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[01 Feb 2008|11:14am] |
I'm going to buy a lottery ticket today.
I don't know what it is, but I've had a very fortunate week! At first I started writing this post with all the boring details, but I think instead I'll just do a summary of my fortunes. :)
Firstly, I was given a free pass to the Vancouver Aquarium any time I want to go! All I have to do is call up and say that I will be going there. Wow! That's pretty cool because I've never been. This is also the same aquarium that is home to the famous YouTube otters that hold hands as they float about, the cute little things.
Secondly, I won a photo contest!!! Woot! I entered a photo contest late last year with Pacific Yachting magazine, it was a contest that focuses on boating images. So I sent in my photo that I took of the blue dingy (which sounds quite rude, actually), and I won second place!! My prize being a brand spanking new digital camera!!! Woohoo!
So the magazine wants me to collect my prize this weekend at a boat show where they will take a photo of me and publish it in a future magazine issue. And in the meantime, my photo is in the february issue of Pacific Yachting magazine, and I am all overjoyed and elated and anticipating major fame and glory.
Anyways, I know I've posted this photo before, but this is the one that won!
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[24 Jan 2008|11:44am] |
It was just another regular, dreary day in downtown Vancouver. Joel and I were wandering the streets, looking in store windows with our hands tucked into our jacket pockets to protect them from the cold. We found a little japanese restaurant, nothing special, and ordered some udon.
The conversation was nothing out of the ordinary. The kind of conversation you would expect out of a couple who have been together for 8 years, spending every day together. We gossiped about our friends, complained about our jobs, daydreamed about the future, that kind of thing. And like always my mind was racing.
I look at Joel. And between slurps of udon noodles I say to him:
"Do you think that by any chance you'd want to get married next summer?" Suddenly I felt nervous, so I quickly added "that is, if you know of anyone you might possibly want to marry.." which is my way of creating humour to protect myself, just in case I get an answer I'm not expecting.
Joel doesn't stop for a moment, or lose any time with his soup. He didn't even look up at me. Noodles hanging out of his mouth, and using a tone of voice that someone would use if they were asked whether they like cream in their coffee, he answers...
"Sure."
And I'm telling you, it was the fucking most romantic moment in my life.
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[16 Mar 2007|02:40pm] |
Another poster finished today. And this one I actually like!
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[10 Mar 2007|02:12pm] |
It's been a mighty long time since I've posted any of my recent posters. I've been very busy with poster work lately, completing two last week and four more in the works. I had a good chat with the fella that hires me for most of my posters, telling him I need to make more moolah. As a result he's been flooding me with work, which is good I suppose, although it takes my attention away from the neverending job search.
But I guess a couple hundred dollars in the pocket is better than none.
This poster was just completed moments ago. I wouldn't say it is extraordinary by any means. But it is a major departure from my usual posters in that it isn't illustrated in any mannor. This poster was hugely inspired by a Bruce Lee poster I saw somewhere.
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[02 Mar 2007|09:07pm] |
Last night I had a nightmare so vividly real that it woke me up in fright. The entire dream was full of symbolism. Usually I don't have nightmares or symbolic dreams to any extent. This morning when I awoke I immediately consulted an online 'dream dictionary' to give me some insight at to what the nightmare might have meant.
In the dream I was standing in the livingroom of my childhood home. I was looking out the sliding glass door when I saw a fat black pig, quite small about 10 feet away in my backyard. As I was watching the pig eat the grass, from out of nowhere appeared a giant black bull, with sharp pointed horns and steaming breath from it's nostrils. The bull was standing between myself and the pig, and was watching the pig intently. As I kept my eyes on the massive bull, my view was blocked as a raging mad boar approached me, and stood just on the other side of the window, between myself and the bull. The boar was mad, his nose was wet and his teeth were very sharp.
Although I felt safe while I stood watching the pig and the bull, the boar gave me a huge feeling of fear. He was rubbing his nose against the window, and I realized that he would be able to open the sliding glass door with his nose. I reached over to the lock on the door, and just as I did this, the boar slid the door open with his nose and grabbed my arm with his tongue. It was terrifying! I could feel him biting into my arm, and pulling my body towards him with his strong tongue. I couldn't escape and the boar was going to eat me alive.
And then I woke up.
Here is an interpretation of what the symbols in my dreams might mean according to the online dream dictionary. I know that there are many variations on dream interpretation, and this is just one of them.
The window, looking out
To see windows in your dream, signifies bright hopes, vast possibilities and insight.
To dream that you are looking out the window, signifies your outlook on life, your consciousness, point of view, awareness, and intuition. You may be reflecting on a decision and seeking guidance. Or you need to go out into the larger world and experience life.
The Pig
To see a pig in your dream, symbolizes dirtiness, greediness, stubbornness or selfishness. The pig may also represent opulence and overindulgence.
The Bull
To see a bull in your dream, symbolizes stubbornness, strong will, strength, and power. It is time to take some action and be more assertive. Alternatively, it indicates rich, prosperous, and abundant life. Consider the pun, "being bull-headed". May you need to have a little compromise in a situation.
The Boar
To see a boar in your dream, signifies that you need to look inside to find the answers and secrets about yourself and the people around you.
To be eaten alive
To dream that you are being devoured, indicates a loss in your identity or a fear of losing who you are. The dream may be a metaphor of being consumed by your own ambition or obsession.
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I know that yesterday I was feeling great anxiety over my job search situation. For one brief moment I remember thinking that 2007 wasn't turning out the way I had hoped. It could be that the pig and the boar not only represents what is stated above, but also represents this year, as it is the year of the pig/boar.
From my interpretation of the dream, I think that the fat pig symbolized the ideal of what this year could be.. opulent and overindulgent. But the pig was beyond reach. Within inches of my body was the boar, a terrifying animal that represents a need to look within myself. The fact that I was being eaten alive by this need represents that I may become consumed by my own ambition or obsessions.
The bull was the animal that was standing between the pig and the boar. The bull represents rich, prosperous life, but it also represents compromise, assertiveness, strength and power.
Perhaps the dream was a way of telling my psyche that my ideal life could be attained. But I must remember to look inside myself to find the answers to my own happiness, while preventing my own stubborness from coming between myself and what could be a happy year. To achieve my ideal life I need to compromise a little, find the strengths and secrets within me, and keep my eyes on my ultimate goal.
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[25 Feb 2007|11:19am] |
A couple of days ago I was complaining about how frustrated I was with my everyday life. Well, I didn't go all crazy and shave off my hair. Instead I found a solution to changing my regular routine.
I've decided to go to circus school! My classes start next week, and Joel will be joining me. I've registered for trampoline classes, and what is special about these classes is that you are strapped into a harness so you can achieve jumps and 360 degree twists. Apparently trampoline class is great if you want to improve your skiing or snowboarding skills, which is something I need to do in a big way.
I'm also thinking about taking trapeze classes. Can you imagine! I think I need to get into better shape before I try to fly through the air and hope that buddy on the other side is strong enough to catch me.
So yes, I will soon be Jada Leblanc, circus freak. Now I'm off to hammer a nail into my nose....
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| Just so I don't start controversy, I'm not talking about any of my friends that read this journal. : |
[24 Feb 2007|02:53pm] |
You know it's funny... the friends of mine whom consider themselves among the most openminded of people are in fact the most shortsighted people I know. I understand that some of them like to be original and completely unprecidented. But it makes no sense to declare yourself openminded if you dislike everyone and everything that isn't original and unprecidented like yourself.
If you are going to consider yourself openminded, be aware not to create boundaries in your own thinking.
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[21 Feb 2007|11:56am] |
The company with whom I had an interview last week, Ginch Gonch, has put their ad back up in search of a graphic designer.
I am completely confused by the whole situation. My interview went very well, and I was even told that I had all the experience that they were looking for. I was dissapointed last week to receive an email from them stating that they had filled the position, but that's the way the industry works, so I moved on.
To my surprise I found their job posting on a different website than where I originally found it. To give them the benifit of the doubt, they might have filled the position but it didn't work out with whomever they hired.. I don't know. Or maybe they felt that they hadn't yet found the right candidate for the position and decided to post the job listing once again to receive new candidates.
Anyways, I know this sounds absurd, but I'm going to apply for that position again. It can't hurt. I've also sent them an anonymous email asking if the position is still available, just to be sure.
If you ask me, I would say that they should have hired me to begin with. It would have saved them alot of trouble.. and me, too. :)
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[20 Feb 2007|01:40pm] |
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There's alot of things in my personal life that are bugging the hell outta me. I'm feeling like if something doesn't change, or if I don't let off some steam asap, I'm gonna pull a Britney and shave off all my hair.. or something.
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[17 Feb 2007|10:26am] |
I just bought two tickets to see The Police live!
The tickets are really expensive! When I saw U2 live two years ago I thought that the $181 I spent per ticket was expensive. But for this show I've really had to stretch my limits. My floor ticket was $240! Yikes! And I got two of them.
And that's not the worst of it. If I had wanted tickets up front, in the second row (first row wasn't available), I would have had to dish out $550 per ticket.. or more, considering these seats are auctioned off to the highest bidder.
I am a huge Police fan, but I'm more a fan of their music and not as much of a fan of the guys themselves. So I'm happy enough with my floor seats, row 25.
May 28th baby!! Woohoo! And then I can die happy. :)
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[15 Feb 2007|12:56pm] |
Today is not a good day for me.
But then again, I am being very shortsighted and I should be counting my blessings.
I'm just feeling a temporary low. I was trying to prevent myself from feeling this way, as I knew it could happen. I've been optimistic about virtually everything for the last few weeks. I'm trying to re-program my brain to see the cup half-full instead of half-empty. And I've been trying to hold faith in myself when in the past I've always been a little insecure. So this is why the low is temporary. It's just a minor glitch, a small set back that I will be able to forget in a few weeks.
The reason for my temporary low is that I didn't get the Ginch Gonch job. Not that it's a big deal, I guess. It's just tough. I spent about twenty hours preparing for that interview. And I rocked the interview! When I left the interview I felt that he was going to give me the job right there.. but for some reason I didn't get it.
Yes, I wanted that job. But I think the real reason why I wanted that job is because I felt as if I could be successful at it. I fully believe in fate... and I believe that God has a greater plan set out for all of us. And I thought that finally this greater plan was working out for me. Yet I never seem to achieve that greater plan.. I'm still and always searching. And honestly, I'm getting really tired of looking to the point where I want to give up. But giving up couldn't be apart of this greater plan for me, could it?
I'm so confused. I've had chocolate for breakfast and lunch. The girls who read this journal will know what this means.. I just need a little comfort, a little time to feel low, and then I'll be fine.
So let me change the subject and discuss why I should be counting my blessings. Maybe typing all this down will help me walk away from the computer with a better outlook on myself.
Today is my six year anniversary with Joel. It's been a very hard six years, but I'm happy. There have been times when I have felt like I should leave Joel, but then there are the times when everything is wonderful, and it's those wonderful times that I remember when looking back at our time together. I am very fortunate to have Joel in my life, I love him dearly. And I shall consider him a blessing to me, and consider him one of the many reasons why I should be happy right now, and not wallowing in doubt and drowning my sorrows with chocolate. I am very blessed and for this I should be happy. And confident, and successful, and ready to take on the world!
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[14 Feb 2007|12:21pm] |
This morning I put pen to paper, and wrote this valentine's poem for all of my friends.
This is deep from my heart, and my wish is that you feel it and it warms your day. :)
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[12 Feb 2007|03:52pm] |
The Police announced today that they are in fact touring throughout North America this summer!
And their first tour date - May 28th- will be in Vancouver!!! Woohoo! Tickets go on sale this saturday. :) I'm joining the Police fanclub to get presale tickets. It will be worth every penny.
![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) iceofpoetry, it looks like the closest show to you will be in Detroit, but the actual date is still to be announced. I hope you get to see them live!
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| I see England, I see France.. |
[08 Feb 2007|02:41pm] |
Things are looking up, my friends!
I had an interview today. Basically I walked into the board room and told them that I wouldn't be able to work for their company as I wasn't keen on a two hour each way commute to their offices. It was a shame to pass that job up, but it is what it is.
Then I got home and was fully engrossed in the tabloid talk about Anna Nicole Smith and her early demise. Riveting stuff. I knew I had to get back on board with sending out resumés, but I was putting it off a little. Then the phone rang!
On the other end was a lady calling to book me for a job interview for Ginch Gonch!!
"Who's Ginch Gonch?", you ask.
Well, from my perspective, out of all the companies that I have applied to, they are the one company where I truely want to work. In the last week I have sent them my resumé three times, only because I am obsessed and because they happened to post their job listing three separate times.
"But what about Ginch Gonch?", you ask.
They are the company that produces these lovely designer undies for men and women. I know you've seen them around and they probably made you chuckle. If I were to be hired for Ginch Gonch, my job would be to design the fun little prints that they put on their undies. Essentially, I would be an underwear designer, and in my mind that gives me 1,000,000 cool points and the ultimate "coolest job" bragging rights.
Damn, I'm so excited for this interview! It's on Monday super early, so please everyone send out your good vibes into the stratosphere, and hopefully they will come my way. And if I get this job, you all know what you'll be getting for christmas! :)
In the meantime, here's some eye candy courtesy of Ginch Gonch. Enjoy!
(If you're looking really closely, those are firetrucks.)
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[07 Feb 2007|02:00pm] |
Well, after all that trying, I've got an interview tomorrow.
It's not time to rejoice though. At first I was excited to have an interview, and then I did a little researching about this job.
Turns out that the office I would need to get to each day would require an hour and a half of commuting in each direction, including three bus transfers and a ferry ride. And once I get off the bus, I would have to walk for ten blocks to get to the office, which I'm not too keen on doing considering the weather. And a monthly bus pass would cost $130, which to me is more money than I spend on anything.
As for the job itself, I thought it was a graphic design job that I applied for. Turns out it's an assistant position for a company that sells restaurant furniture (yawn). My job would be more like interior design mixed with secretary work than a graphic design position, and honestly that's not what I'm going for.
I know I shouldn't be deducting this company from my list of potential employers, but I think it's best to be practical and not take the first job that calls me up for an interview. I will be going to the interview tomorrow, but I've decided I will only take the job if it hits one major important criteria.. the rate of pay. I'm not too keen on commuting this far each day unless I'm getting at least $20 an hour, and it would have to be full time work.
So those are my standards (for this job), and I'm not going to lower them.
In the meantime I've had to put the job searching thing on hiatus as it's time to start working on the graphics for this year's Skafest. I'm a little hesitant to work for Skafest this year as it didn't pay out too well for me last year. Next time I travel back to Victoria I'm going to have a sit down with the board members and discuss the possibility of getting a salary for the work I do, instead of profit-sharing like last year. It would be nice to get paid fairly for the work that I do, and I'm ready to ask for it.
We'll see how all this goes.
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[04 Feb 2007|12:45pm] |
There should be a way, in livejournal, where you could post an entry in your own journal and at the same time post the same entry into a community. This would be so efficient, because then we wouldn't have to post the same entry twice, for those entries that we want to share with our friends and communities. And it would also prevent our friends, who are also apart of the community, from seeing the entry posted twice on their friends' page.
You know what I mean? It's so basic, you'd think that they would have this feature.
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[01 Feb 2007|11:36am] |
I've been sending out resumés nearly everyday for the past three weeks, and I haven't received a single phone call about having an interview.
It's pretty exhausting. Sending these resumés out is alot of hard work. Custom writing a coverletter, tailoring my resumé to suit the job posting, and including a copy of my portfolio with every job application makes for alot of work. Each resumé takes at least three hours to send out. Everyday I scope out the online job postings, send out my resumé, and just wait...
Joel wants me to get a job, any job. He keeps finding cooking or retail jobs that I could get in an instant, but only if I were to lower my standards and settle for a minimum wage job. I tell him that a 30 year old educated woman who can speak english and is overqualified shouldn't settle for a minimum wage job. I have dreams that involve having a professional income.. I would like to get a mortgage, pay off my debts, and have money saved up, but I can't do that with any old job. So I keep going at it, sending out my resumé, and not hearing a word back from anyone.
I'm not giving up.. far from it. I'm just getting a little impatient, frustrated, and tired of being a professional job seeker when I could be working for someone and making mad cheddar.
I should probably start thinking positive thoughts, maybe that will help.
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| Canadians! |
[29 Jan 2007|10:08am] |
If you are sick and tired of telemarketers contacting you about services which you haven't signed up for, you can enter your name and information into a "Do Not Contact" listing.
Follow the link here and add your contact information to have your number removed from most telemarketers lists. The list is provided by the Canadian Marketing Association, a watchdog for the marketing industry.
https://cornerstonewebmedia.com/cma/submit.asp
Now, if only we could get the same service for email addresses.
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[26 Jan 2007|05:47pm] |
OMG!!
On the cover of the local newspaper today is a headline that states something so wonderful I had to post about it right away..
It said that The Police are rumoured to be in Vancouver right now... rehearsing! And they are rehearsing in a studio about 3 minutes from my house!!
You know what that means? This means that yummy, delish Sting is in town!!
And it also means that The Police are back together and are practicing for tour!!! OMG!
Yes, I know it's a rumour, but I'm putting my money on this one. The Police are my fave band ever *well, after U2*, and I'm totally freaked out/excited/horny about the fact that I may get to see them perform live!! Woohoo!!
I'm so excited that I'm not going to be able to get anything productive done for the rest of the day. I'll be too busy jumping with joy!
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[23 Jan 2007|07:03pm] |
Seriously dudes... if ever you find an old roll of film, and you're not sure what's on it or how old it is... it's worth every penny to get it developed. You might end up with photos like this one....
Proof that Joel is indeed a hippie.. with a basket of goods that he grew, and then canned. Probably taken back in 2002. Gotta send some props out to my Nana for giving Joel her old 1970's mumu... sexy!
Oh, and the fashion atrocities don't end there.
Follow the cut to see another one..( Read more... )
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