raise these kids right. The issue wasn't about chores and making beds. It was about discipline, responsibility and esteem, healing hearts, and building safe and healthy relationships. Katherine Hepburn once said, "Life is hard. After all, it kills you." Coming to JP, I was lost, lonely, and looking to fit in somewhere. I had been consistently rejected by my ex boyfriend of a year. I stayed because I had no where else to go. In JP I finally fit in. I was challenged to put down the drink and to do for others. In doing so, I was forced to learn new skill sets and manners. JP wasn't perfect. Rules would change without warning. We had limited resources and high expectations. Drama was always at the door. We did it anyway. So here's a toast to all my sisters. May you be blessed in your walk in Life . May you give mercy, truth, and peace. May loving kindness find you in sweet abundance. Take care my love, until we meet again. ~amly
Lisa, Angie, Heather, Amanda, Mo, Kim
- Mood:nostalgic
I am moving in 30 days. omfg.
The best about going to Europe is that I won't need to shave for a year. w00t w00t.
Oh btw, i'm discovering that moving to another continent is a long and tedious process. i miss you already.
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<3 me
- Mood:hot
Tre = devoted, compassionate lover.
We feasted on vegans instead.
Sung along on another pop rock song.
Nothing special
'cept for the fact my love for him runs deeper than I can handle.
It will take Amsterdam to get him out of my head.
I should tell him.
Or not?
Or yes?
Aw fuck.
And what if he says no?
So?
I'm just a me, silly as can be.
Alone, frightened, and free.
Sometimes I get a glimpse that he cares about me.
Or maybe I tired of dreamin of what would never be.
Your result for The Why are you single? Test...
Shrinking Violet
40 Shyness, 25 Codependency, 0 Denial, 0 Assheadedness
You're too shy! Step away from the wall and mingle! Believe it or not, you probably won't die by talking to people. Try saying hello, or get used to only having yourself to talk to. Chances are, when you get past the awkward introductions, you'll be great in a relationship.
Dear Internet People,
For me, there is no bigger turn off than a guy writing, "do u want to hang out wit me?"
The word is spelled y-o-u. The misspelling of the word suggests several things:
-The writer is uneducated (translation: sex will be average/boring/uninspiring)
-The writer takes shortcuts (translation: sex will be quick)
-The writer is lazy (translation: s/he's selfish in bed)
-The phrase "hang out" indicates a superficial interest with no emotional involvement. (translation: s/he'll be gone before you spark that after-sex cigarette.)
So, please, present yourself as the bright, sexually pleasing, loving person you truly are. For example:
"Hello. I know you like < interest >.Hey may I take you to < insert special interest here > on Friday? It's highly recommended. I thought you might like it. So what do you say?"
I *guarantee* it will up your sexy factor. All you have to lose is U.
signed,
grammarsnob
- Mood:chipper
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