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[31 Aug 2008|10:46am] |
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lovely, i get to spend my extended weekend halfway miserable with a sore throat. what started out yesterday morning as a barely noticeable tickle in the back of my throat, evolved into a full-fledged sore throat by the evening. it's "better" today in the sense it's not so much completely painful as it is annoying and really scratchy.
after the last few pretty decent days i've been having, i figured something would come up to ruin things for me right when i was somewhat getting out of my funk. i don't care what anyone else says or believes, i believe there is some vague sense of balance in this world. it's not necessarily major or any kind of punishment, just a case of "shit happens"; something to keep things in check and remind you to appreciate the good things.
for all those annoying optimists who just say "oh well!", i'm sorry, but it's kinda hard to be in any kind of good mood when you just want to rip your throat and nasal passages out--unless i can beat said optimists with them...
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| free food is win |
[29 Aug 2008|08:51am] |
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man, i totally rock at this winning free things. first the buffett tickets, now a $50 gift certificate for a japanese restaurant i liked. here i come again, kamehachi!
kamehachi (old town location)
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| linguine love |
[23 Aug 2008|03:06pm] |
lemon linguine with spinach and crispy prosciutto
linguine in a light sauce of lemon juice and olive oil. tossed with chopped tomatoes, onions, garlic, prosciutto, and wilted baby spinach. garnished with grated mozzarella cheese instead of parmesan.
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| on the road again |
[15 Aug 2008|08:03pm] |
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so. it's 8pm and i'm still not out of peoria.
the car's pretty much got as much as it can possibly hold so now i have to figure out how to fit my computer, jrock mags, and a few other random things in. i didn't think i had that much left to get rid of, but well, i've pretty much filled the emptied dumpster out front.
still need to quickly vacuum but i may forgo trying to clean much more than that because i just don't care anymore. i'm tired, achy, and haven't eaten yet; will have to stop at taco bell on the way home because that's my only option right now.
it hasn't sunk in yet that i'm done here. so very weird walking out of work today knowing that would be the last time i'd ever walk out of there. i can only hope people keep in touch, especially those that somehow also wind up in chicago some day. i think i'm just too tired and ornery right now to care that i'm leaving...
but i do need to start hauling the comp stuff out so this is me signing off.
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| not looking for salvation, just a salty piece of land |
[10 Aug 2008|07:34pm] |
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i can't decide if there's something depressing or satisfying knowing that everything you own can be crammed into a car and a truck.
a good chunk of my stuff was loaded into my parents' truck yesterday so they could take it home for me to sort through this friday before we go to chicago saturday. a bookbag full of design books and my ps2 went to chicago with david. threw a couple more things into the car to take to work tomorrow and give to people that wanted them. probably need to throw more stuff out, particularly from the kitchen area. i've still got some work cut out for me, but there's just not much left.
otherwise, all i have left to entertain myself is the computer and some books. if my tv wasn't so big and clunky, i would've had them leave it so i'd have it for the rest of the week. unfortunately it's too heavy for me to carry clear out to the car by myself so it had to go. with that gone, that also means no video games or movies. and with no furniture left, my desktop computer is sitting on the floor in the space where the desk used to be; feels like years ago when i'd spend hours laying on the floor working on my laptop during the summer.
all things considered, though, it's strangely kind of nice laying here on the floor with the breeze coming in through the windows. the floor's filthy, but oh well--it's just kind of nice to have so little cluttering up my space.
i still worry how badly this week is going to go for me. the reality of it all set in days ago, but that doesn't make things any better. if anything, i'm really going to miss the people i worked with. maybe it's my fault for getting so attached, but i figured i should probably play nice since i'd be here for awhile--who knew i actually wouldn't. sure my attachment means my time here was worthwhile, but that doesn't make it any easier. it also doesn't help to know that when i'm gone, things will go on as usual without me--i highly doubt much of anybody is going to care that much that i've left. i'm just another casualty of the impending buyout, but at least i'm leaving of my own accord.
i'm really afraid of how i'm going to react friday. i know me and i know i'm a softy--i pray i don't break down into tears and look like the wuss i am. it's just work, people constantly move from job to job. yeah, of course i'll get people's home and email addresses in an attempt to stay in contact, but i get the feeling it's just one of those niceties everybody does and doesn't necessarily stick to. as time goes by, i wouldn't be surprised if contact ceases between me and coworkers who mutually agreed to keep in touch. such is life, i guess...
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| cleaning out the fridge |
[06 Aug 2008|06:12pm] |
mix plate #2
leftover chicken, tomato, and zucchini stirfry from mom; i added onions and soy sauce.
scrambled egg with bacon and sweet bing cherries.
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| yay for box mixes! |
[04 Aug 2008|06:40pm] |
sesame teriyaki noodles
noodles and peas, carrots, and onions in a sesame teriyaki sauce.
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| feel the burn |
[03 Aug 2008|10:24pm] |
yellow curry soup
rice noodles, broccoli, onions, garlic, and cilantro in a broth made from yellow curry paste, coconut water, and milk.
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| this year gone by ain't been a piece of cake |
[01 Aug 2008|09:57am] |
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time for my recent tradition of listening to "trip around the sun". perfect birthday song and, no matter when i hear it, always brings tears to my eyes. but what a ride this year's been. as much as i've looked forward to eventually moving to chicago, now that it's a reality as of yesterday, i'm finding it hard to process. it's going to be a very overwhelming change and i have no doubt i'm not going to take it well at first. i'm going to miss my coworkers a lot and an area i finally got familiar with. if any other place felt vaguely like "home" to me, it was here.
and earlier this morning i heard what i believe to be a kitten mewling outside my office window. jerome heard it as well so at least it's not me going insane. what few maternal instincts i have kicked in and i really want to go out there and see what's hiding in the bushes. i've heard of cats having kittens in the bushes here, but if the grounds people can catch them they apparently get rid of them (don't remember if this means they take them to the shelter, but i'm pretty sure that's not what i heard). i know there's too many stray cats around, but i just want to go out there and round them all up and take them home. i want to at least try to save the few i come across rather than having somebody kill (shelter or otherwise) them because of overpopulation. funny how that all works, though, i could care less about babies, but show me a helpless kitten and i turn to goo.
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| "you mean you don't know the difference between the internet and our website...?" |
[30 Jul 2008|02:19pm] |
oh man, this was hilarious. it's a bit long (10 mins), but worth the watch.
the website is down
sales guy vs. web dude
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| what's sad is that this is so true... |
[28 Jul 2008|10:21pm] |
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| branching out |
[28 Jul 2008|06:37pm] |
noodles with pork & vegetables
somen noodles with pork, cabbage, carrot, and garlic. in a sauce of soy sauce, honey, and a little water.
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| Writer's Block: Phobias |
[24 Jul 2008|09:43am] |
do you have a remarkable phobia? does your phobia have a large impact on your life?
my three primary phobias are as follows:
1. fish. my strangest phobia that i didn't realize until a few years ago when i was in a pet shop. i always knew i hated fish--those creepy unblinking eyes, how they float when they die, etc... it's why i made a point to never keep them as pets. i'm fine in aquariums, especially when there's other people around, but being surrounded by fish tanks in the narrow aisles of pet stores almost brings me to tears. i've just learned never to go down these aisles--not a problem since i have no need to go down them in the first place.
2. heights. another weird one in that there's specific instances when it will kick in and it's just gotten worse with age. i'm fine in planes, roller coasters, and tall buildings. i'm fine with heights when in enclosed spaces, with the exception of the roller coaster thing (don't ask, i can't explain that one). looking over railings or out windows (open or closed) that are up high (3+ floors) scares the hell out of me. i have to stand a few feet back and/or cling to something for dear life out of irrational fear of potentially falling.
3. serious illness/doctors. this fear has basically turned me into a hypochondriac. what started years ago as being a germaphobe, has just gotten worse as i've aged. every headache could be the start of a deadly stroke. that strained muscle in my chest could be the sign of a heart attack. that time my chest hurt and i was afraid i had pneumonia or lung cancer--seasonal asthma. that lump on my neck? swollen gland.
i'm way too conscious about my body and every time something is just the teeniest out of whack i think the worst. sometimes it's almost crippling worrying about such things, but i can't stop it. once the thoughts are planted in my head, it can take days to get them down to a manageable level that doesn't interfere with my basic daily habits. i can't read/hear about anything medically related--even if it's something as outlandish as mad cow disease or flesh-eating bacteria--because i'll file away all the little symptoms for somewhere down the line when i think i've got them.
i'm terrified of doctors and the thought of being poked and prodded and whatever else they can come up with. just the thought of a needle having to be used on me turns me into crying child. i can't even visit other people in the hospital because i get light-headed, especially if i have to see an iv being messed with.
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| out with the old |
[20 Jul 2008|07:58pm] |
i got into a really productive mood after my parents left tonight. i took the garbage out, sorted through a crap-load of candy to get rid of, chopped up a big bag of carrots and some green and yellow zucchinis to freeze before they go bad, and finally went through the clothing in my closet.
i kept telling myself i needed to start getting rid of a lot of my shirts as i knew many were old and ratty and/or just didn't fit right. taking a "no mercy" approach--if a shirt had holes in it, was too small, too big and frumpy and/or just plain ugly--i tossed it. got rid of 30 shirts which pretty much filled a garbage bag. pretty damn good considering i got 2 new work shirts today while out shopping with the parents. like they say, if you're going to buy something new, you should throw out something old--or 30 somethings...
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| fighting a losing battle of the sexes |
[20 Jul 2008|10:43am] |
5 dates she'll hate
silly men, thinking you've got women all figured out--you really don't.
as many of the commenters pointed out, there are many females who *gasp* actually do like these things--myself included. unlike most of those people who commented, though, i'd be up for all 5, not just a couple of them.
makes me wonder why people write this kind of drivel. both genders are never going to figure the other out so quit trying to--you're just making things more difficult for yourself. it's articles like this that remind me that reading material i come across, on the net in particular, doesn't necessarily apply to my own life in any way at all.
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| i didn't have hamburger so i just had "helper" |
[17 Jul 2008|06:36pm] |
confetti mac
box of hamburger helper's cheeseburger macaroni (sans meat), onion, peas, can of diced tomatoes, ketchup, chopped garlic and ground pepper.
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| it must be a decepticon because it's an evil transformer |
[17 Jul 2008|09:18am] |
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i like how japan itself is seemingly making sure i don't like things from it anymore. first it was anime i could care less about, especially when everything new was boring, ugly and vapid. then it was jrock with the carbon-copy bands, obnoxious fangirls and the ends of my favorite bands. excluding b'z, now all i have are mediocre examples i have little to no enthusiasm for anymore. and now one of my two favorite manga artists has ceased activity due to plagiarism issues. graaah--this is why i'm not allowed to have decent hobbies... XP
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| yayness! |
[11 Jul 2008|02:06pm] |
after an episode of deadliest catch, back in june, i again tried submitting a question to one of the weekly chats with crew members. my question finally got through--and answered by one of the captains! it's the little things like this that make me really happy sometimes. ^^
live chat with andy hillstrand (june 10, 2008)
D Cal: I'm sure you've probably heard this question numerous times, but I was wondering why cameras or similar technology isn't used in finding crab?
Andy Hillstrand: We actually had an underwater camera built that we used to find the crab. But with quotas, you don't need them any more.
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| tastes better than it looks |
[08 Jul 2008|05:34pm] |
when all else fails, throw together whatever you've got in a frying pan. pasta leftover from mac & cheese i made yesterday; i set aside some plain macaroni since i never eat all the mac & cheese anyways. stir-fried vegetables left over from dinner last night and little container of mcdonald's sweet & sour sauce from lunch two weeks ago.
leftover remix
macaroni, zucchini, wax beans, onions, soy sauce, mcdonald's sweet & sour sauce, and chili powder.
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