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sigh. a ton of work due tomorrow, but i hate it so much i'm just taking every opertunity to be distracted D:> i know it's poor decisions for me and will probably result in no sleep tonight, but seriously i hate this biology class.

i love bio, but my teacher sucks at teaching and buuuuuh.

chapteroutlines are hell. torturous hell.

oop! looks like i can leave for dinner now! haha.

((oh god. this is going to take forever)

college is going well
i feel a bit dizzy at almost all times, because i'm dazed and confused.
but i try to climb a mountain every weekend, and i learned to use macro on my camera and yeah
there's a girl i like but whom i don't know how to talk to (she's not in my group of friends and i've never liked somebody from afar so when we talk i'm really nervous) and then today in art club there was this boy who i'd seen and thought was straight so hadn't put much thought to (even though he's attractive) but now i'm fairly sure he's a homo and i reaaally wanna talk to him but again. awkward.

anyhow. found a waxwing dead today outside the dorm. it makes me sad that it's dead, but at the same time i finally got the chance to look closely at one of these birds...

( photos don't worry no gore )

so now i live in the woods, pretty much. sure, i sleep in a room with a super-nerd. sure i eat in a cafeteria, sure, i even go to class in buildings. but i study in the woods, and i explore the woods, and i swim in the woods, and i watch fishes and birds and crayfishes and bugs in the woods. and i smell things in the woods. and i just get to be in them whenever i have the free time because the woods are...right there.

i have several study spots i've got as territory now, and awkwardly enough, everyone knows it.

'm making friends with the nerdiest type of gamers, who constantly make jokes about me wrestling bears, ( but i'm really happy. )

so college. my third day and i already wrote a three page paper for English Comp and studied more than my entire highschool career. i hope that means i'll do well.
( so coolage )

so. college tomorrow D:
i still need to finish up packing, though i'm finally mostly done.
forgot my sneakers were packed with Grandma's stuff from the return trip from Hungary...so...i'll be without sneakers or dress shoes until octobre, unless we can get the grandparents to bring them somehow. not that i care. i only wear sandals in Summer anyhow. and even though school is in, summer isn't over D:

don't know how much i'll be on the interwebs, as i'm leaving the computer home with Mutti. uuuuuh... yeah. i should be packing. i feel kind of silly bringing all my art supplies, but i really do want to use them. sigh. i can't wait for classes to start... i wish we didn't have to go up so early. i'm not really so good at free social time. i think i'm gonna bike around the back-roads or something for the next three days?

askdlfjalwekrjaweklrjaeklrj must finish packing! (super procrastination power, activate!)

after a 9 hour non-stop flight, we got to Hungary. immediately one noticed how clean and organized their airport was. while in Kennedy airport (NY), we had to wait half an hour for a wheelchair (for grandma) when they knew beforehand the time and place she would be needing one. When we got off the plain in Budapest, however, they were ready and waiting.

Aunt Teressa and Cousin Edith (pronounced Teruska and Edit) met us there with a taxi. nobody in our family had a car big enough to fit all of us + luggage so they had to hire a taxi. we arrived at Kriztina Utca 91, and met our appartment.
( our apartment )
it would be impossible to recap everything, though i did force myself to write every night so i know what happened (except for the first day when i was passed out, and a few nights in the last week when i was too angry at grandma to write). so here was our situation and why we went to Hungary in brief, and then i'll try and describe the major events and the characters, and finally i'll provide to you a list of differences between Hungary and the US. ready?

( 1 - Why? )

( 2a - Gellert's Hill )

( 2b - Dunafoldvar )

OH! and also. we got our main souvenirs while in Dunafoldvar. our last day Zsolty dropped us off at this market... and there were serious amounts of Gypsies. Grandma started singing 'i am the famous gypsy ann' and it was a little frightening. but Nagypapa loved it (bargaining with them), and Mum and i got sheepskins to put under our sheets this winter (mine has the face and everything), and Nagy got a sheep vest (bakatch? sp??).

( 2c - Hero Square )

( 2d - Buda Castle )

( 2e - Lake Balaton )

( 3 - Living in Budapest vs. the USA )

hooo there's a lot more, but i'll spare you. here's some more miscellaneous pictures: ( (links only, don't fret) )

thanks for the interest :D sorry for the giant, and for what may appear to be a large bias in favor of Hungary.

back from Hungary.

expect a series of posts involving a series of photos (unless one can tell me how to make it so that when you click on one cut it doesn't reveal all of them)

anyway. lifechanging experience, definitely. today will probably be full of the description of said experience, though, so. yeah. you've been warned D: sorry in advance. and i didn't sleep much last night due to jetlag (i should NOT be up this early considering how long it took me to fall asleep.) so please try to be patient with my bad grammar and such.

adslkjawelhr. Hungary tomorrow.
see you guys around next 10th!

in the meantime have some arts: ( arts?! )

uuug so this summer my only goal was to hang out outside and think a lot. turns out i've been doing everything but; AC, Orientation ...and then friday we're going to stay in Budapest for a month! sigh. where is the summer going?

today, though, i went down to the river, swam, explored, photoed, met some new invertebrate friends, met some geese and ducks, a snake.... and finished nagypapa's painting.


( arts )

anyone know how to get a million baby spiders out of a mesh bug enclosure??!

i would normally be happy about it, but i've got herbaceous babies in there, too, and i don't want any of my friends being eaten!

i would put the (bigger and easier to catch) plant-munchers somewhere else, and then just put the mesh enclosure open outside and let nature take it's course (meaning the spider-babes leaving on their own), there are moth eggs laid on the inside of the container, too, and i don't want them eaten/escapedwhentheyhatch

HELP

recently woke up from Orientation and Reunion.

1. Orientation ( nervous/excited blah )

2. Governor's School for the Arts reunion ( confused blah )

HUNGARY THIS FRIDAY!!?

also before i left i started painting something for Nagy's birthday and now i'm really enjoying painting. drawing not-so-much, but painting is really enjoyable. maybe art isn't dead for me yet :D (i think i like it cause it's new territory. i'm doing a landscape and it kind of sucks, but since i've not done it much before it's exciting and new and i'm learning a lot)

EDIT: oh god i forgot to mention! the food at Pitt-Bradford is AMAZING it's all home-made and fresh and goooooood. and they have icecream available at all meals (not soft-serve, but actual things of icecream. and they have green-tea flavor!) ....i'm going to gain a million pounds D:

-blueberries are now my favorite. ( blahblahexcitemtblah ) OMG HUNGARY

-finally, and possibly most importantly. i'm leaving my mum for life. as a subadult it is necessary to leave the den and find my own way in life... but, that means that my mutti is about to live alone for the first time in her life D:> anyone know any middle-aged men who are interested in homesteading?? or maybe dating-sites geared towards people who really want a little farm in the woods with a cow?
this house is about to be too expensive so she's gonna be moving within the year, but she's afraid to pick up one of these perfect starter-homesteads in the middle of no-where and then be alone forever, but she's equally afraid of getting a house in-town and hating it.

someone help?

picked friggen... 30-odd pounds of blueberries today.
already made 5 jars, and who knows how many we'll finish tomorrow. (probably less than we could estimate... considering how many we eat D:)

we have no self control.

so i was lazing around outside tonight and had a conversation with the mint.
"you'll never defeat me!" it said.

and i said ( photophotophoto )

sorry for all the photos, but after reading in the hammock until it got too dark for that has put me in a really peaceful mood. just be happy my camera isn't better.

cleaned everyone, spent some quality time with my remaining roachgirl (who was always my favorite, and she is still very sweet, though she needs a boyfriend D:), weeded the garden, pinned some dead beetles, sang all day... and discovered that i like bluegrass. ( blahblah <3 <3 <3 blah )
now i really want to join a bluegrass band. i want to sing harmony with a bunch of guys and have people not think i'm gay for it.

also, i feel like art is dying for me.( whinewhinewhine )

so i don't want to work. at least not at a 'job' D:>
i know i'm gonna have to. and i will. and hell, it'll probably be fun if i make it into the biology field, especially if i get to work in the woods.
but really i kind of just want to survive. i want to run away, find a spot, build a home myself, have a garden and a cow and just work to survive instead of working for money. i mean... you can't eat money, and money doesn't exactly keep you warm in the winter. but then, neither do empty day-dreams.

sigh. guess i gotta go to college and live in normal societies for a few more years. though mum and i came close to finding the perfect spot today.
( almosthomesweethome )
on a side note, while mowing the lawn i came across three juvenile praying mantids, whom i know to be babes of an old friend of mine, so i'm feeling pretty well about life. too bad that sewer is going in (we can't afford the +$100amonth bill it's gonna be adding, so moving is now even more inevitable than before.)

back from AC.
met some cool people (but not many)
did some badges (... a few?)
got chased by a pedophile in a bunny suit. no. seriously. probably one of the most frightening things ever. read about it here"

AC was fun, but i'm happy to be home.

what greeted me this morning as i woke from my recovery-sleep?
-my live-plant (three maple saplings and some mint) enclosure for caterpillars, weevils, Katydids, and various hoppers has been DEVOURED. i was gone for 5 days and none of the plants have leaves anymore D: D: D: i'm currently wondering about a way to swap plants without the hopping creatures escaping.
-the bullfrog tadpole now has arms to compliment its legs
-some fungus got in one of my millipede containers (the one containing the bright, Apheloria virginiensis) and so now all but 3 or 4 of them are dead. i hope more are surviving in the dirt, i haven't had time to clean that up yet
-the newt babe is doing good.
-my male Giant African millipede is dead ;____; he was moving around a lot before, so it's kind of a shocker.
-the moss containers are back to normal (a few weeks ago i put some nuts and fruits in there for a a snack, but it turned out to mold quickly and all my creatures went into hiding, even after i cleaned it up. but they're out and about again, looking healthy)

sigh. anyway. so i've got some burying, cleaning, and feeding to do here. on the plus side, the lawn needs to be mowed. what? yeah. plus side. i've never been happy about having to mow the lawn before, but that freaking human-powered push-mower makes a happy creature of me.

EDIT: i just remembered what i thought yesterday as i left the Pittsburgh: i really don't like cities. it was fun, and fine. but it was really stressful having to dodge cars and the city-smells and no green. i'm going outside now D:< (i do wish i caught that cockroach, though. is it weird that to me the common american cockroach seems exotic?)

last entry, i swear.

i'm pumped. listening to Le Sacre du Printemps... a 34 minute long orchestral piece by Igor Stravinksy and it makes me want to explode. i cannot WAIT to be at AC. i cannot wait to daaaaance (i generally suck at dancing and thus don't enjoy it, but something about the Anthrocon crowd makes it fun)i just.... i just want to explode, really. really that's... all i want.

i hope i'm packing the right amount of things. i am pissed cause i can't find the badge-clips i bought :/ so now all the badges i made are pretty much not really badges?? D:< i have to look more.

BUT I DON'T EVEN CARE because i have inspirational orchestra music on and ...it makes me want to explode with happy. . .

i can't believe it's only 12:28. i like how the construction asshats worked from 7-8 really loudly, so that it'd wake everyone up, and then stopped (or at least became queiter). only after i was too awake to sleep, though. ANYWAY HAPPY?!

OH GOD i found my old tail and put it on and hot dog does it feel good! i feel a bit ashamed to say it, but still. the weight of a tail and the sway of it just feels so dang -right-.... suddenly i'm dancing to my music and can't stop smiling... i guess that makes me a furfag?? D:> D:> CRAP

so i stayed up till 4:30 making ready for AC, right?
yah well they're out tearing up the roads at 7 :D

so i'm left wondering why it's so hard to look up the history of the word 'dumb' on the interweb. it's like nobody takes that word seriously. i occurred to me somewhere in last night's delirium that in the past when they called things 'dumb animals', it doesn't necessarily refer to them being 'stupid', as we use the word now, but in the past it just meant, 'inability to speak'...??

anyway. being awake this early made me take the time to google it and i can't find anything because people are freaking ridiculous with their slang words :/

i've been listening to Louis L'Amour on audio book (and 'watching' Bite the Bullet, too) while i work. it wasn't a completely random observation.