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I just finished day 4 of ABC and I only had 250/400 calories and I'm really happy about that! The only problem that I'm having is working out. I recently had hip surgery and I'm on crutches. My doctor says that I'm allowed to swim once my stitches have healed but that is going to take one or two weeks and I reallyyyy want to start exercising ASAP!!! If anyone knows so exercises I can do without straining my hip I would really appreciate the input.
By the way, I want you all to know that reading your posts have inspired me sooo much and they are what kept me from binging when I was fasting and now they are helping me with my ABC. You guys are the best!!!
Stay strong girls and boys! Soon we will all be thin, its just going to take some work!!
-Kelly
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[12 Oct 2008|09:07pm] |
Tomorrow is self control day. Nothing is fucking it up =]
I'm not going to be a fat fuck anymOre. I want to do something for myself and that is it. ily all.
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[12 Oct 2008|07:34pm] |
okay so I like binged BIGG TIME; 800 calories big time O:
but luckily i purged like 750 cals.. i just couldnt keep it down!
i had:
2 diff cereals
WHOLE MILK! o.o
eggs, yolk and all!!
LOTS of breaddd
& then i drank water so it can all come up easy
so basically I had 80+ cals today
eh :/
( Jeffree Star I Freakin Love Yew )
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Hi :)
I've just joined and I am in dire need of help....I've been binging...a lot...and I've gone up to 115lbs..I feel so disgusting and I just broke my scale after I saw my weight...I am having so much trouble fasting...I can't seem to handle it anymore. What's worse is that my boyfriend is always around and always gets suspicious when I don't eat...I don't know what to do...any tips?
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[12 Oct 2008|07:44pm] |
Hi, im not really new here but this is my first post, hope everyone is well.
im starting up my own group on msn groups, this way i can keep myself motivated even more to get myself to my goal weight as in the past ive never made it, this way i can have a chat room, and lots of discussion
ive only just started it in the past couple of hours so, so far i dont have much on their or any members, i was wondering if anyone would like to join and if so just click the link below.
at the moment im using weightless dolls
good luck girls/boys i hope your all well.
http://groups.msn.com/AnaMia
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[12 Oct 2008|02:58pm] |
hey lovelies :) everyone who's got an ed myspace, i just set up a new one after deleting my old one to 'recover' so i'm looking for lots of new friends! <3
my myspace is www.myspace.com/dyingtobefree_ed
all adds will be much appreciated
take care all !
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[11 Oct 2008|11:38pm] |
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I ate sushi tonight with my best friend
and then got rid of it in the bathroom gas station.
I don't want to have to do that at all for the rest of october.
I'm going to work extra hard these next couple weeks, I have to do whatever it takes.
I hope you guys are all doing good and staying positive.
Do not doubt yourselves at all, you can do anything.
you just need to keep believing in yourself.
keep your eyes on the prize, on the things that you want.
surround yourself with the things you love.
listen to the music that YOU love.
be with people that make you laugh.
Feel determined and Strong.
Keep in mind that you are you.
nobody else is you. and you are the best at it.
If you want to get thinner, do it.
cause you are you. and you are the best.
<3
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I took hydroxycut and It worked well for me for a while but I feel like they are loosin there effect so maybe I need to swich to something else
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[11 Oct 2008|06:36pm] |
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I have been trying to fast for the past couple days, but by around 8pm or so I start binging!! and I HAVE to eat, it's soo annoying! It's like I no longer have the mental strength to force myself not to! Then I think I have been taking my frustrations out on my family, I have been so mean and annoyed with everything...I feel really bad. But, it's like I can't even help it. I can't understand how people could just eat, and eat , and eat, and be totally happy? I just wanna be thin, and it is soo hard!
Urgh...I am having a moment of weakness, but I guess tomorrow is a new day. Unfortunetly, it's Columbus day, so my Italian family will make lots and lots of food, and expect me to eat...maybe I could pretend to be very sick...
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[11 Oct 2008|02:42pm] |
***Haven't been on for a couple days. I missed ya! I was doing good. I lost 1.6 lbs in 1 day. And the next day I GAINED 2.4 LBS!!! How did this happen? So it was a binge day- had around 1300 calories. BUT THAT DOESN'T ADD UP TO 2.4 POUNDS. MY FREAKING BMR IS 1400! I should have at least kept the same weight! It doesn't make sense...help!? :-(
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[11 Oct 2008|03:07pm] |
hey girls, :) im new here so here's a bit about me:
my names emily, im 17 from the uk, im a dancer and have an amazing girlfriend, i hav been eating disordered for over 4 years and i am here to make friends and just to be somewhere where people understand what im going through :) my current stats (i know they're disgusting)
h: 5'7''
cw: 125
lw: 114
hw: 129
gw: 112
gw1: 98
gw2: 84
i havent been diagnosed but i think i'm ednos, im quite confused i have ana and a few mia traits but i seem to have monthly cycles on and off, does anyone else have these? i know i'm weak not to be strict ana but i dont know whats wrong with me.
hope you're all well and if anyone wants to talk to me i'll be more than happy
have a good weekend anyway and stay strong xxxxxxx
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hey does anyone else here live in halls?
cause all the people i live with are always getting pizza, fish and chips and other take aways and it is so hard not to eat them
not eating today any way, but this is my first fast in like 6 months so whenever i feel i'm going to eat i will be writing on this, just so you no, i'm gonna be very annoying for the next few days
sorry about that
much love xoxoxox
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[11 Oct 2008|02:20pm] |
back finally...
yeah so im back my computer wouldnt let me on it was so gay having no internet for 3 weeks missed everyone here lots im about the same weight wise 130 but my grandfather is here for a week so eating is a must grr but as soon as he leaves i will be fasting so much to lose everything i want and more hopefully
how are all you lovelies??
love me xx
x posted sorry if you get doubles
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[10 Oct 2008|10:58pm] |
So today I ate a little more than I wanted to =/ Ugh. I had 2 bananas (210 c), an apple (50c), some turkey (100c), 2 iced coffees w/ skim milk & splend (100c?) and a huge chicken dinner at an Italian restaraunt =/ BUT i was good and didn't eat any pasta!! So yay. So altogether it's like 800 - 900 calories? Ugh. What the fuckk. Oh well, I'll just eat less and work out tomorrow.. It could've been worse, I could've eaten a shitload of pasta haha!
How'd everyone's day go?
xxxo
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[10 Oct 2008|10:45pm] |
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i gained 6 pounds becasue i was sick
in the past couple days.
I usually lose a lottt when im sick, but for some strange reason it was the opposite even though i ate from 500-like 100 calories.
so i have nooo ideaa why this is happening
i was 114
now im 119-120
its sooo aggrivating
and depressing
gahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!
i want to be THIN and ANOREXIC!!!! Why is that so hard?! why!! i want to be THIN!!!
its lovely
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[10 Oct 2008|02:08pm] |
I am 101.5 lbs. It is not the lowest I have ever been. Right now it feels like the biggest. I feel huge today, I have all week. I'm off my medication because I left it at my parents house after I visited them. I'm in a different state, so unless they mail it, I have to wait.
101.5 lbs. I wish it was less. Yesterday I was 102, so I've really only lost half a pound, but still, I'm almost back down to my lw, (and then beyond). I ate disgustingly yesterday, I am so ashamed of myself. I think being off of my medication is messing with my appetite. I started my week long liquid fast today. And I am going to heavily restrict until after Halloween, then liquid fast again, then restrict until Thanksgiving. I am going to be 95 by Christmas. Easily doable.
I want a pen-pal or email buddy or something, not for support or encouragement (I don't need any), for just for the companionship. I want someone to talk to who understand what I mean when I say I love the buzzy feeling I get when I don't eat for a week, and someone who covets the thin thin legs of other girls as much as I do.
I think because I am an artist, I find thinness more aesthetically pleasing than voluptuousness. The thin and angular lines, and minimal look are so much more appealing to me. I think I appreciate the use of space and symmetry more.
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[10 Oct 2008|06:00pm] |
im sorry too post again but i have to go in like 10 minutes for supper with friends... and i have to eat either pasta or pizza and i am so stuck on what to have :( help!!! sorry for not whiting out
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I have to leave my house in about 2.3 seconds
BUT..today I weigh 159.6
SW- 168.8
you wouldnt believe how weird i feel to see the five there.
it's beyond nice to realize i can do this
Thankkks for all of your support
i love you guys
stay healthy and happy today!
good moods. just try to keep good moods.
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hey guys sorry i haven't posted in like forever but i've been really busy with uni and such like things.
I have a question, do you think i should start fasting tomorrow, which is a saturday so it will be hard or on monday?
i'm really not sure which one i would succeed better at, i think monday but if i start tomorrow then the weekend is already out of the way
talk to you all later
xoxox
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[10 Oct 2008|10:18am] |
hey sweeties, i'm momo. I'm new to this comm and just needed some support and thinspo.
already on my water and gum fast. i'm feeling ok and my engery is kinda up.
my only problem is i can't seem to motivate myself to actually exercise.
i wish i had money then i'd totally buy a treadmill for home. and gyms are out of the question cause i'll see all the pretty girls and it'll just trigger me in the wrong ways.
any ladies have any ideas??
-momo
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