Okay, I've been meaning to do this for a while. With all the wank I've seen coming up recently, I've decided to post this now, rather than some time in the future. Because many RPers seem to be a bit insecure and are very critical of themselves (myself included), I've decided that who best to get crit from then yourself?

Here's basically what's going to happen:

In this post, I will evaluate myself as an RPer, talking about my strengths and my weaknesses and discussing them. For my strengths, I will talk about what I could do to keep it up and what I should avoid in an effort to prevent failure. For my weaknesses, I will talk about how I can improve upon this and and how to NOT DO IT. I will discuss other aspects of RPing and where I stand on it. This goes not only for RPing but also for how I interact OOCly as well.

Then, I will reply to this entry with each character that I play and evaluate the way I play with this character. This post will also be in a constant state of updating and editing. Should I continue RPing for several months to come, I shall make another post.

Weaknesses:

• Metagaming:  I hate to admit it, but I think I've been guilty of this sin. This is a big no-no on my part. I think I've been doing this without meaning to and with no intention of doing so. It was only after looking at past tags have I realized what I have been doing. I am going to do my best to shape up. I just have to watch and remember what the characters themselves know. In this case, it's just a matter of being careful.

Ever since I went back to college, my health seems to be taking a turn for the worse. I have hives everywhere, and that's only the tip of the iceberg. My wrists, my back, and my head are in pain, especially when I go outside. I really need to see the doctor soon or at least figure out where I can refill my meds here. This is ridiculous! I have no fever, and I even smell ill! What's going on with me? If it doesn't rain here soon, I am in for a very painful semester. Stupid allergies. (I hope it's only allergies.)

Well, even though I feel shitty, I really should be getting back to my RPs. I haven't seen any of them in a while, and I bet I missed a lot. It'll be nice to get back, though. I hear less stress is better for you, and I have plenty of fun RPing. If this gets any worse or if I can't see a doctor soon, I may have to call a hiatus, which sucks, because I failed the Econtra activity check last time. I'm not sure they'll allow it.

Oh, and I finally have a speech topic: Education or Stupidity.

This will be fun to research. >: D

Wow, ever since I went to college, things have been changing so much. I never even go on here anymore. However, I decoded to change that and go back to blogging this way again, even though I have a facebook now. It's nice to have another place to put my thoughts where not everyone I know IRL can see. Anyway, I'm happy that I'm in college. I'm working hard. There's a lot of things I want to say right now, but I'll go little by little.

I'm also starting to do a gaming log here, so let's try my first entries:

Gaming Log

DS Lite

Brain Age - Damn. I'm name only 28 years old. Granted, my best score was 22/23, but I was just at about 38. I have to try harder. I can't believe I let myself go like that. Luckily, I played at least 7 days this month. That's a start.

Pokemon Diamond and Pearl - 51:11. It's official. I have spent more than fifty hoours playing that game, and the most I've done was planting berries. This sucks. I need to find time for this.

Huge Spoilers on the last book of Harry Potter!


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Last warning for spoilers!

Note: I also have a spoiler from Charlotte's Web and OF Mice and Men. For those who have not read those book and do not know what happens in the end, I advise you to turn back now!

Wow, I read so much last night and today that I might as well just finish the book rather than write a second log. I had suspicions about Snape and Dumbledore. As I thought, so far it doesn't look like Dumbledore is as evil as some people who have read the book are making it out to be. It merely seems that Dumbledore is a manipulative asshole just a few heads ahead of Percy when it comes to dickery. THen again, at least Percy redeemed himself. Percy himself seems to be the type of guy who really loves his family deep down even though he seems to loath them in another moment.

Out of all the families in the series, the Weasleys had the highest chance of suffering a tragedy. First, they really supported Harry Potter since the beginning. That doomed them. Second, they have more children than most families, thus increasing their chances of having a death in the war against Voldemort. Lastly, they have been a thorn to his side, such as the several times Ron helped Harry and when the twins threw snowballs at his face.

Speaking of Ron, I have a feeling that he really showed the most growth and truly is a boy worthy of the Gryffindor name. Out of trio, I think Ron is the one who is the most likely to have succumbed to the locket's powers. The way he went against it shows just how strong he is.

Now speaking of Gryffindor, brave as he supposedly was, I fear that I may have been right when I began to think of ideas of what the four founders of Hogwarts were like. For those I hadn't told, I was thinking of making fun of them, because they were characters that were not really characters at all, more background than anything else. Hell, I would even go as far and say they are beautiful plot devices.

Anyway, my original ideas for the humor fic would be that Godric (That's way easier to type.) was an idiot. You know the type. He was a foolish man who would leap into anything without thinking and still have the luck to get out of it. Kinda think of Don Quijote that had magic and a sword. DOn Quijote would still be more preferable. He probably would even go to battle with the sword rather than the wand. Anyway, my idea of him would be more idiotic than the gifts and praise that most speak of him with. So, even so, he seemed to have stolen a goblin's swords, even though the goblins have a weird sense of ownership. Either way, getting on the goblins' nerves totally screwed the present genereation further. In other words, I have a feeling that I was right - Godric was an imbecil.

One of the best parts in the books is where all of Hogwarts take on the attack against Voldemort. Prof. McGongall is badass! All the teachers are. Hell, Neville's grandmother kicks ass. Go old people!

The one thing that is really bothering me is the lack of muggles. I had a feeling they were more important and was going to play a critical role in the story. So far, there isn't. This is concerning me. I hope at least we can see more of Draco. It's good to know there are so many people who care about his well-being. The Malfoys sure have good paternal instincts.

Now, in regards to Snape, I fear to type about him, in case I really spoil someone badly. However, I still have the feeling that his whole life will be one big tragedy. I always knew he was just looking out for people. He never was really the evil one. From what I heard, my aunt cried after reading everything about Snape. Damn, I hope its not what I think.

Speaking of tagedies, I just have to say that Dobby's death was the saddest. What happened to Dobby was up there in the saddest deaths in literature that I ever read, which includes Charolette from Charlotte's Web by E.B. White and Lenny from Of Mice and Men by John Steinbeck and made me sadder than any other occurence in the Harry Potter series. I think Dobby was critical to Harry's overall life story. I'm still upset over it, but I couldn't be more happy, because he helped Harry just like he always wanted to.

One last thing I want to bring up is that the childhood stories of wizards and witches that Hermione carries - it contains the story about the Deathly Hollows - seems to be foreshadowing. Someone in the trio is doomed, but I think the most important part is more on how they die and their level of acceptance of it. I could go into analyzing the story, but I would feel very silly.

I think the last thing I want to mention is Ariana. They aren't explicit in what happened to her when she was 6, but the human imgination can run real wild. Who knows? I hope that it isn't the worst thing that I'm thinking of. It is highly unfortunate that such an inncoent girl would be subject to the worst of what Muggles can do. No matter what anyone says, wizards are afraid of Muggles. That's the whole story. A horrid thing, however, from this is that most of the bad things that most fans assume happened to Ariana will only show up, because she is a girl. I personally think she could have been greater than her brothers with the magic she was able to do. It's a huge pity. Either way, the only question I have now is what was Dumbledore really thinking? Whatever we believe, we know most of the characters through Harry's eyes, and we only know some people from what others say about them. This includes Dumbledore. Other characters are the least reliable source of what a character's true nature really is. Therefore, before I make any true final judgements, I'll reserve them and keep reading on.

That's all for now. I'm pretty sure then next one will be me typing about the end. I may or may not complain. Toodles!

I can't stress it enough! Posts that say "Harry Potter Log" will have spoilers! If you don't want spoilers, don't look!



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Day 1:

OMG they killed Hedwig!!!!! >:C

Seriously, that was something I didn't see that coming. I also have a feeling that what happened to Mad-Eye is not what it seems. Frankly, at this point, anyone's a target except for Hagrid as of now, because Hagrid just can't die. He has too many people depending on him. He has a dependent little brother and many animals he's caring for. It would be far too much a shame if he were to die. As long as Fleur and Bill's wedding doesn't end with a quick end with the bride or grrom dying, I think I'll be cool. As of now, I'm really wondering about Lupin. He's being overprotective, but there seems to be something wrong... Well, at least he's married to a really cool Auror.

Oh, and is it incredibly wrong of me to totally love Dudley now? He's actually somewhat grateful! I really hope he doesn't die and show up again somewhere. The Dursleys leaving was an absolutely perfect scene to me. Also, this book is getting seriously dark. Perhaps those who began reading the book when they were young matured, so the series itself must mature. It's rather interesting when you think about it.

Lastly, I just want to say that the trio seems to have grown incredibly competent. Capared to how they were before, they seem to be actually capable of taking down some Death Eaters. I'm still awaiting more new characters, any proof/disproofs of my theories, more Snape, and muggles.

For those who don't know, I think that Muggles will play a huge part in the story. In all technicality, I believe they are mightier than wizards.

Well, that's all for now, I'll update again as I read more.

Well, since apparently LJs are now for the purpos of complaining, I might as well type about all that's pissing me off as of now, especially since I have my monthly visitor right now.

Right now, I'm having a bit of college trouble. I've been accepted into one of the colleges I want to go to and I should be going there soon. However there has been financial problems. It may be too expensive for me to go there. So, I may just have to go to a community college, of which is really close by. I don't mind going there either. There is a chance I could get more financial aid in the next coming years. I have a huge decision to make.

On another note, it's been hard to concentrate and do all the things I need to do, because of my health. My skin is KILLING me. Seriously, my skin is very itchy and sensitive as of late. It's so bad, tomorrow, I will be going to the dermatologist to get these patches to test hat I'm allergic to. My ear is also swollen and it hurts helluva lot.

Because of this and other responsibilities, such as my part-time baby-sitting job, I have not had time to contact my friends. I don't really want to talk on the phone because of my swollen ear. This sucks. I should be e-mailing, but I have loads to do, like clean the house. (Which no one else cleans. Am I the person in the house that actually cleans around here? This sucks.)

More to come later from my aggravated state.

Please no one reply to this. And I am in no danger. This is merely an emotional thing. People just need to know that people can feel like this sometimes.

I just wanna say that I feel so helpless right now. So helpless. It's a really bad feeling. I always knew I had it somewhere deep inside of me. Now, there's just too much of it. That's all. I'll just have to hold onto it until it natrually leaves from me. Until then, it's going to be a really sucky time to be me right now. That last line makes me feel guilty, though. There's people out there way worse off then me.

For the record, I am here.

Sorta.

I got something I need to do.

And I had to take out my neopets tiki icon, because I'm afraid neopets might sue. ;_;
If anyone has any alternative suggestion or a way for me to put my icon back legally, please, do tell.

I have been SO busy lately. I mean, damn! I think it really was a good idea to drop myself out of the BR RP. I just have no time anymore. I think I might quit myself out of all the RPs I am in. I just don't have the time, and this is AFTER I finished my school year.

Anyway, tomorrow is the dreaded SATs. I hate being so negative about it, but I honestly don't think it reflects intelligence. The ironic part about it is that this test might be my best bet to a good school. Apparently, my grades are dropping, because I suck at time management. I'll be working on it extra-hard next year. I barely got by with all the Bs I know I have now. my grades dropped, and that's going to look bad, especially since I know I could do better if I could just manage my damn time well. >.<

Anyway, I'm relying on a system I don't like, because it's my only hope, seeing that I did pretty good on my last SAT. This is the second time I'm taking it, because I believe my math grade could be better. Once I start getting the hang of my schedule for the summer, I'll start putting up some hints and tips for test-takers.

Note to self: GIVE Freezie pleasy Fishie!!!!!!!!!!11111111111

( Now, for fandom ramblings )

BTW, if anyone is reading this, tell me, am I the only one whose parents give them the chore of going to the book shop and see if Tenjou Tenge 6 is finally out? Am I?

Well, I've got my fighting spirit back! So, that is a very good thing.

( onto fan stuff including Danny Phantom, Prince of Tennis, FMA, Samurai Champloo, and Neon Genesis Evangelion )

( Why did the phantom cross the road? )



But really, though. I don't hate her. Not yet. I'll have to see the episode. Besides, I have the sudden urge to draw a fanart of her cute, enormously large head causing her to topple over on the ground, leaving her unable to get up.

Speaking of art, I'm currently working on my a cover for the anime club's cover contest. I'm entering, but I still have to get the scan on my computer and ink it. The printer and programs have been on the fritz lately. We'll just have to see what happens.

BTW, I went to my school musical. Best. School. Musical. Ever!!!!!!

This is for the Danny Phantom "phandom."

All right now. We've all heard of Kindred Spirits. The summary sucks ass like hell. Most people want to rip their eyes out. However, most of us have all have forgotten the most important and most likely way that Butch Hartman can pull it off. There is an unwritten rule that binds all forms of entertainment. Here it is:

If it's funny, you can get away with it.

Butch Hartman is funny. Just take a good look Fairly Odd Parents. Until I see the episode crash and burn, the series still has my full faith.


Until then, I am off to search for my lost fighting spirit. I hope to find it soon, or my ambition really will be lost. >.<;

Just for the record. I'm alive, and I haven't been checking my friends' page.

Damn you Gaia Online and homework. And damn you too, Tina Yothers.

I'm alive again. But soon, I will be dead, as I have 3 AP classes I will be taking next year. Three!

x_x <---- me dead

Okay, so I think you all deserve to hear what happened on the speech tournaments I've been in. The first one, I lost. Apparently, I should not have brought note cards that I didn't look at, even when I forget when I brought it up. Stupid me. They counted that against me, it seems. The second one, however, was a success! Of course, I only won third place. I lost to a guy who talked about ageism (Is that how you spell it?) and to a girl who talked about preperations. I think the content of the speech was what made me lose to them.

Lastly, I won $50 in the Lions' club speech contest talking about whether the internet was a hero or villain. I was competing against this senior girl. I think I won, because she spoke with note cards. I had to memorize mine. Personally, I think she was nervous. Either way, I won, meaning I'll have another level to go to. The only thing I have to do now besides practice is change the ending. People seem to not be clear that I am clearly not against the internet itself. I'm against at the abuse.

Lastly, I walked across the Golden Gate Bridge today. I had to walk back, too. We're traveling all around for school this week. I was lucky to find the time to access the internet right now. Anyways, see you all and I hope to be more activate sometime soon!

I'm alive again. But soon, I will be dead, as I have 3 AP classes I will be taking next year. 3!

x_x <---- me dead

Okay, so I think you all deserve to hear what happened on the speech tournaments I've been in. The first one, I lost.

To be continued. I have to eat.

So, I'm going to a speech competition tomorrow. Wish me luck! I'll need it...

What's the speech about? The internet.

More on it later!

It's the 13th of Friday. However, I believe superstition goes against my religion, so just forget what I just said.

I've been tagged!!!!!

Tagger: natsu_yuki

( What should I put here? )

Oh, and even though I haven't been able to do some of the things I wanted, I'm now working on a lot of things now. I hope to do the best I can. Lastly, I am very excited, because it's a 3-day weekend. I'll finally be doing some things I need to do. ^_^ The only bad luck I consider myself having today was the fact that I could have turned in my term paper but couldn't because I forgot to include my citations.

Stupid stupid stupid stupid me! >.< !!!!!

That is all. Enjoy your weeked, all of you!! (Those that actually read this. -_-;)

The following Meme has given me deja vu and made me felt older than I was. Therefore, I hope to help spread and share with you all.

( 90's meme )


Stupid Meme, making me feel old. >.< <3


Okay, for those who don't know, I'm in the Speech Team in my school. Okay, so I had three pages too much for a speech. I understood that I need to cut it, and I'm happy that my coach helped. Unfortunately, when she cut out a few things, something was lost. Now, I'm talking about the internet, but instead of the internet being an enemy that we can fix using our discretion, I'm talking about the internet being a villain that could only be stopped using things like laws. This seriously sucks. -_-

A few other facts I couldn't fix in my speech:

* MMORPG is NOT a multi-player role-playing game. It's a MASSIVELY multi player ONLINE role-playing game. I know that the judges don't care and that I might sound bad saying that whole thing, but it still upsets me, because I'm just not correct.

* It's NOT creepy for a people to mourn over a dead IRL person in the virtual cathedral. Unorthodox, yes, but some people are seriously upset when these things happen.

* Blogs are not as dangerous as I have made them. If I kept all the information I had, then the blog wouldn't seem like something that could kill you. Blogs will not kill people off the face of the Earth! >:(

* There is no Girl B. There is only the deceased Satomi Mitarai. Girl A is known as "Nevada-tan." To not call Satomi by her name is not, in all techniality, correct.

* I doubt Nevada-tan's fanbase is a cult. I don't want to say that in my speeh. Although, some might aruge otherwise, so it's up for debate.

*I have a hard time saying the world "lest" without thinking I'm saying it funny or sounding too old. I don't like it!

Either way, I'll be saying my utterly edited speech, hoping people could actually understanding what I say. Next time, I'll do a speech I won't have to cut. That way, my original point gets across. The good news is that I'll be going to a pie place. Mmm... pie...

You are ALKITTY. your tough, friendly, and a little
clumsy. You are adored by people they look up
to you an you might possibly be idolized by
others. I hope not that's a little creepy.
Still you're fun to be around.


Which FMA Kitty Are You?
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Woah...

Okay, so I'm still in finals, barely making it. I'll tell you write now, though, I pretty much did well in Geometry. I think I'm okay in Poetry, but I'm not as confident as Geometry. Now, I have to study for Chemistry and History.

Test-taking tip #1: Have extra pencils/writing tool

I can't stress the above enough. Do it! You will not regret it! Trust me! Don't make me tell you an embarassing story.

Speaking of embarassing stories, I just made one today, as I had done the most embarassing thing I ever did in my life. I won't tell you details as on a scale of 1-10 on the embarassing meter, it hits a 15. (I wanted to say 25, but I cannot be so arrogant as to say that.) I will tell you what I though right after everything was fixed up:

"I hope I can get that smell out of my shoes."

What you make of that is up to you.

Lastly, I came to tell of what my future projects will be. It's what I'll be working on in my spare time during my winter vaction, which will be in three days! Whoo!!!!!

*reading Nickel and Dimed and finishing Battle Royale and starting Donald Duk. All three, I hear, are good books. If I have time, I may have that book review for The Grapes of Wrath up. If I have even more time, I'll be able to read Kite Runner or Crime and Punishment. My aplologies. I completely forgot some of these author's names. >.< I better check soon.

*For Naruto fans: writing the rest of Bound (GaaraLee) and Thanks for the Chocolate! Later on, I'll be wriitng an essay on Hinata, because there is way more to her than most people see, even those that do get her character down right.

*For FMA fans: A futuristic fic on the take of the technology in FMA. That is, when I finish the series. >.< I only have access to the licensed version as of now. But once I'm done, I may write an essay on how FMA compares to other manga titles in general.

*For Saiyuki fans: A future fic on a revolution! Sorta. I'll give you a hint on what will come. Points if you understand what I'm talking about: Maitreya and Green/Red Tara.

*For PoT fans: I swear! I'll update the Sakuno in Battle Royale fic! Really! You'll like it when it's done. I'm just not used to updating things a chapter at a time anymore. For those really interested, I have two essays I'll write about Prince of Tennis: One will be about what I believe the end of Prince of Tennis will be like; the other will be about my opinion on Seigaku and how Prince of Tennis relates to other Shonen, (maybe sports) manga. Prepare for lots of psychotic logic. (It makes sense. I swear.)

*For Boondocks fans: I'm still finishing up the sprites. It's been a long time since I've ever sprited anything, and I am rusty. The hair style keep looking funny. It doesn't help that I never kept my old sprites. (Then again, they weren't that good compared to others. -_-;)

'Looks like I have a busy vacation ahead of me. Oh well, time to study!