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woa i haven't updated in a long time, i don't really have much to say here, with my other lj and all.. um... well my anonymous people haven't been bugging me lately, maybe they're on vacation.. well whatever, without cheer practivce i'm pretty bored, i applied for SAS at taft yesterday so that means i get to go there yay. the second day of school we have our first football game at crenshaw, which means we have to wear our uniform to school.. oh how fun. lol. screw it, i make fun of myself all ready. we haven't gotten them yet though, i wonder when we will.. well anyways i made a collage the other day that i put on my userinfo on my other lj take a look, same pictures i had on my background pic before. except i added like 5 more.
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[12 Aug 2004|08:27pm] |
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this was hard so if you're not in it i'm sorry!!!
*::.who has the best.::*
eyes- angela, ev, danny crabb, or zalman
body- david castro (lmao angela) nah he looked kind of puny when i saw him a couple days ago. :x hm. i dunno.
personality- all my friends
smile- ..everyone i guess.
feet- ..lol..um. sally. lol she always has the coolest socks lol
*::.who's the best.::*
dancer- justin lol
singer- ev of course
writer- anyone who writes. esp. angela, ev, and camille, and matt, and sherin, and of course the lovely lilah. since they post their stuff.
dressed- um.. i dunno...ev, angela, leah, nicole, sally , suki, evan..um... carlos (always matches lol) justin, kristieneand um.. people.
all around- leah, and everyone else. lol
*::.who's the.::*
smartest- roxana, angela, nilab, andrea, lindsay, carolyn, tai, leah, nicole, um.. a lot of my peeps.
craziest- lol there's a lot of those.
funniest- justin, jesse, vinnie, angela, ev, leah, nicole, alex, and leah.
most outgoing- justin, jesse, and vinnie a.k.a the three stooges
loudest- all the girls lol
quietest- lmao um i dunno..
prettiest- zalman of course. who else?
nicest-everyone except those damn anonymous poster people, witt and funny, but mean. lol
*::.who will most likely .::*
be raped by a monkey-um..lmao um. anyone who gets very lonely at the zoo. hint hint vinnie.
become successfuly rich- everyone except me lol
get a tattoo/body piercing- hm..ev, me, angela, and.. um..
die by getting shot- jesse lol
become a famous singer or actress/actor- ev and vinnie
first to become pregnant in high school- lmao i don't think i wanna answer that question.
comment on this- idk no one?
copy and paste this in their lj and fill it out- anyone who's as bored as i am.
so anyways... jovanni called today. him and rosario won 3rd place in the dance contest last wek. damn i wish i could've been there. we would've at least gotten 2nd lol. eh i don't like rosario very much. oh well. anyways. we went to hp today to go eat at the best mexican place we know: el ranchito. it was awesome. their shrimp is good. :D and pedro had these strawberry margaritas. and he got so drunk it was hilarious. so then my bro had to go work and he dropped us off at my house. my mom drove pedro and marcielle home and it was fun.
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[12 Aug 2004|02:07pm] |
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god damn it. the toxic fumes of the oven cleaner are making me cough a lot. lol.well it's jesse's birthday. yay! and kristiene's tomorrow yay!..yay! lol oh crap about 8 hours of cheer tomorrow. aahhhh. :X
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lamo. ok lol i'm. at my house. lol lmao. sorry,. lol. yea. lol guess were i just came from?? my roof!! lol lamo. lol. i was stuck on my roof. cause i couldn't reach the stupid ladder and i so i couldn't get donw lol but hten i went to he other side and found the stone wall thing and i just on it and then just off it and i fell lol/ an dit hurt,. lmao. hte marcielle and pedro came over (again, i swear they're in love with my court) and then my mom wasn't here and we played basketball and i lost lol and now i'm woozy lol damn you smirnoff's i should've stopped after 3. god damn. it/ oh oh oh!!! tomorrow's jesse's birthday and then afgter that is kris's b-day!! yay!!!!! so i made and icon. in dedication to jesse's brthday. cuase he's helped me a lot recently. and yea. woo...zy. lol lmao. bye lol. auf wiedersehn. lmao. :D
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[30 Jul 2004|07:15pm] |
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you know the saying "you hurt the ones you love" well it works both ways..
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[29 Jul 2004|12:40pm] |
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what is society coming to!???!?!?
santa..1836-2000...
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[27 Jul 2004|01:23pm] |
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finally!!! i got through to this journal!! woo. i changed stuff again. (layout, user pic, the sort.) whatver. gotta get ready for cheer.
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[18 Jul 2004|01:14pm] |
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you took hold of my heart and crushed it into pieces yet it still managed to love you. you blinded me when i saw you two kiss but still my eyes managed to long for your face. after all that we've been through. all that you've done. i've managed to forgive you. although maybe it's dumb. it makes perfect sense, at least in my eyes. to miss the one that still makes me cry. although you might not care. i'm emptying my heart out to you. although you've moved on, there's something that i wanna tell you. as time passes by. as things change. my feelings for you are still the same. ♥ when all we had was eachother. i stood by your side. when you weren't there. i'd understand. but then somehow you managed to kill it. you managed to take away my smile. the smile that was so full of my love for you, so full of all the beauty. you managed to make me cry when i was already feeling horrible. you managed to lower me down to a meaningless soul. and yet i..forgived you.. i tried again and what ahappened? we failed. i tried so hard to make you happy. to make you laugh while the whole world was against us. i tried everything and it didn't matter..
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NEGATIVE BABY!!! O YEA!!!!!!
JUST GOT BACK FROM THE DOCTOR'S!!! I DON'T HAVE LEUKEMIA!!! I HAVE SOMEHTING ELSE BUT IT'S NOT AS FATAL!!!..WORKS FOR ME!!!!!
YAY!!!!!!!!!
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[25 Jun 2004|09:33pm] |
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my grandma's coming to our house on sunday. to stay. :X it's not that i don't like her it's just that she doesn't like me. she's always comparing me to some girl from Mexico. 'oh she eats everything we give her' oh well i'm sorry that i don't like to eat eggs! damn it's not my fault they makes me woozy after i eat them. damn. for christ's sake woman. you're supposed to be supportive. not 'that dress makes you look skimpy' or 'tati gets straight a's every report card' sorry for not being perfect. eh anyways. i did zalman's layout the other day. :X talk about a mess. i ruined it. i'm sorry. i'm semi-new at this whole layout thing. did you know i have three lj's? that's sad lol. see how bored i get. i need to keep busy. eww. bad memory with ross. 'i have nothing to do' 'i'll come over there and give you something to "do"' *shudders* lol anyways. jesse is getting high or something. these days he's been rather..high acting? lol i dunno. i'm not complaining. cause he's hilarious but what's going on there? hm...after all this time i still don't approve of jessa. maybe that's cause i'm the ex. but i dunno. don't get me wrong, i'm not jealous of jessa. i just hate her with all my guts because she anoys me to death. but if she makes him happy i mean i guess that's fine. i should be supportive of my friend, even if he is dating the most annoying girl in the world. but everyone says she's nice..i should try to get to know her. and i will..someday. for now i just won't talk about her anymore. BESIDES THAT here's a weird convo with me and jesse again:
Nirvana Fluid: YOU'L NEVER HAVE ME POT YER GOLD!
Armyrockgurl69: pot my gold?
Nirvana Fluid: DAMN STRAIGHT BIOTCH
Armyrockgurl69: I DON'T WANT YOU TO POT MY GOLD!
Nirvana Fluid: TOO BAD!
Nirvana Fluid: ITS ALREADY BEEN POTTED!
Armyrockgurl69: HOW DO YOU KNOW!?!?! ARE YOU STALKING MY GOLD?!?!?!
Nirvana Fluid: DUH!!!!!
Armyrockgurl69: OH YEA THEN WHAT'S MY GOLD'S NAME?!?!?
Nirvana Fluid: IT LOVES ME
Armyrockgurl69: HUH!?!?
Nirvana Fluid: WERE HAVING AN AFFAIR
Armyrockgurl69: GIVE ME IT'S NAME!!
Nirvana Fluid: WILLIE!!!!!!
Nirvana Fluid: WILLIE MCKNIGHT!!!!
Armyrockgurl69: darn... LUCKY GUESS!!!!!
Nirvana Fluid: OHHHHHHHHH YEAAAAAA
Nirvana Fluid: ITS NICE IN THE SAC!
Nirvana Fluid: MMMMMMMMMHHHHHMMMM
Armyrockgurl69: DON'T TALK ABOUT MY GOLD THAT WAY!!
Nirvana Fluid: I'LL TALK ABOUT YOU'RE GOLD ANY WAY I WANT!
Nirvana Fluid: IT S MY MIOTCH
Nirvana Fluid: *BIOTCH
Armyrockgurl69: WELL IT'S MY SEX KITTEN!!!
Nirvana Fluid: WELL ITS MY BIOTCH!
Armyrockgurl69: IT'S MY SEX KITTEN!!
Nirvana Fluid: ITS MY HORE!!!!!!!
Nirvana Fluid: AND IT SAID IT DIDNT LOVE YOU AS MUCH AS ME!
Nirvana Fluid: ITS MINE!
Armyrockgurl69: WELL IT SAID THAT IT WAS "IN LOVE" WITH ME SO HA!!!
Nirvana Fluid: WELL IT FUCKED ME!
Nirvana Fluid: 3 TIMES!
Nirvana Fluid: IN 50 MINUTES!
Nirvana Fluid: BOO YA!
Armyrockgurl69: ok you win lol
Armyrockgurl69: my gold is now yours..
Nirvana Fluid: LMAO
Nirvana Fluid: I DONT WANT IT IM SORRY
Nirvana Fluid: FUCK
Nirvana Fluid: ONE SECOND
Armyrockgurl69: lol k
tomorrow i'm going to the doctor's *crosses fingers* the results arrived but they're like in some sheet i can't understand lol so the doctor's going to explain whats going on. ***nervousness*** my mom had like a heart atatck today cause my nose started bleeding again. she was like. 'has it stopped? has it stopped?' every freaking second. it didn't stop for a while. i was listening to everlong when it goes 'slow how you wanted it to be' when it started and ended near the 'kudos my hero' in,my hero.lol that was pretty cool though. i was listening to ev's cd. so it's like from number 4 to 8. eh. anyways. deli meat is soo good!!! i had like my first real taste and it's so yummy. and i love it. and then for "dinner" we had this really yummy like shrimp that had like..bread on it. lol i duno what to call it in spanish it's 'empanizado' but yea. anyways it's really cool. they put it over a huge salad and it's so yummy. puerto rican resturants rock. even better than the mexican resturants here. but the resturants in Mexico you can't beat. those are just..yum. lol i swear i'm gaining so much weight lol now that food is around me like about 24/7. thank god i have cheer practice on the 7th. :X but it's so hot..but it'lll be a good workout..hm. i'm actually eager to go. my first real official cheer practice. god i hope we don't do stunts...
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just cam home from HP. spent like half the day there. we left around 12 to the doctor's. they took blood smaples and asked questions. it was borng and we were sitting there for like an hour before they took us in. then my mom wen tback home to work and we left to my grandma's house in Huntington Park. she fed me till i thought i was gonna burst but it's cool cause she's an awesome cook. then we left to the park. my cousins and brother played baseball while i watched cause my arm still hurt. but it was awesome. we saw a cute puppy and we tried to catch it and when we did some lady came up and said "what are you doing to my dog" lol we were laughing so hard. my grandma was like still the whole time. asking me every second if i was ok. it annoyed the hell out of me but i know she's just trying to help. i just wish they wouldn't talk about it so much. thinking about it just makes it worse. makes people cry and such. like last night for example, my mom and dad stayed up talking about it, my room is right next to their's so i heard everything. "no sabe que esto le puede matar" blah blah blah. while they were discussing i stayed up reading my jokebook and watching the simpsons. i also watched who wants to marry my dad lol. two of the women had to take lie detector test and they asked one of them if she would help them pay for their apartment and she said yes and it was false lol and then they asked if she would flirt with their boyfriends and she said yes he ended up not getting eliminated. that sucks. poor layne. lol lalala...
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priscilla got it. leukemia got the best of me. i'm going in tomorrow to see the doctors again. eh. i'm not up for it. their offices always scare me. this weekend was ok. we got my daddy a truck for his brithday. chevy silverado LS. pretty cool but i was eyeing the corvettes. um.. lets's see..saturday i didn't go to the grad party i was invited to cause the family came to the house. my grandma was crying and everyone was all 'are you ok' it's like..'*urgh*..leave me alone!' yea, i knew my mom shouldn't've told my grandma. but at least she didn't have a heart attack as i pressumed she would. so yea then we went to see the family on sunday again. father's day was ok. my dad loves his truck. and then my uncles getting one too. so on july 4th we're going camping. my mom doesn't want to let me go but i mean fresh air's good for the body lol. last time we went was classic. my aunt getting hooked by the mouth by a fishing pole hook thing, my uncle almost drowning, me throwing the fishing pole into the water accidentally lol ah good times. right now it's about to be 12 and i'm bored as hell. one of my goals this summer is to beat rayman. its a playstation game that we've had since i lived in LA. i have never been able to beat it. it's such an old game but i never get around to finishing it. it has so many levels and you have to get like five cagers per stage of little munchkin things lol and you have to get all of them or it doesn't let you beat it and yea. it's confusing. my aunt "did my nails" yesterday. first time! i don't thing she did it right. all she did was paint them and put rinestony on them i duno lol i'm not into that whole world of nails and manicures. to tell you the truth i don't even know what a manicure is lol. but shh. no one needs to know that..then why am i writing it in my livejournal who knows? you know the whole livejournal thing baffles me. why in the world would someone write in something that anyone in the world could read. anyone could know what's going on in my life. maybe cause i know they wouldn't give a damn whats going on in my life cause it's so boring lol but w/e. i don't give. i just want to spill my heart out onto my computer and if people happen to read it and comment then let it be. *sigh* i'm so bored..and i'm all run out of parties til the weekend. you know that has no use. having parties on the weekend. i mean if it's summer people are free. well except parents but these aren't parent parites...hm..screw it i'm confusing myself. someone! ave anotehr party! maybe melissa should since i missed the other one lol meh i dunno if she'd be up for it. i still think she hates me....lalala..omg leah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you won the bet! the bet we placed on alex and nicole! you won you lucky biznatch. but since there was i time limit, i won!!!!! :P lol
lol by far one of the weirdest conversations i've ever had with jesse. he said that he was talking to me like a big brother and i said. ew a big brother that i've dated twice. and yea you'll see.
Armyrockgurl69: lmfao we'd be like hick people
</font>Nirvana Fluid: Lmao!
Nirvana Fluid: Datin my sista
Armyrockgurl69: lol
</font>Nirvana Fluid: Gonna have myslf a pay o' kids.
Nirvana Fluid: Dat r deformd
Armyrockgurl69: ew but don't they come out defected?
</font>Nirvana Fluid: Lol yep!
Armyrockgurl69: ;llo yea
</font>Armyrockgurl69: lol*
</font>Nirvana Fluid: Thats gross...
Nirvana Fluid: Fucking your brother or sister
Nirvana Fluid: Or mom or dad
Armyrockgurl69: chea
</font>Nirvana Fluid: Then having kids...
Nirvana Fluid: Poor kid!
Armyrockgurl69: eh
</font>Armyrockgurl69: i'd be dramatized
</font>Nirvana Fluid: SO it'd be like...hey billy meet your dad, whos also my dad!
Armyrockgurl69: lmao
</font>Nirvana Fluid: Meet your sister!
Nirvana Fluid: My aunt!
Nirvana Fluid: Er-sister
Nirvana Fluid: Man
Nirvana Fluid: Thatd be confusing
Armyrockgurl69: ah! screwed up family!
</font>Nirvana Fluid: Lmao
Nirvana Fluid: And Christams would suck
Nirvana Fluid: *Christmas
Armyrockgurl69: lol
</font>Nirvana Fluid: It'd be awkward moms kissing dads brothers kissing brothers/sisters.
Nirvana Fluid: And aunts kissing nephews.
Nirvana Fluid: And dogs making out with small children.
Armyrockgurl69: lol
</font>Armyrockgurl69: dogs?
</font>Armyrockgurl69: children?
</font>Armyrockgurl69: wtf? how'd you get that?
</font>Nirvana Fluid: Mhm
Armyrockgurl69: lmfao
</font>Nirvana Fluid: Lol
Nirvana Fluid: Hey!
Nirvana Fluid: It could happen!
Nirvana Fluid: A hick family is a hick family!
Armyrockgurl69: lol
</font>Armyrockgurl69: but a dog is another species!
</font>Nirvana Fluid: So..
Nirvana Fluid: Still on earth
Nirvana Fluid: Same thing
Nirvana Fluid: Fine a dog making out with the kids PENIS
Nirvana Fluid: There their both kinda the same
Armyrockgurl69: lmfao!
</font>Nirvana Fluid: A penis is sometimes referred to as a 'dog'.
Nirvana Fluid: And the kid would be like "hehe-he--hehe-ohhhhhhhhh...ohhhhhhhh fuccccccckkkkk. hehehehe-hehe.....ma! towels!"
Armyrockgurl69: ah gross
</font>Nirvana Fluid: Lmao
Nirvana Fluid: That'd be so cool
Nirvana Fluid: But gross
Armyrockgurl69: cool?
</font>Nirvana Fluid: Yea
Nirvana Fluid: Cool
Nirvana Fluid: Wouldn't you think its cool?
Armyrockgurl69: no
</font>Armyrockgurl69: just gross
</font>Nirvana Fluid: Urggh-excuse me missy
Armyrockgurl69: lol
</font>Nirvana Fluid: gross?
Nirvana Fluid: You're like teh queen of gross
Nirvana Fluid: And you think THATS gross?
Nirvana Fluid: *the
Armyrockgurl69: lol
</font>Armyrockgurl69: it's dogs making out with penis'!!
</font>Nirvana Fluid: Ewww remeber that one time we liked beans (cold for that!) off a pole?!
Nirvana Fluid: Lol
Nirvana Fluid: Hey thats normal...it happens sometimes
Armyrockgurl69: lol
</font>Armyrockgurl69: yea..
</font>Armyrockgurl69: normal??
</font>Nirvana Fluid: Well in pornos!
Nirvana Fluid: Animal pornos..
Nirvana Fluid: Thats norm-wait no
Armyrockgurl69: lol
</font>Armyrockgurl69: well this conversation has been nice but i have to excuse myself for a bit.
</font>Nirvana Fluid: Alright
lol we're so weird..
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went to alex's party yesterday. it was cool. had to leave at 9 though. my brother snuck me out to pedro's party lol pedro's my brother's friend. and marcielle's brother. that was fun. so anyways. alex had ddr and i had never played it before. and i had "i like to move it move it, i love to move it move it" stuck in my head. lol my shoe got thrown into the pool..but it was my fault so w/e. yea then i found out ryan's dying. wow. shocker. heh that makes two of us..urgh. anyways. we danced. had to go early. sucks cause it would like be the sort of late time to see everyone. justin you better have a party at your house! i'll dance, sing i don't care i just want to see everyone together again. oo and invite your hot friend ethan so he could hook up with angela lol. so pedro's party was packed as hell. like 20 people got pushed into his pool so i was just edging my way away from it lol yea came home around one. went to sleep as soon as i hit the bed. now i'm sore and tred as hell so i'm gonna go sleep. :) sleep for a bit then go to Jo's party. eh. no rest!
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didn't go to melissa's party yesterday. meh. i'm not a big loss. had dinner witht the parents. they gave me my grad present (money) then we went back to ur silence. them at the tv and me at the computer. whatever. i was just really....bored
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it's so hard not to cry, so hard to think 'what goes on from here', so hard to not hate goodbyes, so hard not to shed tears........
I hate crying like this, non stop. but it's really hard not to... i 'm leaving some of the people most dearest to me and i hate it. i despise it. i'd do anything to go back to the point where everything was fine..but we can't go back, it'll never be the same. i won't walk to history and stop to chat with evienne while she waits for mr. zapata to open the door. i won't pass by lab and see zalman playing pirates of the caribbean. i won't see marc holding simone while i'm at carolyn's locker. i won't see chris acting like a weirdo at p.e. i won't have ben or juan to throw paper balls at. i won't look around and see ryan making faces at me in science. i won't go to portola singers and sit next to priscilla and nicole.i won't...urgh..there's way too many of those...
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Today was a good and depressing day. Well first was of course graduation. I was beginning to cry in homeroom again. but i didn't! because i was too nervous about giving my speech. and then i forgot who i went after and i was freaking out. But then i found a program and i was like oh i go after bojan!! and yea. my speech went horrible, hayek said i was too close to the mic. :X o well. i got it over with. and then gabe's speech.i love his speech. and more speeches and then diplomas were handed out and i was yelling for everyone and yea. then it was over and i had to go to the van to get my backpack with clothes in it and i got it. but i didn't really see anyone after it. but then i saw justin and suki and neysa and then luis and then i found nicole and then courtney came and we went to the lawn and found more people. and we yelled at evan to come over but he didn't lol so yea..then they left and i went to portola singers. i changed in the backroom lmfao. then we got bored so we went into lab and they were playing stuff and we went to go get the drums off the lawn and i took the snare and i was all 'this is leah's favorite drum' lol so i took a picture of it.
and then we played with the tambourines. and so we went back and then they were playing that song lol i think it was 'what' and yea me and priscilla were dancing to it, it was cool. and yea it was fun.
aw. i'll never be with my friends while they're getting their instruments from there.....aww...
aw....music room...
mr. piano man!!!!!!
yea so and then it was fifth period so we went to magnet english lol and i met a guy that i named mr. candy man cause he had a lot of candy. and then olsen kicked me and marc out.so we went to haddad's and haddad kicked marc out lol so i stayed there and i signed his yearbook and talked with him. and yea. then we went to p.e with next year's drill team. i finally met the famous juliet!!! and she's really cool!! just like everyone says!! and we were listening to ev's cd and i was like..'aw...ev...and angela aren't here..' and yea. tried flags. didn't work lol zalman was pretty good though. and yea. then nutrition, we went to the spot where justin and jesse and kris and angela hang out
and we left and there was this blue smoke bomb on the stairway
it looks cool..
and then we went to the lawn and all the chairs were stacked up
looks weird..
and then we were there at the spot were me and ev and hillary and carolyn and andrea and roxana and lindsay would be. and we were there and zalman took out his guitar and paolo (dunno how to spell it) came over and was playing smells like teen spirit. i forgot that whole song. i was trying to remember it and yea. maybe it's cause zalman's guitar was too small and not tuned right lol and then evan and his friend and jordan and alicia came and they were there and evan's friend was playing and he's really good. and now evan thinks i'm his stalker lol so yea then we went to science with mrs shah and she was cool and let me stay. and then people switched videos and we began to start watching a porn video lmfao and we saw this girl who was naked but we only saw like her head and chest. not boobs, but like right above and then they took it off. and she was like 'what was that?' and so we saw rat race, hilarious movie. i met this guy named murry there. he's cool. and then zalman stopped talking to me cause 'i was being mean for leaving'
and yea then we went to p.e and he started talking to me again. and we saw people and they were flicking him off and yea. i went to go see ou r p.e. spot lol
then me and prisclla did our heel stretches together and it was cool. and then we went to go hang with the magnet people. they're really cool and nice and funny.
and it said ev on the wall!!!
lol raymond and olivers lasers' in the lens.
olivers cool shirt lol eat. sleep. exercise.
lol zalman picking up raymond
and then we left to math. the last period. and they had a party and zalman took a root beer keg and i met this guy named david. who is really funny. and he's going to taft after he graduates so i'll see him. and yea we (me priscilla zalman and david)were there and talking lol and zalman said that he used to be a kid model and david goes 'watch we see a magazine called gap baby model rejects and zalmans on the cover' lol it was hilarious, you guys should've been there. and i signed murry's yearbook and ate humnus or however you spell it! lol and then it all ended with the ringing of the bell and we said our good byes *tears* and then i heard from zach that they caught ______ and they know that he brought the porn video and i was like nooo he's cool and he's being charged with like sexual harassment and yea it sucks. and now i'm here and it's like 'wow..i graduated..' and yea..aftershock... and yea... weird day...
hard to think we won't be walking those halls anytime soon..
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saw david today....heh. besides that though today was very depressing and morbid and i cried a lot, i'm crying right now lol and yea..last day of middle school for us was today. can you believe it? it barely hit me this morning when justin began to go 'tomorrow we're going to be in those chairs' and stuff like 'you're never gonna see ev again' and yea i began to cry and i couldn't stop. then i went to get my costume from the mpr. plamer didn't believe that i took it to a cleaners, the tears came back because she was all like..yea..mean. and she's never mean to me.. and i saw zalman..thought "wow..tomorrow".. so i was crying in homeroom and i was beginning o make everyone else cry so i stopped and we went to rehearse. rehearsal went..urgh.. can't even talk about it.. just seeing how it was gonna be tomorrow....it just hit me like a million bricks..nutrition is a blur, all i rememeber is me and ev singing everlong. then we rehearsed and period one all the speakers rehearsed. then period 2 i went to the p.e field with kristiene, camille, and nilab. he wasn't there. saw louis, carlos, luis. luis made me sign his yearbook. i was like..wow he doesn't hate me. so yea i did and it felt good to like be on a good relationship with him again. then i walked out, walked to the bus,still crying, saw david, talked with him, smiled one of my rare smiles that i had today. then cried again. came home talked with marc, sobbing at that point and now i'm just crying, so morbid, all i know is this, i wish there was more time...
to all my friends and everyone i know, I'LL MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!! even if you hate me, i'll end up missing you to death. kathy, i'll miss seeing you smile when you're around you're friends, zalman, i'll miss just seeing you everyday and thinking about the good old times, marc, i'll miss you laughter and your way to make things better, pricsilla, i'll miss your little smile it's so cute and your voice of course it's good! don't listen to what you say about yourself lol does that make sense? lol, 8th graders (too many to name), i'll miss spending time with you, i'll miss all your perfect and different smiles, your really different personalities, i'll miss the way you could make me laugh, make me smile whenever i was feeling down, which was always, i'll miss the time that i've spent with each one of you, the relationship that i shared with you, i'll miss the way we always started talking about the weirdest things, i'll miss how you befreinded me and didn't throw me to the side whenever we had a rought time, i'll is the way you still loved me even when i was in a bad mood, i'll miss how you never gave up on me. thank you guys so much. without you there is no me. without you i'm literally nothing, no one..thank you guys..
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i hate my livejournal..it's grown into something i never wanted it to be. i hate it..yet i have to keep it, it's the only way i could keep in touch with hilary and ev. :X i can't believe we're leaving. urgh. i'm just gonna make it a friends only journal it'll be so much easier then. it's lead to so much controversy with me zalman and kathy. it's like making me hurt inside even more which i never thought was possible so it's kinda weird and yeah..and love and anger and sadness and everything is mixing up and.. *tears falling at the moment(ender by finch is playing)*
magnet graduation is tomorrow. *tear* i'm never gonna see sexy anrey or sexy mr nick or sexy sexy deanna or sexy jana or people ever again..they're all going to no ho...
today was meh, in portola singers, me and priscilla went into the boys dressing room and wrote something to them under the counter :)
i made a video of the pics i took of ev and carolyn and hilary and roxana and andrea and lindsay and i. it's cool. wish you were here by incubus is playing in the background. it's all yea.. it made me cry. i was listening to the cd ev gave me. (I LOVE IT EV!! YOU ROCK!!) and i began to cry the songs are just so good and they make me feel happy yet sad. i dunno lol..
i went to a fitting for the cheerleading ( :X ) outfit. went pretty well. it was crazy. taking off our shirts in the middle of the dance room. they should've warned us. so everything of the unifrom plus camp wear is 250. pretty ok. not sure how i'll get it out of my mom though..hmm..
still don't have a dress for graduation..i should get one....*deep sigh* i feel like just collapsing and dying and watching how everyone would be better off without me in the afterlife. i'd like that. nothing to worry about. no one breaking your heart. nothing tearing everyone apart. no anger. you're just..there..how i envy the dead..
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Dude the dance was soo much fun!!! I got taken there by joanna and my brother's friend, alex. Dancing was so awesome! even though i wasn't really dancing the greatest :X w/e it was fun. at first we were just standing there. but we began to dance. and car wash played. and we did the thing that jana and deanna did when you go on you're knees and start going backwards..it's hard to explain lol then they did time warp!!! lol and oh the macarena lol that was hilarious. and spice girls!!!!! and then they played that friends forever song. and we were like sawying lol and then the "nananana nananana hey hey hey goodbye". after the dance we went to CPK. freakin heels hurt like a biznatch. lol and FUSILLI!!!! lol "that's why kids are so fat these days." ROFL LMFAO after like 5 bites i was full and it was from the kids menu!!!! lmao *sigh* and to think it's all gonna end.. gr.that pisses me off. nad makes me sad..*tear* seriosuly lol as i was looking through all the pictures i've taken of all of you i was crying. yes i'm pathetic but w/e. here are pictures of cpk and such.
( Fusiilli )
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