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pájaro [Sat, Oct 11th, 2008 at 1:05am

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poetssociety

[therer2doors]
little bird broken
words left
unspoken
a sigh

little bird haunted
dreams lost
undaunted
you try

little bird bound
determined
and sound
you'll fly

~~~
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criticize me pleeease [Sat, Oct 11th, 2008 at 12:55am

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poetssociety

[painted_inwords]
i wrote this after breaking up with my boyfriend of 3 years. i think it needs help. guide me.



i broke a heart this summer
crushed it until it bled
a river flowing from his chest

late at night
the current seizes me
and carries me back into his arms

each morning i awake
gasping
nearly drowning in his sorrow
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[Sat, Oct 11th, 2008 at 12:37pm

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poetssociety

[faust_ina]
One could drown in her eyes
wells that reflected the worldly sorrow
a singular autumn leaf could possibly contain
in its quietly waiting heart
secretly wishing for the bite of winter
to freeze it cold

like the summer ducks
caught in the middle of a tall tale
in which the lake was dried and old
at the moment
when the world conspired against her
and clocks tap-danced on bar room tops
to the beat of overwound pasts
it was her eyes
or was it her deeply holed soul
that captured yours and never let go

no one asked where she came from
until she vanished
leaving her image shifting and breaking up
beyond the full-stops of happy ever afters
and her eyes, her eyes
that were the sum of zeros
and spoke of endless sorrow
sorrow that seemed like a tiny paper boat
sailing away for something you would never know
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"The Heaven of Zaria" [Sat, Oct 11th, 2008 at 12:51pm

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creativewriting

[heavenofzaria]


"Aside from the pink satin cloth that draped and met at the middle of the ceiling a hundred feet above, I, who wore black amongst a sea of white, am evidently MISPLACED. What makes me more misplaced is the pathetic fact that I am the only one wearing a dress made of satin. If I exist in a world with less conceited people, I wouldn't even take notice of that fact. Ritually I give myself a reality check. I happen to be the stepdaughter of the sister of a wife of a big-deal businessman who happens to be mutually in love with the media. And what's worst? Charmeuse had to be the 'in' cloth for today’s wedding. Not wearing it now, not having it cut above the knees or at least showing a little bit of cleavage, would be the least desirable situation to be in. And most obviously, I am wearing something that is not Charmeuse, not white, not short...enough and bears no cleavage in sight. Maybe I'll get extra points for wearing stunning gold Jimmy Choo sandals or maybe not. Either way, if I weren’t the sister of the bride I would have been kicked out of the cathedral seconds before I could set my ‘Jimmy Choo’-s on the red carpet. When I was younger my head would start spinning at moments like this, but I suppose that age is like a number that shows how much tolerance you have to how much slamming you get from the world because of the things it hates about you." --- "The Heaven of Zaria" a snippet of Chapter One.


I've decided to finally finish a novel that I have started. I've always had problems finishing stories that I write because I always search for motivation and I tend to lack it when I need it the most. :) I hope posting that would interest you to read it more, you can find it in my livejournal page http://heavenofzaria.livejournal.com Thanks :)

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The Heaven of Zaria [Sat, Oct 11th, 2008 at 12:36pm

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poetssociety

[heavenofzaria]


"Aside from the pink satin cloth that draped and met at the middle of the ceiling a hundred feet above, I, who wore black amongst a sea of white, was evidently MISPLACED. What makes me more misplaced is the pathetic fact that I was the only one wearing a dress made of satin. If I existed in a world with less conceited people, I wouldn't even take notice of that fact. Ritually I give myself a reality check. I happen to be the daughter of the sister of a wife of a big-deal businessman who happens to be mutually in love with the media. And what's worst? Charmeuse had to be the 'in' cloth for today’s wedding. Not wearing it now, Not having it cut above the knees or at least showing a little bit of cleavage, would be the least desirable situation to be in. And most obviously, I am wearing something that is not Charmeuse, not white, not short..enough and bears no cleavage in sight. Maybe I'll get extra points for wearing gold and stunning Jimmy Choos or maybe not. Either way, if I weren’t the sister of the bride I would have been kicked out of the cathedral seconds before I could set my Jimmy Choos on the red carpet. When I was younger my head would start spinning at moments like this, but I suppose that age is like a number that shows how much tolerance you have to how much slamming you get from the world because of the things it hates about you."
---Chapter One "Must be missing an Angel", Part One


This is the first time I've actually decided to finish a story that I've started. :) But I have an attitude that if I don't get enough motivation, I tend to quit. So do wish me luck, and please try to read it and comment.

Thanks! You're much appreciated

http://heavenofzaria.livejournal.com

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I thought you would be different. [Fri, Oct 10th, 2008 at 11:13pm

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poetssociety

[lostdreamer337]
[ mood | crushed ]


I thought we had something

Something that would last

But I guess I was wrong..

I thought you were different

I never thought you would end up hurting me

I thought that maybe things were changing

That I would stay happy

And everything would be ok

But of course I was wrong

I feel like this is my fault

Even though you say its not

Maybe I wasn’t trying hard enough

Who knows

But maybe we can be friends

And then maybe just maybe in the future

We might have a second chance.

I really liked you.

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To This Very Afternoon,with Love... [Fri, Oct 10th, 2008 at 6:50pm

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poetssociety

[bleeding_lilies]
[ mood | excited ]
[ music | Suna No Oshiro-Kanon Wakeshima ]

Trapped in the dark,claustropobic womb.Hearts beating,heads racing,We press our ears to the walls and pray that we are never found.A smile is pasted upon our faces,while our sweat drips in rivers.Our eyes are sparkling with tears,on hearing our own secret joke.We gloat upon our secret womb.Our smiles glowing in the dark.We gloat upon this secret chamber, and in pride boast we shall never be caught.'Silence!' says one, whose hearty face breaks, and slowly she whispers,' they are on their way!'.  Our hearts stop; and our breathe has become ice.The footsteps have entered the room, and our secret is close to discovery.We huddle, for fear of our shameful discovery,for we have only hidden for a measley few winks.

Ah! We are caught! Oh,how are secret is ruined!Yet our five smiling faces show brighter than before,and our sweat, though dirty, gives a heroic stance. We look about into the brightness of the hall.And realize we miss one of our own.'Forget him,' shouts one nay-sayer.'For he is useless and will drag us down.Down into the deeper dark.Forget him, says I, and speak no more!' We walk down the bright lightsAnd we blink into the void.Where all light vanishesbeyond a certain point.The dark looming orifice that grins at us with glee and stares upon our brave faces with a red cyclopes eye.

Ah! How our hearts melt, and how joy and chivalry becomes sorrow and cowardice!We push our own into the void, and pray that the winking monster is vanquished by the day.

'Pray tell,' says I, with meekly mirth,' pray tell how we are to wonder here?For the demons of the night will surely tear even the most brave of us asunder!'. 'Yes!' cries another, with beads of sweat raining down from heaven.' Please, tell us, brave ones,how we are to walk this horrid row!'
'It shall tear our souls and drive us mad!'

'It will most surely swallow us whole!'

'It has already claimed our most deviant friend! I say, we look for another way!'
'Pray tell,' says I, with more force than mirth,' pray tell, how we are to brave this creature,for even the light of heaven fears this dreaded eye of Satan!'
'Come now!' says one hearty fellow,' you fear this wretched beast?Whose one eye mayhaps is surely blind, and whose mind is so warped by the day. Look, fair comrades, the sun still graces us with her holy light, and even the most cruel men must have a sleep at night!' And so we crossed this horrid way, a long, dark road. We hear our hearts beat once more and our minds fill with terror. The bravest of us tred on, and they are caught in their saintly sight, forgetting the peasants that follow.

'Ah!' cries us, with hearts filled with joy.' This demonic presence has spared us, for now we see the light!' 'But quick,' says I, with exasperated joy,' for the sun is leaving us quickly! If it leaves us too soon, and if the moon never shines, then we shall most assurely be slaughtered!' We run, with feet blessed by some heavenly light, for soon we see the day.

Ah, how cool it is to run in the breeze, for the monster that so tried to devour us has failed once more, as it always shall. For even though it crushes our hearts, and even though it takes us one by one, we shall always carry the faithful memories of this one afternoon, where we all nearly ended our youthful lives.
With Love,
B_L
On the most perfect Friday ever.

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Daniel Boone Homestead - about 20 miles outside of Philly [Fri, Oct 10th, 2008 at 9:20pm

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canoncameras

[mujetdebois]

Canon EOS 20D
Aperture Value: f/5.6
Focal Length: 47mm
ISO: 1600

+1 )
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rivers of time [Fri, Oct 10th, 2008 at 9:18pm

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poetssociety

[shipman7]
this is a new poem i just wrote

Rivers of Time
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Etched in the glass of forever more
Timelessness stands over the rivers of ruin
Like cards in a house, it all falls
Hands on a clock, time moves by tick-tock
pulled from the wreckage
looking across the restless waters
clock faces flying in every direction
hands spinning violently
knowing not where we go
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Up the down stairs [Fri, Oct 10th, 2008 at 8:58pm

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poetssociety

[heres_2_yoko]
[ mood | anxious ]

Hands free, and falling
Up the down stairs
Musty, cold, dark, creaking
Beating
(Thump! Tha-thump! Beat me!)
Climbing ever so slowly
One foot, two foot
Hands free, and falling

A twinkle from above, brightest light
Its warm and inviting
I drawn closer
Yet, always, far away
Step lightly!
Hands free, and falling

(And with gentle discord, inform me!)
Mass Hysteria!
Pulling off my toes
(Pop! Plop!)
Tread gently, unaltered
Hands free, and falling

I crumble away
Feet and knees and legs and sex turn to dust
But climbing, ever still
Ever reaching, never grasping
Ashes fall from sparkling cloves
And my outstretched fingers tremble for you
Hands free, and falling

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elements [Fri, Oct 10th, 2008 at 4:41pm

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poetssociety

[call_n_dance]

Limp in the water,

Delicate pirouettes in rushed currents,

Words, unspoken, surfacing

In bubbled torrents of exasperation.

 

Been called a quitter,

But never taken it to heart,

Never felt ambitions sinking

Just as fast as self-confidence.

 

Seared by ruthless flares,

Ashen rhumba over glowing embers,

Wild passion burning up

Everything for miles, from the inside out.

 

Been thrown into frays,

But never taken them to heart,

Never seen a soul burn long

Before the rest went up in flames.

 

Swaying with a gust,

Unforeseen jetés through ever-changing winds,

Orbital fears and worries

Rushed away in unevenly timed breezes.

 

Been jostled and hurt,

But never took it to heart,

Never shed a tear that couldn’t

Be slowly blown away by time.

 

Held by gravity,

Knees shaky and feet planted, irresolute,

Quaking, quivering above

Eroded, weather-beaten soil.

 

Been pulled to the ground,

But never wavered in heart,

Never gave dedication to

Be rubbed away by elements.

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[Fri, Oct 10th, 2008 at 4:13pm

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poetssociety

[call_n_dance]
if you...
if i...
if this or that...
then maybe we...
but only if.
forever if.
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good or evil [Fri, Oct 10th, 2008 at 1:41pm

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poetssociety

[misanthropic42o]
can you dance can you paint
would chance let you be a saint
or grow weak with great despair
tell me freak did you ever care?
do you rot or do you glow
you tell me not what i need to know
keep talking in riddles you keep fucking my mind
I've lost so much sleep since you've belittled me blind
so when i see you glow so bright
tell me the truth, is it just the light?
one more lie will push me over the edge
please tell me why you've dismantled my head
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[Fri, Oct 10th, 2008 at 11:33am

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poetssociety

[kelli1kat]
[ mood | crushed ]

Living this life in fading memories made!
Feelings of lost control~
a madness awake~
it is not a dream!
Seems love can't contain my soul!
I am a dreamer lost~
Floating in a Matrix of yesterday's!
Afraid of change~
touch my curves~
but don't love me!

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Cage me [Fri, Oct 10th, 2008 at 11:51am

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poetssociety

[sugarsweety]
You say you hear me?
in many ways yes you do.
I could tell you the many lines
passed on my face. Yet,so could you.


My heart is an indisgretion. A glass object,
you see the reflections that flicker?
Are they honest?
Tell me, does it look appealing?

I am reflections screaming cold.
haunting like the eery chill of
a dry,cold night.

My soul is vastness in disguise.
Its compartments similar to shelves
see how they fit neatly in this space.
chaos piled in neat little stacks.

I am shallowness when told not to dive.
see me? only in this glass reflection
I remain caged sweetly as a bird.
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Lost [Fri, Oct 10th, 2008 at 5:14pm

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poetssociety

[i_am_illusion]
Sitting on the shore
The waves gently caressing your bare feet

But your nymphs don't come to giggle at you
And your unicorns have blended with the wind long ago
And the orchids no longer shine with fairy dust
And the songs of fawns are no longer interrupting the peace of your woods

You tried to heal a little bird
Broken still it lays on the moss

The air has a misty quality about it
And suddenly you can't tell
Whether you are waking up from a dream
Or simply having a nightmare


©2007-2008 ~rlcwallpapers
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grandma [Fri, Oct 10th, 2008 at 8:36pm

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poetssociety

[romansoliloquy]
A flood of feelings
circle my lens
they are soaked

it fluttered 
but im not in love 
more of a somersault
it has no bottom

over the telephone
i hear your voice
santa claus, santa claus
i fell further

i cannot do, i cannot do
logic doesn't reason
with me

but i can't let you drift
into the sea
not of memory
but of- kin

i love you..
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Journal Reader [Fri, Oct 10th, 2008 at 2:30am

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poetssociety

[zenstone]
[ mood | sleepy ]
[ music | Markus Schulz - Cause You Know ]


Sitting
reading
your thoughts
of day
the world
piece by piece
life's puzzle
comes together
yes
sometimes
I work the edges
first..............

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[Fri, Oct 10th, 2008 at 12:38am

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poetssociety

[suave_acita]
You strain your eyes to look, to force this glance at the world falling apart. Hands aching, incapable of holding on anymore. You can feel the crumbling ground give-way and further you plunge.
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Belladona Living [Fri, Oct 10th, 2008 at 3:15am

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poetssociety

[rosepetalwinds]
[ mood | lonely ]
[ music | Rina Aiuchi - Navy Blue ]

Written on the fly, 3 00 AM, the lovechild of my mind and creativity. Original work.
------------------------------

Titled "Belladonna Living"

Lips on lips and eyes are closed, the acid tongue tickles
The 4/4 life at prestissimo pace, hide tainted face from hungry snake
Pleasant feeling, dirty love, to explore such toxic perfection
Who will cry when the last of the pure hearts turns to ice?

Nose to nose and eyes wide shut, recoiling tongue prickles
The 4/4 life ticks by, pendulum swings and poison stings at waltz tempo
Odd vibration, dirty music, that shatters prison bars
Infection spreads its obsidian wings, who will death come to kiss?

Open eyes and a world in colour, the sleeping tongue stings
Innocence intact, fiction trumps fact, climactic cadence is the cure
Perfect as is, dirty life, to remove the masks and live atonal
Crushing belladonna underfoot to usher silence, sweet silence

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