"And what I've found out is that the times we are the greatest are when we admit we're not always the best."







I can not wrap my mind around how quickly time is moving.
I'm going to be 18 on sunday. 18. 18. 18.
I'm trying not to go crazy, because in those 18 years I have done so many wonderful things.
I want to live so much longer. so much more. I'm so excited!

and really happy. and a little scared.
:)

hi.
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usually at 12:40am I am not normal.

9 days until my 18th birthday!!
I can't believe it.
but I refuse to get sentimental at all,
or at least until my actual birthday.


the debate watching party was good! I counted about 20 people!
soo awesome! Joe looked good.

2009 SENIOR STUFF TODAY :)

LIFE IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU'RE BUSY MAKING OTHER PLANS.



I am happy :)
plus, four day week.
who knew.

I love my new room.
and the fact that it has a computer

i guess there isn't much else to say.
my feelings are pretty mixed up right now.
everyone is tense.
I'm tense and tired.
I feel like John McCain.
(OHHHH...but not really because if I did I would have to be feeling old too)
oh and that's right, I have to bring the election into EVERYTHING I do.


I have to sleep.

everything about today has just been blahh.
I stayed home from the football game to do homework
didn't really do any.
good job.



all of a sudden I feel like something is missing.
I'm so annoyed with myself.

psychology. sucks kind of.
mmhm


I am realizing now that the work never ends.
but I think once I hit wednesday it will get better.
let's plan it out.
tomorrow I have a psychology test
wednesday I have a math quiz and my english paper is due, plus the calling night!
once the calling night is done I don't think I will really have anything. Oh, except the psychology proposal....which we were suppose to get class time to start because it's a group thing. Awww mannnn. But then it's the office premiere with isaac and eve! Then it's friday and the forks trip with my fabulous cake making homeroom then it's the first presidential debate. THEN THE WEEKEND FTW! :D

time is moving so quickly.
god I forgot about college stufff :('



ps - I'm updating from my new room.HEYYYO.

This...



Was inspired by this...



there has never been anything false about HOPE.

I moved my room :) to where my brothers' old room(s) used to be. (I'm not sure how to phrase that sentence. because first it was JUST Marc's room, then it was JUST Dave's. Then it was JUST an office type room where either of them could crash. Now it is my room...they are completely roomless. teheh.


but it is so amazing. I love it so much :D It's such a "senior" thing to do in my house. When you move down there you know you are one step closer to leaving the house. haha. It's such a little bachelorette pad now...oh, plus the computer is in there. Now whenever I have people over we will be able to move freely between family room/tv and my room/computer. It's everything we need! anyway...

I have a whole lot of homework to do. ehhh.



I found this quote on the quotes community I am a part of...

"Each time a man stands up for an ideal, or acts to improve the lot of others, or strikes out against injustice, he sends forth a tiny ripple of hope, and crossing each other from a millon different ceners of energy and daring, those ripples build a current that can sweep down the mightest walls of opression and resistance."
-Robert Kennedy

7 monthes.
wow, that went by so quickly.
looking back I was extremely happy :)
then I thought I would never get over it.
hahahah.
I didn't even REALIZE it until alyssa started talking to me again today.
coinciendence...unless she is a creeper :)
I guess it still says something that I mention it though, right?
I'm just chillin.
should be sleeping.


I love lamp.
I mean, life.

50-50...both.
(eve, if you read my LJ,that's a direct quote from prison mike.)


oh hey BTW, in one week I will have just watched the office premiere.
so I'll be ranting about that.
Dana, you better be on AOL afterwards.
Isaac, we still having a premiere party? haha.

yo yo yiggity yo.


I need to get writing my english essay.
well, I have a paragraph...and an hour to kill.


just figured I would write something here first.

I love a lot of things right now.
in the past I have written about my heart feeling as if it will burst...
yea well it's feeling that way again.

I hope it isn't some medical problem.
hah. jkjkjkjkjkjkjk.


urg. I know I have tonnns of work to do.
but guess what? none of it is due tomorrow so I am SLACKING.
to the best of my ability. damn tricia.

I went to Massachusetts this weekend.
way too much to say.
I LOVE TUFTS. WITH ALL MY HEART BASICALLY.
which means I should be doing madddd work so I don't die.
the chances of me getting in are probably 50/50.
which means I have to bust my ass even more. damn tricia.

So that was friday. my dad and I have grand adventures rocking out to a mix of Bob Dylan, Johnny Cash, Frank Sinatra, NPR, Roger Miller, Billie Holiday, The Band and Michelle Shocked. We are the craziest people I know. I just called myself crazy. mehh.

Saturday we went to Wellesley. or whatever that insane all girl's school is called...wait, what? It was beautiful, their endownment is 1.4 billion dollars. to put that in some perspective that is 3 TIMES Colby's endownment. So, uhm...they are rolling in the benjamins. why I would ever phrase it like that, I have no idea. but for real, it is one of the prettiest campus' I have ever seen. (the layout was designed by the guy who designed Central Park.) Anyway, the idea of an all girl's school is fabulous but really unrealistic. Unrealistic is the only way I know how to explain it. Even my tour guide admitted to "being confused" when they travel off campus into the "real world." please...I have enough trouble interacting with people...I don't need to spend the majority of my time secluded from half the world's population. It seems like they want to create some kind of "fantasy world." Men are very much a part of my fantasy world, I suppose. My dad says I am missing a grand opportunity. Except he would never say "grand" he actually knocked the the steering wheel as we were driving off and goes "that's opportunity knocking at your door." uhm...k dad. Then we went to Worcester. HELLLLLLS YEA MY HOMETOWN! (ignore things like that, I am wound up.) For cereal, I don't know why I love that dirty, hood-tastic city as much as I do. In the words of Mr. Dumont it's a "very classy city." (complete sarcasm on his part) I really wanted to yell at him...I am so connected with that town. Don't knock it or I'll knock you. Actually, no...I completely understand people who say that. I am bewildered as to why I LOVE it as much as I do. but I do. so that's that.
I think it is the mix of my birth place, Clark, the culture, the struggle, and the amazing food. Lee's was out of Zahtah and Baklava :(:( But we got cheeseee pies. I love Lee. So Dave was visiting Mike Harris at Clark and Marc & Erika live in Worcester...so we were all together. We met at Siggy and went to NANCY CHANG'S. mhmhmhmmh. deliciousness. We finally got our chinese food. I secretly wanted to go to Cony Island but my dad brought up at the beginning of the trip that he had given up hot dogs. So alas, not chili dog for me. Which out of context sounds a little sickening...but Cony Island is prime. Many laughs and fortune cookies later, we split up. Then dad and I had so much energy that we went to Barnes & Nobel (really, Worcester has very little else to do...besides hood rat things...or latino clothing stores...or eating....or church.) So we found ourselves at a B&N at like 10:00 at night. We bought Dreams From my Father on audio for the ride home. Then we went back to the hotel. woo.

Sunday we slept in. Then we went to the Italian church (why call it an ITALIAN church? because Worcester has about 10 Catholic churchs all founded by different ethnic groups.) I love going to church at different places. Everyone was Italian and happy and of course the mass is the same every where. It was really kind of beautiful. Every prayer, song, reading, and communion is the same. I love it. Then we went to St. Joseph's Abbey!! AND I MET BOB KELLEHER!! Finally. Tom's uncle. He is from Worcester, is 80 years old, helps out at the Monestary, and is one of my PWPP bosses. Him, my dad, and Brother Emmanuel had a "business meeting" so I set up my homework in an office and tried to work. But seriously, the excitement and joy that Bob and I shared from meeting each other still just warms my heart. It is really odd. We were just excited to talk, to share ideas, and he was so happy to show me around. I already just love him. and I know in some way he loves me too. He was REALLY looking forward to meeting me. He was already one of my favorite people and now that I have met him it's doubly true. He is my memere's age so maybe I relate him to a grandfather figure I never knew? I don't know. but I was happy to finally meet him :D


Then we drove home, listening to Barack Obama.
got home around 10:30.
It was a fantastic trip.


Today I failed a math test. damn tricia.
I don't even care because today was a pretty good day.

I just realized that I hadn't posted a real entry in 4 days.
which seems like a looong time...even though it isn't.


there just isn't anything huge going on.
I'm loving life. but I'm also getting a tad stressed already.
I have a lot of homework to do tonight.
mostly reading though, so that's okay.


right now I have to go, but I'll probably update more later!!

"You don't find anyone new until
you're brave enough to give up the old."

I'm so bored.

I read through my last journal entry and that is the most typos I EVER remember making. tsk tsk.

I hate typos. which is why I posted this.
wooo.

well, school started a week ago.
I'm just barely getting sick of it.
I know that by the end of the year I will be going crazy.
but for now it is still exciting getting into it and there are a lot of things to look forward to regardless.

at the end of august I was offered an internship ship type thing with the maine democratic party...I turned it down because it was 10-15 hours of work a week and honestly I didn't think I would be able to get a core group together at Waterville. but over these past few days of school I realize that there are some people who are interested in this election like I am. (maybe not QUITE as much) So, yeaterday (as I was watching the RNC) I got a call inviting me to a phone conference for all of the high school contacts. (I guess I have become the contact of WSHS!) yea, anyway...we are going to talk about organizing voter registration at the school. I am really excited to be doing something associated with this election, you know? it feels good. If anyone at the high school reads this and wants to join me I would mbe ore than happy to have help. If not, I suggest you at least register to vote if you are going to be able to come November. It's important...and fun :)

I will probably be announcing it in Community Homeroom when it happens anyway.

wooo.


Kate comes home tomorrow. we have talked every single day since she has been away :):) I love it. I do miss her, but it is soo fun to hear her talk about college life. like "oh hey I'm walking around campus coming home from the gym and there are people everywhere playing games and walking..." It's really exciting. The other night I was looking out my window and she goes "whoa, look at the sky" it was really funny to think we could see the same moon and clouds (I know thst sounds cliche...but it's truly cool!!)

I'm excited for the Europe trip meeting!!! England, Scotland, and Ireland. Ohh, it will be so much. and I am for sure going :):):) Also, I am going to see if I can go to Close Up (the trip to Washington DC) because let's face it, I have gotten really into politics....plus I have never been to Washington DC! I just don't think I would be able to afford Europe AND Close Up...but Ms. L said not to let any money issues stop me from going...so I am going to talk to her about it tomorrow!!


these reeling emotions they just keep me alive, they keep me in tune :)

I wish you were a stranger I could disengage.