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Tuesday, November 27th, 2007
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Friday, October 5th, 2007
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i can't do this anymore
i'm so emotionally exhausted
all i want is a boyfriend
i can't play the stupid game anymore
i know i deserve better
so i'm just gonna give up on him
before i'm the one who looks like an idiot
i watched the girl next door tonight
and it makes me so sad
i want that so badly
minus the whole porn part? hah
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Sunday, September 16th, 2007
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hmmm my life gets weirder and weirder by the day.
i haven't been having the best luck with boys recently. i've done some shit i really shouldn't have done. until now? someone i didn't see myself going for. and now i'm going on a date on tuesday night? ahhh i hate dates. i haven't been on one since june! i totally forget what i'm doing. this will hopefully be something new and different for me but ahh i'm nervous. i just need to not be such a drunk ass all the time and think about shit before i do it. taking it slow could be good for me...even though it's not much fun right now hah. maybe it's my karma. after last weekend i re-evaluated my life because i was so dissappointed. i told myself things would get better because i knew there was no way they could get worse. so hopefully this new boy is the part where it gets better? i just don't even know. but that's always fun.
i went to my first tech football game saturday! it was a kickass timeeee. the tech games are amazing. we beat ohio university 28-7. i can't even describe the games it's mind blowing. and i drunk dialed david and ellen and they made fun of me today haha
and it's soooo cold here now. currently 56! i'm excited to sleep under the covers in MY bed tonight for the first time.
andddd wtf happened to the sox friday night? i died a little inside. but they kicked ass saturday and they're off to a good start right now!
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Saturday, September 8th, 2007
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| Subject: | are you leaving me here with a taste of the end? |
| Time: | 2:33 pm. |
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WOW
just wow
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Tuesday, September 4th, 2007
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WHY CAN'T I STOP EATING. goddamnit. i'm such a fatass. the only exercise i get is walking everywhere. i need to work out so i'm not overeating all the timeeeee. BLAH. i feel so off track with myself lately. i used to work out like 5 days a week and eat moderately healthy. a lot better than i am now to say the least. MEHHH i wish i had something to motivate me. this is going to change tomorrow.
there is the cutest kid everrrr in a bunch of my classes. like baby cute. and he reminds me so much of my lil bro and it makes me so sad. i just want to give this kid a hug or something ahha. he's all pale and awkward just like greggy. mehh i miss him! i miss ellen and david so much too :[ they're not coming down til october 25th :[ ellen sends me bomb ass care packages though. with pictures of ernie boch jr.
miss my biffs obvi. i wish colleen harington would call me back though :[ i love her
so i'll be doing johnny mayah THURSDAY NIGHT babyyy. jealous, aren't you? i can't wait! ahhhhh
YOU'RE WHAT MAKES NEW ENGLAND SO GREAT
and just for fun...
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Sunday, August 26th, 2007
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this has been the best week of my entire life, no lie.
i love my friends here! we're like the craziest of each of our groups of friends from high school so combinded down here, it's insane! hah. like who gets shitfaced on a tuesday. plus every other night this week. i can't even explain the crazy shit that has happened. every night is an insane adventure. too bad my body hates me now haha.
i'm just so happy! but now it's onto responsibility and hardcore college work hah. which i now have plenty of.
and i started tanning today yay. and i think you all would be proud to know that my hair has been a curly mess everyday and i don't give a shit.
HAHAH the end
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Sunday, August 19th, 2007
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Saturday, August 18th, 2007
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so uh this is college.
it's cool so far i guess!
i'm being safe lol.
i miss my 6 best friends more than anything in the world and i love you all so much♥
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Monday, August 13th, 2007
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| Subject: | college |
| Time: | 6:10 pm. |
| Mood: |  depressed. |
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No I'm not color blind
I know the world is black and white
Try to keep an open mind but...
I just can't sleep on this tonight
Stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But honestly won't someone stop this train
Don't know how else to say it, don't want to see my parents go
One generation's length away
From fighting life out on my own
Stop this train
I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't but honestly won't someone stop this train
So scared of getting older
I'm only good at being young
So I play the numbers game to
find away to say that life has just begun
Had a talk with my old man
Said help me understand
He said turn 68, you'll renegotiate
Don't stop this train
Don't for a minute change the place you're in
Don't think I couldn't ever understand
I tried my hand
John, honestly we'll never stop this train
Once in a while when it's good
It'll feel like it should
And they're all still around
And you're still safe and sound
And you don't miss a thing
'til you cry when you're driving away in the dark.
Singing stop this train
I want to get off and go home again
I can't take this speed it's moving in
I know I can't
Cause now I see I'll never stop this train
='(
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Sunday, August 12th, 2007
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life would be so much easier if i were Kristin Cavallari
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Tuesday, August 7th, 2007
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Wednesday, August 1st, 2007
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| Subject: | i probably shouldn't do this when i'm this angry |
| Time: | 6:03 pm. |
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like seriously, you're such a stupid, manipulative bitch. fuck you. if i ever see you again, you'll have hell to pay. i wish it doesn't bother me. i wish i talk to somebody about it, but it's so stupid and embarrassing that i can't.
i can't let you let me down again.
so is that what you call a getaway?
well tell me what you got away with
because i've seen more spine in jellyfish
i've seen more guts in 11 year old kids
have another drink and drive yourself home
i hope there's ice on all the roads
and you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt
and again when your head goes through the windshield
if this summer has taught me anything, it's that the only person that you can truely rely on is yourself. no matter what people say. i fucking hate it here. i just wanna leave. FUCK i hate it so much.
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Thursday, July 26th, 2007
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i'm on my new laptop yay
i was reading way back in this lj, like 2 years ago...how embarrassing
i'm mad tan
i'm bored in the cape and i wanna go to the barnstable fair. it's in east falmouth for some reason though. come visit me :[
in less than 3 weeks, i'll be in college! i really hope i made the right decision to go so far away. i'm scared
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Thursday, July 19th, 2007
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time is running out :[
college is coming so fast
soooo YA'LL better spend the day with me august 15th and sleepover. no excuses. i want to be with you all right up until i leave. and we were thinking like cheesecake factory that night for dinner and like dressing up.
but until then, i just wanna be around everybody as much as possible
i can't stop talking like fucking leslie
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20 FAVORITE THINGS TO DO
1. sleep
2. laugh
3. cruiseeee
4. spoon
5. tennis
6. singalongs
7. smile
8. love
9. day trips
10. spending time with bests
11. watch sunrises
12. walks at night
13. beachhh it
14. tan
15. hugs and kisses
16. meet new people
17. get crazyyyy
18. understand
19. dance parties
20. listen to music
19 THINGS YOU DID THIS WEEK
1. beach
2. fireworks
3. cook out
4. droveeee
5. cried
6. smizzled
7. drankkk
8. passed out hah
9. ice cream
10. drove the jeep :[
11. saw most of my besties
12. worked out
13. straightened the mane
14. cape cod chips factory!
15. laugheddd
16. watched garden state
17. mario kart! witnessed a 4th place ceremony with beccles lmao
18. contemplated
19. chilled with the fam, sister included
18 PEOPLE YOU KNOW
1. ellen
2. david cordo
3. greg cordo
4. michelle cordo
5. tana
6. bex
7. shayna
8. colleenie
9. philly
10. lizzie
11.
12.
13.
14.
15.
16.
17.
18. they're all that matters.
17 BANDS/SINGERS/GROUPS YOU LIKE
1. sublime
2. brand new
3. biggie smalls BABY BABY
4. the doors
5. john mayahhhh
6. carrie underwood
7. the stones
8. the police
9. jesse fuckin mccartney
10. new found glory
11. the smiths
12. ashlee simpson
13. 311
14. ROD stewart
15. tbs
16. THE D
17. third eye blind
16 FAVORITE MOVIES
1. 10 things i hate about you
2. anchorman
3. mean girls
4. office space
5. dazed and confused
6. the outsiders
7. fight club
8. garden state
9. the girl next door
10. sideways
11. hocus pocus
12. say anything
13. american pie
14. the sandlot
15. some like it hot
16. to sir with love
15 THINGS YOU HATE
1. goodbyes
2. the rain
3. school
4. people
5.
6.
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9.
10.
11.
12.
13.
14.
15.
14 THINGS THAT YOU LOVE
1. Music
2. my bests
3. 11:11
4. spooning
5. tye dye
6. deep conversation
7. men
8. whipits
9. the jizzah
10. loaded questions
11. a good sesh
12. brew bonding
13. capeee
14. sunrises
13 FAVORITE FOODS
1. strawberries
2. mac and chi
3. caesar salad
4. spaghetti
5. chicken nugzzz
6. trop pops
7. dino crunch
8. cheeze-its
9. goldfish
10. skittles
11. starbursts
12. scrambled eggs
13. french toast
12 FAVORITE BEVERAGES
1. milk (1%)
2. lemonade
3. apple juice
4. watah
5. orange juice...tropicana!
6. smirnoff anything
7. JIMMIES
8. uhh colt 45 ;]
9. corona extra
10. bl
11. fruit coolatas
12. oh you know, prune juice
11 TV SHOWS
1. laguna 1&2
2. seinfeld
3. project runway
4. real world (esp. las vegas)
5. what not to wear
6. little people big world (lmao)
7. sex and the city
8. girls next door
9. zoey 101
10. grounded for life
11. flavor of loveeee
10 THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. amsterdam
2. jamaica
3. kh...haha jk
4. see the stones in concert
5. be happy
6. trust someone with my life
7. get married/have kids
8. live on a lake
9. love
10. change somebody's life
9 FAVORITE SONGS; RIGHT NOW
1. slow rideeeee
2. buy u a drankkkk
3. notorious thugs
4. waste-phish
5. who needs shelter-jason mraz
6. crazyyyy bitch
7. you know what it is-t.i.
8. flake
9. slow dancing in a burning room
8 THINGS YOU CAN'T DO, THAT YOU WISH YOU COULD
1. SWIM lmao
2. fly
3. read minds
4. get over stuff faster
5. sing
6. run
7. dance
8. forgive and forget
7 GUILTY PLEASURES
1. rod steward
2. being lazy
3. food
4. i
5. don't
6. know
7. ?
6 PEOPLE YOU FIND ATTRACTIVE
1. matt dillon
2. mr. big
3. frank
4. kh! ahha
5. j timby
6. mick jager haha
5 FAVORITE PLACES TO SHOP
1. forevzzz 21
2. express
3. hollister
4. victoria's secret
5. that's about it. random places
4 FAVORITE PLACES TO EAT
1. chilis
2. brax
3. bertuccis
4. fire & ice
3 PEOPLE YOU LOVE
1. i
2. love
3. everybody
2 THINGS YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING
1. vindication
2. college
1 THING YOU BELIEVE IN
1. fate
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Wednesday, July 4th, 2007
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so life kind of sucks bc i let a stupid boy get to me. and interfere with my happiness. but i'm trying not to think about it...
i never see anyoneeeeeee. bc i have no friends, don't worry, i know. but hopefully that will change tonight if people come down?
and i miss MONTANA PALMAHH so much.
the jeep is here. and it sucks. IT'S A PIECE OF SHIT as well as the color of shit. and a death trap.
on the positive side:
+i love ellen. she bought me a 40oz. bottle of colt 45 so i can fufill my goal of singing the song while i drink it. best mother evah.
+i'm spending a lot of time with the family. and it's nice. michelle is here
+i'm hopefully going to start babysitting. i made some calls.
+DAVE MESSERSMITH. i love that man
+the beachhhhhh
+i love frank.
+i'm attempting to pimp it. last weekend was funnn.
+i'm wicked pumped for p town. i'm planning it out. july 14th everyone!
+WATERLOO sunday night everyone?
+screamfest! t.i. get one me
i can't think right now i'm very hopped up on coffee. goodbye
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Thursday, June 28th, 2007
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this weekend is so necessary
me + a bunch of college boys :]
if i get let down again, by one more fucking person, i really don't know what will happen. i loveeee my two♥. it sucks when you only trust like 2 people?
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Wednesday, June 27th, 2007
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| Subject: | just forget me it's that simple |
| Time: | 11:10 pm. |
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i'm not happy. like at all.
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