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| | Subject: | my 17 yr old neighbor, who needs some learnin' | | Time: | 09:36 pm |
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| | "offensive" "language" in a story behind cut( Read more... ) | comments: Leave a comment   |
| | Subject: | when a man loves a licensed massage therapist | | Time: | 08:03 pm |
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| happy expletives - when the LMT at whole foods touches me, i am happy. maybe this is heightened by the reiki attunements? i want her to keep touching me, and it is All That I Want.
how can i achieve this, other than going to whole foods every sunday between 4 and 8 and paying her dollars? maybe i could take her out to a nice chicken dinner as a form of courting her, and then in time, after more forms of courting her and after more chicken dinners, make her my woman. then, i believe, it is highly likely that she would keep touching me, and it wouldn't have to be at whole foods, and it wouldn't have to be on sundays between 4 and 8.
i will have to devise and/or isolate several complimentary phrases about some of her personal attributes, including perhaps her brown-colored irises, and perhaps her laugh, which i'm not sure i've yet heard through my drool-filled moaning as i lump slumpily in the weird chair-like chair thing she offers me when i see her and pay her to touch me. i'll have to develop an interest in certain or many aspects of her personal history, as well, and look at her as though i possess compassion (or feel it for her?) when she speaks emotionally of how positively one or more of her grandparents or concerned, elderly neighbors from childhood impacted her life, helping her become who she is today, whomever that might turn out to be.
but, first things first - i need to make a space in my bathroom cabinet for her overnight toiletries among my boxes of earplugs and collection of rubber ear syringes, yes, i have some things to take care of... | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | film review: "the sum of all fears" | | Time: | 06:48 pm |
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| before seeing this movie, the sum of all fears revolved around what it would be like to attempt to convince the movie-going public that ben affleck is a leading man we should care about.
after seeing this movie, the sum of all fears is that you might find yourself someday having flashbacks to his particular brand of unleading man idiocy, or, perhaps, his at best feckless hair. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | excerpt from the Lilith report | | Time: | 12:37 pm |
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| From the Lilith-Pluto aspects:
With a Lilith-Pluto aspect, a person has the evolutionary intention to connect with Lilith on the deepest levels, and to manifest as his or her most important work in the world, his or her gift of soul to the world, a reclamation of the wild nature that he or she possesses. A Lilith-Pluto aspect speaks to reconnecting the soul to the natural wisdom and primal methods of the natural world. For those with this aspect, the challenge lies in healing the Plutonian wounding in order to make this reconnection, and to allow that healing to be informed by an orientation to the processes of nature foreign to the kinds of collective realities we’ve created over the last few thousand years.
If the Lilith-Pluto person engages in this reconnection, he or she can be a powerful force in his or her community or the world, offering an example of soul empowerment by connecting to the deepest levels of self, and bringing into the world in a passion for redefining our idea of change with reconnection to the natural cycles of life. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | new "Living Myth" article on Ceres | | Time: | 11:22 am |
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| Stephanie Azaria's site offers a new "Living Myth" column from my hyperactively typing fingers, focusing on Ceres.
You can find it at http://thecosmicpath.com. Scroll down to find the link to it.
Ceres got into May's column because of Mother's Day: Ceres as an archetype of the mother can show us much about how we relate to others in any nurturing capacity, no matter the kind of relationship.
Enjoy! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | a new Black Moon Lilith natal report - pre-order discount | | Time: | 10:29 am |
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| I'm accepting pre-orders for a new natal true Black Moon Lilith report. It's original material reflecting my work with clients, intuitive research and experiences over the last few years with this little-understood archetype.
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| | Subject: | 2 love poems, 2008 | | Time: | 09:39 pm |
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| I Want You Like That Bear Wants the Honey
I want you like that bear wants the honey. You know the one – he lives in that tree. His place is lined with jars of honey. Dozens of jars, tons of them. Pretty much all that bear thinks about is honey. Getting it, eating it. It’s pretty much all he can think about.
You can walk on up to him on the street and say “Hey, bear,” you can call him up to ask him to shoot some hoops, and you can guarantee he’s either eating honey or thinking about it, or thinking about getting his paws on it, getting into one of those jars with his already sticky paws, getting all the nectar out of it he possibly can.
I thought I Couldn’t Live Without You
It turns out I was right. Three days after you left, my liver began to fail. My kidneys and pancreas went out the following afternoon. Two days after that I developed two severe neurological conditions, and three days after that, I developed two more, and they were even worse. Because of the severe pain, my attitude and demeanor deteriorated to the point that my sister, my primary caregiver at the time, who’d been a real champ marching into all the sudden difficulty and helping me keep things straight, walked out on me. My subsequent howling from the pain but I guess more from the loneliness was the reason I was given for being forcibly moved out of my apartment building. I cried and howled in that park we used to have those picnics in for two days before I died from, officially, uremic toxicity. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| Tomorrow, Friday, from 11 AM PST to noon, I'll be a guest on The Naked Salon, part of a panel discussing astrology. I like their approach of stripping away everything to get to the core of an issue (hence the naked part - so, I'm really saying, yes, I'll be wearing pants the entire time).
There'll be three astrologers on the show, each discussing how we use astrology and what we hope to achieve with clients by using it. I'm excited to share my thoughts of astrology as a symbolic language, which is stripping it down to its bare essentials (and is one key to learning the language so it's useful, by the way).
You can see the show live at http://www.gotwebtv.com/TheNakedSalon/.
If you have something you'd like to ask the panel, feel free to call in. The number is (818) 991 - 6137. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | review: "Atonement" | | Time: | 07:48 pm |
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| Three points:
1. They clearly had a big budget.
2. I regretted leaving my tax return in progress to view this film.
3. Putting Vanessa Redgrave - even Vanessa Redgrave - on at the end cannot save a loser of a film that tried to be too many things and wavered in its, ahem, "vision." | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | a billboard | | Time: | 12:15 pm |
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| seen this AM on the way to the store: a billboard with a picture of a young boy - "A child is diagnosed with autism every 20 minutes."
it made me sad for two reasons.
first, there are so many kids with autism that need to be diagnosed - why does just one kid with autism get diagnosed every 20 minutes? it just seems unfair to me. clearly, they already know he has autism. what's the point of telling him again and again?
second, whoever that kid is, he deserves a break. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| a new machine, also named by me computor, has arrived. my fingers are dancing on it right this instant. it took five weeks of fighting with existence to get it here. it works well, and has this rad fingerprint scanner for security purposes - rad.
the 2nd half of "Stalin's Dream: A Bedtime Story Fragment" is up on http://downtownlalife.com, again the local literary selection. the editor told me the other day that he's here for me - will lend eyes to anything i'm working on that i want feedback with - so generous! he's a big supporter of me right now, and it's much appreciated. i have this urge to take him to lunch.
i'm still waiting for the creative bubble that built up over those 5 weeks to just go ahead and burst already, but it's not happening yet. probably because i'm looking for a new place; the walls where i'm living are soon to be removed - and i need a working kitchen and an indoor bathroom, i just do. i applied for a sweet little house in elysian valley yesterday, a 1-br i and my cat friend will love living in. so, a lot of running here and there looking for and at places the last few days. i find out today if i get it - i think it's just a criminal & evictions check. cross your fingers for me, please.
tonight i'm getting together with a friend with whom i've agreed to see about possibility of writing together. we can talk together forever, and are each writers, though i'm not sure i can work with anyone re writing - a vision coalesces in my brain and the task is translating it to words, and it's anyone's guess if i can sit down with someone and collaborate re vision and words. but playing together in order to find out i'm looking forward to a lot. i keep imagining us shooting nerf hoops in one of our places, trying out different ideas. i seem to think that writers play nerf hoops as they enterain, court and hammer our their ideas.
she yesterday got back from a vipassana course, which i did in september. on the last day, when everyone can finally talk, the topic of reincarnation came up, and she told her cabin my story of one of the cats i'm working with (who's not been a cat before, and is totally freaked out and confused), and one of the women there knows these cats, is friends with the interior designer of the woman, and she went off about her feelings about the one on prozac, saying she's thought of her a lot and been worried.
i think this job might be in some measure about writing ideas - it is to a part of me fully absurd. i mean, i know i'm helping the woman and her cats a lot, but how long can it continue? it's a marvelous gift to help me have cash right now, and to develop/refine some psychic skills, and to get really fluid in loving - that's basically what i do with the cats and the woman, open my heart and help them adjust to being loving. on the nights following the days i work there, all 6 cats sleep with her on her bed, which she loves. and i love having that effect on others' lives, i really do.
she says i'm such a good influence in their lives that she wants me to come back twice each week to spend time with them. also i'm doing meditation and heart-opening work with her, as she's ready to learn about this moon-chiron in pisces/7th opposing pluto-uranus-lucifer in virgo/1st opposition (that's my shorthand for it - it's masculine energy that's come to the fore and done well for her, but it's time to bring the very present feminine out into her external life). and she's happy to pay me my fee to do all of these things - it's truly a gift. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| just as saturn begins its retrograde squaring my mercury, i'm wondering how patient i'm supposed to be with the wait to upgrade machines. from virgo/11th squaring sagittarius/cusp of 3rd, is it about the kind of upgrades that get me closer to my goals?
i've accepted the need to be patient with not buying a computer yet, and not get another bike (a new one that won't be a money pit). but i think it's time to do both.
and i keep thinking that the place i found to move to after the 1st is going to fall through. like it's not the best thing for me, actually, and so it won't work. i gave the woman a past-dated check as a deposit, and she was supposed to call me yesterday to do the paperwork
and these fucking morons at the library - one of them just told me i have to have my shoes on - i had them off under the counter here where it's not bothering anyone - because i've been drenched by the rain and my boots are still wet inside. this is nonsense. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | local literary ii + direction shifting | | Time: | 01:48 pm |
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| downtown la life published the first part of "Stalin's Dream: A Bedtime Story Fragment" at http://www.downtownlalife.com under the local literary selection.
possibly my favorite from everything i've written, it makes me smile and issue discrete guffaws when i think of it.
in the news, i've been hired to do space clearing work. by a woman who's bought a ton of antiques for her new home and can't figure out why her cats are all sick. it's a fantastic opportunity - a well-paid internship in putting everything i know into use together, and building on it.
it looks like i'll be doing anything and everything from releasing stuck spirits, animal communication and energy work on them, clearing energy from the antiques themselves, and working with her on energetic self-care. i spent five hours there earlier in the week, and will probably do that much per week for a few weeks. and after that, i wouldn't be surprised if she has me back to work variously with the 6 cats. already, i have to tell you, the one on prozac got up, walked around and make nice contact with humans there, which she hasn't done in months. i told them she just needed to be heard and to know that someone was going to start taking care of the energetic dirtiness that fills the house. she'd been sitting and moping, and not wanting to be touched for a long time. and another one is totally freaked out- it's his first life as a cat, and he feels totally fucked having to be one. the most skiddish cat i've ever met. and he sat with me in a room, letting me lay eyes on him - he usually runs and hides and talks to almost no one.
part of me doesn't want to believe that this stuff is true, but it really is, and i actually can do it. and make a living doing it. the clock at the library is ticking - gotta go.
happy december to all of you, even if you don't celebrate it. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | intuitive readings in El Sereno tonight | | Time: | 08:23 am |
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| Tonight from 7-9 I'll be at Antigua Cultural Coffee House in El Sereno (4836 Huntington, LA 90032) doing intuitive readings.
These readings offer insight into whatever's going on in your life, and can help you understand why things are happening the way they are, and what to do to solvce and resolve things. In these readings, I'm bringing through messages from spirit guides and other assorted disembodied folks to help.
$1 per minute, ten minute minimum. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | talk tomorrow | | Time: | 10:34 am |
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| What: "Unraveling Karma: Evolutionary Astrology as a Healing Tool"
When: Sunday, November 11th from 3:30-5:30 PM
Where: Many Paths Bookstore, 5152A Lankershim Boulevard, North Hollywood
Investment: $10 donation
Why: Astrology's awesome and karma is cool | | comments: Leave a comment |
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