These comics rule

If this said cunt instead of bitch, we'd be in business :D


I am only going to bed right now so that it is closer to tomorrow even though I'm not even very tired

-Really delicious tea
-Hanging out with Laura all night
-Project Runway is so good I want some of these dresses
-PR season finale party next week!
Tomorrow's Plans:
-Skipping Contrasting Views BS class
-Visiting Eastern
-Going to Philly with Mark, Victoria, & Nick
-Cheesesteaks
-Exploring and picture taking through the city
-Seeing Against Me! !!!!
-Spending the night at Mark's

-Working this Saturday and next Saturday at Friendly's, both 2-9 sweet shifts and makes me feel better about money troubles
-Trapped Under Ice on Friday

I feel so panic-y right now. I can't find this movie that is due back to the library tomorrow and I know exactly where I left it but it's not there and no one knows what happened to it but I am going to have to pay for it and I have no money. I am freaking out right now because I have no money and I can't deal with that. I have to pay a $20 parking ticket and it was so stupid and I can't believe I got that. But that is like almost $40 out the window for absolutely nothing. And did I mention I have been paying for shit out of my student loan and am currently $80 in debt to it, so whatever I make when I work at Friendly's is basically to pay that back. I also am starting to volunteer which is really fucking cool except that I can't afford gas and have to drive in the city at least once a week. I come home because that is where everyone is that I want to see and I don't expect people to drive here every weekend, but it is taking a huge toll on my gas tank, so I really need to stop driving. I am working at Friendly's this Saturday but nothing I make will be anything I can actually spend, so I will just be spending more out of my loan. I feel so guilty about putting out so much money that I don't have on shows but everyone else is going and I always want to see the bands so it is worth it I guess. I just feel really depressed right now and I don't want to do any homework and there is too much crazy shit going down in our suite that I can't deal with either. This week really sucks so far.


EDIT// Stefano had the movie! Thank God I feel a lot better, at least for now!

You are a really amazing person and I love every bit of you. I really want to come over and listen to Can't Slow Down on your record player until we fall asleep together.

Love,
Jessica

P.S. Happy birthday even though nothing ever feels different and you don't know how to respond :)

Thursday I saw Tegan & Sara and it was fucking amazing! They are so cute and I just want to be best friends with them. I just never wanted them to stop because it was a really nice feeling to sing along with them because they are definitely one of my favorites. When they played songs that I related to breaking up it didn't make me sad either, it made me just really happy that things are so good now. Girl in a Coma played first and I liked them, they were really interesting. City and Colour was second and Dallas' voice is so pretty but everyone around me was talking so loud.

Yesterday I came home after class and went to Mark's. We hung around his house and jumped on the trampoline and it felt like we were fifteen again :) We met Victoria and Nick at blockbusters and then went to Taco Bell for food. At Victoria's house we watched Baby Mama and it was really funny! They had SATs in the morning so we went back to Mark's around 10. We watched TV and stuff before sleeping.

I am home and it feels really nice to just hang out with Julie and Matt and my dad. We aren't doing anything but I feel so relaxed.

Oh, and since the Against Me! show in DC sold out Mark, Victoria, Nick, & I are going up to Philly on Thursday!

I just want to wake up and not go to class and just teleport to go see Tegan and Sara. I do not want to drive there but taking the bus freaks me out, so I am trying to hatch a plan.

markXbutler (11:46:56 PM): you are an extremely weird human being
:) Goodnight

Last night Frank Warren of Post Secret came to UMBC for a presentation. After visiting that site for probably 3 years now it was so amazing to go to this. He was a really good speaker and told the story of starting this "art" project that has become so popular. It was really interesting to hear so many stories about different secrets and things. At the end he gave people in the audience the chance to come to a microphone and share a comment, question, or secret. It was so amazing to sort of be a part of these people letting their gaurd down to share some really intimate things with everyone who was there. It was definitely worth the wait, there were soo many people there!

Today has been pretty calm. My classes have been fine. I love Victoria. Stef and I went to the dining hall for like 2 hours and talked to Stefano, Coner, and Coner's friends. They are all pretty funny and Coner says Stef and I should have a TV show haha. I have been getting homework done that is due Friday so I don't have to worry about finishing it tomorrow. I am ready to see you.

Maaaaan Against Me! sold out for the show next week. But oh well, I've seen them a lot before so it's not that big of a deal. But after realizing how cheap the metro is to DC Victoria and I are talking about how we should go down for the day and go to all the free museums that are so cool and it will be the cheapest fun day ever! That sounds nice. I am really excited to see Tegan & Sara on Thursday though. I just hope the experience isn't terribly awkward for anyone. I am so excited to give Mark presents on Sunday for his birthday. Oh and maybe we might go to DC for his birthday which would be awesome! I am just ready for Thursday to come and then the weekend. And I actually really want to work at Friendly's! I need money so bad. I really want to see Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist. And I am just rambling now so bye! Sometimes it feels really nice to be so silly with Victoria.

Mark came over on Thursday and stayed until Saturday morning. It was soooooo nice and sleeping is too good next to you. He came to class with me on Friday aahah and took a tour of the library and it was really boring. On Friday we got wings and watch A Dirty Shame which is a silly movie but it was funny. Saturday, he had to go to work so Stef, Alex, and I just hung out until it was time to go to Towson. Ruiner had a record release show at 10 Car Pile Up and it was pretty fun. I wish I was tough enough to go up front but I am too scared. Stupid punks were dumb outside throwing glass into the streets so that doesn't seem very punk at all to me. They were actually just jerbs I suppose. Today I want to do a lot of homework that's not just due tomorrow but throughout the week so I am not rushed to do anything or reading my assignments after they are actually due.

I feel really apathetic towards the upcoming election. I wish I felt more strongly towards one person or the other. The debate doesn't give me any more clarity either.

I feel really good this week about school. I have gotten done a lot of homework early, and have actually done all the readings. Lately Stef & I have been hanging out with this kid Brian and his suitemates and they are really funny. It's cool to make new friends that you can just relax with and laugh. We rearranged our common room and it looks so much nicer and is more comfortable to hang in. I am just happy all the time and I don't even want to feel differently. I have been riding my new bike and I love it so much, it is so much nicer to ride to class instead of walking. Later Mark is coming to spend tonight and maybe tomorrow night too, and Alex will be here too so it will be fun! It is so comforting to have you in my life. By the way, Ruiner is really good and I am seeing them on Saturday so that's cool!

Today and last night was really nice. I hung out with Lindsay and Allison and it was so fun catching up and laughing sooo much. After that I went home and Mark came over to spend the night. We watch Saw 4 which was really confusing and It's Always Sunny cause him and Julie missed it on Thursday. We slept in until like 11 and got donuts. We went to Towson to go to Celebrated and Mark's record collection is really good for only collecting for 1 week ahaha, even though I am not supposed to compliment it. After that we went over Nick's and talked about records for awhile and played N64 and tried to help Victoria with her homework even though I don't think we did. Mark and I came back to my house and hung out there for awhile before my parents got home from their cruise. I am so so happy all the time and it's so nice how I can be my absolute self around you. I came back to school at 10 and watched this documentary called "Merchants of Cool" which was alright and now I am talking to Victoria. I have $10 left to my name, fuck. I need to work a day or two at Friendly's soon.

I feel so full to the brim with happiness lately :D

Last night was George's party. Mark & I hung out before hand and then got taco bell and went to George's house. There was like 15 or so many people, and only 5 I didn't know so that was cool. It was a lot of fun! I miss hanging out at George's all the time. We spent the night there and then I waited for Mark to get back from work. He got off at one and we went to village thrift and he got a nice jacket and hats, and I got a really nice, pretty road bike! I am so excited!! It was only $17, and I don't think there is anything wrong with it haha, I rode it around and everything seemed fine. I need to learn how to shift gears though. Mark just had to move a wire around cause it went through the chain for some reason. So after that I came home and have been hanging out with Julie and Matt. We got sicilian pizza which is so Fing delicious and huge, you get so full from one slice. I miss hanging out with my brother and sister, so I'm glad I had to come home while my parents were away so I could spend time with them. In a little bit I am meeting Allison, and I'm pretty sure Lindsay, at Cold Stone. I'm really excited to see them cause I miss them both so much! Maybe Mark will come spend the night later too which would be nice.

So I have been pretty busy and happy the past few days. I'm starting to have to read a lot for my gender and women's studies class and its interesting but I just never feel motivated to start doing it. Tomorrow Mark, Victoria, & Nick are going to see Polar Bear Club and the Gaslight Anthem and I wish I could go but I am trying to be responsible. This weekend should be fun though, hanging at George's like old times and I have no idea what I am doing Saturday.

Mark spent the night last night and it was cozy even though it got really hot. He is working on a paper about invasive species and I am supposed to be doing homework but I just keep singing Defiance, Ohio instead and looking at Mark cause he's cute.

Mark and I are back together and it feels really right. On Friday I got back to my dorm to find the cutest suprises, the cutest being Mark's dick under my bed! The past almost two months since we broke up I never stopped missing or loving Mark, and if this break is what he needed to reassure him that this is what he actually wants I feel a lot stronger in our relationship. We have spent basically all weekend together and it feels like it is exactly how it should be. Except that Mark just put a booger on me.

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You have no idea how much happier I am. I'm not sure what I am ready for but I feel so much better. You'll always have such a big piece of my heart and really that's okay with me.

-Fun classes! Talked about The Daily Show forevs in one and in the other watched a video about hip hop
-Stories that make me LOL
-I hacked George's myspace for revenge, I'm too cool
-Gym for two hours, belly dancing class is so fun and body sculpt
-Salsaritas in the Commons
-Gossip Girl is so juicy, I love
-Talked to Marge all night
-Wham City most likely performing Jurassic Park at UMBC? Fuck yeah! Epic win Stefanie

So this weekend was probably too much fun and I did way too much procrastinating on my homework. I got like half of it done. I was going to go see Anthony Green last night, but decided that would be too irresponsible. Stefano (boy who lives on our floor who we have probably gotten the friendliest with besides our suitemates) ended up coming over to play guitar. I inspired him to write a song about being a minstrel in the medieval ages, and a song I named Appalachian Trail or Bust about riding your bike on the Appalachian trail. Then I finally started homework after 10....

Oh man Girl Talk is sold out in Baltimore, DC, and Philly aka suck the life out of me. Apparently there is a fun-due party in our dorm lobby tonight so that is sweeeeet and I don't know what else is going on

Last night was really fun! Alex picked up Stef and me from school and we went to his house. We met up with everyone to go to a show at Towson University. It was pretty awesome A, because it was free!!!, and B, having a hardcore show in the Paws Cafe is hilarious. Blind the Thief was sooo good, and Greek George jumped off the stage at my group of friends, who moved out of the way so that he just landed on top of me! That's fun haha Brick was also reallllly good! After that Alex, Victoria, Nick, and Kelin came back to our dorm for a sleepover. Victoria, Nick, Kelin, and I watched Kids which is such a good/fucked up movie. From 10-2 this morning we went to the Commons to help stuff bags with school supplies and cute cards for kids. Now Victoria and Nick are buying India ink so that they can get prison tats by Kelin and that sounds like a really good idea haha. George and Natalie, and I think Alex are spending the night tonight so another fun night!

My room feels a lot more organized, but I still can't find my planner so that stinks. My bed is so high and I am so short so I need to jump into it haha Sociology was neat and it will be easy and we watched Seinfeld today which was sweet! Also sweet, someone is selling me the $80 textbook for $40! Contrasting Visions of Society will most likely be my favorite class cause discussions and debates are fun. I finally finished scanning and uploading pictures from summer so check my flickr, there is a link on my journal. I found this group called the Wedding Guests and they are really cute. I am reading this really interesting story for Gender and Women's Studies about a baby who was raised without a gender and was just themselves without being pushed into a gender role, and it is interesting and I should get back to that.