| May. 16th, 2005 @ 08:29 am Last Day (Part Two) |
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(continued from here)
"Just...just one thing." Now that he's at this point, Jake's not sure he can finish. But he owes it to Josh. So he shifts, takes Josh's hand and slides it down until Josh's fingers are brushing the inside of his right thigh, high up near his groin. There's a small patch of skin there, scarred, almost a perfect circle, no bigger than a dime. "I remember hitting him the first time, then nothing 'til I came around in the ER with a blanket wrapped around me, trying to figure out why my hands hurt so bad," he says quietly, not quite meeting Josh's eyes. "I just...I don't want to talk about him anymore right now, okay?"
Josh's throat works as he swallows, gently strokes the scar. Just small enough to be a cigarette burn.
Fuck.
He pulls Jake closer, placing a soft kiss to Jake's forehead. His voice, however, is laced with steel, and his eyes remain focused on Jake's. "You can't do this to me, Jake. You can't just drop this...what you did to each other...on me and expect me to let it slide. Doesn't work like that. Okay?"
Should've known he'd get this reaction. Part of Jake feels sorry for Hayden when Josh finally catches up to him. But he just looks down, nods. "What else do you want to know?"
"What else is there?" Josh asks. "He do anything else to you? You do anything else to him?"
"Nothing else," Jake replies, voice dull, fingers still where they rest on Josh's chest. "We argued a lot while I was with him, but nothing physical. Not until that night. We were in bed, and he was… Anyway, I told him I didn't want to, and he...did that, and I lost it. I know I beat him, but...I didn't know how bad until a lot later."
"I'm sorry, man." He's been saying it a lot lately. Too much. But it's not enough.
"Not your fault." Jake glances up, then back down. He hates it when Josh apologizes. "I let a lot of shit happen, and I knew better. You taught me better."
"Yeah, I did." Josh lets his cheek rest against Jake's hair. "But, sometimes we do stupid shit anyway. Important thing is that it's over. He won't touch you again." Mine, Josh thinks savagely. And he'll be reminded of that soon enough.
"He's gonna be in L.A. for a while," Jake says, then instantly regrets the words. Fuck. Why the hell'd you have to go and say that?
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