fire @ motion la

me, hosting an event @ motion LA
hope you dig bitches

happy bday mops

$$$$$ ching ching

ableton live<3
bon bon
btf vinyl
btf crew
kitsune
ambiente
club derby
fox n'wolf
florida
pauly crush
east coast
what!?

too much
signing off

but i've decided to go mccain

from obama

personal decision

hilary and obama have other business if you haven't heard
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dYjhFjvw5gk

el oh el zeee

what is up with my world?

why do i always get problems thrown at me?
i constantly keep getting negative shit...

goddamnit
sometimes i wonder
whether this vision i have
is even possible

a future
with no interruptions
no problems
supa-bliss

it just doesn't make sense
am i an easy target?
i am constantly being taken advantage of

not only that, but i'm considerably a nice person who takes a joke a bit too far at times
and then the people who are all selfish and take advantage of me
say that i'm a bit too harsh
and they're all sensitive-nancy on me

fuck

i need a fix

as a shift lead,
i realize i hardly ever mess around anymore

basic responsibility over a retail business.
tough.

i can't remember wanting to go to sleep for a while.

this is my journal
where i post whatever i want

i love how five minutes after i post something
i start getting calls from parents and shit

that's pretty funny
*waits patiently for a voicemail or two*

i am not one to bribed or be purchased

i am a strong person
if you come around seeking the truth, you will get it

but i am a great person
and i am trustworthy

because as much as anyone wants to believe that true friends help other friends
i am not a parent
i am not a babysitter

i have every right to be just as ignorant and fucked up as any other 18 year old

so please,
realize this isn't about me being a bad friend
or bad parenting
or a bad history
or anything like that

this is about moving on in life

there is nothing i hate more
then having someone's parents call me on their own

trying to tell me how it is




i need a new cell phone number

hi

what's new

1. shift supervisor
2. the metronomes
3. mr gaspar/autoganz

sup sup sup
nope nope nope

and before you know it is too late
for making circles and telling lies

you're moving too fast for me
and i can't keep up with you
maybe if you slowed down for me
i could see you're only telling
lies, lies, lies
breaking us down with your
lies, lies, lies
when will you learn

when i saw you walking out that door
i knew that we were no more
but you insisted on knowing me
what did you expect from me

together and forever and again and again
wherever and whenever i'll be there for you then
again again forever and

my world won't go around
if you keep on that frown
it seems that everyday it's getting worse
but my oh my it's hard
i'm no longer your guard
and i really don't really mind it at all

you are my friend, franchesca

i take that back

a best friend is sort of like an egg.... they can see you, even if you're like half cracked
she smiles and means it
and she looks at me confused and implies it

i feel honesty and trust
because she tells me things i don't want to tell myself

she points out the spinach in my teeth
shares personal jokes with me (kmh)

single buddies
JC & WF buddies

and i know this is a great friendship
because someone once said that in order to have a best friend, you have to be a best friend
so i'm pretty sure that jeshie is my beshtest friend! <3

finally, something!

excited!
business.

crocbloc!

one.two.three.jessica's.
all very pretty. why have i been blessed with so many?

where's the other franchescas? lolzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Christopher Isla: and she says "think whatever you want"
Christopher Isla: and im like i dont think. i know.
Isaac: man, women are missing part of their brain
Christopher Isla: seriously
Isaac: ahahah she tried to play it off

damn
sixty five down
but i had fun

where to go i had no idea
26.10 was the price to pay
a messed up kid with no ideals at all
i thought those 26.10 i shouldn't give'em away

i remember this young guy died and i took his part
he got far too many stitches on his pretty face
long time to see but i always thought us two would be serious
i was looking around town, thinking the same as you

i'm far gone but your long distance call
and your capital letters keep me asking for more
it's never been like that
it's never been like that

most of the people do, there're only doing just fine
i don't wanna stay in place no more, see
ain't doing well well well, i am only doing just fine

long time no see, long time no say
got little to tell, i don't say much but I might
something always told me us two would be serious
i am looking around town, thinking the same as you

i realize i'm very closed when it comes to my personal life
i don't trust anyone
is that normal?

my life isn't happy anymore
life feels like a hassle
waking up -- i worry and get ready for the stress that's coming
from my family, from my friends, from what's expected from me
we all make mistakes
we all have problems
but we're all different
and we all handle situations different
we're all at different levels

it just seems that nobody really gives a shit about me anymore
then again, the attention i seek isn't a friendship or a relationship
just someone who really cares
who cares about me
who i will care about equally

i took it for granted when someone did give a shit about me
mainly because i probably didn't give enough of a shit about them

i may be selfish at times
but i don't always show it
or treat others wrong for it

i wish my co-workers were my daily friends and roommates
why can't i find that connection anywhere else?

don't ask