| Leaving soon.. |
[Aug. 4th, 2008|06:59 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Melbourne | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  content | ] |
Well, I have booked my ticket and if all goes well then I will be flying out of oz in three weeks to embrace the land of USA. After all these years I am finally, truly, going home. It was a long hard decision but in the end I had to make it. You get to a point in your life where you need to make a change and a drastic one at that. Seeing as the last time I made one of those changes it was 11 years ago to come to Australia. It's quite unusual for me to be in any place for a very long stretch of time and although I have longed to stay put it seems that it's in my blood to move every now and then. I'm hoping that I will find something that will make me feel at home when I get there and that shouldn't be too hard as my sister is already there and eagerly waiting for me to arrive.
I will definitely miss being in Melbourne and everyone who have become a part of my life, but I know it won't be that last time. I don't think I will ever lose that little aussie bit that's been instilled in me by all my friends. |
|
|
| the end of something |
[Apr. 26th, 2008|03:12 pm] |
After six years, I end up with empty and broken promises. Getting your heart ripped out and thrown at you wasn't something I expected. We made plans, we were going to build a life together and face the future as partners. Don't ask me what happened because I don't really know but I suspect that there's probably someone else in the picture.
Six years and all it takes is a few months apart to make it all come crumbling down. I thought we were stronger than that. I thought he was stronger than that. Maybe I missed something along the way. I start to question if any bit of it was real, if any of it was true. All the 'I love you', 'I'll look after you', 'I'll never leave you for someone else', 'You're the only one for me', well there you have it. None of it was true was it? I wonder if I was the only one who was actually committed to the relationship. Maybe I over committed, maybe I should have said no to him moving to another state and having to be apart for a while until I could follow him.
There are so many 'what if....?' running through my head and I wonder if I had done things differently would it have lead down the same road, or it would probably postpone the inevitable. If it has to end, it has to end but I need to know why. I need an explanation. I need closure so I can start moving on with my life. Start picking up the pieces and put myself back together.
I have my good days (which is an over statement) and my bad days. I hope this all passes soon. I don't like crying and I don't like how all of this makes me feel. I'm told that it'll take me a couple of months to get over it and then things will get better for me. I wish it was faster and less painful. At least I know that I know how to love someone. This experience can only make me stronger. It's a first love and I'm sure there'll be others, so I'm told by people who are wiser and have a clearer picture of the world than I do right now. I'm still young and there's so much I want to do. Maybe this is just what I need to get myself back onto the right track and move forward. There's so much I still want to achieve.
I'm grateful that I have such wonderful friends. I thank you all for being there for me in this crazy time that I have to get through and I love you all. |
|
|
| I'm a Care Bear |
[Apr. 13th, 2008|08:54 pm] |
|
|
|
|
| Change in life |
[Oct. 23rd, 2007|10:31 am] |
|
For all those I haven't seen in a while, I have recently gotten engaged to my lovely partner of six years earlier this month. |
|
|
| update on life |
[Jul. 21st, 2007|11:04 am] |
this past six months i've being studying my second master's degree, doing an MBA. it's quite awesome really. things you never new and finances. anyway i've got about another year until i graduate (again). i've decide to do the rest of my studies part time. i'm getting to the point where i've had enough, but i'm sure this won't be my last degree yet. i still have a couple of other things that i want to study, but that will have to be at a later time.
i finally got my PR for Australia, yay! got it last monday. i'm very happy. everyone keeps asking why i don't just go back and live in the States, but this place has pretty much become home for me. plus my sister can hold down the fort for me over there.
Bryan has gone to Hawaii for a week with his parents. so i've had week of 'me time'. although he's had sunshine and warm days compared to the rain and cold wind we've been having all week.
we went to see the Pixar gallery last saturday. it was quite nice.
very_neant and wisecracker are putting on a play for the Melbourne fringe festival. it's called Month of Sundays. i've read it, its quite good. i'm helping them with designing the poster, which is quite fun.
going to go to Thailand in december to visit mom. haven't seen her in a while. she's just finished getting the new house built. it'll be nice to get back for a while.
other than that, it's all work and study for the time being. |
|
|
| end of another semester |
[May. 26th, 2007|07:14 pm] |
handed in last to assignments today.
feels great.
got time now to finish off my games, books and every else i need to do.
yippy! |
|
|
| indeed... |
[May. 10th, 2007|03:38 pm] |
|
|
|
| dead tired |
[Apr. 23rd, 2007|08:38 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  exhausted | ] |
no sleep
and no rest
makes jacky go something...something..... |
|
|
| .... |
[Apr. 14th, 2007|07:35 pm] |
I want to see Pan's Labyrinth...
but it's gone now.....
;_; |
|
|
| ooohhhhhhmmmmm |
[Mar. 27th, 2007|03:12 pm] |
I have a freaken' PS3!!
yeah! |
|
|
| arts and spades |
[Mar. 22nd, 2007|09:50 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | mathematical | ] |
| [ | music |
| | All by myself (spanish version) | ] |
ok so it's been ages since i've done any art.
i need to draw. it's been a long while since i last drew anything.
i use to do it all the time at school, but since i've joined the outside world i haven't done as much as i would have liked. i guess it was a means of escape back then...
also i have uni and work, which take up the majority of my time. i feel like i'm losing my creativity. i have so many art books laying around and they're all half full. i remember having to get a new book every couple of months and it's been years since i last bought one.
therefore i have decided on a plan of attack.
*i am going to make it a mission to draw something at least every two weeks* (pause for effect)
..... and if i don't, someone can hit me over the head with a giant spade. |
|
|
| happy happy joy joy |
[Mar. 8th, 2007|03:53 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | happy | ] |
i have a new job! yes i do!
i have a new job! 2 new jobs!
:D |
|
|
| .... |
[Feb. 21st, 2007|04:33 pm] |
|
i hate my job. |
|
|
| alive... i still am |
[Feb. 11th, 2007|10:35 am] |
still waiting for PR news.....
waiting...
waiting...
ever only waiting...
seeing life being wasted away...
*sigh*
HURRY THE &*^%$ UP PEOPLE!!!! |
|
|
| Just because |
[Jan. 3rd, 2007|10:54 pm] |
On the twelfth day of Christmas,  0_nitewolf_0 sent to me... Twelve sassy_mc_sass drumming Eleven quizgalaxys piping Ten dvds a-sailing Nine dogs camping Eight movies a-hiking Seven cartoons a-snorkeling Six games a-fishing Five bo-o-o-ooks Four mushrooms Three gummy bears Two reeses pieces ...and an ocean in a fantasy. |
|
|
| step one.... complete!!!!! |
[Dec. 17th, 2006|06:16 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | excited | ] |
i got my skill assessment!!!
YES!!!!
now for step two:
apply for residency.
best christmas present ever!!!
awesome!!
must celebrate!!
can't stop smiling from ear to ear!!!
*does a little dance* |
|
|
| he he he |
[Dec. 14th, 2006|09:19 am] |
|
|
|
|
| nervous wreck |
[Nov. 4th, 2006|12:28 pm] |
sent of my first documents for my residency.
so stressed and nervous and every other evil feeling there is...
i hope i get this.
have to wait at least a month before i find out anything.
praying and hoping that i get this.
please, please, please..... |
|
|
| Graduation!! |
[Oct. 30th, 2006|11:30 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | earth | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | happy | ] |
i'm a masta now!!! woot!
 |
|
|
| ...yes..... |
[Oct. 23rd, 2006|07:59 pm] |
|
|
|
|
![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
0_nitewolf_0's journal
