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this will be scattered.
dear sir:
i dont see how i could be more clear. i told you a thousand and one times that i was uncomfortable with you pursuing me. i am 19 and you are 29, married (but "seperated) with a child. the fact that this was online makes this even creepier to me, since you took things so far knowing i was uncomfortable with the situation. the fact that you talked very seriously over and over again of us meeting when i told you i was uncomfortable with your advances makes this even creepier. the fact that you knew this all made me uncomfortable, but still did it after putting yourself in a "supportive friend" position, KNOWING i had no one else at the time and knowing i was struggling with a very hard time in my life, makes you an absolute asshole. and it doesnt help that through everything, at key moments, you would ignore what i said and fill my mouth with words and portray me as this cute, childlike little creature, naive and innocent, that was just waiting to dote on you. you wanted a toy. thats a whole other rant, but fuck you for messing with me when i was at such a low, and fuck you for trying to ignore everything about who i am so you could build me into your fucking dream of what a sweet little girl should be. ASIDE from how pervy and creepy that is, its fucking bullshit. and you did it too many times for me to be making something of nothing.
i flat out told you (and you later found my online journal and saw my entries detailing) that your behavior toward me caused severe daily panic attacks and made me very suicidal, made me hate myself, made me lay in bed imagining abstract ways to harm myself. but even without reading it in my journal, i told you this. SEVERAL times. i thought you understood because you stopped talking to me and left me alone. i was feeling better.
so WHY, you fucking piece of shit, did i just get a phonecall from my cousin asking why she had a box of godiva chocolates with her address but my name, with an UNSIGNED NOTE? WHY THE FUCK did you think it was alright to find her brother, ask him for my mailing address, then use his when he said he wasnt comfortable giving that information? you FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT. i TOLD YOU i was uncomfortable with the age and power dynamics and that you made me fucking suicidal when you acted the way you did. and you respond to this by sending CHOCOLATES? anonymously?! with a cryptic note giving only enough information to let me know it was someone i know online?
FUCK. YOU. and fuck all the people who think its silly that im curled up in my room crying and shaking, terrified that this creep knows the address of people 5 miles away from me.
sincerely NOT yours and never fucking will be you piece of shit,
me.
ps: you dont "surprise" people with gifts when as far as they know, you don't know their address, and you only know them online and live in another country, and know they've had trouble with sexual harassment online and you're included in their list of ASSHOLES. have you HEARD of "stalking"? cause you're fucking doing it. BACK. OFF.
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